Presenting to you ZheJiang July'08:

On 14th June... out on netballuxion!
Me!
with annette...
Merina...
Li Ling looks really scared of me...
me again!

spastic!
cik siti was totally deaf to my words that I need to scream at her.. HAHA!
US!
Shi Jie: what?
George.. I am thinking of.......

alicia and michelle..
valerie (hahaha!) and shi jie..
nette.. me.. and cik siti..
again.. =D
and the guys..

Long time ago...
Having some discussion.. and feeling sleepy..
Hi, camera!

I really don't know what's wrong. For all that I know, I am not myself with the team. I do not feel like interacting neither open up myself. I just feel so weird to be in there. So weird. But I really dont know why am I like this. Is it because I am not making an effort to open up? I don't know. *SIGH*

My blog is 3 years old already. Amazing. The blog has contained so much so much stories, be it happy stories or sad stories. I see the mature of myself while reading through the past entries. From writing from a small girl's point of view to writing from differnt angles, i see the growth of myself. Coming such a long way, everyone has made who I am today. Thanks! Without you guys, I would not be who I am today. Once again, thanks!

Yesterday was a pleasant day. I enjoyed all the lessons. I loved the ZheJiang sharing session in the evening. Thanks teachers and Dominic for coordinating the session!

Today was not that pleasant. But, nevermind, life gets better!

Saturday - went for prize giving day at hillgrove. haha! Sam asked me to thank him for getting Best All Round Student. Thanks Sam! haha! ok la.. he did indeed help me a lot through out my years in hillgrove. Thanks Sam! After the ceremony, caught up with many people. It is a very nice feeling to catch up with one another. Then, went to Kallang with the juniors for Pesta Sukan. Not exactly a good day for them. At night, went to have dinner with Marianne and her parents. Then went home.

Today - the training is kind of disappointing. I didn't like it at all.

Where am I going? What do I truly want?

Sorry Mum.. I am very sorry.
Sorry Mdm Tay..
Sorry Miss Siti..

I really don't know what I want now. Strive in academic result only? Strive in netball only? And are they enough?

Why am I doing them? for the sake of doing? or because I love them?

I am starting to lose myself again in this wonderland...

Come on people.. This is really nothing. And honestly, you can make the choice you want.. continue to be lazy and complain and have your skill level at such a horrible standard and lose every game that you play OR stop complaining and work hard. It is up to you. Honestly, the vigorous level right now is nothing! So what there's muscle ache? Sometimes, I really just want to tell you, stop playing netball if you are not interested in improving yourselves. Just get out of the court.

*SIGH*

Having a lot of emotions within me right now. I feel sad over some issues. I feel angry over some work. I feel irritated over some people. I feel guilty over some happening. I feel glad for myself.

There's just so much so much of emotions....

So much so much thoughts to pen down But i just don't know how to express it... *sigh*

- A BIG THANKS to Mr CHOO!!
- A BIG THANKS to ALL THE TEACHERS!
- siiannnn.. I failed 2 tests!
-Jia you! We can pull through!
- I LOVE ZHEJIANG!
- I miss LI Shui Students!
- I miss Qiu Shi Students!!

No one can help you if you insist that you are right........

I think a lot of things hit me. I have not been able to control myself over the week. I have been really tired. I slept for only 3 to 4 hours everyday just to keep up with the paste of life in school. There are really really a lot of things to handle.

Certain things in life seem to be fading away, especially friendship. I hadn't had the time to talk to my friends, not mentioning gathering. Worst of all, time has pulled us apart. I am no longer talking that much to Marianne. I no longer talk on phone with Li Ling. I miss those good old times. Those time in hillgrove talking to Marianne gossiping about James (Ha! Now you know! LOL!). Those time on phone crapping away with Li Ling.

I miss Hillgrove badly, especially the classroom. It feels really good to have time to be around with the class.

时间能让人培养感情，但时间也能让人忘记彼此。。。

Thanks Aubrey... I will try!

Life has been bad. Trust me, I mean horrible. I am on the verge of losing my faith towards certain things. I am on the verge of giving up that last hope.

