2014 At One Glance

Today is the last day of 2014. How should I sum up 2014? I have probably experience the best thrilling and the most heartbreaking moments of my life thus far.

2014 has been an amazing journey with lots of ups and downs. Nonetheless, I am very thankful for everything that happened in 2014. Here's a recap of the best moments in 2014:

Although we have broken up in probably one of the worst fashions, being with you was still one of the best things that have happened to me in 2014. I enjoyed the good times that I have spent with you. Thanks for all the love that you have shown. Although it was just a short period of 6 months,, the relationship has taught me many valuable lessons. Although I wish that we could have last forever, I believe everything happens for a reason, you entered my life for a reason and you left my life for a reason. I am not ready to talk to you again. I wished we didn't break up the way we did. I was shocked with what you said and I felt disgusted. But then again, everything happens for a reason.

Nanyang Polytechnic Netball Team was probably one of the most challenging netball team that I am ever in. I have been through the most heartbreaking match ever when we lost by 4 to Temasek Polytechnic during the IVP. I have also been through the most satisfying win ever when we beat Temasek Polytechnic by 12 during the POL-ITE. I have overcome a lot of mental challenges to lead the team into POL-ITE. I doubted my abilities and my capabilities during the the process. I am glad that my teammates and the management gave me the boost to come back stronger. I am glad that everything turned out fine. I am honoured that I am able to inspire my fellow teammates to strive for excellence.

I am falling in love with water sports. I could never imagine myself enjoying water sports but I did! It was definitely a wonderful experience with cave hiking, white water rafting, waterfall abseiling, jetskii and banana boat! And of course, the people made the experience perfect. Life's good!

2014 was probably a test for the friendships. It just seems to have endless challenges. I can't be thankful enough to have all my good buddies who have stayed through these tough times with me. Many of them were there with me through all the challenges. I couldn't ask for better friends than you guys. Thanks for being so patient with me. Thanks for hearing all my rants and yet still always so ever ready to hear my rantings. Thanks for always checking me out. I love those magical moments where you guys were there for me although I didn't ask for it and yet I needed you guys badly. Thank you!

Being in the Dean's List was like a dream coming true. I can't rant enough about how much I hated school. There are so many people to thank for making the school life a much better experience. The lecturers in my course are always so understanding towards my circumstances. They never questioned me instead they trusted me. They never failed to offer a helping hand whenever I felt helpless. I am very thankful for the clinical supervisors who have inspired and guided me during my clinicals. They helped me to see my role in healthcare setting. They helped me to see beyond just working in the industry but I am there to offer a hope for the patients. The SAO have played an important role in helping me to cope with my multiple commitments. I was probably not the best captain but they never discriminate me. They are always so concerned and trusted me to do my jobs. Thank you!

It has been a rollercoaster ride with my family. It just seems like there are endless issues to resolve. However, no one ever gave up on anyone. In fact, my parents were just so understanding. Thank you!

Reality of Fear

You are not scared of dark. You are scared of what's in it.

You are not afraid of heights. You are just afraid of falling.
You are not afraid to show how much you care. You are afraid of rejection.
You are not afraid of love. You are just afraid to accept the reality that they are gone.
Your are not afraid to try again. You are just afraid of failure and of getting hurt again

What's Next?

I don't know what's next for us. I really don't know. We have been in this uncertain state for 1 month plus and counting. I don't know how long more this will last. I also don't know what's the outcome. Things may eventually work out. Things may come to an end. I must admit that I don't like this uncertainty. I am fearful of the less ideal outcome.