Was actually in a good mood to start today's entry.. after reading my past entries and some blogs, they dampemed my mood.

Somehow, I don't seem to be able to leave my shadow.. While reading through some of the entries, I was thinking back and wondering who am I, what have I done? With these questions, it bring me back to a few days back.. I was thinking what to write for my essays.. I wanted to bring in personnel experience.. but when I think through I was actually leading a boring life..

NPCC, Netball, Councillor, Studies. Nothing much happened other than making some great friends. It is true that my friends had bring in some colours for my life but things that I was doing seem that have made me blind.. I had lead a life blindly.. As in, i had a fixed rountine in my life.. Other than some love stories.. there's nothing much I can talk about.. Haiz..

Maybe it was not the things that I was doing that caused my life to be boring but rather my attitude.. I am not sure actually.. when I was reading through my past entry.. it seems that years after years i have not changed my temper my character.. the temper the character that I don't like..

Next, whenever I think of this I would ask myself what's the best character and the best temper? Haiz!!!!

I believed that the attitude and the character really give me non-memorable memories..

Oh no, after 15+ years of life.. Non memorable memories? OH GOSH! What's this?

For your info.. if u think that this entry make no sense, you may choose not to read.. but if you have chosen to read this, and feel like venting your emotions on my blog.. I would suggest you to just close this window..

Now that I realised, I had miss out many people in my links.. oops! Sorry peeps! Soon, ok? lolx..

The NBA playoffs result surprised and disappointed me.. Dallas, Miami and Lakers are out.. Eh.. I don't mind Suns winning Lakers actually though.. :P But I was hoping Miami to win Chicago but Miami lost 4-0 :( I am really surprised that Dallas is out! It was like Dallas had the best season record for this season and Warriors only climbed up at the last few games of the seasons.. Not that Warriors can't win but I was kind of expecting Dallas to be the champion though.. Now, only hoping that my all-time favourite.. SPURS, will emerge as the champion.. =D

该是时候要放手了。。。

想哭，却知哭是没用的。。。

想对你说，却知说是没用的。。。

我只好书院你，离你而去。。。

There's just simply too much things going round..

There are really too much matters to be noted.

唉！

Whatever happened had just hit me so hard..

There are just simply too much things on my mind.. There are so much things to be done.. At times, I am really drench totally.. I understand that it is really difficult to understand someone.. Sometimes, a moment of support means more than anything.. Really thanks Hui Juan for all the help and concern.. Really sorry for troubling you..

The feeling of being stretch to the edge was really terrible. The moments of being stretch to the edge made me mentally totally dead. I am really glad that the dreadful week is over..

Anyway, I am really proud of my school's performance at SYF!
Concert Band-Bronze Award
Choir-Bronze Award
Malay Dance-Bronze Award
Modern Dance-Silver Award

Really wanna congrats all councillors (include myself.. hehe :P) for making our day such a successful day.. It is really nice to see that our effort are not wasted.. =)

