It is going to be 2007 soon! Er.. like another hour to go..?

Gonna spend my last hour of 2006 doing reflection..

2006 was a challenging year for both physically and mentally. I believe that it will be an unforgettable year.

Let's start off with January.. Played in the West Zone Tournament with the Sec 4 for the one last time. Challenged myself. Played GA. It was my very first time playing GA. I had a great experience. =)

February ah.. emm.. struggling with 8 new subjects. Didn't do really well for some of the subjects during CA1. Tried my best to pick up myself. I had a deep impression of the New Year. Something happened.. Thanks GOD for stopping it. =)

Time flies, it's MARCH! I receive mental challenge. I am glad that I survived through it. Oh ya, how can I forget Sec 3 adventure camp? HA! and I had a netball life!

Wow.. a quarter of the year has passed. PRIZE GIVING DAY! Oh well, didn't receive anything this year. Had WSP presentation though. We handed in our WSP. I kind of regretted for what we have done, we could have done better. =( Hope next batch can do better than us. =)

MAY!! EXAMS!! em.. not too bad I guess.. I was pretty surprise with some of the result. =)

Oow.. JUNE! wee.. off I went to Perth. Thank you Amirah, Sarina, Stacie and Diyva for celebrating my birthday in Perth. Thanks! =) First trip on plane going to my first country, first time celebrating birthday overseas. =) It was really a mentally and physically challenge trip. Recalling it now, really feeling sad deep in my heart. . . . . .

Apart from the trip, had a 30 hrs of netball marathon at PS. It was really a mental challenge. Played netball in the middle of the night. It was really a brand new experience.

July.. Nothing Much.. HAHA!

August.. NATIONAL CAMP. Had a vigorous struggle before I was able to go for the National Camp. Met people from ASEAN countries. Had a fun time with time.. =)

September.. Teachers' Day Celebration was a learning experience. I was challenged both physically and mentally again. Was shred yet need to try my best to keep things going. =) Netball wise.. =D BBE made to 2nd round. It was my very first netball game with BBS in tournament. I was challenged physically in the 2nd round.. It was really tough!

School ending soon! October already! EOY! Average I guess.. For some subjects, I could have done better but well.. I hope those mistakes had woke me up.. =)

Holidays! November! Time flies! School terms for 2006 has ended! Once again, there were street netball tournament. Was struggling in between friendship and skills. Mental challenge again. Performance for the tournament was average. More skills are needed. =)

2006 ending soon!! OH NO! DECEMBER! I spent my December in Japan, Tokyo. I was challenged again. Both mentally and physically. I tried playing basketball in winter. I was really a great experience. I tried to overcome language and culture barrier. =)

Another 1/2 hr to 2007! Time is speeding! OH NO!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

The Missing Woman is BACK!!! lolx
Ya.. for those who have been wondering where did Hui Mui disappear.. I was away for an exchange programme in Japan. Er.. but I am sorry to say please do not expect too many things from me.. Ok? and if you hate the way I speak just tell me.. ok? cos, After adapting to their style of talking , I need time to adjust myself back.. =) thanks for being understanding.. AND for any changes that happened here in SINGAPORE, mind telling me in details..? please kindly do not ask me to guess.. ok? =) Thanks..

For more info, please give me a call.. =) I will be more happy to receive ur call.. =)

Sorry for those people who didn't know that I went to Japan and was about to get angry or got angry already.. =/

Hi! lolx..
come here to write the first entry of the last month of 2006.. =)

Time flies! Ahh.. 2006 is ending! A year back, I wrote out all the name of people who will be leaving Hillgrove. Now everyone has left! Err.. I will be leaving Hillgrove soon too. Like, another year to go.. lolx..

Oh well.. this is what life is all about..

The other I was looking through photos that my family took in the past. I cried. I missed the past badly. I finally realise how wonderful was the past. *Sigh* I realise how scary is the future.. Can you imagine growing old and people are leaving you? It is so scary! Err.. as for present, I don't have any comments.. haha..

Today, my right lower eye lid been twic-ing for awhile.. I am going to feel bad?

Now writing a composition but I totally have no idea to write at all.. -.*

After much thought over the previous entry, I feel that it is actually very difficult to be a good parent. In fact to be a parent, sometimes can be diffcult too.

