2009 is coming!

说2008年过得快，也不快，说它过得慢，也不是非常慢。Through out the whole year, sometime I wished that time could travel faster but sometime I wish it could have travel much slower.

2008 has certainly been a happening year. =D Let's talk about a few special people that I met in 2008.

The first special person: Theresa Tan Wan Ying.
Haha! I hear you ask why. Haha. Before answering your question, let's talk about my first impression of her. I think she is a chatterbox. I met her in my JAE class. I can't remember how our friendship started. However, not long after our friendship started, I couldn't stand her being naggy. She can talk for hours non-stop. Slowly, I tried to drift away from her. Initially I couldn't. Not long after, we drifted apart. Oh ya, by the way, she is my PW-mate. Honestly speaking, she isn't a difficult person to work with but I have failed to understand her. Actually, she is a nice person. She treats everyone with her sincerity. I admire her always-do-her-best spirit. Throughout the year, I think I have truly failed to understand her. 2009, I would try my very best to understand her.

Next up, is a special teacher. Mr Simon Leow.
I hated him when I entered JJC for the first 3 months. He nags like an old woman on stage. I dislike naggy teachers. Then, sometime after JAE, he tagged people to be Bannister leader. Back then, I didn't want to touch leadership anymore. It was after his assurance that being Banni leader would still allow me to balance both academic and leadership, only then did I take up the role, Banni leader. This was how I entered the big leaders' family in JJC. Later in May, there was a Bannister Leaders Camp II. During the camp, I had my first project with Mr Leow - making 2 enormous banners for Sports Day. I changed my impression of Mr Leow after Sports Day. He isn't as bad as I thought he was. He inspired me to be a leader through this project. From then on, I participated more actively in JJC events. Being part of the big leaders family has certainly changed my life.

I would like to introduce a few special groups of people.

First up on the list: Team Seirios.
This team officially existed on 6th Jan 2008. We started off with about 10 players. Many of us were new to netball. We trained hard, we played hard too. Slowly we built friendship among ourselves. The team size grew with time too. We even went for tournaments. Our first tournament was Netballuxion. Being a newbie team, we weren't expecting much. But, guess what? We were just a step away from 2nd round. Afterwhich, we had our second tournament in August - Pesta Sukan. Another close fight. We missed the second by goal difference again. So close yet so far.

I think our team has come very far. I have grown from the team. I enjoy my time with the team. Those dinners, those birthdays celebration, those good old time. I don't know how long will we exist. Next training, on our 1st anniversary, could be the last training. Or maybe it will not be. No matter, I hope everyone will continue to burn your passion for netball, both males and females.

Next group of people is JJ Netball Team.
I started off not liking them too. I didn't like the spilt-ups in the teams initially. I have a tough time adapting to the team. I even had some conflicts with the team. In the end, I am back with the team after first three months. I was very lucky to be chosen for A Division Netball Championship. That was when I learnt to fit into the team. From acquaintances, we become close friends. A group of people who train together, play together, party together. I enjoyed my time with the team. Also, not forgetting the coaches, Ms Ng Yee Leen and Ms Choo Lay Kien. Without them, the team wouldn't have grown that much.

The most special place of the year award goes to Jurong Junior College. A school that I used to dislike and not believing in their values. But slowly, I learnt to appreciate the opportunities that the school give us. The school has provided us with a lot. THANKS!

Special events of the year...
1. Orientation
2. Bannister Leaders' Camp I
3. Sports Day
4. C Badge Test
5. Leaders' Camp, October 2008
6. House Council Field Cooking

JJ orientation has always known to be special. True enough. "Welcome to JJ. This way please." This is how the energetic leaders welcome the newbie. No other JC would play as much water games as JJ did for orientation. Everything about the orientation is just so unique. Don't be amazed by what a 3 days 2 nights camp can do to you. It can forged friendship that last for months, even years. This is the power of JJ orientation. But, a pity that I only get to attend 1 and 1/2 days of camp.

After being tagged by Mr Leow for Banni Leaders, we had a camp, just for this group of people. I had my first Song Singing Session. (I missed it during orientation.) I still remember how Wei Jie, Yi Hao and Mr Leow made fun of one another.

