It's 29th December 2007 already! 2 days and a few more hours left for 2007. Wow!

All right, it is such a rare sence that I don't update my blog for a few days for this December. Actually, I wasn't busy these few days but I was just to tired and lazy to update my blog. =P All right, so what have happened these few days?

These few days I hadn't been feeling very much well. On thursday night, my body was giving me signals that I need to sleep early if I don't want to fall sick. Yesterday, my ankle was kind of hurting and today, the sun made me haywire. I am feeling sort of dizzy right now. =_+

Despite being sick, there were quite a number of activities going on. On Thursday, I had a hair cut in the morning. I cleared all my papers in the afternoon (finally). All the workseheets, mock papers, test papers and notes are well filed up and neatly arrange. I realised how small my house is. I didn't have much space to put my files. I could only stack them up and put them on my drawers. The shelf in the storeroom now is packed with books. Seriously, clearing all these papers gave me an excellent sense of satisfaction. =) Nothing much for the night afterwhich.

Friday was suppose to be boring since the court is yet available for training. However, after meeting, Shi Jie, Alia and Michelle my day was changed. We had lunch at Causeway Point and played basketball afterwhich. It has been such a long time since I last played basketball out of school. The last time I played outside school was 28th Dec 2005. Oh my goodness! You know what? It is exactly two years apart! Ha!

I was out at Kallang today. I was under the sun for 2 hours. THese 2 hours of sun made my head go round and roung which usually don't happen in the past. I think it has been really quite sometime since I was under the sun. All right, I think I need another rest. BYE!

Sorry Li Ling, can't join you for tomorrow, I think I needed a rest.

1. Do the following WITHOUT complaints

2. Choose 5 people to do this after you completed yours

3. Leave a tag on he person’s tagboard to say he/she have been tagged


Favourites

Colour: All colours


Food: Anything that is edible

Song: Yan Lei De Wei Dao (The Flavour of Tears) by Energy

Movie: Don't really like movies.

Sport: Netball.

Season: Spring.

Ice-cream: ALL.


Currents

Mood: Neutral

Taste: My mouth is empty

Clothes: white t-shirt and shorts

Desktop: HP Pavilion a1377d media center PC

Time: 0911hrs

Surroundings: HP, house phone, steering wheel, speakers, tv, headphones, mic, printer, joystick gearbox etc .

Annoyances: nil.


First

Crush: identity is protected.

Movie: Lion king??

Music: National anthem


Lasts

Cigarette: nil

Drink(alcohol): Singapore Sling

Car Ride: nil

Phone call: yesterday, 8 sec

CD played: upgraded to MP3(long time ago)


Have you ever

Dated your best friend: no

Broken the law: siao

Been arrested: then can I be still here?

Skinny-dipped: upper ini?

Been on TV: Yup.ITS SHOWTIME! Cheerleader

Kissed someone you don’t know: you need a mental doctor?


5 things that you are wearing:

1. T-shirt

2. Shorts

3. Undergarments

4. Spectacles

5. Watch


4 things you’ve done today:

1. Eat

2. Sleep

3. Use computer

4. Use HP

5. Stand up and Walk


3 things you can hear right now:

1. More than words by extreme (song)

2. Vehicles passing by

3. My grandma rattling pots and pans


1 thing you do when you are bored:

Find that SPECIAL PERSON=)


5 people:

Nobody force you to do nothing.

Nothing much happened yesterday. I only managed to cleaned my clothes drawers, cleared some papers and wrote some cards. Didn't finish everything that I wanted.

As for today, the afternoon was suppose to be devited to netball but due to some reasons the training is cancelled. It wasn't too bad for me, I guessed. I made use of the time I had to clear up A LOT of things. I washed my ankle and knee guards. Cleaned my bag (FINALLY!!). Cleared a whole stack of papers. Not bad Not bad.. hee hee.. =)

For tonight, gonna write finish all my card and sent the email out!!! I had better do so man!! If possible, I will clear my table as well. The table is once again in a mess.

Since I get things done faster than I expected it of myself, shall have a change in plan...

