Achievements in 2013

Daisy Tan Carnival (Marlins Air) - 4th
Surf n Sweat (Frenz) - 1st
Beach Netball (Frenz) - 1st
Mixed Social League (Frenz) - 1st
Katana Netball Carnival (Cookie Monster) - 2nd
Moulmein Netball Carnival (Elmo) - 2nd
Community Games / Netball (Wowberries) - 1st
Community Games / Basketball (Helltics) - 2nd
SunNUS (Frenz) - 1st
Ulu Pandan Carnival (Frenz) - 2nd
Netballuxion/Women (Frenz) - 3rd
Netballuxion/Mixed (Big Bird) - 1st
ENL/Mixed Club A (Frenz) - 2nd
ENL/Women Div 1 - 1st
POL-ITE - 3rd
Pesta Sukan/Mixed (Frenz) - 3rd
Pesta Sukan/Women (Marlins) - 1st
Infinity Carnival (Exalt) - Plate 2nd
Bali Flames Invitational (Just4Fun) - 3rd
Tampines West GRC Carnival (Powerpuff Gals) - 3rd
RP-Sembawang GRC Carnival (Gorgeous) - 1st

The Truth

I have yet to find the motivation to get me to be more involved in my course. In fact, I am not quite interested to ask for more from myself. I am not motivated to do well in the course. It feels like a useless course to me. I am carrying on with course simply because it is mandatory.

I know I need to be diligent, be interested, be inspired that my profession will help a lot of people and be well versed with the facts of all the modules. However, I am simply not interested nor inspired to be a physiotherapist. There are many reasons behind it.

The education system has made learning lifeless. It is all about know the facts, not about problem solving. We are probably no different from China's education where everyone is busy memorising the facts and does nothing else.

Result is the most important indicator of your success. Everyone focused on the result and not the learning process. If you do not score an A/B, you are deemed as an useless student who has chosen to be stupid. And you will be a great physiotherapist if you are in the Dean's list. I don't deny that result reflects your learning and your ability to comprehend facts. However, way too much focus has been placed on the result that no one cares about your learning.

No one cares about you. When everyone is so concerned with their results, no one has time to care for you. If you meet any difficulties, you are left to rot. I don't blame my friends nor my lecturers for being practical as the society has shaped them to be this.

Everyone believes that life revolves around studies if you different, you are thought to be a fool. As everyone is devoted to scoring A and thus, do not have any time to care for you, the narrow-minded folks will believe that it is stupid and silly to do anything beyond studies. In their opinion, 'work-life balance' is the stupidest phase. We then start chatting about life on different frequency. A strained friendship is usually the end result.

The above factors have distanced me from learning. No one understands all these. No one understands why I value fun learning more than the result. No one understands why I am feeling lonely. No one understands why I hate studying so much now.

Everyone only understands that by getting a diploma, it will get me a job with decent pay. Everyone only sees that I am a lazy person who refuses to be diligent. Everyone thinks that playing sports is silly, result is more important. Everyone thinks that I will fail.

What a year thus far!

Sometimes, I see how God is trying so hard to make me appreciate my course.

If it is not okay, it is not over. Work hard.

I went to look for my lecturer, Claudia, for help with regards to my shoulder issues. Well... Like any other physiotherapists I have met, I was grilled. It was more of a student-lecturer interaction than patient-therapist interaction. It was STRESSFUL. I didn't quite like it.

Despite the unpleasant session, my shoulder feels a lot better. I am determined to work hard. I HATE the feeling of being looked down.

Clinical attachment started 3 days ago. I thought the grilling session at Claudia's place was bad but the attachment was worse. I have never felt so incompetent.

I am quite discouraged on the first day. I could have made the choice to leave the course and do something else. Thus, having a negative mindset coupled with pressure from my supervisor, I felt really lousy and overwhelmed.

I am in the paediatrics department. It saddened me to see infants and adolescents who are born with diseases, deformity or genetic issues. I thought to myself that no matter what we do, the kids will never be perfect. They will only struggle in the future in our competitive society.

Today, I saw a DMD 30 years old patient. He inspired me. 30 years old is considered a long life-span for a DMD patient. Despite the challenges he faces in daily life, he continued to be a useful person and contributes to the society in every way he could. My profession helps to prolong his life and decrease his chances of infections.

I come to realise that my profession cannot make someone perfect. However, we can help to improve their quality of life and assist them to contribute the society in whichever ways they would like to.

Mui, it is not over yet.

November

Time flies. It is already November! 2014 is coming!