Next came the Sports Day. I have never tied so many lashes in a day before. I can rest assure you that my hands' skin split after all the tying. I have never construct such huge banners before. Neither did I have ever construct 2 14 by 24 feet banners over a night before. All these were done with less than 10 people. The worst that you could expect was that the structure collapsed when all the tying was done. The destruction was done by the wind. =.= As you know, Banni always has the never-say-die spirit. We repaired the parts that were destroyed. Honestly, I remembered when we wanted to repair the structure, I nearly wanted to give up. We have yet to sleep for the past near 27 hours. Our hands are badly burnt and also we are mentally drained. After repairing the structure, it is finally done by 10am. But the story didn't end here. The letters for Banni Taggie couldn't stay on the board. And also, one of the important letters were painted wrongly. We painted on the wrong side. But, hey, how can we let this minor problem interfere with having the success of our banner. We used cloth tape and we used another letter to replace the letter that was painted wrongly. Finally, 大功造成(All our hard work didn't go into waste.)！I feel so proud of myself for surviving through that tough night.

I had my C Badge Test on 22nd June 2008. I failed the test. With an injured knee and lack of stamina, I had a tough time umpiring the second half of the game. But, I am glad that I went for the test. It had injected a confident-building jab into me.

The Leaders Camp in October was a very special camp. I didn't wanted to go initially. I still remember the tiredness that I feel during the week before the camp. There were many events going on during that week. I never regret going for the camp despite my tiredness. I love the foam pool!

Then, after the Leaders Camp, there was a House Council Field Cooking. Haha! We cooked macaroni with mass tins and solid fuel. Cool stuffs, huh? I love my fondue! This gathering has definitely brought a step closer to one another.

I met special people. I have fantastic netball teams. I am in a wonderful school. 2008 had many unforgettable events. 2008 is definitely a colourful year!

I finished this post at 2am of 1st Jan 2009.

It was a tough decision. However, I have decided not to go for AYLC in 2009. I am very sorry. If I could spilt myself, I would. After Aik Song and Mr Leow have spoken to me, I reconsidered the trip thoroughly. I asked whoever I could, for their opinions.

I wanted to go back badly. I feel guilty for not being able to go. I want to meet everyone again. Jasmine, Qiu Shi Planning Comm., the teachers there... I miss the place too. If only AYLC wasn't held during that period, I can rest assure you that I will go!

Sorry people!

Christmas Party with netballers yesterday was fun fun fun! Thanks for organising it! =D

Back to reality: HOMEWORK! OMG! Since I started my homework on 17th Dec, I have only finsihed the following: Maths WS, Chem Rev WS, Carbonyl WS (except the MCQs). These are all that I finished in 10 days. Oh No! I still have organic WSssss, Bio Tut, Geog Tut and Chem Tut. 2 more weeks to school! OH NO!!! I want to have free time before school starts.

Going back to finish up organic WS now. BYE!

THANKS NETBALLERS and ANNETTE for the CARD!

Another productive day. :D

I had self training in the morning. Complete 4km in 26min 43s. Finished 150 shots in 22min. And had some other exercise. :D

I finished Chemical Bonding and Chemical Equilibrium! Yeepe!

Productive day. (yesterday)

I have finished revising 2 chapters of Chemistry. Also, sorted out some papers too. =D
Netball wise.. I think I could have performed better during the street netbal game. emmmm..

Today.. not very promising (not literally). Decided to rest at home instead of going to school to have self training. =/ Need to complete 3 chatpers of chemistry today!!!

Not very fruitful day.

Training in the morning was kind of slacked. I wasted my afternoon away. Then I packed my stuffs at night. And the packing is still not done yet. GRR!

I so feel like running a marathon! hehe..

A fulfilling day. =D

I clear up my area in the store room. I clear one of my shelf. My study table is in the mids of clearing. I wanted to clear up the table but it is too late in the night already. I started clearing my stuffs from 1.30pm and I stopped at 11.30pm. I looked through every single piece of papers! MY GOD!!