Let's see. More than often, we always hear children comparing their parents to their friends' parents. Most of the time, the person who is comparing will say that their friends' parents are better than theirs. In fact, when comparing parents, children always say the negative side of their parents. Most common negative comment about parents is they are too naggy. Afterwhich, children NEVER say that their parents care for them. I am not sure if that apply for all parents but for my parents, I feel that they nag for my own good. Just like simple things, don't play too much netball. I will feel angry at times when I hear this. I know my parents do not want me to over-excert myself. However, sometimes, I also feel that parents are overly worrying for us that sometimes we lost our ability to be independent and be ourselves.

Parents are indeed difficult to be. They are worried for us yet sometimes they just simply can't control their level of worry. Can't blame them for this actually. More than often, the media been reporting about danger in the society. Sometimes, it is also the child's fault that causes the parents to be so worry for he/she. For example, parents been nagging at a child to study. However, no matter how much nagging the parents give to the child, the child just simply slack and lazy to do his/her homework. The parents there are worrying that the child is unable to do well. Here, the child just don't listen to the parents and keep on slacking and being lazy. Follow up is children saying their parents are too naggy and don't care about what they really want. In this kind of cases, how can parents don't worry for the child? Then, the parents will become over-caring.

*Sigh* How should a parent be to give the child the best?

Sometimes it's good to just close my ears and live in my own world with only myself doing nothing..

It's contradicting.. I want an exciting and adventurous life yet when there's obstacles, I am just dead with it.. Is money so great that our fate is decided by it? More than often money is the obstacles that I met and got "killed" by it..

With the growth of GST, my life is just going to be like a dead fish if money is going to continue to be the obstacle. There will be more limitations!

Should parents be supportive to what a child do? or Should a child be obedient and do whatever is set for the child by the parents? or Should it be both ways communication?

More than often, we can hear our parents that it is for our own good. In fact, teachers will also tell us that whatever parents do are for our own good. Is it really so? I always agree with this and I will continue to agree with this. Parents care for their children However, are all ways of caring good for a child? Did society change the ways that parents care for their child?

Will Singapore be better if we are all still leaving in kampong and each family has 3 or more children? I really have to say that if I have a chance to live in kampong and each family has 3 or more children, I will do so. Personnally, I feel that society really change the way parents care for their children. In the past,parents do not worry about their children going hungry but now parents worries that their children do not have enough food. This is because in the past, there were farms in the kampongs. Children in the past get to learn how prevent themselves getting hungry. Nowadays, more than often I am hearing stories of parents over-feeding their children.

Sometimes, parents are really being over-caring that the child lost his/her independent skills. What make things worse is when a child wants to be independent, the parents stop them from doing this, doing that because parents are too worried that their children may hurt themselves. But if a child never get to experience how will we ever learn?

What should be the way a child should live?

Is love suppose to be sweet or painful?

Been struggling to come out with a new skin.. somehow some of the code I just don't understand.. -.* Gonna spend days figuring out..

Sch ending soon.. last lesson to go on fri before ending sec 3 life.. =)

BUT there are TON of homework to be done.. ~.`

Here's the list of homework..
Chinese composition - 2 stories are needed to be written in the composition
E.Maths TB Review- Unit 13
A.Maths TB review- Unit 10
E.Maths 5 year series- More than 50 questions
A.Maths 5 year series- More than 50 questions
English Newspaper report- 2 newspaper articles are needed
English book review- Need to read 2 books and write 2 different book review
English WS- come out with rules to determine the change of irregular verb
Speech correction- re-construct the problematic sentences
Geography Project- Promote M'sia & S'pore
Physics Papers- 2 paper 1 and 2 paper 2
Physics WB- Unit 16
A.Maths TB- Ex 11B

This is enough to kill me man! HA! I am complaining anout homework! hahaha!

Before I forget.. There will be testS when school reopens in 2007
English Grammar Test- wk1
E.Maths Test- 9/1/07
A.Maths Test- 23/1/07
Physics Test- wk2

Oh man! Nvm! this is called life.. hahaha.. oh well.. afterall we are sec 4 next year.. ITS ALL FOR OUR OWN GOOD! lolx..

hehehe.. =D

Last 3 days of school already!! hahaha!!

All the best to all who are taking O! Ganbette!

Here to blog my homework..

Maths FYS
A.Maths 5YS
2 Phy Paper1 and Paper 2
English WS
Geog Proj
Chinese WB
Bio TB

Things to be done
Li Ling's Photo
return library books
book badminton court
Tournament on 12th Nov
Bring the money to school
Return PY money
Go Vivo City & QW shopping center


I think tt's about all.. Did I miss out anything..? please tag mi if i do! =)

There is a reason...