Plan for tomorrow:
Morning - Hair Cut (my hair is kind of long now )
Afternoon - Arrange and pack my shelf in the storeroom plus self training
Night - Revision and Reading

Sometimes we may just don't know what will happen next. Not that I am being permisstic but rather, I just don't what will happen next, seriously.

Seriously, I want to tell you that I have never get over you. I want to hold your hand. I want to be with you. I really didn't want the night to end. I asked you if you are in hurry because I wanted you to stay. I wished we didn't just ate our food that night. I wished we could spend more time together that night. I will not mind even if I were to stay by your side till the next day.
emm...
I hope I didn't see that look wrongly. Were you telling me somethng through that look that day? Were there a message for me?
emm...
I wished the phone call didn't end even if I have to pay more when the bill comes. I wished the night was spent on phone with you. I don't mind talking to you till my saliva dries up. I just want to be with you. I like you. I really hope to hear from you if you ever fall for me even if I am not around. This is all for you, 52637 T.
Things went through me mind... Life can just be so unpredictable at time..

Ahh.. Holiday is coming to an end. It is soooooo fast!!! Countdown.. 7 more days to 2008! Oh goodness!!

I have still a few more things to do for 2007!! Got to work extra hours! lol!

I was out at Christine's Birthday yesterday. It was all right, I guess. We were just talking and talking and cam-whoring.. Then, was out at CDANS swimming pool today with LI Ling. It was not bad. =)

Plan for the rest of the holiday:

25th Dec:
Morning - Clean the clothes drawers
Afternnon - Send email and write finish the cards
Night - File in half the paper s

26th Dec:
Morning - Wash my bag and send out all the cards
Afternoon - clear some papers and off for netball till night

27th Dec:
Morning - Clear the remaining papers
Afternoon - Clear my table plus self training at home
Night - reading

28th Dec:
Morning - Pack my table
Afternoon - Lessons and off to netball till night

29th Dec:
Morning - Lesson
Afternoon - Nap (hehe =P)
Night - Reading

30th Dec:
Morning - Get everything ready for a new year
Afternoon - Off to netball till night

31st Dec:
Shall keep this day as it is.. =)

All right, gonna work on stuffs now..

Thanks... but.......................

I need to spend every second wisely from now onwards. I realised how much more things I need to do before the new year starts.

- write 2 cards
- write an email to Mrs Lim
- Clean my drawers
- Clear those stacks of papers
- Wash my bag (I am really lazy to do this)
- Clear my table
- Build up my stamina
- Do reading (been trying to do so but for reasons, nothing much is done, =_=)

Oh goodness.. so many things to do yet not much time left.

It feels like a burden to me. I really want to enjoy the game without any burden on me. To come to think of all the related problems, I always feel the pressure. I want to feel flying when on court. I know there's one person who feel worse than I do. It is just so difficult to hang in there. I really hope someone can help the both of us. I really hope so...

Hold my hand, will you?

我不知道我是用什么感觉感情来对待你。

Today's theme is Friends.



Honestly, I feel that I do not have many friends in Hillgrove. Although I am known for a student who involve in almost every single programme in Hillgrove.

2007 is coming to an end! 10 more days for 2007 only! Time flies, didn't it? 4 years of life in a school which I didn't predict that I will be in, has passed. I am truly amazed by what I have been through. Everything has made me grow. Thanks to everyone who has given me everything.

For the next few entries will be some flashback about my days in Hillgrove Secondary School. Each entry will have different theme. Today's theme will be CCA.

Honestly, I didn't enter Hillgrove with the mindset of carrying on with Netball. I remembered I wanted to join CCA like NPCC, Badminton and Girls' Brigade. However, during the CCA day, I only signed up for Netball. Yet, after the CCA day, I went for Basketball try out. I got into the team but sometime after the selection, I decided to withdraw. Then, I was in NPCC. Seriously, this was a little bit unexpected for myself. Despite how much I wanted to be part of NPCC in my primary school days, I didn't notice much about NPCC during the CCA day and it wasn't my first choice of CCA. Yet in the end, NPCC became my first CCA.

