How should parents work with children? How should children work with parents? I have wrote a similar debate about these questions before but now, they set me thinking again.

Parents worry for children. Children don't feel comfortable. Parents don't worry too much for the children. They say parents do not show concern towards them. Children always ask for freedom. Parents tend to be reluctant to do so.

How should parents work with children and vice versa? Maybe this is how life works. but I just really like it. Honestly, to a parent what is the most important thing that he/she wants from his/her children? A degree? A happy childhood? or A good life partner?

Realised my choices do not include a good life? Because everyone has different definition for "a good life" And seriously, I feel that being rich doesn't mean having good life.

I think we should sit down and think about this with our parents and/or children..

I must work hard. I need to work harder. I know I am not good enough. I know my play isn't good. I know my sweat need to be shed. I must put in a lot more effort. I am always give in 100.1%!

I learnt an important lesson today. When you tell someone a timing, do state clearly if it is A.M or P.M. It is very important that we do so. haha!

Feeling very tired right now. *yawn* all right shall blog about what I saw tonight and gonna say GOODNIGHT!

On my way home just now, saw 2 accidents and it was kind of scary. There was a motorcycle that fell at expressway. Ouch! Seriously, I think that it truly hurts. Afterwhich there were 2 cars that bang head to head. Luckily no one is harmed. Somewhere near my house, there were 4 cyclists who wanted to start cycling when my dad car went past them. Phew! HENG!

Hey, people please drive carefully with patient! Any careless-ness may just cause a life to be lost. Please be patient as well. Do not because of a moment of anxious and cause a life to be lost.

I remembered something. To all drivers out there, please show signal when you want to turn! This little effort can help to reduce death due to accidents. I am serious about this. Just a signal can actually tell everyone a lot of things!

My heart is wondering again, I think.

Slightly more productive..

Did 1/2 hour jog.. jogged for about 4km. Well, obviously, my muscles need of this. I rearranged files in my computer. Not exactly fully done, I will be rearranging certain files again. Cleared and organized my worksheets and books. I am done with my books. Left with worksheets on my shelf only. =D My table looks so much better now. Managed to do some reading as well but so far, I don't know why, the stories that I read have a sad ending. Netball wise, I don't if I am being demoralised or motivated to work harder. and ya.. don't be surprise to hear funny things from me.

Where is my heart following now? I am stil doing what I have done in the past?

I received a dead hard knock today. before I continue.. let me do somethings first..

To all the 5 outstanding dragonboaters.. you have done singapore proud. we will always remember you.

The news made an impact on me. Life is just so fragile. I believe we still remember not long ago something happened to my school. Is this really the way life has to go? Through this whole year, many such news has been appearing. Life is so dangerous? People just come and go..just LIKE THAT. It is scary.

All right.. My holiday has started quite sometime back and things didn't exactly go the way I wanted but it is ok. I tried looking for a job but it doesn't look like I will be working. Personally, after looking for a job, I feel that a job will be burden for me eventhough I will be receiving money. I feel that it is a burden because if I were to work, I will not have time for other activity such as upgrading myself, training and going out will friends. If I don't get a reply from my previous application, I will just give up and concentrate on what I would like to do during this holiday.

Talking about upgrading myself, I am serious about this. Although a big O is over, the O actually motivated me to work harder. I know I needed to work extra hard to achieve better result. I need to improve my languages.

Training wise, someone motivated me to work as hard as this person does. I felt that I was lousy. I know I can do better than now. To get to where I want, I know I needed to shed more sweat. I know it is not going to be easy but a dream will lead me there. =)

Going out with friends and having gathering is going to be a big part of the holiday. I have been busy here and there for the past years. I think it is time to get in contact with friends and people around me to catch up with one another. Seriously, back in those hectic days where responsibilities were part of my daily life, it was really difficult to catch up with people around me. I am always on the go. So.. ya..

My tableS are still in a mess. Papers are all over the place. Books are mostly cleared. Excess stuffs are here and there, everywhere. I need a few days to clear them, I think. My computer is in a mess too. Files are all over the place. I have repeating files as well. Seriously, I find clearing and organizing the files is a difficult task. I tried clearing and organising some files yesterday and I realised how tough it is.

Well of course, there are going to be a few more things that I would like to do in the upcoming month, December! I miss Japan! It is going to be a year since the day I departed for Japan. I missed those days back in Japan. I missed all my friends from the 11 nations! I miss the home in Tokyo. I missed my dear friends from Tokyo Metropolitan Kokusai High School. I miss the leaders from AFS. I miss every part of the programme. A big thanks to AFS! I want to return to Japan!