Is there a season for a reason to be present?
When there is a reason, will that be an excuse as well?
Things that make you smile, why?
Things that draws your tears, why?
Memories which delights you, why?
Memories which pains you, why?
When there is a reason, acknowledge it. For it enlightens most of it.
When there is a reason, be gay, for it may just lead you to that ray!
When there is a reason for you to move on, wait no more for any season.
When there is a reason that delivers a message, let it be the guide in your passage.
When there is no more ryhme, take time to look for a reason.
There is always a reason... just out there for you to tag on...


I copied this from on of my friends' blog.. It lighten up my day.. Hope it will lighten up your day too.. =)

Holiday! lolx!

Started off the holiday pretty well, i guess.. hehe..

Went to have hari raya house visit with BBE netball kakis.. =) Kind of fun.. I went to 3 houses and home sweet home.. I find that Malay's house is really different from Chinese's. Be it furniture, wall's colour etc.. all are really different.. Though its different, I like it too.. =)

Now gonna practice hard on netball.. Support N5!

By the way.. wanna say sorry to a auntie in my school..

Here to blog my boredom.. HA! I knows its crap.. I do have things to do but they are just boring.. =(

Anyway, tomorrow and thhursday will be last 2 offcial schoolday.. Though during holiday we still need to go back to school, its all for our own good.. err.. apart from the exams.. so ya..

Nothing much to update.. bye!

Rotting soon.. =( lolx..

Thursday, Friday and today suppose to have NPCC and Netball training.. the haze has spoilt everything.. *-*.. I could understand why netball training was cancelled.. The PSI was at a dangerous level.. As for NPCC, I am serious quite confuse for why can't carry out training as long as the PSI is higher than 80.. Netball training was cancelled when the PSI was near hundred..

Netball training require more "air" compared to NPCC, yet NPCC training at 80 has to call to stop.. -_-.. Nothing much le..

Bye.. Will be at Jurong Point at around 2.30pm.. =)

All right, here's Bio and SS..

Bio: 89.5/120 =DD
S.S: 32/50 :/

I was pretty surprised when i received back the biology paper. When converted to 100%, its 75%!! Thorugh out the whole year, this is like the only Biology paper that I manage to score A1!! =)) On the other hand, I was slightly disappointed with my Social Studies result. It a B4. Well, shall try harder next time round.. =)

Overall: (Just the papers received) 6 A1s, 1B3, 1 E8 L1R5: 15 <- the B3 ans E8 contributed more than half the score.. =(

Going out soon. Find me in West Mall if you want to.. hehe.. =)

Here, I'm back to blog..

I have known some of my subjects' result..
Eng P2: 20/50 ='(
CL P2: 85/100 =)
Elec. Geo: 36/50 =)
Phy: 95/100 =D
Chem: 100/120 =DD
A.Maths: 99/100 =DD
Maths: 89/100 =

There are 2 more subjects yet to be known..

I was really disappointed with my English.. A lot of hard work must be put in in the future.. Other then having disappontment with English, I am pretty disappointed with my E.Maths.. I was expecting myself to scold at least a 95.. I think the god has read my mind wrongly.. LOLx.. This is becuse I was expecting only a 90 for my A.Maths.. On the day when I finished my A.Maths paper, my answer was kind of different from my friends and I thought I would do badly.. 99 was really out of my expectation.. I was exhilarated when I received the paper.. =DD

As for both the science, they just nice reached my targets.. =) Chemistry is my first subject to score a 100.. =) All along I never scored 100 for any subjects, be it Maths or Science, my highest was 99.5.. So ya.. hehe..

For Chinese, HAPPY!! lolx.. Its been long since I last scored an 80+ for my chinese P2.. like 1 year?? hahaha..

Last but not least, geography result was abit way off my expectation but I think its all right.. this is because the way I answered the questions was somehow wrong.. Thus, I am not really upset or disappointed with the result.. =)

End of result analysis.. hehe

Will analysis on the last 2 subjects as son as I gets back the papers.. =)

Got to go.. Bye!

Last subject to go.. Physics!

This weekend was pretty normal and usual.. stayed at home and slacked.. lolx..

I am kinda sad over my legs.. =( my heels are hurting.. I can't run and I can't walk too much.. *-* Hope it can recover asap..