School is going into the fifth week and things are getting hectic and crazy. Despite the packed academic schedule, things are starting to look good too. I guess the turning point is my attitude towards things.I have learnt how to let go things faster than I used to. I have also learnt to begin every judgement with a positive view. It makes life A LOT easier and I handle less troubles.

Clinical 2B is starting soon. Everything will be great! :)

September - The Month Of Traveling

I have traveled 23 days as of this moment. I first went to Taiwan where I was welcomed by the warmth and the friendliness of the locals. Then, I flew to Australia on 21 Sep where I was welcomed by lovely weather.

Taiwan has been a great and fun trip with my fellow netballer, Jia En. We have explored so many places!

Here's the list of places that we have been to: Seven Stars Bay, Taroko Gauge, Hengchun Ancient Town, Chu Huo, Ah Jia De Jia (Hai Jiao No. 7), Mao Bi Tou, Hou Bi Hu, Bai Sha, Wu Shan Ding Mud Volcano, Dream Mall, Art Pier 2 Area, Qing Liang Farm, Monster Village, Carton King, Swiss Garden, Cing Jing Farm, Miniature Museum, Shi Lin Night Market, Xi Men Ding, Bei Tou, Dan Shui, Zhong Xiao East Road.

After a short break in Singapore where I attended a course and catch up with my family, I flew off to Sydney for 6 days before heading to Brisbane.

Here are the places that I have visited: Royal Botanic Garden, Manly beach, SeaLife Aquarium, Madame Tussaud, Sydney Fish Market, Taronga Zoo, Bondi Beach, Bronte Beach, Powerhouse Museum, Sydney Tower (with a sky walk), The Grounds @ Alexandria

I am currently in Brisbane. Heading for a nap now to relax and will be heading out for a run along the Brisbane river in awhile :)

Thanks for all the love thus far! Nice meeting all the people that I have come into thus far! Off to Gold Coast at 5am tomorrow!

Training for this week

Monday: 400D, 100S X 3 sets (Skipping)
Tuesday: 5km run 32:13
Wednesday: Hamstring Raises 6 reps X 2sets (single leg)
Thursday: 100m bs X 10, 50m bs, 50m fs X 10 (SWIM), 25m x 8 water running, 25m x 4 side step in water

My Travelling Goals before 30 years old

I started exploring beyond Singapore when I was 15 years old. It started with a trip to Perth, Australia with my secondary school. The postcard worthy sceneries spark my interest to explore the world.

In 2010, after leaving SMU, I went on a road trip with a friend to North Island, New Zealand for 15 days. We moved around NZ in a campervan, travelling more than 3000km. I found new definition to travelling. It is not just about the beautiful sceneries. Neither it is about the exotic food you find along the streets. Travelling is about the connection with the locals and experiencing the culture.

Over the last eight years, I have been to many Asian countries. The experiences have been rewarding thus far. I am not going to just stop here. I have a list of places that I would like to visit before I turn 30 years old.

1) One month tour around Netherlands, Germany, Czech Republic and Denmark
Travelling around Europe is easily any traveller's dream. These four countries have rich history and castles that are of hundreds years old. One month would be perfect, given the amount of holidays I have. It won't be too short to explore each country. Amount the four countries, The Bone Church at Prague, Czech Republic would be the most anticipated attraction to visit.

2) Two weeks tour around Seoul, Korea
Korea has always been famous for their cosmetic products that are dirt cheap. Korea has definitely more than just that. During spring, the blooming flowers turn the gardens and parks into romantic walk ways. A walk around Jeju Island would bring you to the heaven.

3) Cycle from Tibet to Nepal.
Nepal is located near Mount Everest while half of Mount Everest  is part of Tibet. Being a city girl, it is always blissful to be surrounded by mountains. Many people have travelled by four wheels to the base of Mount Everest. It will be very cool to travel to the base of Mount Everest with only two wheels. After leaving Tibet, immerse oneself with simple lifestyle at Nepal. Do a hike up at one of the many mountains in Nepal.

What's Left For August?

Okay, August is going to be a busy month for me with the activities lined up.

14: Swim + Run
16: Run
17: Pesta Sukan + Zenith BBQ
24: Peiru House Warming
25: Railway Mall Expedition
26: First Aid Course
27: First Aid Course
28: First Aid Course
31: PSC Umpiring

Looking great for a fulfilling month!

Inspired

I read about this lady, Pamela Lim. She is amazing. She believes that every child has a talent or otherwise talents. As long as you use the right method, you can bring out the true potential of the child.

