I am back from Hong Kong! It was a fun trip! ;)

I am missing the cooling weather and the companions! =)

Just completed 1.58km with my legs :) It has been long time since I last ran long distance.

Self-reminder: learn to accept criticism. There are always bound to people who disagree with you. Find the logic in the disagreement. If none, move on. :D

There are many things that are not as simple as what they seem to be.

I have always wondered if you are the right person for me. I have realised that i have lied too much to you that I think I should seriously stop lying. I guess you just not the kind of gu that I am looking for now. I did like you before but I think that is as far as I have gone. When I put you into the same surrounding as I was in, I realised I just find myself difficult to go near you. This has shown me a lot about how I feel about you. You are a great friend. I think you deserve someone who is able to share a common mindset as you. Sorry for all the lies that I have said because I just really do not know how to face many things. Sorry.

I am back from New Zealand! It was a rewardful trip ;)!

I think we are going well. But, I have a question to ask.. Is she still in your mind?

Thanks! I wanted to say that you are Mr Nice :)

Do you know, I like to look into your eyes?

It was great chatting with you and to understand you better! :)

You are probably the topic for my blog for now. Haha..

Thanks for coming down to lend your support! :D It was great to see you there! It seems like you understand netball, huh? HEHE! =P

Sometimes, I am really confused, not just about you but also my feelings!

I think a change of mentality to keep our relationship to just friends has probably make things much better.

As per usual, you are Mr Nice. Sometime, it is hard to just keep thinking that way. =(

I know you are not ready. I also don't know what would be the outcome one day. I am not sure if this is the way that you keep in contact with every temporary staff. Sometimes, I just wish I know the answer to all my queries. I dislike that feeling to keep waiting and being unsure of the final result.

Nonetheless, it has been good to chat with you and go out with you.

If you ever read this one day, please answer all my questions!

I have sort of clarified things with him. He said he still can't let go of his past yet. It is good to know what he is thinking. :)

I didn't expect to go out for supper with him today. It was good! :D Dinner tomorrow night! ;)

I am very scared to have that disappointing feeling! :(

I am very scared. I am scared to begin something that I can't let go.

Left OCBC on 2 Sep 2011.

I had met great people there. The place isn't that bad afterall. It is just not my kind of work. :)

The art of communication is probably the hardest thing to master in the world. I don't like it when I need to think thrice or more before sending every email. It can be quite annoying. But, this is life. Growing up is sometime nothing less than learning how to present yourself in the public and speak in such a manner that please everyone.

Should I be tresauring every opportunity to learn to communicate better or are people taking advantage of me? I seriously hate it when people tell me that they are busy and express themselves as if they are the only freaking souls that are busy! ROAR!

It is diffcult to comprehend what is life all about, isn't it?

September is coming! Augus has been a very tiring month! Jia you!

I didn't get into the 21s squad. It didn't come as a shock to me. I was mentally prepared for the result. Nonetheless, I think I have learnt and grown a lot when I was in the squad from March to July. I played my first ever NSL.

I should use this time to do things to improve myself both as a person and as an althete. Life is short. We can't predict the next moment.

When one door closes, there are many other doors that are opened. These are the routes we should venture into.

Time to be adventurous and try new things! *wink*

Netballuxion was great! I enjoyed myself. ;)

'Grace" which consisted of myself, Van Soh, Hui Lin and Shi Lin, finished first in Open Women. I think I could have contributed more to the team.

'AVP' which consisted of myself, Michael, Shu Ping, Grace, Daniel and Bernie, finished second in Open Mixed. I am happy with the result. I did not expect ourselves to finish top 2. ;)

I can't tell you how many times the thought of giving up playing netball has come to my mind; it is simply countless. What's more important is to pick yourself up after every fall :)

Life is kind of screwed now but it will be better!

Today was a great day!

I helped Litetutors to update some stuffs on the blog and the website. I should continue to work hard and see if that is a suitable route for me. I felt accomplished!

Yesterday night, a friend of mine told me that I have inspired him. Doesn't it feel just so great that someone tell you so?

Training today at Juying is much lighter and focused on basics. Nonetheless, it was a great training. The girls enjoyed themselves.

We are going to have a camp in Nov! I am looking forward to it!

I have thought about many things for the past few days. I think sometime life is about trying your best and reaping the best result of it. It may not be the ideal result but at least that the best and move on from there. It is difficult to do so. However, when you start trying to do so, you know you can venture on and make every second of your life counts.

When life is tough, share it with a friend. When life gets better, share it with a friend too. There are many friends who come and leave. There are friends who just shouldn't be even considered to be friends. However, ignore all these and cherish friends who are always there for you.

*Stay Positive, Mui!*

End of July

July is coming to an end. It has been an amazing July. I certainly miss World Netball Chmapionship. I also had my first netball tournament-Pesta Sukan, with my Juying girls.

They did fairly all right. Nonetheless, there are still a lot of things to work on, particularly space awareness and getting rid of opponents.