All right, a bit way of the track.. let's get back.. haha.. I think this is the best time to contact all my dear friends again. Like I say, in the past I was really very busy and didn't have much time to type emails and write letters. I am going to write letter and emails to all my friends overseas! I am just worried that I can't complete all letters before 2008. I will try!

I want buy to SHOES! Yes! I need new shoes badly. I still have another running shoes but I just don't feel very comfortable in it. Both my training shoes are not in best condition anymore. They actually still can be used but I just don't feel exactly right in them. hehe! So conclusion, NEW SHOES! Give me this as Christmas present, okay?

I think for now I shall get all this things done before I move on to new focus. =)

You get me on. Please burn me on.

What's there to be upset for? No, I should say what right do I have to be unhappy? If I were to show any sign of unhappiness, I am just getting myself troubles. Everything you say is right, isn't it? All I can do is find my own way out to get my own life. Seriously, since you have put hings that way then what else can I do and very abivous, n-o-t-h-i-n-g. I know it is not totally your fault. Afterall, it always take 2 hands to clap. Everyone contributes to this sickening problem. I know it is pointless to grumble over it. so well.. THE END!

Let me vent my fustration.

What is this man? 0 attendance! Z-E-R-O Oh come on! It is stated VERY CLEARLY that when you guys are suppose to appear on the court. I am damn disappointed. And what is she is not coming so I am not coming? Hello? What's this? so if one commits suicide, you are going to follow what she does, is it? Oh, come on.. You are not a 3 years old kid. You have your own mind set. No tournament, no trainings? I think you can quit if you guys want to continue this attitude. Seriously, let me tell you guys.. I am very disappointed. You think you are very great? This will only happen in your dream! Seriously! Totally R-U-B-B-I-S-H!

Come on lo! I am wrong with this, I am also wrong with that. And yet you never tell me what's right. If you are really that unhappy with me, please just tell me this, Hui Mui, get out of this house. This will save me a lot of troubles. Sometimes, I really try to improve on the situations. However, things just simply don't work. What's the problem, you tell me! Keeping quiet seriously will not make things better. I am trying to open up. I have taken the first steps. Will you please take the second step? Seriously, sometimes, I just feel so sucky staying in here. It totally sucks!

All right.. Emo time..

I think things turned out better than I thought. However, I was worse than I thought I could be. You were the last second image on my mind before I slept. Because I kow if you were the last image on my mind, I will never turn in. I wished badly for something. Really badly. When things just go so wrong, I really hope to have your sprite to keep me alive. I am losing hope right now. Please keep me going. I need you to burn me on.

Get lost if you don't want to play. Get out if you like it.

I am seriously getting very pissed. You didn't try, you are telling me you want to give up. You are lazy, what do you want me to do? I am very disappointed. So what if there are tall and strong opponents? So what? You tell me? Come on man! If you don't want to play netball, just let me know. I am getting sick and tired of your nonsense!


I am sorry, I didn't expect this. =(

been out for the past 2 days.. Was out yesterday to get some admin stuffs done as well as went round jurong point doing walking. haha! was thinking to do some shopping but there was really nothing that I wanted to shop and what's more, the chicken chop that I had before I enter JP, spoilt my mood. I didn't like the taste at all.

Managed to read finished one chinese novel, Ying Hua Shu Xia De Yue Ding. I didn't really like the style of the author but the content was good. =)

I was out today at Ngee Ann Polytechnic for Redcamp 4. I felt that it was kind of boring. I won't say it was totally boring. The start of the programme was excellent but as the day goes on, everything got so caught up and chaotic.

this is what happened over the past two days.. all right.. I am tired now.. eyes are going to close at anytime.. Goodnight people!

I have been writing my blog for 2 years and 4 months with 450 entries, with an average 16 entries per month. Woah! Not bad eh. =)

Started writing my blog in mid sec 2. I think I really enjoyed writing entries. =) Now that the hecti-ness is gone for the time being (I think), my blog is just such a wonderful tool for me to look back at those days. Seriously, I missed those days! Now my life looked empty and has it is for now!

It is time for me to re-organise my life and get myself productive. I just feel so wrong slacking all day long. For a day or two, I feel that it was nice but for daySSS, I just feel so wrong! My body just feel so energy-less though it is filled with energy. Please give me things to do!!!!

Right now, the only thing that I have to do is to clear my table, my study area and arrange my stuffs. and that's all! ROAR! Sounds boring right, been repeating what I have said last entry!