After long, all sorts of thinking and feelings came back. I don't really know how to express myself. I feel that feelings and thinkings are back yet ur image has blurred. Sometimes really wish that we could have remained as how we were in the past.. chit-chat in the midnight and can sms through the whole day and night.. admire from far.. I really enjoyed those days in school's canteen when studying for exams and you are just there... Everything now seems to be bad.. =(...

Today is pretty a bad day for me.. *-*

Shall not elaborate much but just I watched a show that I made me really think a lot. . .

In the show, it said that Singapore is one of most unhappy country in Asia. As in, most of the times, people in Singapore are very unhappy. True isn't it? I am one of the people who made Singapore into the "record".

Everyone can control his/her happiness level. Unhappiness is caused by oneself when he/she gave oneself too much pressure and asked for too much. True enough, the definition can be used on myself.

How can I make myself ask for less and reduce the level of achievement that I am aiming for? It seemed difficult for me. I really want myself to be happy yet on the other hand I also want myself to achieve as much as I can. The level of achieve sometimes really created a lot of unhappiness for myself.

*sigh*

Although now is exam, I am thinking for the plan after exam.. haha!!

*Watch rod-b-hod (on wed)
*Meet up with Apple (on thurs)
The rest here have no idea when to get them done..
*Go swimming
*Cycling(Its been long!!)
*Badminton
*Library(get some boks to upgrade brain!)
*Get new specs if possible..
*Shopping
*Coporate League.. (anyone wanna go watch together?)

Anyone interested in the above activities just contact me or tag ok? My exams ends on Wed... 11/10

All the best to everyone taking exams!! =)

The 3 gd buddies..
Cat like flower..?
Cute!!
This is why cats are scared of water! lolx..

An ordinary wednesday.. lolx..

Just wanna share some jokes and stories here..

This is how ice-creams are being produced..

DORMITORY:
When you rearrange the letters:
DIRTY ROOM

PRESBYTERIAN:
When you rearrange the letters:
BEST IN PRAYER

ASTRONOMER:
When you rearrange the letters:
MOON STARER

DESPERATION:
When you rearrange the letters:
A ROPE ENDS IT

THE EYES:
When you rearrange the letters:THEY SEE

GEORGE BUSH:
When you rearrange the letters:
HE BUGS GORE

THE MORSE CODE:
When you rearrange the letters:
HERE COME DOTS

SLOT MACHINES:
When you rearrange the letters:
CASH LOST IN ME

ANIMOSITY:
When you rearrange the letters:
IS NO AMITY

ELECTION RESULTS:
When you rearrange the letters:
LIES - LET'S RECOUNT

SNOOZE ALARMS:
When you rearrange the letters:
ALAS! NO MORE Z 'S

A DECIMAL POINT:
When you rearrange the letters:
I'M A DOT IN PLACE

THE EARTHQUAKES:
When you rearrange the letters:
THAT QUEER SHAKE

ELEVEN PLUS TWO:
When you rearrange the letters:
TWELVE PLUS ONE

Here's an e-mail..

To all travellers....Be cautious....Just received from Malaysia.

Three women in KL, turned up at hospitals over a 5-day period, all with the same symptoms. Fever, chills, and vomiting, followed by muscular collapse, paralysis, and finally, death. There were no outward signs of trauma. Autopsy results showed toxicity in the blood.

These women did not know each other, and seemed to have nothing in common. It was discovered, however, that they had all visited the same Restaurant along Jalan Kuchai Lama within days of their deaths. The health department descended on the restaurant, shutting it down. The food, water, and air conditioning were all inspected and tested, to no avail. The big break came when a waitress at the restaurant was rushed to the hospital with similar symptoms. She told doctors that she had been on vacation, and had only went to the restaurant to pick up her check. She did not eat or drink while she was there, but had used the restroom.

That is when one toxicologist, remembering an article he had read, drove up to the restaurant, went into the restroom, and lifted the toilet seat. Under the seat, out of normal view, was a small spider. The spider was captured and brought back to the lab, where it was determined to be the Two-Striped Telamonia (Telamonia dimidiata), so named because of its reddened flesh color.

This spider's venom is extremely toxic, but can take several days to take effect. They live in cold, dark, damp climates, and toilet rims provide just the right atmosphere. Several days later a lawyer from JB showed up at a hospital emergency room.