I expected my dad to scold me when he reached home. The result was exactly what I expected. I hecked and talked back! grr...

Honestly, I love my parents. But I just don't like the way do some stuffs at time. I hate the way my parents look down on me and my mum's sarcasm.

My parents hardly support me in whatever in do. This could be due to I am in Singapore. I have come to a conclusion about Singapore society. It is a society where it is protective yet they want you to venture out. Ironic, isn't it?

There are a few incidents that I never forget. I will never forget how my mum boast about my friend result to hint me how lousy my result is. I will also not forget how my dad talk about how lousy my English is.

What I hate most about my mum is the way she wants me to do things. I hate following every single things that she says. The most irritating part is that she loves to use sarcasm to talk to me. I always feel that I should have my own set of thinking. I know very well that I am very sensitive towards things around me. If something is mess up, I will clean it up but it is a matter of how long I will take to clean up the mess. However, my mum doesn't seem to be able to stand my speed of clearing up the mess and she will use her sarcasm to overcome me. I hate this to the core. Sometimes, I just feel like asking her to shut up. I don't mind her telling me what she expects out of me but can't she just stop using the sarcastic words to attack me?

And and and.. at home, I always judge what I need to do by looking at what my brothers do. If my brothers don't wash up the utensils after using, I don't see a need in doing so too. But out of nowhere, my mum will start screaming at me when I do so. This is such an unfair treatment.

Another thing that I hate it about my mum is that she love to help me to look for things once she sees me looking for things. For nuts sake, I hate this. I feel so useless and I feel so uneasy about this. I feel that I need to be perfect at home. Once I start looking for things, she would think that I am being careless and being useless for misplacing things.

I find this so true. Taahira once said sometimes, once someone tells you to do things, this will only get you pissed off and don't want to do things. This is just so true.

I am someone who do things when I see the need to do so. If you keep nagging, I will just get pissed off and not do anything. I so damn feel like talking back to my mum and tell her how I feel.

ARGH!

Looking back at my life, I found too many regrets.

Being someone who always plays by luck and also being someone who thinks that she is doing fine and realising mistakes, I have lead a life that I don't feel a sense of achievement.

What have I ever done to achieve what I want? To play at a higher level of netball, I didn't put in all that I can to train so hard that I can improve more than others. To be able to lead, I have never put in enough effort to commit. I have always been a lay back person. I tends to procrastinate. I am not treasuring the time that I have to achieve what I want.

There are too many things that I want to achieve but I just let the opportunity slip through my hands. I keep telling myself that I want to achieve but due to lack of self-discipline and lack of self motivation, I didn't achieve what I want at the end of the day.

Looking back at my secondary school days, honestly, I don't feel proud of myself. I don't think I have achieve anything. Compare to the rest of the students in JJC, my result in secondary school isn't fantastic. It is only average. Compare what I have learnt from NPCC to the batches of seniors before us, I think I have not learnt the most out of the 4 years that I spent there. Comparing what I achieve in netball to all the players in the nation, I think I am still lacking behind.

I have not achieve anything that I want in life. Nothing at all. The result of this is due to I have not tried my best.

For the remaining time I have in JJC, I want to make the best out of it and have fond memories of the school.

Event: 6A'03 BOOK YOU.

Date: 2nd january 2009, friday

Meeting Time/venue : 1230 at bukit batok MRT station the stairway area OR 1315 latest at Woodlands MRT station

Brief Description:
Basically, we will be eating lunch together at causeway point branch le seoul garden. There's supposed to be this student special price promotion, so we can patch up a smaller hole in our wallets. Sounds good? Yea, and catch up on each other's lives. Or do it like Audrey, spend the first few minutes trying to recognise the person sitting in front of you because you forgot too many faces already.

Rules must be followed: Each blogger must post this rules. Each blogger must start with ten random facts/habits about themselves. Bloggers that are tagged need to write in their own blog, ten things and post this rules. Don't forget to leave them comments telling them that they have been tagged and are to read your blog.

1. My dream home: cave!
2. I love netball.
3. I love big bags.
4. I like studying alone.
5. I have yet been to Malaysia.
6. My heels is 3 inches high.
7. I have not wore any skirts for 11 years(excluding school skirts).
8. I have only liked 2 people before.
9. I have never have a best friend before.
10. I love drawing.