暧昧让人受尽委屈
找不到相爱的证据
何时该前进何时该放弃
连拥抱都没有勇气
暧昧让人变得贪心
直到等待失去意义
无奈我和你写不出结局
放遗憾的美丽

暧昧让人变得贪心
直到等待失去意义
不能用恨你却不住结局
放遗憾的美丽
停在这里
暧昧让人受尽委屈
找不到相爱的证据
何时该前进何时该放弃
连拥抱都没有勇气

只能陪你到这里
毕竟有些事不可以
超过了友情还不到爱情
远方就要下雨的风景

到底该不该哭泣
想太多是我还想你
我很不服气
也开始怀疑
眼前的人是不是同一个真实的你

暧昧让人受尽委屈
找不到相爱的证据
何时该前进何时该放弃
连拥抱都没有勇气
暧昧让人变得贪心
直到等待失去意义
无奈我和你写不出结局
放遗憾的美丽
停在这里

暧昧让人受尽委屈
找不到相爱的证据
何时该前进何时该放弃
连拥抱都没有勇气
暧昧让人变得贪心
直到等待失去意义
无奈我和你写不出结局
放遗憾的美丽
停在这里

到底该不该哭泣
想太多是我还想你
我很不服气
也开始怀疑
眼前的人是不是同一个真实的你

暧昧让人受尽委屈
找不到相爱的证据
何时该前进何时该放弃
连拥抱都没有勇气
暧昧让人变得贪心
直到等待失去意义
无奈我和你写不出结局
放遗憾的
美丽停在这里

听到你现在的真心话，我真的有种想要立刻跑到你身边的冲动。但知道你一些事后，觉得。。。（我的辛勤就在那歌词中）。。。。。。

Same old rotting problems.. -.* Nevermind..

Homework Gallery (Soon becoming a museum.. haha!!)
-E.Maths Paper
-A.Maths Paper
-Chemistry Paper
-Chemistry WB
-English Writing
-English Comprehension
-Physics File
-Chinese File
-Testimonial
-Chinese WS
-A.Maths T.B
-Geography FYS

Can't remember if there's anymore.. -.*

This week was kind of fun and discover-tive for me.. LOL!

Damn it.. LOL! Was thinking of writing something but I forgot! -.*

Anyway, I heard an Indian speaking fluent Hokkien today.. I admired him! Seriously! Nowadays, Chinese could hardly speak our own dialects.. NO offend but.. ya..

and wanna recommend a few website that I discovered this week..

http://redsports.sg/

this website update news on sports going on in singapore's school..

http://dene-dina.blogspot.com/

This is actually an online shop that sell ear studs and ear rings.. Some of her items are imported directly from Japan.. Have a look, ya? I can assure you that it is really worth looking!! =)

All of a sudden, felt the noise of stress in my ears. This noise has made my brain unstable.. It is kind of irritating..

Now.. it is like.. there's test tomorrow. There's English writing to be done and handed in tomorrow as well as writing 5 pages of scripts in ENGLISH!! Goodness! Furthermore, I have just completed my Maths homework.. The tiredness is unbearable.. Feel like grabbing my pillow and falls flat onto my bed.. Hopefully will have a nice time in lalaland..

Nevermind.. this is the so-called O level's Preparation Days.. =)

两个星期前已经是你的最后一次了吗？你再也不会回来了吗？

This week was weird for me.. It was hectic when it started off.. but as it ended.. these lots of feelings that overwhelmed me..

Guess what? ALL CCAs are coming to an end for the Sec 4s.. Ya, I mean it.. End of April, officially every sec 4 will no more CCAs.. Time flies..

Today is the last outing for the Sec 4 and 5 NCOs.. We went Pulau Ubin for ATF.. Damn it! It rained! =( Anyway, I had a fun time.. :D

Peace please..

Thanks a lot for the concern.. be it what happened to me on thurs or what happened to my blog.. Thanks a lot, peeps.. =)

To certain people out there, please give me some peace ok? Some comments are meant for me for some reasons.. but all I want now is peace.. My definition for peace is.. saving those unnecessary comments to yourself... All I want now is be alone for sometime.. Don't ask me why I want to be isolated.. Somehow, I just don't feel like communicating with people..

If I communicate too much and I can't take it, I will just show my attitude and my attitude may offend you.. So to prevent one another becoming enemies.. give me some space, ok?

A little space that contains a little soul..............................................

Thinking about the entry before this.. Suddenly, these familiar qns came to my mind..

What's my responsibilities in life?
What's life?

Sometimes, I tends to hate people..
Sometimes, I tends to be selfish and feel annoy when helping people..
Sometimes, I feels jealous over small matters..
Sometimes, I just wants to have everything in the world..

Ya, I should not question myself about these questions.. as I have been doing so and these questions should rot by now..

The other day I was pondering about what I should do in the future..
I realise my character hardly suits into any career. I thought of being a doctor.. but I do not know how to care for others. I thought of being police. The life has too little freedom. I thought of setting up a business. What business should I set up?

It seems that there are zillion of questions about myself and life in my little brain.