I have been struggling with coaching. I see myself improving over the last few years but I have yet truly build a team. Pamela mentioned that it is more important for a child to motivate himself to success than to success because we have pushed him. He goes a longer way.

I see the same as Pamela.

It is time to rethink the structure of my coaching sessions.

Amazing things you find online

Free e-books
http://www.hongkiat.com/blog/20-best-websites-to-download-free-e-books/

Lovely online education resources
http://www.lifehack.org/articles/productivity/20-places-educate-yourself-online-for-free.html

Blogs about fitness
http://www.lifehack.org/articles/communication/12-fitness-blogs-check-out-you-want-strong.html

Public Holidays

It sucks pretty much to study during public holidays. Public holidays are the only time where people around you are free. It kills the mood to enjoy with exams round the corner. At the same time, I am not in the mood to study. This just sucks.

I have been sleepless for the last few nights. I need to get back to the regular sleeping hours.

I will be doing my first race since last April. Go, Go, Go!

Friendship

I think friendship is amazing. You form friendship in the most unexpected manner while some friendship just can never be formed. It feels like sometimes God has determined who should be around you and how close they should be with you.

I do believe that there are true friendship. I definite true friendship as people who will be there for you regardless of what they have been through with you. These people stay close with you even though you may not have spend a lot of time with them. But, every moment spend together are sincere. These friends deserve the best from you. They should only be treasured and never ever spend a moment that you are sincere. These friends stay with you for life time.

I have met most of my best friends in the most unconventional ways. I just want to tell them, thanks for being around me. I love you guys.

Apart from my best friends whom I have true friendship with, the rest are complicated.

Colleagues, project mates, classmates and any people whom you have relationship with due to activities or formal work may or may not end up as your friends. I find them the most complicated people. Some of them do eventually become some of your best friends. When they are yet to be, they are divided into many categories.

Worker Partner
These group of people are related to you nothing more than work. I usually don't consider them as friends simply because I can't open a conversation with them beyond work.

Friends
They are people who you can strike conversation with, have a meal together and do things beyond formal work together. However, you may not share personal things with them. Sometimes, this is due to different ideology or different interest. They just don't have the patient to listen to you.

Good Friends
This is closest level to best friends. You could almost do anything with them. You share most of your stories with them. The only reason why they are not your best friends yet is that you are not sure if they will be there for lifelong or you don't have that special connection yet.

I am thankful for how God have placed people around me. I will enjoy the friendship while it last.

English, I used to hate you!

I am amazed with how I am still catching up with blog. The blog is 8 years old and still going strong.

I used to hate writing and reading. I have learnt to appreciate it and see the importance to them well. I am still not at my best yet. However, I am consistently trying to improve my language ability. I used to dislike languages, especially English. Chinese was not much of a problem for me but English was. Every year, I need to pass English in order to be promoted. It was a pain to ensure that I pass my English.

During my JC days, I picked up journalism. It was difficult to put a piece of news together. To begin with, it was tough to write a proper sentence without grammar error. Forget about the vocabulary. That's way to tough. Years in Red Sports have definitely helped to improve my writing ability and changed the way I view language.

There are still many words that I do not understand their meanings but I will continue to try. Language has empowered me. Not only can I communicate with other people, it allows me to catch up with the events that are happening around the world. Most importantly, language helps to deliver a message.

I am happy with what I have achieved thus far. This is not it. I want to be better at it.

Adevnturous

I am feeling adventurous now! haha!

List of toys to explore:
1) Bike
2) Skates

List of crazy things to do:
1) Dive
2) Ski
3) Yoga
4) Trekking

woohoo!

My Record Sheet Thus Far

Daisy Tan Carnival (Marlins Air) - 4th
Surf n Sweat (Frenz) - 1st
Beach Netball (Frenz) - 1st
Mixed Social League (Frenz) - 1st
Katana Netball Carnival (Cookie Monster) - 2nd
Moulmein Netball Carnival (Elmo) - 2nd
Community Games / Netball (Wowberries) - 1st
Community Games / Basketball (Helltics) - 2nd
SunNUS (Frenz) - 1st
Ulu Pandan Carnival (Frenz) - 2nd
Netballuxion/Women (Frenz) - 3rd
Netballuxion/Mixed (Big Bird) - 1st
ENL/Mixed Club A (Frenz) - 2nd
ENL/Women Div 1 - 1st
POL-ITE - 3rd