August is coming! There are definitely a few things to look forward to in Aug - Netballuxion and Pesta Sukan. I have not played with AVP in a game since last year Netballuxion! It will be a good gathering! ;) The following weekend, after Netballuxion, I will be playing my first ever Pesta Sukan with Nike. Woohoo!

WNC 2011

WNC 2011 was awesome! I worked with one of the nicest group of people that I have ever met - Suzanne, Edna, Sam, Julie, Judith, Vicki, Tertia, Lyn, Bernie and the local statistians! I am motivatived to be a statistian for other netball events. I want to earn and save up as much as I can to travel around New Zealand.

I felt sad for New Zealand for losing the final by one point! :(

I hate it when I screwed up my life. :(

Rooms for Improvement

I have recently started my new job with OCBC Bank (Raffles Place). So far so good. Nice colleagues, learning new stuff. Nonetheless, I feel weird to see myself in office wear. :/

I think I need to be more humble when I talk to others. I think I am getting too sensitive with things and I am being too proud of myself. I should tone down more.

I need to take care of my hygiene too!

Last but not least, I need to be more self-displine and display higher level of commitment towards everything, especially my tutees.

I feel very distant.

I need to be more positive!

Even since I quitted school, life has revolved round netball and probably only around netball. haha! Took up coaching in Juying Sec. So far so good, but hopefully nothing too fancy from them, especially the teachers.

I have also taken up another student for tuition. I have also took up an offer by U.Les, helping Red Sports to cover netball. I am also helping Netball Singapore to cover Netball Super League.

New lifestyle, I would say.

I am playing my first ever Netball Super League. I am very grateful for the opportunities. I have grown a lot, stronger and better. = ) Congrats to all who achieved their new badges during NSL! =D I will come challenging you guys! =D

I need to look for something to do in the morning!

You have made an impact

Will I get to see you again and talk to you again? Maybe i will forget you one day.

It is so strange how we started. I did not have a good impression of you when we first met. However, I take my hats of to you with how committed you are to make the season a great one for both the umpires and the players.

I remembered how much I wished for the season but not now. I wished the season did not end, so that I could see you again.

I wished I have asked you out today but I did not have the guts to do so.

Will I get to see you again?

We always enjoy the process of thinking that we are right..

I have moved on from SMU. I have withdrawn from SMU.

I do not think that this is a setback. I think this is just one of the many experiences in life. = )

Stop judging me with your blindfolded eyes.

It is not the physical aspect of failure that's scary. It is the mental aspect. When you fail, people look at you differently. People question you if you will succeed in your next attempt. Sometimes' others doubting cause us to doubt ourselves too. 

Others may say ''why bother about what others say?'' We only need to answer to ourselves.

What do you think?

I have made 2 major decisions today.
1. reject NS offer
2. play for NSL

They were tough decisions but i have to made them.

Througout the latst few days, I have been thinking what is life. I have come to a conclusion:
Do what you love in life.

Woring in office is seriously something that I don't like, thus, I rejected NS' offer. I enjoy being at the frontline, constantly be in action.

Playing is what I love. I enjoy umpiring too but I know I love playing slightly more than umpiring.

I will quit SMU and go and having a degree that I want.

What's next in life for me?

Being an umpire coordinator is not easy. Really.

Things haven't been going well. The week will get better! : )

If only today wasn't the ending...

We didn't want it badly enough...

Lesson learnt: Work on my stamina
Knowledge gained: Lobs, reading the game, playing as a GA.

No more dropped balls, put in every balls, take every rebounds, no more bad passes, no more bad decisions!

Looking back to 2010

Looking back at 2010, it has been a fruitful and eventful year!

Highlight of 2010:


19 PS
I have grown a lot during the 5 months, both phycially and mentally. I nearly quitted. The coaches have made me realised that result is not what matters. It is the effort and the process that matter most. Thanks everyone for everything! : )


Umpire Development Squad
There were so many things that I couldn't adapt to in the umpire circle. I was just about to quit this too. Iam glad that I stayed on and improved myself. It always feels good to surprise others how your hard work have paid off. Heee :) Thanks to all the coaches and fellow umpires who have helped me!

U Run 2010
This is my first ever race! I did it with other Red Crew, Screws, Jon, Erwin, Mai and Hong Yong. I finished 10th! Haha! It was a fun race. : )


First Semester at SMU
I have tried many things in SMU, including skating for the first time, trekking for the first time. Other first time, include getting a F for exam (aiyoyo!!). There are many ups and downs. These have made me grown up. :) More to come in second semester! :)


Many firsts
I have tried many things in 2010.

1. first time to coffee bean


2. first time to malaysia (and subsequently made another 3 trips)


3. first time, beating zenith, in Netballuxion, first Gold medal!


4. first 8km race


5. first 10km race (many more to come!)


6. first time playing frisbee!


7. first time staying over at someone's place

2010 has been an awesome year! : )

In 2011, there are many things that I want to do too!

I want learn skating, win IVP 2011, get straight As for my modules, watch World Netball Championship, work at Netball Singapore under Operations, volunteer for some sports events, work harder in umpiring and many more! Jia You! : )