I am badly burnt from yesterday games. I mean really badly burnt. I was under the Sun for 6 hours. My toning is very obivous! You can see socks on my feet even if I am not wearing one. =( Ya. that's how obvious the toning is.

Nothing much for today other than spoiling my house's kettle! hehe! I was boiling the water and I forgot about it until my brother came to talk to me. That was like 1 h 30 min later. The bottom of the kettle is totally black! =/

Miami Heat, it is time to wake up. Even since the new season of NBA started, Miami has been very drowsy. They have only win a match so far. My goodness! Come on Miami Heat!

I am feeling kind of empty now. You know, it is like in the past I have things to do every second. But now, I am like packing my books which is like A LOT, eat, sleep, do some reading and use computer ONLY other than netball. I am not really used to this. I kind of missed those days where every seconds i am on the move, on the go. haha!

Anyone wanna hire me?????

Graduation Day is over. It was kind of fun. =) Thank you Mr Bambang and Mrs Chua for making this event possible! I think I spent a bomb for this grad. day. I spent around $160 (on 4 items). Thanks Dad and Mum!

i am amazed with who actually read my blog. emmmm..

Thanks MUM! I love you!

Things don't seem to be going smooth. Things are kind of bad I guessed. Maybe I was paranoid. Maybe I was at fault. Maybe things are simply bad. It has been quite sometime since I last really cried.

anyway, I cried last night. And this is what people call cry to sleep. I don't know what you are thinking the moment you are reading what you have just read. Afterall, I am a human.

There are really a lot of things in my head. Some of it, I gave up. I can't be bothered with it anymore. It is pointless to help people who give up on themselves. Some of the things that are in my head really bother me a lot as well. Maybe this is life. Maybe I need to go through something before I get something. but at times, it is not easy to hang on in the storms.

how should I go on from here?

Weehee! I am damn happy right now!

Guess what? Singapore won the bid to host World Netball Championships(WNC) 2011. Weehee! Singapore is getting more lively, isn't it? Formula 1 Car Racing in September 2008, and now, WNC in 2011! Waha! Can't wait to watch the upcoming events held in my own country!

However, however... I need to save up money first. =_= I am estimating the cost of tickets for WNC to be around 500 dollars for the days of round robin till final.

Let's hope that Singapore will also win the bid for Youth Olympic that will be held in 2010.

Go Singapore!

I am sorry, Mum. I know you want to give me the best but I just simply can't make up my mind.

Thanks, Mum. I really appreciate what you have done.

Blogging has become more and more popular among us. There are actually really a lot of blogs going around. There also a lot of websites tat provide the service for us. Let's take a look at some of the available website that we can tune to if any of you are looking for a space in the internet to write your feelings and daily events.

Myspace
Taiwan Yahoo
Blogger
LiveJournal
Xanga
Friendster.com
Wretch.cc
Freeweb.com
Geocities.com
weblogs.com
Wordpress.com
Blogstudio.com

i think there are many more but I shall just list a few. How many of which have you tried using? How do you find them? Do they provide excellent service?

Personnelly, I have used blog at friendster, blogger and taiwan yahoo. Currently using here, blogger. I find that friendster is for beginner and for people who just want to have a feel of what blogging is like. Their layouts are simple yet provide sufficient structures for you. I think blogger is for more advance users. I remembered 2 years back when I tried using blogger, I was totally lost. I couldn't figure out how to use the website at all. Recently, there is the new form of template that is available. I found that it was way too difficult for me to figure out how to use. It took me quite sometime to learn how to use it. I think that once you learn how to use blogger, you will love it. As for Taiwan Yahoo, I am still figuring out how to use it. haha!

Blog of course come with blogs' tool. There are one thousand and one websites that provide blogs' tools which include, tagboard, blog skin, counters and etc. There are really a lot of tools and accesories. I think these tools actaully help to make our blogs look more vibrant and more lively. Some special features that I liked very much are poll board, clock and counters. I liked the poll board the most. I find that it helps me to "investigate" certain issues. hahaha! I am just kidding. poll board actually provide a wonderful opportunity for the readers to interact with you other then through tagboard.

Interesting huh? blogging involve so many websites and so many things.. =D

I can't wait. I can't wait. What exactly am I waiting for? I can't wait for things to move on. You know what's the feeling like when you feel like doing something but you are worried about something else? That feeling doesn't feel good!

I think for the past two days, I was kind of productivity. I did 4 Physics Paper 1 and 3 Chemistry Paper 1. not bad huh? hehe..

What's wrong with world again? sickening!

I liked Annette's 7th Nov's entry. It reflected how I feel.