I have not regain the faith neither have I give up the idea of giving up. But, I have learnt a few important lessons about life over the past few days and I would like to share.

"All that it matters is that you have tried your best."
"Everyone may not have faith with you but you will still succeed as long as you have faith in yourself."
"I am who I am for who I am."
"You need to know what's good to know what's bad."

Sam, Thanks a lot!

突然，觉得好累好累。。。

很想好好的休息，好好的休息，但环境却不允许。我好想好好地把自己充电一番再出发。我的觉得很烦恼，很无奈。好想痛哭一番，把所有的烦恼都抛到九霄云外。我真的好想好想好想。。。。。。

有时还真得很想放弃。。。

So much so much things came across my mind today.

In the morning, something hilarious happened. hahaha! Wai Tsz made me laughed!! And hey, self-reflection please (for myself)... Also my friend sent a message to me.. and I felt kind of lost about it.

Things were kind of screw up in the morning and was a little pissed up afterwhich, before the problem was solved. Thanks Jacelyn, Christopher and Si Ian! There's just so much so much thoughts about what happened.

In ther afternoon, mini Banni had a chat. It was a fun session. Had some laughing, some serious talks. Good bonding session. And a lot of things came across my mind about Banni - Both good and bad.

Evening, met Cik Siti and went to Cairnhill CC. Waited for sometime for a few people. Had some discussion (wasn't very involved) and went to NEWTON HAWKER CENTER! whahaha! Good FOOD! =D We had Satays, Chicken wings and watermelon juice.

Then, train-ed to orchard to met up with Sam. Went to buy some stuffs. Good deals! Indeed Great Singapore Sale! MOre to go! =DDD Wanted to do more shopping but my friend needed to leave.

Read a friend's blog just now. And the post was quite inspring, with quotes talking about life, friends and love.

Once in awhile, take a look in life before you miss the great things....

Another friend's blog talking about self-awareness and self-esteem. I had a lot of feelings about that post.

Time for a rest. It will probably be a good time to rest too, considering the fact that I am really tired. Nothing much.

Holiday ending soon.........

Catching that glimpse of you...

Things are getting slightly better, I guess..

Looking back at Sat's game.. Not too bad afterall considering that this is our first tournament. =D And I know I need to correct my mistake. I am so sorry Annette, I will hit all your injuries harder next time.. Blahahahaha! A fun day out actually, having so much so much laughter. =D Feeling the same way as Michelle has done - weird about being so high-ed up.

Ok.. Was typing this post halfway and went to do some work. Gonna continue my work and be back later to continue this post. BYE!

Get ready for the BUSY-NESS!!

It's already the last week of holiday! Oh My GOD! But I have so much so much to do. Right now, I am not in a state to sacrifice my sleep. And nothing is helping me much. OH MY GOD!

1. Chinese Essay
2. English Essay ( Jac, Candice!!)
3. Study for all the subjects (exams are coming!!!!!!!!!)
4. Admin + SCDC (=.=)
5. Training. (Please recover asap!!!!)
6. School is starting soon

Oh My God. So much things with so little time. Feel like giving up some stuffs at times. And right now things are really bad for me. My ZheJiang Comm, only left me around. My knee isn't at the top best condition right now. School is starting soon but my homework pile is not cleared yet. By having meetungs here and there aren't helping me with the situation that I am in. People aren't being considerate too. My health isn't helping me too. Bad bad bad.

Tian AH!!!! How? How? How?

Thanks team Seirios (08/06/2008)



How white can we not be? hahaha!

Thanks 08S02! (03/06/2008)

=D

Biodiesel Workshop. =D

Taken during Sam's Birthday! Sam, scan the photo leh!! lol..

Sports Meet 2008 - 16/05/2008. A different participation with a great sense of satisfaction.

Bannister rock the day! Building 14 feet high structure!

There's a lot of feeling within me right now. But I really don't know how to express it. GRR!

Thanks peep! =D Thanks Seirios, it's a speacial birthday celebration. It has been 10 years or more since I last celebrated my birthday. But no flour in the future please, (hehe =P), my skin have slight allegic to it.

