Today we had Teachers' Day Celebration.. Many people said it was wonderful but I felt very guilty.. I just don't feel right.. Teachers, I am truly sorry.. I didn't know it will turn out like this.. To all my dearest teachers, I am very sorry..

I had a great time with 6A'03 they are simply adorable and ever sporty! lolx! played in rain just now.. I am not mad.. It was just drizzling.. Really had fun there with them but unfortunately I gotta left for Netball training.. and who knows today training was pretty bad.. *sigh*

I am tired after a day of "running" lolx.. ok need a rest.. bye..

LIfe is just so drastic.. =(

I really don't know don't know what the correct way to live.. Can hardly do anything I like.. the only thing that I like and I can do is only NETBALL! Teachers are damn freaky naggy! can hardly stand them! I really hate school now.. Most of the lesson really can bored me to death.. I hate to see the homework! It just rattle my nerves!

I really want to be alone for while yet people are just disturbing.. To my dear friends, sometimes, please give me some peace.. TO ALL TEACHERS, please spare me some life by stop NAGGING! I really hate nagging!

Life.. *sigh* Really tired of it! Can't go by my way.. What's the point having a life that others are controlling it? It's lame right? Or is this what everyone need to go through? Or is it the impact for what happened months ago?

Weekday, go school, come home, eat sleep.. Next day, wake up, eat go schooland continues.. Weekend, do Homework, go out if possible(but RARE), eat, sleep.. I think this is pretty much what everyone is doing everyday.. ya? I really wonder how you guys survive with such life that is so " square and dead"... *sigh*.. What can I do to it?

Nowadays, most of the things, I am really doing for the sake of doing or for the sake to prevent nagging.. It's so pointless to do all the stuffs.. Really hate it! I also don't know why sometimes I just have bad-temper and lose patient and a volcano erupted. =( What's becoming of me??

*sigh* What can I do???
Open to have a bigger view.. This is a composition written by my good friend, Ong Li Ling, it really reflect on the society!

Another of those sleepless, suddenly reflecting on the phrase,
"I don't know...", very familiar yah?

It seems many of us use it when, we really don't know or as an escape to certain questions posed. I wondered how many of those I have used.

Then again for me, there are many unknowns. I should say I really don't know why I don't know. Reasons, explanations or answers just aint there. What will you do then when the unknown is known to be unknowns? Wait and see what happens right? Maybe some unknowns are easily forgotten, others will dwell in us and we go in search for a possible answer. Funny it seems, we can find answers in or through others. Just have to be a little open-minded.

When you don't know, do you feel boxed up? Being boxed, you just want someone or somehow to be unwrapped, unboxed and be in the known world once again. Will it be better to be boxed? Perhaps it is... for awhile just to escape. When ready to face the reality, we may act like new borns or chicks pecking to get out of the shell slowly.

I don't know and I don't know anymore. I don't even know myself. Is that the ultimate? Just for those lost out there, it's okay to be in the "don't know coma" for awhile. It's pretty normal I guess. Just go in search for yourself and be who you are. Don't be led by the unknown. It aint going to take you far or to the destination you are suppose to be at. Be led by goals, directions and insipirations.

I copied this from one of my friends' blog..

More than often I am in "don't know coma" and feel very helpless especially when life goes too fast and I can't catch up... It made me feel that the world has abandon me..

the last 7 words of the entry inspired me in one way or another.. "Be led by goals, direction and inspirations".. With this seven words, I feel very lucky.. at least I know what I am doing now.. Ya..

Humans are great because they dare to dreams!

Bye!

I been having a problem on how to start an entry... Am I suppose to start with, "Hi!" or straight into topic?? lolx.. no idea.. Nvm!

I have no idea how to write what and how I think and feel this week.. Oh ya before I start on the issue.. I apologize for not updating frequently. For this whole week, I been very busy.. and gets tired at night. Hence, didn't update.. Sorry to my dearest loyal readers..

In my opinion, this week trainings, NPCC and Netball, are quite slacky. Nothing much to do during trainings. However, I do like cartain parts of one of my Netball's trainings. [=

This week life has been moving very fast.. I got pretty confused and lost (I think).. I just don't know why I can't stand a lot of things.. When a minor obstacle gets into my way, I will be very fustrated! *sigh*

There's another thing that I can't take it! I can't stand myself having short-temper! I have no idea how to tolerate things. *sigh* I really hope I can do something to help myself to get rid of this bad habit. Any suggestion?

I am OK! No worry. My MSN nick recently was "Please do not talk to me.. Let me be alone.." Many of my friends who are concern about me, asked if I was ok and whether I need any help or not.. I am perfectly OK! Sometimes, I just want to be alone and concentrate on my work. No worry and thanks a million for the concern! It is appreciated!

