Once again, got woke up by my mum early in the morning.. However, the moment she left the room I went back to sleep... till 9am then wake up.. haha.. After eating breakfast, went back to sleep again.. (pig right? haha) But the weather was too hot for me to sleep till afternoon or eveing.. Woke up at 12.30pm..

At 1, watched Mr Fighting... Today's espisode... Quite nice.. Very exciting... At the same time, ate lunch.. I had the same food as breakfast.. Roti Prata.. haha..

Finish watching... read storybook.. Kindachi's Mystery... SUPER NICE!! Highly recommended... I am a super fan of Kindachi's Mystery... I watched the cartoon, movie, comic, drama and now STORYBOOKS!! The stories are very nice.. Through the stories for comic, drama and others are about the same..but I just can't help watching them again and again.. haha...Now I am still reading.. gotta try finishing the book tonight..bye...

I ate my breakfast for hours just now... Just simply don't feel like eating...

Went to check the books..see which are the books no need to buy... I found out that Hillgrove is changing the Maths books.. No longer using Explorer Maths... Instead using Shinglee Maths next year... I don't know whether still can use the Chem, Phy and Bio anot.. cause in the book, they said, " for use 2001-2005" I will have to spend lots of money if I were to buy those textbooks.. Grrr... irritating... I am sort of regretting taking Geog next year... I read the History textbook and found out that it is very easy to understand the Hist for Sec 3 & 4... haiz... But whatever is done can't be undone...(stolen this sentence from Marianne..haha)

After looking at the books... rest on the sofa and doze off... after sometime woke up and walk into my bedroom to sleep...haha.. Like sleepwalking.. Slept all the way till 5pm.. Slept until very drowsy... Now still in the drowsy mood...

Wake up and came online again... Play games and chat... Finding out who going 3E1 next year.. and mostly girls...haha.. 3E1 is going to be a les class... HAHAHA!! At the same time also eat my lunch cum dinner... Now after exam.. everyday.. either eat extra meal(s) or eat 2 meals only... haha...

Thinking of 2005 has come to an end.. feeling so sad... I really wish that 2005 can carry on FOREVER!! Haiz..but time has past and can never get it back.. *sob*

Me go do holi's homework liao..

Continue from yesterday post..

Yesterday, after playing basketball with Li Ling, Pei Yun, Fiona and Hui Zhen... I was too tired to write a long entry...

Yesterday... when playing basketball, I fell cos the floor was too slippery and hurt my hip... Grr.. Injured again...haiz.. But who cares... after I hurt my hips I still continue to play.. :P Yesterday basically was me and Fiona playing only... haha.. Fiona her basketball skill.. *Thumbs Up*...Play until 4+ need to go home liao..

When reach home.. something horrible happened...I realise that I lost my keys... AND I HAVE NO IDEA WHEN DID I LOsE THeM!! haizz... How careless can i be??

Yesterday, 10pm went to sleep... LUCKILY I DIDN'T TALK ON PHONE TILL VERY LATE YESTERDAY!! Today early in the morning my mum 7am WOKE ME UP!!!! HENG!!! haha..

Now eating breakfast..haha.. later got time come back and continue... :)

Got back report book le... Most of the things came in 2nd... include some subject , class position and level position... I scored... 7 A1s, 1 A2, 1 B4 and 1 C5... Grrr... By a mark I will get another A1... By another mark I will get another B4... Haiz...

But still quite happy with the result... :)

Today is the last day of school...it is kind of sad...haiz...

Now late in night already.. haha... Now is not cannot sleep then come and blog.. is I just finish doing a poster and in a angry mood...

Just not after finish painting everything, finding my black marker... Can't find it.. Grr..so irritating... Grr... I think just now in the afternoon after finishing up the Netball posters... someone took my marker..haiz..

Say till the Netball posters... The Sec 1 made me change my view of them... I was surprised that some of the sec 1 got the initiative to come and help... Thanks to them, we are able to finish 2 posters in 2hrs.. that's fast!! *Clap hands for the Sec 1*

I am finally able to go to the chalet le.. :)... I must really thanks my father... He went to talk to my mum about it and my mum FINALLY let me go... :) =) :> =>

That's all for today... Me go and sleep liao...