Only in June 2004, did I go back to Netball.

Since June 2004, I had 2 CCAs. Throughout these years, it wasn't easy to handle both of them well. There were days where trainings for both crashed with one another. There were days where I missed NPCC trainings due to tournaments. I had numerous quarrels with Miss Wang over these. The quarrels made me detest NPCC for quite somewhile. Now, I understand all the scoldings and naggings that she gave me. I think she is actually very kind to me. If I were her at that time, I think I would have been worse. All the scoldings and naggings that she had given me, really made me learn. I feel that they are very precious despite how much I hate them.

Apart from the struggle of handling both CCAs, I think most of the every other part of the memories of both CCAs are pretty sweet though I have some regrets. In netball, I think I was one of the very lucky few to be able to represent Hillgrove for years. I still remember I started representing Hillgrove when I was in Sec 2 for B Division. Although I didn't play much in the zonal tournament in 2005, I am still glad that I am in the team. However, there were times where I am really upset when I am just not able to play in a game or performed badly. This is all a learning process. A big thank you to Kai Ling for helping me and giving me chances to play and improve myself. Of course, a big thank you to all my team-mates that I have played with before. Without you guys, there wouldn't be me in netball. I truly value the friendship that I have made in the team. All these years, Geraldina..辛苦你了! As I moved on in netball, my dearest Seniors stepped down, Kai Ling left. New members came so did a new coach come. I hoped that the juniors will continue to work hard and improve themselves. A big thank to Madam Siti. She has never failed to drive me to a higher level. To all teachers who have in-charged of netball before - Ms Chong, Ms Alicia Ang, Ms Koh, Mdm Chan, Mdm Teh, thank you very much for what you have given us!

NPCC is just like a drama to me. The drama has been on air for 4 years. The final episode has just ended not long ago. I remembered I joined NPCC under the influence of my brother and I wanted camps very much. I also respected NPCC very much. I actually didn't get much from what I expected from NPCC. I expected a lot of outdoor activities. NPCC turned out to focus on drills and campcraft only. My batch was a pretty an unlucky and troublesome batch. We aren't very united. We don't learn things well. We only started training after April 2004. Many people tried to help us but most of them gave up in the end. It was indeed very sad and disappointing that only very few lasted till the last training. Nonetheless, all of us graduated from NPCC successfully in the end. A big thanks to those who have helped us before - Ms Wang, Mr Tham, Mr Teo, Mrs Chew, Ma'am Wanyu, Ma'am Lydia, Sir Jeremy, Sir Soon Sim, Sir Sam, Sir Izwan, Sir Faizal, Sir/IC James, IC Atinah. As well as to those sirs and ma'ams who have organised the NPCC events and helped out in our school events, thanks!

Throughout my 4 years in NPCC, I found a few soulmates who are always there for me when I need them. To Sarina: Thanks buddy. I know I have given you a thousand and one problems during these years but thanks for helping me whenever I need you. To Yong En: I just so love our hang out. Those moments after trainings with you are unforgettable. Those days where we just simply complain about every single thing about NPCC are just so unforgettable as well. Thanks for always there for me.

I just so love these memories I had with both the CCAs. But, I know things could have been better back then. Well, time has passed. Let's just take it as a lesson to be learnt. =)

This morning's weather was.... cooooooooold. I just loved the wind. Excellent morning! I slept all the way till 12noon. Afterwhich, slacked till 3 plus going to 4. Only then did I start doing something. I tried to arrange PAPERS.

My level of shelf in the storeroom is packed with papers.It is kind of headache to clear ALL the papers. My files are way too small for all the papers. It is very hectic to sort out all the papers. It is probably going to take me daysss to sort them out and file them up.

I truly realised how many trees have we killed during the period before O level. I have just so many practice papers!! My goodness..

All right, I am going to continue to sort out my papers.. BYEEE!

Was out today in the noon. I realised a few situations that irritate me quite a bit. People are kind of lack of patient. I always wondered why can't people wait for passengers to alight from train before boarding. Why do they want to block the exit just because they want to enter the train ASAP? The practice of standing on the left of the escalator doesn't seen to be in use. I think despite the time of thday, we should always stand on the left of the escalator.

