It is such a fustrating day.

For once, I feel that you are such a useless player. You worth nothing.

So selfish. So restricting.. WTH!

I hate PW.. It sucks!

Bad day for me.

Shoo!

I don't know how to say how tired I am. I don't know how to tell you how fustrated I am. Neither do I know how to tell you how reluctant am I now.

Why am I tired? Why am I fustrated? What am I reluctant about?

I have not been resting. Vigorous form of netball has been going on for 8 days and it will not stop until thurs. All right, maybe it is not vigorous for some of the days but lacking of sleep is worsening the situation. Sleeping for 5 hours a day? Looking at the homework, I really feel that tiredness. So much work to be done. So much! I get even more tiring when people whom I am working with is irritating me. I am really very tired.

To fail or to succeed, it is a choice of yours. I can't make the choice for you. But I can help you only if you are willing to help yourself. We can scream at you at every training but if you choose to ignore our advise, there is nothing that we can do at all. We are here to help you and not to harm you.

I really don't know how to open up and work with everyone. It is difficult. It is really difficult for me. It is really difficult for me to open up when I feel that you are very hard to approach. Really difficult.

I get sick and tired if I need to force myself to work. I am getting sick of school. I am quite reluctant to go to school. I always drag myself to school. HOLIDAY!! (but holiday will be very busy too!)

Thanks Mr Choo! I do wish I have the ability to have the spell. It really fustrates me!

It has been quite sometime since I last updated.

I have yet to get rid of that tiredness. I just can't wait for A level to be over. A level is kind of a pain to me, especially PW. I am getting sick and tired of PW. But yet, this is an important subject.

The work load is pressing hard on me. I am not too sure. But it seems to me that the work load has made me lose concentration in Netball. I find it difficult to play whole heartedly in Netball nowadays.

Just can't wait for A level to be over! Another year to go!

I felt guilty for it. Very.

Today..

I nearly fell asleep during biology lecture. After the lecture, my whole body was just so tired. It was just so tired... I never feel so tired before. This is my first time having my phsique to be so work out. For many moments, I wished I could just stop attending lesson and go home.

The academic part for the day finally ended at 3pm. Rushed to LN for Yi Hao's farewell party. We were constantly taking photos. Quite fun. Then , I was off to training at 4pm. I did some shooting only. At 4.30pm, I went for GP remedial. Thanks god, I went. I have been grumbling about it for the past 2 days. I think I have benefited from the remedial. I did learn quite a few things from the remedial. =D

After the remedial, which is near 6.15pm, went for netball for awhile. Played street netball. fun fun! Played all the way till 6.45pm. Went Jurong Point afterwhich. The whole bannister house council came together for the dinner.

Thanks Mr Leow for the dinner. A big thanks to everyone who turned up. All the best to Wei Jie and Yi Hao!

Okay.. GTG.. dead tired now.

Life will get better...

I think today is a great day other than got a little irritated by someone and the gastric. Netball training was "shoik"! It was long since I last trained like this. It was tough. For couple of times, I felt like vomitting. But, the fun overwhelmed everything. =D

Netball Rocks! =D

Things for today's training..
1. hold for longer beofre lunging out.
2. after moving back, there may not have a need to come forward again , go for the space.
3. NO MORE flamigo.

Lessons wise were fine. But the pain from gastric has reduced my concentration level. I am feeling much better now already. =D

and tada.. new skin.. I like the skin very much!

What's the reason?

All of a sudden, I just feel so excited about this. I just feel like travelling around the world.

I want to travel to...
Switzerland for the chocolate
Japan for Mount Fuji and sushi and many other Japanese food
Malaysia to just walk through the whole country
China to walk to every state and feel each and every culture
Hong Kong for the crazy shopping
New Zealand for the scenary

and many other countries...

I want to travel around the world to feel and see everything! I miss all the places that I have travelled to. I miss those places badly.

I miss King's Park. I miss Imaizumi family and Shibuya. I miss ZheJiang. I miss shopping at Hong Kong. I miss the night scenary at Macau. The world is beautiful.

I think this is what I want. But, life is yet to be perfect. I think my life is made up of 3 components:

1. Travelling
2. Netball
3. Family

Where's friends? True friends are part of my family. =D

Travelling wise, it will be a long term goal! =D
Netball is where I belong. I will continue to strive.

Family... I am very lucky to have my family with me. But, sometime, I can't help but to feel empty. Who doesn't want to have someone special by her side? For now, this is the last component that I have yet to fill. But, it's ok，慢慢寻找...

ha! good luck to me. I just realised hw much homework i hv not done!

I am back from Macau! =D The trip was a great one.

A lot of things went through my mind. Don't be afriad to be judged as long as you have tried your best. Nothing can be worst than not trying your best. Through this trip, there were many times when I wanted to give up on some parts of the trip. At times, I was quite unhappy with certain thing but I know this is life. What's the point of dwelling over the unhappy stuffs when there are so many other things to enjoy. If I were to focus on the unhappiness, life would have been very sad.

And by the way, I WENT TO MACAU for 8 DAYS and not 3 DAYS! haha! (inside joke)

Learn to appreciate one another strength and use your strength to cover up one another weaknesses. It is pointless to attack one another's weaknesses and harm them by doing so. It is really pointless to do so. You are just killing yourself by doing so. And worst of all, you are harming other innocents.

I asked myself who am I. What should I be? How should I be? Am I doing fine? Am I acceptable? I asked myself all these. Sometimes, I feel lost about myself. I do not know where to head to. I do not know what's right and what's wrong (though I know there isn't right and wrong). I really don't know. But, at least I know, at least I tried my best.

Life just seems so tough sometimes. It is so tough that I feel like giving up. But, I know this will not solve my problems. Solving the problems is the only way to get life going. Studies, studies and studies. Studies can be so hard to manage at times. However, we have no choice but to manage it WELL. This is the only solution. Yet, on the other hand, other things need to be managed as well. At times, I am afraid that I can't manage everything well enough. I am really afraid. And by worrying about it, is definitely not a solution to the problem. The only thing that I can do is to learn from the failure and do not commit the same mistakes again. This is the only thing that I could do.

Every walk of life has their owe problems. Being someone friend, has being a freiend's problem. Being a student, has a student's problem. Being a player, has a player's problems. No matter what are our roles in life, every roles has their owe problems. It is really up to us to see how we want to solve it. Different solutions will bring you to different heights. Different solutions will also allow you to see different sides of people.

Things to do:
1. Plan a study schedule. (Promo is coming!)
2. Finish up all the homework
-Chinese File
-Geography Essay
-Chinese Worksheet
-PW Blog
3. Buy all the necessary stationary from Popular
4. Get a new pair of sports shoes