Today, I am seriously in a very pissed off mood.. I am like a Ah Lian today... I got so pissed off man!! By who? Sec 1 and the Chinese project... Ask one of the sec 1 girl come and see me, she disappear again...As for the Chinese project.. Although it is after exams already, we still have CCAs and expect us to finish a project within 2 days... WHAT ON EARTH IS THIS?? Grrr...

After school, got NPCC as usual... I pratically did nothing except do the NPCC noticeboard design cos Mon after play netball, ankle got abit swollen.. Sir Jeremy scolded the sec 1 & 2 upside down.. so sad... haiz... but seriously I watch them do drill, it was horrible...

After training... it was time to go crazy.. we celebrated Val's b-day... Shawn drove all of us crazy... We are suppose to have dinner at West Mall, but West Mall's swendens was too crowded so we have to find another swendens..so went to causeway point and the swendens was not crowded.. Shawn and Marianne ordered Fish & chips... Me and Val was Chicken Baked Rice with French Fries..and gave val a surprise by giving her a ice cream and the stuffs of swendens, together with us sang a Happy Birthday Song... and Marianne and I went to buy something as a present for her.. Last of all, we presented Frozen Mocha to her...

The moment I reach home...I got scream off... My mum scream me off cos I reached home at 10 and she said that she told me to reach home at 9.30 cos SHE WANTS TO GO OUT!!... That's very selfish of her...she even blame me for wasting money to treat others... WA PIANG!! Grr... Humans are so selfish...(you may get offended by this sentence but think back...trust me I can gurantee you have selfish at least once before..)

Super tired now..must rest liao..

Yesterday I was too tired to blog again...cos yesterday after school played Netball..and I hurted my ankle cos I ran too much... If you wonder howshooting also can injured my ankle...Was like on Fri I just went to see doctor and I am suppose to like rest for 1 week or more yet I mon went to Netball... Cos I was serious bored with school life.. I need Netball to make my life abit more interesting..so...ya..haha...This causing me not to have P.E and NPCC tmr..haiz..

Yesterday did SUPER little shooting... and my shooting was HORRIBLE!! I never had such horrible shooting before... OH NO!! I must buck up.. My studies dropped, my Netball can't drop!! Grr!! Tomorrow onwards must work hard!!

Today I was very pissed off..by who? THE SEC 1!! I feel like killing them.. ask them do 2 posters they can give lots of excuses like: I don't know when is my tuition, I don't know whether still have tuition, I am very busy... WA PIANG!! spend 1/2 hr do posters will die is it? Please la...Not like I am not busy..I have project to do as well... Today the Chinese tcher gave us a project to do... Topic for my group was: the history of the chinese characters... and we are suppose to have a draft on Thurs and present on Fri... so to all sec 1, you guys should be free now.. busy? at most busy with your PERSONNEL stuffs... and that can be done during holidays! So don't come and give me anymore LAME excuses!If you guys can't even do 2 posters, you guys can forget about surviving sec 2 life... There is no way you can survive your Sec 2 life...

I went for the interview today for the Weather Studies Project... I seriously have no idea how I can pass the interview cause it was like... I had a bad English.. I spoke.. "quite not bad"..haiz...

During school time, there was a dialodge session with Mdm Subian... I WANT BACK MY SATURDAY CCA DAY!!! I WANT IT BACK!! Having NPCC on weekday is seriously very tiring... I WANT BACK MY SATURDAY CCA DAY!!! PLEASE!!!

Now is already in the middle of the night yet I am not sleeping..haha..cos just now sleep too much le...haha...

I regretted doing something...I been thinking that I treasure everthing around me...but now I realise I am not... I just realise that I have lose "something"... Don't wanna talk much about it before I cried..haiz..

Me go sleep liao...