Before his death, he told the doctor, that he had been away on business, had taken a flight from Indonesia, changing planes in Singapore, before returning home. He did not visit the restaurant, while there. He did, as did all of the other victims, have what was determined to be a puncture wound, on his right buttock.. Investigators discovered that the flight he was on had originated in India. The Civilian Aeronautics Board (CAB) ordered an immediate inspection of the toilets of all flights from India, and discovered the Two-Striped Telamonia (Telamonia dimidiata) spider's nests on 4 different planes!

It is now believed that these spiders can be anywhere in the country.So please, before you use a public toilet, lift the seat to check for spiders. It can save your life! And please pass this on to everyone you care about.

This is a story that my friend sent to my e-mail.. Not too sure of its reliability..

Here is a essay written by a 16 yr old teenager. After I read it, I was touched. Hope you guys will feel the same way.. =)

Shirley sounded flurried and I was surprised. She wanted to see me immediately. I wondered why. I reminded her that it was 10pm. It made no sense to want to see me at that time, but she sounded really down. I reminded her that the next day was a working day. She was silent for a while and then told me that she was going to ‘Starbucks’ anyway and I could choose to come or not as I pleased. She was the woman I admired in my life, so naturally I went. I had always admired her from afar. In truth I worshipped her but dare not approach her. I did not even think I was good enough for her. I loved her too much to even dream that she be a little interested in me. She deserved a better man. I slipped on my T-shirt and dashed off.

She was already there when I arrived and drinking her mocha. I ordered one too and joined her. She gave me a sad look and then dragged her chair closer to me. I could see that she was about to confide in me. I was nervous. “ I love someone,” she whispered. My heart sank as any hope I had sunk. I looked at her with pretended concern and forced a smile. “But he does not know that I exist,” she whispered. I shook my head in pretended sympathy. Then she sipped her mocha slowly. I went into a long lecture telling her how wonderful she was and how probably not worthy of her if he did not know she existed and so on and on. She nodded again and again but did not look up. She sat looking down with her head in her hands. I was little surprised, because she has always struck me as a strong person who was a master of her feelings.

I was in a sorry situation and felt very stupid. The girl of my dreams was actually in front of me and confiding in me and I was actually consoling her about her inconsiderate lover! I felt like getting up and running. If not for the fact that I did not want to be known as a poor loser, I would have left. Seeing that she was probably not listening to a word I was saying, I stopped talking. Then after a full five minutes she looked up at me. She looked so sad. “ How do you know he does not care for you?” I asked kindly as I could manage. She looked at me and her eyes teared; then she stood up suddenly. “Because. If you did care you would not have forgot that today was my birthday, you moron!” she shouted.

My throat went dry as whet she meant hit me. I looked around at the dazed faces. Cups of coffee were stopped in mid sip as dozens of pairs of eyes glared at us. I looked back at my companion and saw her making for the door. I ran after her and laid my hands on her shoulders. “I… do… care,” I stammered, “ I just dared not tell you.” She turned and looked at me. I saw a cheeky smile appearing in the corner of her lips. “Happy Birthday,” I whispered. “Who cares about birthdays?” she whispered and leaned forward. I hugged her and held her close. “ Happy Birthday,” I whispered again as a warm tingling sensation filled my entire being.

I am lost.. I realy don't know what to do..

It seems to be my fault.. I don't know how to handle...

HOW??

Over the weekend I was at Palau Ubin.. to have NPCC Adventure Traning Camp..(ATC)

Not too bad.. I really got to say I really learnt! I made 4 serious mistakes there.. and I really LEARNT!

But wat I felt most is actually my feelings towards him.. I should have forgot him long time ago.. but.. ... I ....... somehow liked back him.. on the other hand I don't dare to do so.. In whatever way, something bad will happened. everyone will be hurt.. or rather at least someone will be hurt..

I read a email just now that said that we must always say out how we feel for someone before the right time we think we should say is too late.. haiz.. Should I say?

Now I really wanna sms him.. really! But.. I really just don't dare..

*Love you..*

Recently been lazy to update my blog.. Just simply no mood to update..

Things aren't really going well again.. -.*

I read some of my friends blog just now and saw that some of their loved are going to past away soon or had dead already. How sad can life be? *sigh*

By the way, for inter con netball tournament.. BBE went into 2ND ROUND! Although we lost at 2nd round, we are satisfy already.. =)

Ya, I think I will update till here.. not in the mood to update a long post.. Bye!

"school reopened"

ya.. SCHOOL REOPENED! and 4 weeks to EOY.. -.* Haiz.. nvm..