Thanks Mich, Georg and Shi Jie for the wrist bands and Michael for ur presents. =P

OMG! Holiday is ending. SIGH.

Life isn't exactly good recently. Been staying up till late night like this hour to complete work. SIGH. Not exactly enjoying life at the moment. Hope that things will get better.

It is always a dilemma. Sometime I just can't wait for the events to end. However, on the other hand, I am kind of relunctant to allow time to tick past. I feel like keeping every second I can. (If only I could...)

OK, morning.. and bye and goodnight. :P will upload photos soon. =D

It's a dilemma, I would say.

Thinking that in a few more months time, all the things will come to an end. On the other hand, wondering if I would survive through these few months both mentally and physically.

What a dilemma...

Kind of efficient today. I manage to finish revising a whole big chapter of Biology - photosynthesis. =D Also 3/4 of rock weathering. All right, feeling tired right now. Bye!

A Big Thanks to:

Bro, Dad and Mum!
08S02 (thanks peep for the cake!)
Marianne
Aubrey
Owners of 4E1'07
Zhong Wei
Sam
Ainah
Alicia
Cik Siti

and everyone else who remembered my birthday..! Thanks and sorry if I have left your name out! Just tag me, ya?

Tired, a little exhausted? Bye!

Yesterday is finally slightly more productive. Finished whatever that is OVERDUE.

Had some netball yesterday. My thighs are still not stable yet, that wobble feeling is still there and climbing stairs is just a hassle for me. My stomach is feeling the aching too. I had better start conditioning myself. =/

Nothing much for today. really.

Nothing to be said. =/ but I know...

Life oh life.

For a few moment, life got quite stressed-up. But everything toned down after talking to a friend of mine. Thanks, buddy.

I was a little troubled with netball. Things were a little shaky. But, I think... oh well, what can I do?

Have been slacking around for 3 days. It is time to get starting but feeling abit lay back and not wanting to get my engine starting. =P I will make it working tmr! EM!

All right, that's all for now, bye!

The week has just been so busy. I won't say exactly extremely busy but rather my time management was not very good. But guess what, the week is OVER! Finally! surviving through this week has been really tough for me. The pressure for some days was really great! It was almost to an extent that I wanted to give up on every single thing! But it's ok, it's all right, THE WEEK IS OVER!!

All of a sudden, I felt that emptiness. An emptiness that I want to fill it up badly.

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Hui Mui is here complaining about life.

Sometimes, I really dislike the way the education system works. We have to study so hard so hard just to produce a certificate that looks "nice". Studying so much in such a short time, really kills at time. Just looking at myself, sometimes, I wonder why am I studying so intensively when I may not make it to the top of the nation. Well, I perceive that only scholars are needed in Singapore. Being non-scholar, might as well concentrate on something else which I enjoy and I want to strive in.

Being a non-scholar, there are so many areas in society that you will not be wanted. However, everyone will just push you to be a scholar. Forcing one to study so hard so hard that he has to give up/ ignore about other things in life. the education system is so intense that if you are not smart, it is impossible to take up things that are beyond your study scope.

Worst of all, the intensity of the education system has made people to lose interest in things that they are doing. Well, people argue that the intensity do challenge people to be better. I agree to it. But when a rubber is pull way too tight, it snaps. The intensity is way too much. It is beyond what we can handle. Just look around you, how many people are motivated to study, how many can give full concentration to their talent without having them as a burden. Not many. Those who can make it are probably those scholars.

I know the world is competitive. I understand the reason behind to keep up with the competitions but is it worth to have such an intense system that people are so not welling to believe in the system?

Then, when you become an adult, you will be working under even more intense working environment where you will be expect to be perfect. Being imperfect, will only cause you to be outcast.

I remembered not long ago, a friend told me Japan has the highest suicide rate. And the reason is very obvious - People can't cope with the intensity of the society. The same applies to our local society. We are constantly chasing after an ever going bullet train.

Studies is important but is it way too important that it causes life to be colourless?
The society is competitive but is it way too intense that people can't take it anymore?