I chatted on phone till 2.30am this morning..but early in the morning, my mum at 8am woke me up.. After eating my breakfast, I seriously can't keep myself awake so at 9am went back to sleep and slept all the way to till 3pm.. =P...

Thanks to the person who chatted with me "last night"... I thought what this person told me and ya... I really should do what this person told me... As for what this person told me, this person told me LOTS of things...I lazy to type out la.. hehez... Whoever want to know what is it...I think you guys can see my change in a short time and i think you can guess what this person told me already.. :) Hopefully this is a good change...

Just now after woke up...went to eat lunch... emm... I should call it dinner ba... haha.. nvm..and watched Mr Fighting... Today's story average only.. Last week I watched until I cried.. This is the very first drama I watched until I cried.. The story was very touching...

Before I end this entry..
To 6A'03: Regina and Qiao Ting are organizing some gatherings in the coming holidays.. Please tell either of them when you are not free during the holidays and where you guys wanna go... You can guys can e-mail them, go to them blog and tag or tag at my blog... Thanks...

Feeling very bored so came to write another entry..
Whole day either watch tv or play comp...and thinking through some stuffs..

Thinking what is the definition of life...is it a process of suffering? or what is it? Sometimes I seem to be happy with the life I had but sometimes I thinks that I has a horrible life...especially in recent months... ever since August... nothing went right... problems are coming and leaving them unsolve... Is I don't want to face them and solve or are they can't be solve? I heard this sentence before... "since I am the one who created the problem i will have to be the one solving the problem".. but why are all the problems seem to be so hard to solve... One failure after another...How many failures do I need to face before I can succeed? or I am never going to succeed? Si pai shi cheng gong chi mu...it this sentence true??

Looking back.. since August.. life for me has always been hard... After common test, someone throw a spear into my heart and my heart has been bleeding till now..it is still bleeding...Follow by some unhappiness between me and someone... Holiday came, I thought I could have some peace...However, I was unable... Someone gave me a "shock", i really wish that this person has not told me anything and remain as what we were like before... What this person told made me feel......not myself......Coming up, a RED DEVIL tried to control my life... When all of these coming to an end, exams started....Doing horribly and receiving horrible results... Now having new problems again... WHAT ON EARTH IS THIS??? WHEN IS MY PEACE COMING??

I really wish that time can go back to the past... Current life, there are too many people "interrupting" my life... In the past, although there are still problems... I can have a carefree life.. but why now I can't?? WHY?? I wonder why did I choose such a complicated life... Can't I just have a simple and plain life? I know I am complaining this again and again in my blog.. sorry for that.. but I really wish to have a simple and plain life so that I can have carefree life...

Having this complicated life, is i choose de? or is I am fated to such life? or this is already consider simple?? Haiz..

Another thing that was in my mind for the whole day... is what happened on Thur... It made me realise alot of things... I am not sure if I get the right message...but my sixth sense told me that I get the right message... I should forget him and focus on other things... But how can I do so?? HOW?? I have tried all sort of matters that I can think of.. but none works... can anyone suggest some ways to do so..?? I wonder why I am being affected so much by just this 1 person... Why?? He is the first person that affected my life so much... why is he doing so...?? I just don't understand why...( to find out more about who I am talking about...click here)

Haiz..I have no idea what I should do now... Solving the problems? But what is/are the method(s) to solve them? Escape and leave the problems unsolve? but where can I escape to? Forget him? what must I do to forget him? Continue what I am doing now? but it seem so painful and hurtful by doing so..and is it worth it? What should I do?? I really don't know... I am looking for help...but it seem that no one can help me other than myself..haiz... I am so lost now.. I really can't differentiate what is the right and the wrong path now... HOW?????????????

Yesterday after writing the entry..went to heal my ankle... I don't wanna drag anymore...

My ankle got bandage..haha...so today gotta rest at home...

In the morning for don't know what reason, all of a sudden got a urge to play neopets again.. haha... For 1 year din play neopets already.. and the neopets changed alot.. got quite a no. of new stuffs.. at the same time, there are quite a number of games and stuffs "disappaear" from neopets.. sad man...hahaha...

