Yesterday is finally slightly more productive. Finished whatever that is OVERDUE.

Had some netball yesterday. My thighs are still not stable yet, that wobble feeling is still there and climbing stairs is just a hassle for me. My stomach is feeling the aching too. I had better start conditioning myself. =/

Nothing much for today. really.

Nothing to be said. =/ but I know...

Life oh life.

For a few moment, life got quite stressed-up. But everything toned down after talking to a friend of mine. Thanks, buddy.

I was a little troubled with netball. Things were a little shaky. But, I think... oh well, what can I do?

Have been slacking around for 3 days. It is time to get starting but feeling abit lay back and not wanting to get my engine starting. =P I will make it working tmr! EM!

All right, that's all for now, bye!

The week has just been so busy. I won't say exactly extremely busy but rather my time management was not very good. But guess what, the week is OVER! Finally! surviving through this week has been really tough for me. The pressure for some days was really great! It was almost to an extent that I wanted to give up on every single thing! But it's ok, it's all right, THE WEEK IS OVER!!

All of a sudden, I felt that emptiness. An emptiness that I want to fill it up badly.

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Hui Mui is here complaining about life.

Sometimes, I really dislike the way the education system works. We have to study so hard so hard just to produce a certificate that looks "nice". Studying so much in such a short time, really kills at time. Just looking at myself, sometimes, I wonder why am I studying so intensively when I may not make it to the top of the nation. Well, I perceive that only scholars are needed in Singapore. Being non-scholar, might as well concentrate on something else which I enjoy and I want to strive in.

Being a non-scholar, there are so many areas in society that you will not be wanted. However, everyone will just push you to be a scholar. Forcing one to study so hard so hard that he has to give up/ ignore about other things in life. the education system is so intense that if you are not smart, it is impossible to take up things that are beyond your study scope.

Worst of all, the intensity of the education system has made people to lose interest in things that they are doing. Well, people argue that the intensity do challenge people to be better. I agree to it. But when a rubber is pull way too tight, it snaps. The intensity is way too much. It is beyond what we can handle. Just look around you, how many people are motivated to study, how many can give full concentration to their talent without having them as a burden. Not many. Those who can make it are probably those scholars.

I know the world is competitive. I understand the reason behind to keep up with the competitions but is it worth to have such an intense system that people are so not welling to believe in the system?

Then, when you become an adult, you will be working under even more intense working environment where you will be expect to be perfect. Being imperfect, will only cause you to be outcast.

I remembered not long ago, a friend told me Japan has the highest suicide rate. And the reason is very obvious - People can't cope with the intensity of the society. The same applies to our local society. We are constantly chasing after an ever going bullet train.

Studies is important but is it way too important that it causes life to be colourless?
The society is competitive but is it way too intense that people can't take it anymore?

Argh!

Seriously, if you are not serious, you get out of the court. You are not welcome at all. You are not wanted neither are you needed. Keep complaining and complaining. Not that you can't but please find a solution to it. It is pointless to keep complaining and can't be bothered with the problem and expect me to solve it for you. What on earth is this.

It's already 5 months. FIVE months. The sixth month, we will be charging out to fight. And yet, now everyone is moving away. The progress is just not up to expectation.

ARGH!

A lot of things happened over the week. There's good and there's bad. But overall, I think I enjoyed myself over the week.

Tuesday was enjoyable having a day back with Hillgrove Netball Team. It was fun! However, umpiring needs lots of improvement. Gonna keep working on it.

Wednesday.. I couldn't remember much but I know I was not feeling happy before the Leaders' meeting's captain's ball. Oh yes, I remembered. I hated the attitude of certain people. But I think I have got over it. After the meeting, stayed back to study and enjoyed myself.

Thursday.. OH MY! haha.. We rocks, don't we? =P

Friday, what a roller coaster ride we had. Phew. But we succeed in the end! Bannister rocks to the core! Just so love you guys!

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Was just browsing through your friendster photos. I can't help but to let my heart to skip a beat when the photo of you in that school uniform appeared. All of a sudden, I was reminded of why I spent this 4 to 5 years doing what I have done. But. I know. Everything. Is. Over. Life has moved on.

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I was always reminded that we have grown. Sometimes, the past was just so warm. Sometimes, I just feel like sinking back into the past and enjoy everything again. The past is so cozy, so nice. I miss the past badly, really badly...

Oh well.. today is quite a bad day. Nothing much went well today. In fact, it is just such a wrong day today. *sigh* Feeling guilty, feeling bad, feeling wrong. Sorry!

It's ok! It's all right! Let's keep the heads up for tomorrow! Life will be better. Just keep the faith strong..! Jia You!

Haha.. poor Jaclyn! Hey, let's keep our faith strong. Let's work things out together.. Jia YOU!!!!!!

Feeling tired right now. Plysically and a little bit of mentally.

Thanks Sam. Much better now.

Life is great when you do it!

Keep going people, I know we can do it!

Things for today:
1. block out for your friend.
2. block or run OUT, do not stone there or run between 2 defenders.
3. WATCH OUT for DEFENDERS, do not force the ball over.
4. Rebound!
5. Keep trying for every chance to defend.
6. Only the final whistle counts.
7. Stop your flamingo.
8. Be careful of your stepping!

It is reaching a level that I can't hold it anymore. HELP! There are so much things to withstand. Sometimes, I can't help but to hate people. Trying hard to stay positive, stay calm, but sometimes, things really sucks. ARGGHHH!

I don't know why but all of a sudden I miss you like I never did before. The miss was just so deep. I just wanted to have you so much be it physically or verbally or whatever.

Can I have you?

Fustration continuously piled up. But there's only one thing that I can do - keep the faith strong and just move on with life.

人来人去，没有永留，但记忆只来却没离开。

Let's just keep the faith strong! JIA YOU!!!

The weekend is going to end in another few hours. I didn't spend this weekend usefully. I would say that I am simply wasting my time away. Or rather I was not aware what I am suppose to do at all. I am in lost-mind now. I just always hate this feeling of being lost and I know very well that I can't affird to be lost at all especially in such a competitive country.

I feel like doing this but yet my mind is on something else. Argh!

Things:
1. Geography Test
2. Geography Worksheet
3. Biology Exam
4. English Article
5. Maths Tutorial 6
6. Bio Tuturial 5
7. Chemistry Test
8. PW

Things are pretty screwed up. Just like I previously mentioned, everyone just simply can't be bothered. Why should I then? Everyone is just so selfish. ARGH!!! STUPID MAN!!!! And the weather is just not helping.. rain please!

Thanks peeps! Thanks for your concern, love you guys! We are a team, the one and only team that we have! Go JJ!

All right.. let me go and vent all my fustration to the water!

ARGH! irritated!