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The shopping trip today was kind of good. Spent 2 hours at Jurong Point. Back at home at 6 plus. Slacked. Kind of bored!!!!

我害怕失去你。。。

Good game! Good effort! Good job! Keep going juniors. You have done well! That's the way! The netball game earlier on was fantastic! I truly enjoyed it. The laughter just went on and on and on. Keep it up people. That's the way!

I..........

Things are going sweet for her. I think I am glad for her. It is really good to see her move on and seriously I have never seen her heaven smile before. This is the first time that I saw her smiling with the world going round her only. I mean really. Giving you my blessing, dear buddy. However, please don't be too over. Personelly, I feel that you are going kind of over already. Maybe I don't know how things work in life, esp. BGR but I hope everything goes well for you.



That night was great. I can't use other words to describe though I have some other better words in my mind because I don't have the right to do so (yet). Just like what she said, I wish the night didn't end.

I truly want...

I am seriously getting fed up with some people. It is just so pointless to help people who don't help themselves. A effort-less game is a lousy game. Being absent for trainings is fun right? Can you guys please think for us? Nevermind. Getting angry for you guys are just simply wasting my energy.

Had netball earlier on. Certain parts of the "training" was fun though. =D No point talking about those parts where I just feel so hopeless.

Damn it! I have wasted so much time this holiday. Damn it! I need to buck up! Come on! Hui Mui, BUCK UP! I have better use time properly and meaningful. I seriously didn't do much to help myself. Not much things are done. buck up buck up!

I am going to be selfish. It is just so irritating to respect people who don't respect you.

So...... sooo.....

Okay, let's see how free am I..

Today: Evening going out with mum
Sunday: Out with Sarina in the early noon. Netball Training at 4pm
Monday: Lesson in the morning
Tuesday: Nothing
Wednesday: Nothing
Thursday: Nothing at the moment
Friday: Netball Training in the late afternoon.

My goodness. I am very very very free right? Yes I am! People, can help me fill up the empty spaces? I am just so bored at home.. I am on for anything. Seriously, anything. =)

Earlier on went for netball. Seriously, horrible! I am serious about this. to all juniors who are reading this. The game was horrible. I only saw Michelle working. The rest were modelling. Seriously, you guys simply give up even for the 5 VS 3 game. It is truly disappointing.

Thanks Cik Siti. Your words are valued. =D

Youtube is addictive. wahahaha! I did not sleep for the whole midnight. I planned to stay awake till 8am or 9am but due to some reason went to bed at around 6am.

For the whole morning, I was watching some variety shows and now had some drama planned out. I think all of them are Taiwan Idol Drama series. Here are the dramas in line for myself:

1. 爱情两好三坏
2. 斗牛 要不要
3. 魔剑生死棋
4. 公主小妹
5. 终极一家
6. 美味关系

The weird thing is I woke up at around 10.20am. I was super tired by 1.30pm. Seriously tired. Went back to my bed at 1.30pm and slept all the way till 6.30pm. =) Pig huh? Everyday, Sleep and sleep. haha! But the nap today is so much better than yesterday's. I don't get headache after waking up. I think there was lessing things in my mind when I sleep.

All right, gonna carry on watching my dramas at youtube. Bye!

I almost could not wake up to go out today. =_+ and the thing is yesterday this morning I could not sleep and I didn't sleep yesterday afternoon. For the whole morning I was feeling very very very sleepy. On my way down to BUgis in the afternoon, I was taking a nap on the train. On my way back to Bukit Batok, I was taking another nap on the train. When I reached home in the late afternoon, I slept from 5pm to 8.30pm. Seriously man! However, the long nap wasn't nice at all. My body was resting but my mind wasn't. There were quite a number of things going on in my mind. Netball, of course and many more. When I woke up, my head was very heavy and I think I had a headache. It is much better now. =)

Not doing anything now other than blogging here. Boring right? I seriously feel the bored-ness.