Actually wanted to learn how to play maple...but lazy to go sign up and download the stuffs there so went to play neopets.. through quite childish... but at least I don't feel so stress when playing can liao.. hahaha...

I go back and play liao...

Last night SUPER early went to sleep liao... I slept at 8.30pm yesterday... Early right? that's not the usual me... I slept early is got reason de..

Firstly, my back is very painful..gotta lay down to make it not that painful... Secondly, yesterday don't why play for awhile of netball also get so tired.. haiz... Lastly, by sleeping I won't have to think so much with what happen... I know I am just running away and not facing it but this time I have no idea on Earth how to face.. so just went to sleep lo.. at least it make me feel better.. and I slept all the way 9am then wake up... :P..

Can someone teach me how to live a simple life? I really wish to have a life with just happiness and saddness and painfulness-free...haizz..but it seem so impossible..Did I choose my life to be like this or I am fated to have this kind of life?? ????????

Again another "Sleeping school day"...Basically is I am sleeping throughout the whole day in school.. The first period spent on doing Xi Zi...and slept for 3 periods!! Serious... I really slept for 3 periods.. slept until my nick pain.. haha..

After school, played Netball with Shi Yun, Triya and Michelle... Today's training doing nothing much... did some shooting and played "monkey" for awhile then rest liao... cos my ankle can't take it le...haiz...and also due to another reason: I do not really have the mood to play also... I serious can't be bother with what happen... It is not for me to decide what is going to happen in the future... all I can say is I am just pretending to be laughing away and pretending not to feel anything...Deep in my heart it is actually bleeding...

I don't know whether you are reading my blog anot...but here is what I want to say to you...

I am only pretending, can't you see it? Although I am laughing away and pretending nothing happens...deep in my heart it is bleeding... I have never been so sad before... I am really very sad today...Can't you see what "exactly" I am doing?? Do you know how hurt I was when you did what you do today? I keep on telling myself you are doing that cos you were force to do so or for whatever reason...yet you are treating me like this... If you know anything and you want to say anything... can you say it out? Chang Tong Bu Ru Duan Tong... Please... please don't act blur or pretend you don't know when you know...

Do you know that I took a long time to accept the fact that you are leaving...why did you come back?? Why? I hate the feeling... I HATE IT!!! you are just making me going crazy...Must you make me go through the hard way to forget you?? PLEASE TELL ME!!

Today is simply another sian day.. haiz..

Go to school is either sleeping or stare into blank space...haha :P Although today the school had a show of star wars but my class was being block by some stuffs... the show seem so boring to me...

After school, once again got NPCC...(I noe my blog most of the time is NPCC, no choice la... haha).. Today the training started off with PT... Nice PT... Good thing I got go do some training if not just now surely cant survive... haha.. and got one future CI came and sort of created chaos... HAHAHAHAHAHA...kidding only...haha...this future CI actually came here and so called learn ba I think but end up got chase away...haha...

I rushed the design for the NPCC shirt until this morning 1.30am then sleep...then life in school was so boring...I was feeling so damn sleepy...I totally can't concentrate on the training... end up got said by the IC that me very slack... haiz...

Wanna go and rest liao...byee...

Today basically slacking in school... Either sleep or do some papers corrections...haha... But like this I prefer sleeping at home..haha..

I am getting very irritated by my internet... I can't open any blog.. Not even mine own's... Grr.. I also can't open the navigation for MSN games, not just these...My internet is super slow and sometimes some websites also can't open... haiz...

Today gotta be a short entry...cos need to go and do NPCC's stuffs...

Just came back from jogging... Today had a nice jog... my timing improved :)... From completing 10 took 35 min till just now 10 rounds took 21min.. :) Just now also went to do weight-lifting.. Must improve on my hand strong!! Just now had very poor performance!! Carry the log twenty times canot liao...aiz...hahaha

Today got back home econ result... I am SUPER PLEASE with the result.. I scored 90/100 :):):)..WeeeEEee... Overall- 84/100! I am really very happy with the result.. I thought I would score badly cos that day before having the paper..I totally could not study.. For some reasons I was very stress(can't rmb wat le..hahaha)... After school Ms David reward those people who scored A for home econ with pizza!!...Ms David, Thanks...