*YAWN* I am tired! lolx.. ok.. see you guys! Bye!

a week ended.. life not too bad..

but i wanna say something is wat u do to others u will kena one day.. very true.. whether good or bad matters..

Ya.. n i m tired.. BYE~!

work for this weekend:
*Bio WB (haven't finish)
*CL WB
*Maths TB (to be done in Bk B)
*Study for A Maths Test (Chap 6, tue)
*Eng TB-Summary
*Eng WB Chap 9
*Chem WB
*Teachers' Day stuffs
*Netball

WOW! its been more than a week since I last update.. lolx..

I went for National Camp '06.. Yea!! It was GREAT! Ya.. Really great.. A wonderful Experience![=

Common Test ENDED!! BAHAHA!!

After 1 week, FINALLY played Netball.. YEA! Stamina has A LOT A LOT of rooms for improvement.. =[ will try to try my best! HMP! lolx..

OK.. i thik tt's all for today.. I am TIRED!! BYE!!

*This Sat got Netball Carnival, Presta Sukan, anyone wanna go together?*

Well.. I am seriously not in gd mood these few days.. so please please please try not to talk to me.. I mean it.. Don't Talk To Me!!

YOu will have to pay for the conseqeunces!

I read a entry just now from my "friend"'s blog.. Tears was flooding my eyes.. "You" and "You" should know why. Nevermind.. I will never go and read the blog again.. NEVER!

What I heard yesterday through a conversation through a phone really made me sad. "You" should know why.. ='(

Ok, I guess shall end here for today.. Don't feel like writing anymore. BYE!

*reminder= Don't Talk To Me*

This is wat I wanna say to all that I had offended on Fri..






Here are some picts I drew when I was bored in class.. hehex..

Once again.. I am really sorry if I have offended you on fri.. SORRY!

I made mistakes over again and again. what can I DO?? Why must August once again be like this? I think I have offended someone again. I really don't know what can I do to save the situation. Right now, I have no one to turn to.

I have no idea how can I hold back my temper. I have no idea how can I please everyone. I have no idea how to stop things from happening. I know I can yet I just don't know how. My sister has problems. My super senior has problems. My gd buddy has problems. I have offended my friendSss.

I was simply tired on Friday. I really could not hold back my temper. I pratically offended everyone. I guess. I know it is useless to say anything now. Things have happened and nothing can change the situation. Can I please be given a chance again to make up what went wrong..? I may have offended some of you people the second time. I am really sorry.

You may face some problems now.. and I know it is not the right time to say certain things.

I guess all these are retributions. I seldom appreciate people's "good". Therefore, when I had done something, my good was all forgot clear and clean. Maybe in ther first place, I have no good.

May I ask for a forgive?

I was damn tired today. I got really irritated today and sorry friends if I vented my anger at you guys.. really sorry.. Today, is really not a good day for me.. I have like so many "debts" to pay today..

Tired yet still online.. ya.. doing work , that's why.. =( Have to type out quite a no. of things this wkend and submit them by Mon. =.- I am tired of reading SINGLISH!! seriously! as for why am I reading singlish.. tt shall be a secret. hehehex

Ok, can't take it anymore.. AHHH.. MUST go sleep NOW! Gdnitex!

Life was quite messy today.. *sigh*

Today's life is like going at a super fast paste and I can hardly catch up. =( Just now while bathing I was thinking of giving up my life for a moment, had a break before continuing life. This world is just so weird. Everyone wants a break yet wishes can't be granted.

I read a article (homework actually) talking about donating parts of body.. and there are questions for us to answer. The questions were asking about my feelings and was I encouraged by the article to contribute my to society.. HA! I had funny answer.. but that's was really how I felt.

Ok, I am really tired for today. gtg and sick again.. BYE!

Let's have a short blog and wanna sleep already..

Today, life seem neat yet messy.. weird right? I don't know how to describe my feelings but all I can say is somehow I feel hurt in one way or another..

I am hurt due to many many reasons.. NPCC, school, CCAs, Councilors.. etc.. I really got to thanks my parents.. they are the ones who really love me.. I realised.. because.. they are only the ones who tried their best to not to hurt me and give me the best..

At NPCC, I screamed like a mad woman.. reason: sec 1! HA! ya.. hope they will change..but seriously can see a drop in attendance.. haiz.. what to do...........????

BYE!

From today onwards i shall reply to taggy here! ya!

to Apple: ya.. injuries are part of sports indeed.. take care of ur ANKLES!!
to LY: thanks buddy!
to Priscilla: will change ur link but what ur password to enter the blog??

after replying shall start blogging.. lolx..

I love the feelings after shifting "house".. haha.. actually is more of changing class.. LOLx.. the "new" classroom is much more "airy" and higher.. i guess.. all I can say is that classroom give me alot of memories too .. lolz! oh ya.. there's another thing i like about the new classroom is.. can do exercise every day since the classroom is at 4th level.. in this way, i guess will be more awake?? haha..