During lessons, I remembered some stuffs that happened during the holiday and kept smiling away.. lolx.. There was a cadet (shall keep this person annoymus) when came back for holiday training, forgot to bring shoelaces but yet brought the boots.. HAHA.. and when someone knew about it.. the laughed loudly.. What made me smile was how this person laughed and this is my first seeing people forgetting to bring shoelaces.. lolx.. =)

Just now when watching a show, I reflected on myself and asked myself, what's love? why will opposite sex attract each other..?

Recently people around me are facing love problem.. not one or two but a few.. I used to somehow have the problem too.. =(

Is love suppose to be only sweet and romance..? I don't know.. It seem that in all couples a lot of effort is needed to overcome problems between themselves and between the society and them. I had a friend who got together with a guy a few month ago.. All of us thought that they were having perfect love. Nothing will go wrong in them.. They are gonna have everlasting love.. But who knows, recently they broke up. Reason being, the guy was lost and think that what he had done was unfair to the girl.. The girl broke down after the broke up.. What exactly is called unfair? I tried to save things back.. But it was all useless..

They started off with sweet and romance.. Till now, I still don't know what was the reason that why and how this happened..? But well.. the guy who you know who you are.. I just wanna say.. there was nothing unfair that you have done to her other then.. breaking up.. Her heart really broke and bled......

Another friend of mine, was caught in a triangle love recently.. Many people will think that its my friend's fault.. but I TOTALLY disagree.. Here's the details:

Guy A and my friend are good friends. Guy A liked this girl, Girl B. However, Girl B liked my friend. My friend not long ago just had some problems with a girl that he liked.. What is he going to do..? He put all the blame to himself and said that it is his fault for being caught in such situation. I don't think is his fault to be caught in such situation.. Many people will think that is his fault for not making things clear to the girl.. But he did nothing..!!! Now, he is lost..

Last case for sharing.. My friend been waiting for the 1 year to pass for his girl, Girl X, to come back.. yet during the period he dated another girl, Girl Y.. when Girl Y broke up with him, he was disappointed and blamed himself that he didn't do enough.. I really got to say Girl Y might have think that my friend was a flirt...

As for myself, I was once trap in a complicated situation before.. But well, my case was over.. peace was resume for me.. Only sometimes will feel empty in somewhere in my heart..

In the television, such cases were happening too..

What's love..? Why are there all this happening..? Are we still too young to handle love..? I hardly see successful cases nowadays.. Barely a few only.. I see my problems than success.. Haiz...

the other questions that I reflected was why will opposite sex attract each other..? Funny ya.? 2 different people who are practically different in everything can attract each other..? will I don't know.. lolx.. nvm..

It's been long since I blogged such a long post lolx.. ok la.. gtg and do homework now.. BIO!! ARGH!! bye.. =)

To all the above friends.. take care..

Recently things seem to go the wrong again.. -.*

haiz..

Bye!

Holidays? well.. to me, its more of like schooldays.. Just that the time for study is more flexible..

Holidays aren't too bad, I guess.. However, it would be better if I can play netball everyday and exercise of ALL my fats! Bahaha.. Homework wise, I think I am fine with it other then struggling with Bio.. -.-

Pratically every day need to go back to school.. =(

but nvm.. =)

Bye.. =)

Today we had Teachers' Day Celebration.. Many people said it was wonderful but I felt very guilty.. I just don't feel right.. Teachers, I am truly sorry.. I didn't know it will turn out like this.. To all my dearest teachers, I am very sorry..

I had a great time with 6A'03 they are simply adorable and ever sporty! lolx! played in rain just now.. I am not mad.. It was just drizzling.. Really had fun there with them but unfortunately I gotta left for Netball training.. and who knows today training was pretty bad.. *sigh*

I am tired after a day of "running" lolx.. ok need a rest.. bye..

LIfe is just so drastic.. =(

I really don't know don't know what the correct way to live.. Can hardly do anything I like.. the only thing that I like and I can do is only NETBALL! Teachers are damn freaky naggy! can hardly stand them! I really hate school now.. Most of the lesson really can bored me to death.. I hate to see the homework! It just rattle my nerves!

I really want to be alone for while yet people are just disturbing.. To my dear friends, sometimes, please give me some peace.. TO ALL TEACHERS, please spare me some life by stop NAGGING! I really hate nagging!