Someone gave me a big shock today..haha..

Now got to go and makan liao... continue later...haha :)

Friday was a bad day for me... Nothing went right...

Early in the morning got the first paper, failed by 1 mark which was English... After which was Geog result.. still ok..80/100.. Next paper was where my nightmare comes...Maths Paper... Guess what's the result... 79/100!! MY GOD!! NOT EVEN A 80 MARK!! WHAT ON EARTH AM I DOING?? I scored 5th in class... MY GOD!! MATHS IS MY BEST SUBJECT!! I STILL CAN SCORE UNTIL LIKE THIS!!! My first reaction when I get the result was ..."WOA!!" and followed by crying... cos if my maths score this I can forget able others subjects le..haiz...after the maths paper went for a break..

During recess, I seriously have no mood to do anything at all.. I was real upset with my result..

After recess, got back Science result... surprisingly I score 79/100!! What surprise me was I score as good as Maths.. I thought I would score a 60 or below since my Maths was so horibly done.. Next coming up was Literature paper... I was not looking forward for the result since Ms Chew told me on Tue that she was very disappointed with my paper... Li Ling even come and curse me... I need to get a 46/100 and my overall result will have a pass... Li Ling cursed me to get a 45 which I will get a 49/100 for overall result.. Li Ling horrible right?? haha...

Guess what is the result? I was SUPER HAPPY with the result... :) 67/100... Although it is just a B3, but I am very satisfied with the result already.. :>

Last paper of the day is Chinese..Same mood in getting the paper..not expecting how gd the result will be... and I scored 69/100...irritating man!! 1 mark to an A.. haiz...and these are the papers that I got... I am left with Art and Home Econ still have not get the result yet...

After school there was NPCC training...Before NPCC training, I played Netball with Val, Michelle, Sandra, Marianne and Shawn... None of us was in mood to play...We only played for awhile and sit down and chat... haha.. but the chat was interesting anyway... haha...

As for the NPCC training, it was a super boring training... none of us was in mood to train especially me.. Sorry...and it was raining.. end up all the sec 2 were having recreation training(RT) with the sec 1 till 5pm... RT was so boring that I wish I went bowling with Marianne and the rest... Worse still I even hurt my left ankle when having RT... good thing it was not serious... if not I think I have to rest for another month..haiz..

As for today, I slept till 12+ then wake up.. cos I am seriously not in mood to do anything... I am still in the sad mood.. How I wish "someone" can come and brighten up my day...

Yesterday quite a number of my friends saw my new skin and rating 10, average 7.5... I was so happy.. First time do the skin got such good result... weehee.. :):)

Last night, made all the necessary adjustment to my blog to make it better...I do all the way till about 1.30am... At the same also doing the IPW report... Got so sian with the report... I was so irritated cos serious I have no idea what on earth how to come out with the report...Grrr...but anyway come out with the report liao..=)

I planned to sleep at 1.30am but someone called... since not tired so chat with the person lo... haha... chat all the way till around 4.30am like that...(haven break record yet...haha..my record was chat till 5am..haha).. At 4.30am, if I still dun sleep I shall can't go out with Li LIng de so went to sleep and woke up at 10am... I was damn sleepy man... and to my surprise the person who chat with mi woke up at 8am!! MY GOD!!! This person is so damn pro man!!

Just now in ther afternoon, went shopping with Li Ling... We went to Bugis... I went there to look for clothes but they are seriously to expensive... There is a long pants that I liked alot but the price gave mi a shock!! $50!!!! MY GOD!! 1 pants $50!! Out of all the places I walked I liked none of the clothes so end up bought nothing... haha and went home...

Now need to go and rest liao...tmr got NPCC training..(haiz..haha) all the best to everyone how is taking their results tmr... :)

Today is kind of like the start of the holiday...