Motivations

• You don't need to be famous to inspire others. Being yourself and making every action of yours counts will inspire people around you. You can make the difference in someone's life simply with small actions.
• How far ahead should we plan? How much should we treasure about our present? At the end of the day, everyone will just tell you that life is fragile. 
• 或许我们在找寻别人的认同时，失去自己对自己的认同。What matter most is the faith you have in yourself. Don't lose it just because people around you think otherwise.
• 有人说我很强和我有打不死的精神。所以，她叫我小强！哈哈！
• You are no different from a dead if you have no goal, no dream. Dream big. Dream is the only thing that is free of charge and yet allows you to achieve most!
• If you think adventure is dangerous, try routine. It is lethal. (from a friend)
• Selflessness is about letting yourself free 

A Busy Weekend

Long to-do-list!
1) Neurophysiology revision
2) MS notes for practical
3) MS practical tutorial
4) EPA practical revision
5) Psychology to Netball Singapore
6) SCC June Coaching Sheet
7) Dad's taxi sign

Stress

I am quite stressed up with all the things that are going to happen next week. :(

I hate selfish people! ROAR!

JULY!!

This July is so packed! Sometimes, or rather on many occasions, I just feel like giving up. It is really tough to maintain a good balance with everything. I don't quite agree that life should be like this. Sometimes, I feel that I am living in fear. It is scary!

15 Jul: POL-ITE
16 Jul: Research Methodology Presentation
17 Jul: POL-ITE
18 Jul: EPA exam
19 Jul: Neurophysiology Exam and POL-ITE
20 Jul: Div 1 Final
22 Jul: Statistics Exam and POL-ITE
23 Jul: MS Exam
24 Jul: POL-ITE
25 Jul: NP and CP Exams

Dear GOD, I need the strength to survive this and do well in them!
I know I am not going to give up. I hope with you help I will be able to strive for excellent.

Travelling soon!

I am getting really excited for the Septemeber trip to Taiwan and Australia!

Work hard for my results! Save lots of money for the trips!

I can do it! YEAH!

Budget for Taiwan: SGD$2000
Budget for Australia: SGD$2500

June

Been sometime since I last wrote a post. Life been hectic and messy.

Nonetheless, I have enjoyed my birthday celebration with varies groups :) Thanks people :)

May is coming soon!

April is coming to an end!

It has been an amazing and fruitful month. Life is filled with ups and downs, as usual. Losing confident in myself to play netball was one of the greatest challenges that I faced this month. I asked myself who am I. Thanks for helping me to get back up, Jean! I know I am not back yet but I am coming back slowly.

NYP Netball has been giving several issues. So much so that I had enough. It is time for me to move on. Oh well!

Highlight of the month: I went to Bangkok alone! For the first time in my whole life, I traveled alone! I have met amazing people, eaten delicious delicacies and shopped till drop. Haha!

I am proud of my Juying girls. They are growing everyday. :)

New Blog Skin

I have changed the background of the blog. I like it a lot!

It feels great when you are able to making someone smile. =)

Life Gets Insane!

Life can get really crazy sometimes. Life challenges both your mental and physical abilities all the time. Life can get so harsh that you feel like giving up. Then, you look back and see how life first begin.

Life hasn't been easy and I know it will not get easier. It will only challenge me to be a stronger and better person.

During the process, I may get worn out, be filled with frustrations, learn many things and meet lots of people.

I can't thank all my friends enough for standing by me through all the hard times and be there for me to share joys with them. I can't appreciate my family enough who are there everyday. I can't thank life enough for all the opportunities that have been presented to me thus far. Life is beautiful. I just need to learn the beauty of it. Life has been good thus far. It will only get better.

I am ready to work really hard. I have sorted out my mind and prepared myself to fight the battle.

I have wondered many questions and I am amazed of how God unfold the answers.

I have been asking myself several times to find the answer to my purpose for studying physiotherapy. Recently, I found the answer. It is for me to help the people around me to maintain a good physical health. Quitting the course will not allowed me to learn more knowledge to help more people.

On another occasion, I asked myself how could I appreciate myself better. I found the answer in the end.

Life is amazing. Keep believing!

I read a note from Joyce about how umpiring is about the joy of umpiring and not the outcome of umpiring. It is not the fame that is important. It is the ability to conduct a fair game for the players that matter.

I think this apply to many aspects of life. Enjoy the process. Let the result take care of itself. Allow the passion to do its job.

Happy 2013!

Happy New Year!

I have thought for very long before I was able to come out with my goals and resolutions for 2013.

1) Catch a sunrise.
2) Y1.2, Y2.1 results: 3.3 for each semester
3) Run standard chartered marathon
4) Compete in Lifesaving Still and Open Water Competition
5) Be disciplined in strengthening programme and trainings