Life.. *sigh* Really tired of it! Can't go by my way.. What's the point having a life that others are controlling it? It's lame right? Or is this what everyone need to go through? Or is it the impact for what happened months ago?

Weekday, go school, come home, eat sleep.. Next day, wake up, eat go schooland continues.. Weekend, do Homework, go out if possible(but RARE), eat, sleep.. I think this is pretty much what everyone is doing everyday.. ya? I really wonder how you guys survive with such life that is so " square and dead"... *sigh*.. What can I do to it?

Nowadays, most of the things, I am really doing for the sake of doing or for the sake to prevent nagging.. It's so pointless to do all the stuffs.. Really hate it! I also don't know why sometimes I just have bad-temper and lose patient and a volcano erupted. =( What's becoming of me??

*sigh* What can I do???
Open to have a bigger view.. This is a composition written by my good friend, Ong Li Ling, it really reflect on the society!

Another of those sleepless, suddenly reflecting on the phrase,
"I don't know...", very familiar yah?

It seems many of us use it when, we really don't know or as an escape to certain questions posed. I wondered how many of those I have used.

Then again for me, there are many unknowns. I should say I really don't know why I don't know. Reasons, explanations or answers just aint there. What will you do then when the unknown is known to be unknowns? Wait and see what happens right? Maybe some unknowns are easily forgotten, others will dwell in us and we go in search for a possible answer. Funny it seems, we can find answers in or through others. Just have to be a little open-minded.

When you don't know, do you feel boxed up? Being boxed, you just want someone or somehow to be unwrapped, unboxed and be in the known world once again. Will it be better to be boxed? Perhaps it is... for awhile just to escape. When ready to face the reality, we may act like new borns or chicks pecking to get out of the shell slowly.

I don't know and I don't know anymore. I don't even know myself. Is that the ultimate? Just for those lost out there, it's okay to be in the "don't know coma" for awhile. It's pretty normal I guess. Just go in search for yourself and be who you are. Don't be led by the unknown. It aint going to take you far or to the destination you are suppose to be at. Be led by goals, directions and insipirations.

I copied this from one of my friends' blog..

More than often I am in "don't know coma" and feel very helpless especially when life goes too fast and I can't catch up... It made me feel that the world has abandon me..

the last 7 words of the entry inspired me in one way or another.. "Be led by goals, direction and inspirations".. With this seven words, I feel very lucky.. at least I know what I am doing now.. Ya..

Humans are great because they dare to dreams!

Bye!

I been having a problem on how to start an entry... Am I suppose to start with, "Hi!" or straight into topic?? lolx.. no idea.. Nvm!

I have no idea how to write what and how I think and feel this week.. Oh ya before I start on the issue.. I apologize for not updating frequently. For this whole week, I been very busy.. and gets tired at night. Hence, didn't update.. Sorry to my dearest loyal readers..

In my opinion, this week trainings, NPCC and Netball, are quite slacky. Nothing much to do during trainings. However, I do like cartain parts of one of my Netball's trainings. [=

This week life has been moving very fast.. I got pretty confused and lost (I think).. I just don't know why I can't stand a lot of things.. When a minor obstacle gets into my way, I will be very fustrated! *sigh*

There's another thing that I can't take it! I can't stand myself having short-temper! I have no idea how to tolerate things. *sigh* I really hope I can do something to help myself to get rid of this bad habit. Any suggestion?

I am OK! No worry. My MSN nick recently was "Please do not talk to me.. Let me be alone.." Many of my friends who are concern about me, asked if I was ok and whether I need any help or not.. I am perfectly OK! Sometimes, I just want to be alone and concentrate on my work. No worry and thanks a million for the concern! It is appreciated!

*YAWN* I am tired! lolx.. ok.. see you guys! Bye!

a week ended.. life not too bad..

but i wanna say something is wat u do to others u will kena one day.. very true.. whether good or bad matters..

Ya.. n i m tired.. BYE~!

work for this weekend:
*Bio WB (haven't finish)
*CL WB
*Maths TB (to be done in Bk B)
*Study for A Maths Test (Chap 6, tue)
*Eng TB-Summary
*Eng WB Chap 9
*Chem WB
*Teachers' Day stuffs
*Netball

WOW! its been more than a week since I last update.. lolx..

I went for National Camp '06.. Yea!! It was GREAT! Ya.. Really great.. A wonderful Experience![=

Common Test ENDED!! BAHAHA!!

