Shall do some blogging to relax myself..

Well.. First of all.. sorry and sorry and sorry Pei Yun.. I really didn't mean it.. I sincerely apoplogize to you..

Yesterday went jogging.. damn! 26 min, die off liao.. GRRR.. before that.. my friend made mi damn jealous of him.. he went to watch a netball match and didn't ask mi along then was like telling me what happened during the match.. GRRR.. I am not blaming him for not calling me along.. just that.. I long time no training liao then also due to exam didn't go play netball for a week liao.. After hearing from him, I was like so jealous of him la..

Currently, the date for the celebration and netball gathering is on 12th May.. all HGV Netballers free?? Can try to confirm asap with me? thanks.. Place and time not set yet cos need to the no. of people going first..

I think that's all.. go back and mug liao.. bye!

I think today will be the last day blogging before starting my mugging for Mid-Year..

This few days were having mixed-feelings.. and was BUSY!! How busy am I now? busy till can only sleep for 4 hrs!! BUSY? YESSSSSS!!!!

Ok..On Tues.. had mixed feeling.. I was sad and ANGRY during P.E.. Sad? Lots of memories flashback.. and was thinking of someone.. " Love you always.. " Angry? cos we lost to a sec 1 class!! MY GOD!! sec 1 also lost! Aren't we too lousy? haiz.. Can't blame.. a class with only 9 guys.. HA! made history in HGV.. haha.. After P.E, was in happy mood.. But was somehow still sad.. every single part of HGV got memories.. I just don't know why there was so much memories flashback..

Wed.. BUSY!!!! The oral was still ok.. and we are getting no where in the Solar Car.. AH!!!!! I wanna complaint!! teachers are always giving last minute work.. ARGH! Worse still.. Give answers also anyhow give..! GRR!! as in, don't really bother to go through.. just provide STACKS of answers...

Today.. surprisingly didn't fell asleep.. was like had very little sleep yet can stay awake for whole day.. =) Sadly, today is Mr Fong last lesson with 3E1.. we are back to Mrs Peng hands.. oh well.. let's see what's going to happen.. hahaha.. And.. IS THERE SOMETHING HAPPENING BETWEEN _ _ _ _-_ _ _ and _ _-_ _ _??? ok nvm.. none of my business..

Shall go and sleep now.. Bye!

Today had EL and CL Paper 1.. Chinese, I guess it is still ok.. English ''killed'' me.. I can't understand any of the 5 questions.. The questions for the essay are:
1. Singapore can only depends on itself. Do you agree?
2. Money <-- this qn is MAD!!!
3. Write an occasion where you did something unexpecte but ended up helping someone.
4. (Can't really remeber but I know I strike out this qn)
5. Being a teenager is tough nowadays. Discuss <-- Kill ME!!!

I did Qn3..Wrote a real life love story.. I think you guys can guess what I wrote.. haha.. For the Functional Writing.. DIE!! Introduce Singapore schools to Australian students and tell them how Singapore schools can cater to their needs.. convince them to make Singapore as their choice of stay.. something like that.. can't really remember.. I don't even remember the format for the newsletter.. haiz.. nevermind.. whatever is over is over.. Sian!

Ok, that's all for today.. Oh ya.. before ending.. Female teachers in HGV are being more NAGGY AND NAGGY!!!!!!!!

Good night!

I read a newspaper article this morning.. I got to admire this girl.. She is just an ordinary human like you and me.. Yet she is more unfortunate than you and me.. But she is braver than anyone..

She got tongue cancer and is fighting hard with it.. She wants to live on.. I got to admire her courage.. She didn't try to escape hoping that the problem may solve instead she faced it bravely.. To this girl,Joan: In the world, there is nothing impossible.. you will sure get well.. Always stay strong..

There's something that her ex-schs did.. people in these schools help her to raise fund for the medical bill and tried to help in all sorts of ways..

Keep going people!!!

Visit onlydeepskin.blogspot.com and see wat u can do for her..

just wanna share something.. Here's a video clip of HGV Sec 3 Adventure Camp..

I guess I know what went wrong..

I really don't know who can I find to talk to..

People are telling me I can talk to them if I am finding someone to talk to.. but the thing is there are things that I can't say out.. In fact, there are too many things that I can't say out.. I will land people into troubles.. I will hurt people.. I don't want all these.. I tried my best not to hurt anyone anymore.. cos I know how sucky the feeling is when someone is hurted..

Even if I say out.. can anyone help me? Don't tell me ''say out will feel better''.. For my case, it won't.. trust me.. by saying out and no solution to solve problems.. the matters will only get worse.. so no point..

I am full of problems now.. I saw a friend who is feeling almost the same way as I am now.. I wanted to help her to pick up herself.. but I know that in this state its really very hard.. When u met to many problems at once, its hard to take it.. and its easy to collapse.. What's more.. people think that you actually is problem-free..

To my dear friend: talk to someone that you can.. If you think that there is no one that you can talk to.. approach Mrs Tham..

You have gone far and will never return.. Hope you are safe.. Love you..

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!! I am going MMAADD!!

I finally realise how hurt I was.. =(

BYE!

Feeling kind of jealous now.. =(

Nevermind.. whatever..

Marianne.. get well soon..

BYE!

Another pict.. it is from the same article.. =) these bread are edible!!
Pict by: Straits Time

Just wanna share a pict.. This face is made up of bread.. Believe?? But anyway, its true..