It is really up you-juniors to play the game. At the end of the day, it is you who will be holding on to the certificate that reflect your performance in the team. You will be the one having the CCA grade.

This is what most people are expecting me to wear on 15th Nov- dress without heels. hahaha! It sounds a little bit funny to me. The reasons they gave are they have yet seen me in dress and if I wear heels I will be "too tall". hahaha!

This morning workout was great! However, I was unable to do certain exercise due to the injury. but nonetheless, it was still great! I spent one hour in the gym at Bukit Gombak Sports Hall. The conclusion that I got after the one hour workout is I need to go gym more often to regain my stamina and muscle strength. =_+

Back at home in the noon was pure slacking. haha! Only manage to get something done not long ago. Tried some MCQs (Chemistry). I realised that some facts have escaped from my brain. I need to read the textbook again. =_+

Recently found these 2 songs and I think they are quite nice.
着火 by Tai Ji and 5566
世界最美的风景 by 5566

I like this video too.



That's all for now.. =)

My shoes have pronouced dead. I mean my training shoes. I can't wear it on wet weather or else one of my foot will be soaked in water. The friction is totally gone. The material that covers the sole is worn-out.

I want to buy new training shoes! but...... I do not have the money at the moment..

Anyone wanna hire me? hehe..

Netball in the morning was fun. We ran, jumped, landed like old women! hahaha! My runs weren't very smooth. My landing didn't look right. My passes weren't very strong. The accuracy was fine though. My body was kind of stiff. I think it is time to recover what was lost during a month.

Anyone interested for jogs in the evening and/or morning?

That's about all for today.. =)

Today is Day 1 of part-time holiday.. Went out with (Tan) Li Ling and her sister, Li Zhen. Li Zhen is damn cute. haha! The three of us went Vivo city. We actually planned to looked for clothing for Graduation Lunch but in the end we walked around to look for the candies' shop. We bought nothing except candies.

Afterwhich, went for netball. Finally! However, I was a little bit disappointed. I didn't really like the way some people asked questions. maybe it my problem.. the number of people present for the training was disappointing.

Reached home at 7.30pm. I was a little bit demoralised by what my mother said. I don't like the way she tells me things. I felt that she is not supportive. I wondered if things are really that bad. I wondered why can't she just tell the problems that my brothers have into their faces.

I feel that something is not right.. *sigh*

I am finally back.. Ya.. finally..

The very first question from everyone, How's O? Honestly, my answer is like that lo.

Next, what are you going to wear for Graduation Lunch? Seriously, I have no idea. Really! I realised that I don't really to buy clothes. hahaha. Whether I am going to wear dress or skirt with blouse, I have no idea. Maybe pants and blouse. ha! Wearing heels? No idea. Maybe, maybe not.

When will I be done and have "freedom"? 13th Nov will be the offcial date. But, for now I can play a bit already.

The above questions are the most commonly asked questions. and ya..

During this period of examinations, a lot of things went past my mind. I mean a lot. I was thinking about netball. ah theee.. Well, obviously, there are a lot of netball matters. Sometimes I feel that I am trying my best to help people but it is so difficult when people don't help themselves. Sometimes, I really feel like letting out all my fustration but I know it is not going to help. What else can I do? I asked myself this. You may ask why am I bothering so much. I will tell you that this is where I was born therefore I want to make it better.

How can I keep the team keep going? Is this going to end? I hope not. But what can I do to make sure that things run smoothly? Feeling a bit loss in there. Calling someone over, will there be loads of changes? Will the team grow? or something that we don't wish will happen? I don't know.

and well.. I did thought about the future. this is complicated! I thought of what is my career going to be like.. but for now, I have yet get myself an answer. I did do some reflection as well. Seriously, I would like to say sorry to some people for whatever I have done.

During this examination period, I came across some ridiculous people as well. When I met those people, the feeling was seriously sucky. Shall not elaborate much on it..

Though there are *toot* people, there are very helpful people as well. Thanks for being there when I need you. I met encouraging teachers. I met supportive friends. Thanks!

I think these are the things that I came across during these few weeks.. =)

NBA new season has started. Miami don't look well. =_= Spurs looks good. =). Lakers.. eh.. looks not too bad. Derek Fisher is back at Lakers. =) Kobe Bryant and Derek Fisher should be putting up a good show, I hope.

My whole body is damn "itch". I can't wait to have things to do. haha. Anyone wants to go swimming? I feel like going for laps to master the skills. =) I want to go for runs! I can't wait to go for rounds at the hill near my house. I don't feel really right without sports. haha! People call me if there is any sports activities going on.. ya..? hehe..