Drama in line..
斗牛，要不要
魔剑生死棋

I miss you.

I will consider today as a more productive day although I didn't carry out my actually plan. I actually planned to go Bugis and have netball at 5pm.

The weather at the early part of the day was excellent. The sun was shining brightly. However, decided to stay at home and training was cancelled due to some reasons. But but but, the lazy bum was hardworking today. =D I washed my shoes and my watch strap. I also opened up an ENGLISH storybook to read. This is rare! I am quite proud of myself for this. =P

Other than these, I was practically lazing around. =(

I feel like watching shows, movies, dramas and all kind of television programmes! It has been years since I last do so. Days back in primary school, I was a live television schedule. I can tell you every show at every hour. Now, I watch at most 2 television programmes a day. Sometimes, I can just stay away from TV for 2 whole days. I totally lost touch with the TV. Anyone has the drama series, Dou Niu, Yao Bu Yao( 斗牛，要不要)?

I will stay for you. I promise.

I heard of this before and I believe in what it is saying..

The Greatest Distance is when you are in front of me but I can't feel your presence.

You made me feel like you are just like the weather. You are making the water so cold that I don't dare to use the water. I really hope that you were sad for what I am hoping.

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Just a boring day. Seriously, boring. Nothing much for me to do. I just don't feel so right about the life I am having now. I feel empty. And honestly, I miss Maths! haha! seriously. I just simply miss the numbers.

Meet up Marianne in the evening. hahaha! (marianne, this laughter is for you! I know you know what happened.. =_+)

Where are you, boy?

我真得很希望，很希望他们所说的会变成事实。我很希望我那时做的梦会成真。

歌手：徐冥蕾 专辑：新绝代双骄三游戏的
歌曲：守候

我能等你吗?
在那淡淡月光下
静静想你

我能等你吗?
在那熟悉的地方
轻唤着你

风里传来你的呼吸
云里映着你的笑意
林里的鸟相偎相依
我却孤寂

我等你回来
把那窗儿蚩向我依赖

我等你回来
带着纯真的风采
宛如小孩

衣上装满你的记忆
夜里的梦多么清晰
冰冷黎明只剩叹息
如何忘你

迷离的夜
飘响着无边境的旋律
在耳边旋绕不停

载着思绪的雨
带我找你
纵然是梦想也罢

宁愿寂寞放弃自由
怎样也想抓住你的手
春夏秋冬你的承诺
我会守候


歌手：陈淑桦 专辑：陈淑桦珍藏版
歌曲：一生守候

等待著你
等待你慢慢的靠近我
陪著我长长的夜到尽头
别让我独自守候
等待著你
等待你默默凝望著我
告诉我你的未来属于我
除了我别无所求
你知道这一生
我只为你执著
管别人心怎么想眼怎么看话怎么说
你知道这一生
我只为你守候
我对你情那么深意那么浓爱那么多
等待著你
等待你轻轻拉我的手
陪着我长长的路慢慢走
一直到天长地久
等待着你
等待你紧紧拥抱著我
告诉我你的心里只有我
除了我别无选择
不管他喜还是悲
苦还是甜
对还是错
永远爱我

You know what's going on when I put on lyrics.

Happy Birthday Alvin! Sorry friend for not going for your party. Sorry Atikah. @_@

I am so broke now. My piggy bank is so empty. =( Shall see how it goes..

I need to start washing my things now.

Things to wash:
Black Slingbag
Watch's strap
Clothes' drawerS
School Shoes

I feel like washing them but I am just so lazy... =P Shall see how (again?) hehe.. what's more the weather has been kind of moody, just like me. Ha! Now, you know Hui Mui is a lazy bum..

Seriously, I am going to give up watching Why Why Love. I have watch about 8 episodes and seriously, this is a rare drama that after watching for so long it didn't catch my attention at all. I have no idea what's the focus for the drama.

I carried out bold actions. I wished your answer was no, seriously. I wish what they said is reality.