I have a very cute friend to prevent teacher from reading her blog (i think), she will add funny alphabets behind teachers' name.. LOLx funny la!!!

As usual, life pretty boring today.. other then I went jogging today.. ya.. ok.. go do work already.. BYE!

Before i start today's entry.. just reply to some post..

to J: thanks.. =)
to LY: eh.. not sad actually.. just had some flashback ytd.. ya.. =)

Yesterday while playing netball had a bad fall.. I injured my knees, hand, n mouth.. =( hand wasn't really serious.. but knees were pretty bad! Mouth there.. my friends thought was pimple.. ~.`

I guess this week will have no netball for me.. :'( seriously man! cos really hurts!!

Ok, gotta rest alr.. BYE!

2 years back.. I know him, 2 years back I know her. Now she and him are together. 2years ago, I thought, 2 years later, I don't wanna think!

A simple sentence that contain thousands and millions feelings..

2 years ago.. I know him.. ya.. around this time in 2004 and know him.. its during a Sat I think or during weekday, can't really remeber.. :( but anyway, ya.. really has that memory of how I knew him.. I don't wanna go into details of it la.. sorry!

2 years ago I know her. Ya.. I started playing in hgv netball team in around June/July 2004.. I only slowly know people there well in End of July, Start of Aug.. but then right.. there is this person, I always frget her name.. I can remember others but not her's.. LOLx.. but end up we are the closest of all.. LOLx

Now she and him are together.. Yaaa...... its on 12th March.. ya! Don't wanna talk much about this..

2 years ago, I thought.. 2 years later I don't wanna think. 2years ago.. I thought of just thinking of him everything.. but now.. I really wanna stop myself thinking esp. after ytd what I heard. its pointless thinking, its worthless thinking.. so now.. i just wanna stop myself thinking but yet.. it's a very difficult..

a sentence that contains, happy, amazement, sad, etc feelings.. lots and lots feeling that words can't be used to describe..............

For quite a long time, didn't go back on Sat for lesson.. oh well.. to had umpiring and refreeing.. ya.. had fun la.. SPORTS!! afterwhich went to eat with NPCC people.. and had a conversation with someone(M):
M: Why ur nick recently like so sad?
me: Life quite boring lo, everyday, go school, come home, eat sleep
M: and when you grow up, go work come home, look at child and husband and this is ife.
me: ya la, life is so boring lo..

and blah blah.. can't rmb liao.. sorry M tt i need to lie.. there are some other reason why I am sad.. I really dun noe how to put down things.. haizz...

I am here just to write a reminder list for myself of what need to be done this weekend..

->Perth skeleton(adjustment)
->Maths WS
->A. Maths TB
->E.Maths TB
->Chem WS
->Tcher day, details planning..
->Test on Mon and Fri. A.Maths, Geog.

Tada, done.. BYE!

I gotta say I am confused now. I really don't who can I trust now. Cos even the people who are closest to me are lying. Who are speaking the truth? =(

I really hate life.. it don't sucks, just that I have a big knot in my heart and people are pulling it tighter and tighter when I wanna untie it.

What should I do? Who can I trust? Who can I look for? PLEASE HELP ME!

So late still up? ya.. (obiviously) ok.. lol.. Every tuesday 100% will stay up late no matter ho fast I do my things or how slow I do my things. Weird!

These few days, my mum and my friend been telling me about people passing away. They are all very sad over the death. To me, I am actually happy for them because they don't have to suffer anymore in this world. Maybe there is something more interesting for them somewhere else? We can never know. But.. sometimes when I think what will happen if one day.. ..... I will be sad too.. but at the same time will I be happy for them?

Oh well, I guess all these can't be helped. However, why are others dying but not me? I WANT TO DIE IN SLEEP! But seriously if I am not going to die in sleep right, I wouldn't want to die. Very contradicting right..? Cos obviously I can't really think now cos it's very late at night le..

Since last weeks, most of my entries are either on life or death.. There's a reason for me doing so. It is because I can't really find a way to live properly. (Eh.. I am not too sure about the definition of proper). Sometimes life is just so dead and bored that I see no "life". I am also looking for the best way to die.

haiz.. really ah.. when holiday right, I shall take one whole week to find things and study life..! As for the time being, just life for the sake of living. Live day passing one day by one day for no reason. If any of you wanna kill me, please do so. the thing is one stab MUST die hor. If you wanna kill me with 2 or more cut or stab or by other means, I will call police and sue you for making me suffering. But if can kill me with just a cut or stab and I can die the next second, you will be rewarded, and show police this entry that you won't be sue or charge for murder cos is I am willing to let you kill me. ya!

AND I AM SERIOUS ABOUT THIS!