Early morning, wake up at 7am and went jogging at 8.15am... I jogged for abt 40 min and walk for about 20 min... I seriously need to exercise alot more... haiz...

When came back from jogging, actually wanted to do the IPW report...but very tireed so do a blog skin...this new skin...is what I have done... I spent hours doing!! I started around 10am today.. until just now about 3.50pm then finish... This is my very own skin... =)..i know it is not up to perfect yet..but I am trying my best...Hope you guys like it...

Exams have come to an end...=) Now waiting for the result...but I am kind of like don't feel like taking the result..cos I know that I did badly for all papers..haiz..

I was like after the chinese paper...I don't feel like continuing the exam...The Maths papers was so horrible done...haiz.. Today, I seriously in the mood of anyhow do can liao...So Science paper was horribly done too... As for the Art...still ok..mange to paint finish wat I 1 2 paint in time.. :)

Just now, after exam, went to play badminton for half hour...But this half hour was very tiring...after about 1 month din exercise... I have some movement restriction...haiz... Must go exercise more liao...haha

The Feeling Is So Good

Within 2 days, half the exams is done.. =) Finished 4 papers already, left with another 4 to go...

Today, there is the Lit and H.Econ paper... In the morning before I taking the Lit paper I was so nervous that I can hardly concentrate on the flag rising...haha.. After the paper, the feeling is so great.. It is as great as getting all the subjects A in O'level... cos I don't need to take Lit again liao.. wooohooo....

I know it is abit exaggerating..but that's how I feel... I really hated to study Lit... Cos passing Lit to me is practically asking me to go crazy..haha..that's y i hate to study things that will make me go crazy when want to pass them...

Shall stop here...I gotta go and rest liao...Yesterday study the Lit until very tire liao...Everyone continue to work hard...Jia You...

EOY

Today is the first day of EOY...

Starting off the exam, today papers were Eng and Geog...all I can say is DIE... :<...haiz...

All the best to everyone who are having exams...Jia You...

I know I should not be blogging now... I should be either be sleeping or studying but there are too many things that made me can't sleep or concentrate on studying...

There are too many things that are happen that made me can't concentrate... I seriously don't feel like studying for exams... but yet I NEED to...haiz... what on earth am I doing?? Am I going to fail my EOY and go to NA stream? If I don't want then I got to concentrate on my studies, yet I am not doing so... Can someone please wake me up?

I seriously don't know what to do now to make myself focus on the revision...haiz...

First Time

This is the first time I 1 day wrote the second entry... Just now after I wrote my entry...I went to my friendster and received a message that asked me to visit this website www.i-believe-you.com

I spent about 3 hours reading almost the whole story...It ended at chapter 17 and if want to read the whole story gotta buy the book.. It is a very nice story..

After reading, it give me a urge to say out what I wanted to say but I still do not have the courage to do so..haiz..

*Shall I said it out or shall I just let go? I really don't know*

Many people asked...

Many people asked why am I so happy this week... I told them I have learn to let go... but I really don't know whether I really learned to let go already... I keep telling myself that I must let go... I MUST...but when I let go I will take back automatically... Why is it so hard to let go?? How long can I let go? I really don't know... who can help me? Why am I so confuse?? If I can't let go, I really can't concentrate well on my studies.. HOW?? can someone tell me the solution??

Worse still, on the first day of the exam...Eng Paper 1...I tried very hard to concentrate but the topic that they gave made me can't concentrate.. : What are the qualities that you would look for in your future life partner?...

Sometimes I just wonder...I should have listen to Li Ling and Christine, right...? Lead a simple life in HGSS and just concentrate on studies... This seemed so easy to them but yet so hard to me... Ever since school reopen in Sept...my mind seriously can't concentrate well... I practically can't concentrate in everything I do... I am going to go crazy sooner or later...All "thanks" (a 2 meanings word) to someone... Am I being selfish that's why I can't let go and concentrate on the things I want?? Or is it that I think too much?? or what? can anyone tell me?

I know that I can't carry on like this... I will fail my EOY if I continue to be like this.. but I really don't know how to concentrate... Someone please help me!!!