Now tag 10 people to do this quiz.
1. Marianne
2. Ong Li Ling
3. Ai Ping
4. Qiao Ting
5. Merina
6. Jian Yi
7. Alicia
8. Deborah
9. Yong Qiang
10. Winnie

1. Who is the person that tagged you?
Michelle.

2. Relationship between you and her?
She is my junior, my teammate, my good friend.

3. Three impressions of him/her?
Ms Huh, Ms IDK, Good Friend

4. If she becomes your enemy, you will?
Tell her why she becomes my enemy.

5. What will you say to the person you like very much?
I will not say much rather have some little actions.

6. Characteristic I like about myself?
I love everything about myself but I also dislike everything about myself.

7. Characteristic I hate about myself?
(look at qn6's answer)

8. For the person whom you hate, you say?
Do you know why I hate you?

9. What do people feel about you?
In classroom, I am a serious person. On court, I am a cheerful person.

10. Your crush?
I don't know about this actually.

11. Pass this to 10 people
1. Marianne
2. Ong Li Ling
3. Ai Ping
4. Qiao Ting
5. Merina
6. Jian Yi
7. Alicia
8. Deborah
9. Yong Qiang
10. Winnie

12. If 5 and 7 were together?
They are lesbian.

13. Who does 5 like?
Sports.

14. What colour does 9 like?
I don't know =/

15. Say something about 8.
A crasy-fun girl.

16. Who is 2?
My good friend.

17. Talk about 3
My senior and I love her.

18. Who is 10's best friend?
Pei Shing.

19. Who's the sexiest among 10?
Emm.. all.

20. What colour does 4 like?
I don't know =/

21. Is 4 single?
No.

22. Your relationship with 1.
Good friend.

23. Are 5 and 6 best friend?
NO. They don't know each other.

24. 9's surname?
Cheong

25. 7's nickname?
don't have.

26. Say something to 7.
Fun-loving person.

27. Say something to help 9.
errm.. he is a good chairperson.

28. Who do i admire?
Look at qn 10's answer

29. Where does 1 live?
CCK

30. 10 of them know who you like?
No.

31. Say something to 6 when you see her/him.
Long time no see!

32. 10's spouse?
She is single.

To-Buy-List

1) Netball/Basketball Shoes (Grr, no size for netball shoes at the moment)

2) Skipping Rope
3) Slip-on
4) Sling Bag
5) Ankle Weights

Haha! So much sports stuffs right?

To-do-list
1) Chemistry Worksheet
2) Maths Worksheet
3) Revision for Geography
4) Revision for Biology
5) Pack my study table
6) Self-training
7) Bannister Event

Accomplish List
1) I clear my personnel shelf
2) I washed my shoes bag =)

Didn't do much things today. =/ but I watched Bolt yesterday though. I would rate 7.7/10. =D

Reading "The Box of Delight" by John Masefield.

Bad move?

Maybe, it was. Oh well...

GRRR.. I got to stop eating...!!!

Damn! I have yet to start any HOMEWORK at all!

Come on! I need to start working! A pile of homework waiting for me. =.+

Apparently, due to low altitude sickness (whatever), my head is kind of unstable. I feel sick once in awhile and currently, the only remedy is to sleep. I have been pig-ing for the past few days. I sleep at least 12 hours everyday. However, I still feel giddy at times.

Shoo, go away please! I wanna start bouncing around!!!!!

The trip was FUN FUN FUN though quite tiring at times.

Top of the World
Such a feelin’s comin’ over me
There is wonder in most everything I see
Not a cloud in the sky
Got the sun in my eyes
And I won’t be surprised if it’s a dream.

Everything I want the world to be
Is now coming true especially for me
And the reason is clear
It’s because you are here
You’re the nearest thing to heaven
that I’ve seen.

I’m on the top of the world lookin’
down on creation
And the only explanation I can find
Is the love that I’ve found ever since
you’ve been around
Your love’s put me at the top of the world.



I can't help but to feel hurt.