Pict by: Straits Time

These few days, was seriously feeling that " what's the point of living when it don't make a different whether I am alive anot?" I was really very depressed over this.. When I was depressed, there were quite a no. of people who somehow made me feel irritating and I quarrelled with them...

But I really wanna thanks EC and M.. Thanks for your concern.. You guys made me feel that there is still a meaning living in the world.. Thanks lots.. You guys are fantastic friends.. LOVE YOU GUYS!

Now I am much much better..

Ok, now is "early" in the morning.. Y am i still here? haha.. ok, I was doing homework cos this wkend = no wkend.. everyday need to go out.. but nvm.. ok.. goodnight people.. BYE!

Peace is back.. SMILES ARE BACK!!

Other then was sad when thinking at some sad stuffs.. other then that was happy for today..

Things are more or less settled.. hehe.. current situation is DAMN WANG need to give way.. but i dun noe if she will do it anot.. anyway, HECK!

Today's eng lesson.. so many ppl was "tired" haha.. for those who know.. ya.. those who dun know.. i guess soon u guys will noe.. hahaha

Ok.. need to do work liao.. later if free thn come back again.. =)

Feeling down again.. haiz.. sorry ppl who u noe tt i wrote you on my previous entry.. I will not write abt anyone anymore.. it will onli end friendship..

stayed till 2+ this morning then slp.. been copying something since fri, until this morning thn copy finish..

I seriously feel that, whether i am on earth it dun make a different.. no one bother nor notice me.. so sian man.. haiz..

nvm.. go throw myself to the stack of homework..bye..

This few days bz like mad.. till sick.. =( A short 1 will do..

-Today's presentation, overall quite gd.. quite satisfy with it.. =)
-Yesterday, THANKS FOR THE MEAL..
-Thurs- Sorry Penny..

BYE!!

Shall do some blogging today.. but a short 1.. not free..

-- I really dun noe what explanation to give and I don't know what to choose..

That's all for today.. BYE!

Quite a sian day..

Wasn't in mood to do anything.. In fact, since what happened on 12th March, I can't get into any mood to do things properly. Now do the Social Studies report also do until quite sian..

Through 3 weeks had past but just can't get over it.. On and off get into bad mood easily.. especially when life got quite bad this week. The camp actually lighten me up abit.. but after which, life was quite bad..

Whenever I want to find someone to talk, no one is willing to listen to me.. Only one of my good friend who hurt me the most on 12th March could listen to me.. Like I said, since she was the one who hurt me the most, how much can I tell her?? not much...! Apart from this friend, I have a senior who I respect alot whom I can talk too but didn't really want to stress her up cos she had her own problems too..

On either wed or thurs, I was really sad till I actually cried alone while talking to my friend who was willing to give her ears to me. I think my friend knew it but.. nvm..

I used to have a super good friend?? who is forever there whenever I am sad or angry or whatever, so long I not happy, my this friend is there.. Don't really wanna trouble my this friend now le.. Used to chat with this friend till midnight before ending call.. but now, though wanna chat also don't know how to say.. cos this friend is a male.. and I am somehow afraid to talk to guys now due to some reasons..

I actually had another friend who care quite alot for me. I use to be very very close to her. But for don't know what reason, we started to drift apart. She is really a good listener and give lots of useful advise. However, recently, she started talking to me and when knew what happened she actually tried to console as much as she can.

For my whole life, I only had these 4 friends who actually bother to take the initiative to find our what happened and bother to open up theirs ears for me. Pathetic!

How pathetic canlife be?

I feel like screaming at some people now.

1.Can you please understand my circumstances before you accuse me? I was really busy and wasn't feeling well and you expect me to do a project in one day. Fine, you offer help. but it was late in the night. I didn't want to bother you so didn't tell you. AND u accuse me for not putting in effort and take up too much things then can't do the project. Though I was busy, I do wanted to do the project. If you think I am someone who is not responsible towards projects, fine, next time don't work with me then.

2.Let me tell you, you don't worth any friendship. You got trouble, tried to help you. When I wanted to talk to you, you just can't be bother to open your ears and listen. Fine, I am very grateful that you USE TO open up your ears. But when I want you to give me some advise, you just simply say up to me. I don't know what to do that's why I ask you right? Fine, maybe you are out of solutions, can't give any advise. Ok, at least there was once you gave me ONE advise. Can you be more responsible towards work?? I am tired of doing project with you.. It is more like individual work then group project. You just simply can't give some of your time to be devoted to the project. Next time, got anything can tell me ANOT?? When I know something, you expect me to tell you. When you know something, can you OPEN your mouth to tell me??

3.Can you please SHUT UP in class? You are damn freaking noisy. When on earth can you ever, some talking for a lesson? Talk like as if there's no tomorrow. Wa Piang eh! Come on la, there is always tomorrow to talk! Let me tell you, you are freaking noisy and you are very irritating. Talk so much, when teacher ask you to say out ans.. THERE WASN'T A TIME THAT YOU GAVE AN ANS! Please talk at the appropriate time, can anot? IF NOT JUST SHUT UP!

4.Can you please be more responsible? Please do things PUNCTUALLY!! Always dely daly. Stop dragging time. Please act responsibly. Since you take up something, do that thing well. Don't spoil it. Busy is not an excuse. AND WHEN ON EARTH CAN YOU BE BUSY WHEN YOU ARE DOING NOTHING? PLease la, act responsibly, can anot??

1 number stands for 1 person. 4 numbers stands for 4 DIFFERENT people.

Enough anger and sadness le... BYE!