Somehow, I feels that I don't know how to lead a life or rather I don't know what exactly is life all about.

Nowadays, my only companier is homework and sometimes netball. Yes, only homework and netball.. Somehow, I just don't feel like talking to people or rather I feels that there's no one that I feels comfortable talking to..

*sigh*

就连，你，这平时我最想说话的对象，我都不想与你说话。总觉得你恨恐怖。

Ya, I really feels that people around are a distance away from me.. The feeling of strangers is what I feel..

*sigh*

Even since my brother come back from NS, I never stop getting jealous of him.. I always sees that my mum wants me to do this and that.. Somehow what I feel jealous about is.. why my mum always ask me to do this and that.. She never asks my brother to do things. Somehow I just don't like my mum to keep telling me what's not done.. I really feel fustrated with it.. Most of time, I feels that I expect things to be done by other people and not done me.. =(

Let's just take a very simple example.. my mum bought a bottle of face wash. I was expecting her to place it in the bathroom. Somehow, she will always place my brother's things in place but just not mine.. I just got fustrated with it. =( Yes, I know it is a small thing and I should not be bothered with it.. I just can't help feeling fustrated with what treatment my brother received and I am not able to receive the same treatment.

Emm.. *sigh*

I getting confuse in what medicine to take! haha! I have like both western and traditional chinese medicine to take every day. Now is like for every 4 hours I will take a kind of medicine. Ha!

Ok, and there's quite a pile of homework..

Bio Skill 3
Phy Skill 3
Eng Essay
A.mAths TB
Bio FYS
Chem WB
Phy File

and many more..

很害怕会失去你，但也害怕接近你。。。

Ta taH! Felt bored with the old skin.. Here's a new skin! NOt much different from the previous but.. I personnely feels that this look more "interesting" =)

为何我和你的距离越来越远？我终觉得就算你在我面前，我们的距离却有如你在火星，我在地球。每当空闲时，我都很想和你聊聊天。但我的手有如千斤重，拿也拿不起来，来发一则简讯。就算在网络上遇到你，不知为什么，我就是无法与你谈天说地。

为何我们的距离那么遥远？

我到底是以什么心态来喜欢你？我真的喜欢你吗？我喜欢你的原因只有单单因喜欢而喜欢吗？还是有别的原因？我真的不知道！有时真的是纯纯的爱，有时却是一场爱的战争。有时会对你有思念，有时却设法要把你忘掉。

我会好好地珍惜你吗？

Been feeling that my parents are always biasd to my brothers. I am really unhaapy over it.. HMPH!

I really feel that so what if they are my brothers. Why do they have special rights? Why am I discriminated? I swear my attitude is better than my brothers'! Yet, my mum been hating my attitude! Worst of all, she will nag at me about my brothers' attitude. What is this?

The other day, I brought up that I want to have bicycle. My parents seem to have a thousand and one reasons to go against my request. The most unreasonable reason was that I am a female, why should I have a bicycle? What the hell! So what I am a female? Can't female cycle? Can't female enjoy sports? Which law in Singapore says that female are not allow to cycle?

A few days ago, I was feeling fustrated over this matter. I was about to take a shower. My mum said this to me : Girl hurry up ah! Your brother wants to bath! If you don't want to be disturbed while you having your shower, take your shower in the bathroom that's in the kitchen. What's this? Why do I always have to give in to my brothers? Another similar case, yesterday morning, while I was about to finish bathing, my mum hurried me and told me that my brother wants to take his shower. I hurried. Guess what? When I am out of the bathroom, it was after 15 min before my brother stands up and walk his way to the bathroom. What's this? So what if he is a male, older than me, is my brother? He is just only a male, 5 years older than me. Why do I need to keep giving way to him? Why can't there be equality between male and female?

More cases here.. Whatever my brothers want, my parents will get for them or ask me to get for them. Whatever I wants, I have to get them by myself. What's this again? Why do I always have to serve them? By right, shouldn't it be the elder taking care of the younger and not the other way round?

Sometimes, really hate return to a home that's full of bias-ness..