This is what the friendster horoscope tells me about today:

You are ready for seriously bold action today! It's time to step up and make the grand gestures you know you can make. If you have been beating around the bush with someone you have growing feelings for, today is the day to bite the bullet and confess your true feelings. It's now or never. If you have been contemplating a travel adventure, today is the day to book the tickets and commit to going. Time is slipping away, you need to act now to get what you want.

Is it true?

I an back in my don't know mood again. seriously, the feeling of lost-ness is in me now. =_+ I regretted saying things out. I rather keep things away. but oh well.. nevermind.

All right I am back here. What exactly has been going on? My blog sounded kind of sad recently. Maybe I am just not getting things done, I guess. My mind has been wondering all over the place. My temper has seriously flew high and sorry people. Seriously, I have no idea what happened to my temper. It just went off. I don't seem to be able to control it. =_+ My mood has been kind of bad. Nothing seems to interest me. I have been watching a Taiwan drama, "Why Why Love" over the past few days. I have watched almost 5 episodes and it didn't interest me at all. I am not sure if it is the content of the drama that is the problem r is it myself. The drama is kind of boring. Reading of books didn't interest me as well. Goodness! Things are just so wrong. *Sigh* And well.. For those who knows me well, will know what can give me just a depressed mood. Seriously, I have no idea how to deal with this. It is kind of sucky. Nevermind. I think time need to help me again.

Today is 7th December! People, do you still remember this date? I miss all the people from 13 nations so much! and woah! It has been a year since we last met. Time flies. I feel like flying to Japan now and celebrate Christmas like we did last year. MERRY CHRISTMAS TOYKO!! I just simply miss Japan. My twin, Liz! argh! Long long long time didn't see her already! Babe, I miss you!!!

Miami oh Miami, I think you have slept loooooong enough. It is time to wake up and fight like a champion. You guys played so dead. I wanna see the champion in you guys again!!

I want you

Life looks very wrong now. Things go very wrongly as well.

I think I really need a lot of time to get everything right..

I want to be beside you now.

I am worried. I am sad. I am jealous.

This is what the friendster says :
Relationship issues will come to the forefront today when it feels like someone may be holding you back from happiness. Re-evaluate what is going on and ask yourself if this is a positive partnership for you. As long as you are happy with who you are and where you are going together, you're doing fine and this is just an unpleasant phase. But if you keep asking for things to change and you don't think they are hearing you, it's time to sit down and have an honest heart to heart.

IDK.

Cik Siti, very sorry.

Where am I heading now?

I feel like stepping one step forward. But i don't know how.

My mood is kind of down now. Partly because of what I know. I can feel the sadness. Partly because of what happened at home. Sometimes I wonder what's call home. It sucks when the moment you reach home and people just don't bother about you and worse still, parent starts nagging. Say this also wrong, say that also wrong. do this also wrong, do that also wrong. 难道就没有一样东西是对的吗？Why is there only wrong? Seriously, there is nothing right? do you actually know that I am your child?

Sometimes I really wonder if I am a human.

Yesterday.. emm.. I wouldn't say that it is exactly a good day. Went out in the afternoon with Merina and Cik Siti to get myself a pair of shoes. Finally! By right we have more things to shop for but in the end due to me, we shopped for my shoes for 4 hours! hehe.. By right, we need to buy skorts as well but we didn't. Hehe.. thanks people. Love you! and tata.. MY SHOES!! I love my shoes. so does Cik Siti! =P We love MY shoes! Afterwhich we head to training from Queensway shopping center.

I am quite please with the attendance. However, I didn't like the attitude of some people at all. It sucks man! Don't wanna go details into it. I left early to send my friend into NS. LOL! We are proud of ourselves that we tricked 3 people. But during the whole dinner, I didn't feel eactly right cos of what we heard. I am kind of worry. Anyway, after dinner, went Marianne's house (again) for some shooting. The lighting was bad. I received hard knock on my head physically. You can see a bruise on my forehead now. But no worry, I am fine. Seriously used to it already. I still remember months back, sickening man.. One carnival,received 5 wake up calls at 5 different parts of my head. =_+

Hope everything is all right for you. I will be there for you if you need.