Argh!

Seriously, if you are not serious, you get out of the court. You are not welcome at all. You are not wanted neither are you needed. Keep complaining and complaining. Not that you can't but please find a solution to it. It is pointless to keep complaining and can't be bothered with the problem and expect me to solve it for you. What on earth is this.

It's already 5 months. FIVE months. The sixth month, we will be charging out to fight. And yet, now everyone is moving away. The progress is just not up to expectation.

ARGH!

A lot of things happened over the week. There's good and there's bad. But overall, I think I enjoyed myself over the week.

Tuesday was enjoyable having a day back with Hillgrove Netball Team. It was fun! However, umpiring needs lots of improvement. Gonna keep working on it.

Wednesday.. I couldn't remember much but I know I was not feeling happy before the Leaders' meeting's captain's ball. Oh yes, I remembered. I hated the attitude of certain people. But I think I have got over it. After the meeting, stayed back to study and enjoyed myself.

Thursday.. OH MY! haha.. We rocks, don't we? =P

Friday, what a roller coaster ride we had. Phew. But we succeed in the end! Bannister rocks to the core! Just so love you guys!

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Was just browsing through your friendster photos. I can't help but to let my heart to skip a beat when the photo of you in that school uniform appeared. All of a sudden, I was reminded of why I spent this 4 to 5 years doing what I have done. But. I know. Everything. Is. Over. Life has moved on.

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I was always reminded that we have grown. Sometimes, the past was just so warm. Sometimes, I just feel like sinking back into the past and enjoy everything again. The past is so cozy, so nice. I miss the past badly, really badly...

Oh well.. today is quite a bad day. Nothing much went well today. In fact, it is just such a wrong day today. *sigh* Feeling guilty, feeling bad, feeling wrong. Sorry!

It's ok! It's all right! Let's keep the heads up for tomorrow! Life will be better. Just keep the faith strong..! Jia You!

Haha.. poor Jaclyn! Hey, let's keep our faith strong. Let's work things out together.. Jia YOU!!!!!!

Feeling tired right now. Plysically and a little bit of mentally.

Thanks Sam. Much better now.

Life is great when you do it!

Keep going people, I know we can do it!

Things for today:
1. block out for your friend.
2. block or run OUT, do not stone there or run between 2 defenders.
3. WATCH OUT for DEFENDERS, do not force the ball over.
4. Rebound!
5. Keep trying for every chance to defend.
6. Only the final whistle counts.
7. Stop your flamingo.
8. Be careful of your stepping!

It is reaching a level that I can't hold it anymore. HELP! There are so much things to withstand. Sometimes, I can't help but to hate people. Trying hard to stay positive, stay calm, but sometimes, things really sucks. ARGGHHH!

I don't know why but all of a sudden I miss you like I never did before. The miss was just so deep. I just wanted to have you so much be it physically or verbally or whatever.

Can I have you?

Fustration continuously piled up. But there's only one thing that I can do - keep the faith strong and just move on with life.

人来人去，没有永留，但记忆只来却没离开。

Let's just keep the faith strong! JIA YOU!!!

The weekend is going to end in another few hours. I didn't spend this weekend usefully. I would say that I am simply wasting my time away. Or rather I was not aware what I am suppose to do at all. I am in lost-mind now. I just always hate this feeling of being lost and I know very well that I can't affird to be lost at all especially in such a competitive country.

I feel like doing this but yet my mind is on something else. Argh!

Things:
1. Geography Test
2. Geography Worksheet
3. Biology Exam
4. English Article
5. Maths Tutorial 6
6. Bio Tuturial 5
7. Chemistry Test
8. PW

Things are pretty screwed up. Just like I previously mentioned, everyone just simply can't be bothered. Why should I then? Everyone is just so selfish. ARGH!!! STUPID MAN!!!! And the weather is just not helping.. rain please!

Thanks peeps! Thanks for your concern, love you guys! We are a team, the one and only team that we have! Go JJ!

All right.. let me go and vent all my fustration to the water!

ARGH! irritated!