After 1 week, FINALLY played Netball.. YEA! Stamina has A LOT A LOT of rooms for improvement.. =[ will try to try my best! HMP! lolx..

OK.. i thik tt's all for today.. I am TIRED!! BYE!!

*This Sat got Netball Carnival, Presta Sukan, anyone wanna go together?*

Well.. I am seriously not in gd mood these few days.. so please please please try not to talk to me.. I mean it.. Don't Talk To Me!!

YOu will have to pay for the conseqeunces!

I read a entry just now from my "friend"'s blog.. Tears was flooding my eyes.. "You" and "You" should know why. Nevermind.. I will never go and read the blog again.. NEVER!

What I heard yesterday through a conversation through a phone really made me sad. "You" should know why.. ='(

Ok, I guess shall end here for today.. Don't feel like writing anymore. BYE!

*reminder= Don't Talk To Me*

This is wat I wanna say to all that I had offended on Fri..






Here are some picts I drew when I was bored in class.. hehex..

Once again.. I am really sorry if I have offended you on fri.. SORRY!

I made mistakes over again and again. what can I DO?? Why must August once again be like this? I think I have offended someone again. I really don't know what can I do to save the situation. Right now, I have no one to turn to.

I have no idea how can I hold back my temper. I have no idea how can I please everyone. I have no idea how to stop things from happening. I know I can yet I just don't know how. My sister has problems. My super senior has problems. My gd buddy has problems. I have offended my friendSss.

I was simply tired on Friday. I really could not hold back my temper. I pratically offended everyone. I guess. I know it is useless to say anything now. Things have happened and nothing can change the situation. Can I please be given a chance again to make up what went wrong..? I may have offended some of you people the second time. I am really sorry.

You may face some problems now.. and I know it is not the right time to say certain things.

I guess all these are retributions. I seldom appreciate people's "good". Therefore, when I had done something, my good was all forgot clear and clean. Maybe in ther first place, I have no good.

May I ask for a forgive?

I was damn tired today. I got really irritated today and sorry friends if I vented my anger at you guys.. really sorry.. Today, is really not a good day for me.. I have like so many "debts" to pay today..

Tired yet still online.. ya.. doing work , that's why.. =( Have to type out quite a no. of things this wkend and submit them by Mon. =.- I am tired of reading SINGLISH!! seriously! as for why am I reading singlish.. tt shall be a secret. hehehex

Ok, can't take it anymore.. AHHH.. MUST go sleep NOW! Gdnitex!

Life was quite messy today.. *sigh*

Today's life is like going at a super fast paste and I can hardly catch up. =( Just now while bathing I was thinking of giving up my life for a moment, had a break before continuing life. This world is just so weird. Everyone wants a break yet wishes can't be granted.

I read a article (homework actually) talking about donating parts of body.. and there are questions for us to answer. The questions were asking about my feelings and was I encouraged by the article to contribute my to society.. HA! I had funny answer.. but that's was really how I felt.

Ok, I am really tired for today. gtg and sick again.. BYE!

Let's have a short blog and wanna sleep already..

Today, life seem neat yet messy.. weird right? I don't know how to describe my feelings but all I can say is somehow I feel hurt in one way or another..

I am hurt due to many many reasons.. NPCC, school, CCAs, Councilors.. etc.. I really got to thanks my parents.. they are the ones who really love me.. I realised.. because.. they are only the ones who tried their best to not to hurt me and give me the best..

At NPCC, I screamed like a mad woman.. reason: sec 1! HA! ya.. hope they will change..but seriously can see a drop in attendance.. haiz.. what to do...........????

BYE!

From today onwards i shall reply to taggy here! ya!

to Apple: ya.. injuries are part of sports indeed.. take care of ur ANKLES!!
to LY: thanks buddy!
to Priscilla: will change ur link but what ur password to enter the blog??

after replying shall start blogging.. lolx..

I love the feelings after shifting "house".. haha.. actually is more of changing class.. LOLx.. the "new" classroom is much more "airy" and higher.. i guess.. all I can say is that classroom give me alot of memories too .. lolz! oh ya.. there's another thing i like about the new classroom is.. can do exercise every day since the classroom is at 4th level.. in this way, i guess will be more awake?? haha..

I have a very cute friend to prevent teacher from reading her blog (i think), she will add funny alphabets behind teachers' name.. LOLx funny la!!!

As usual, life pretty boring today.. other then I went jogging today.. ya.. ok.. go do work already.. BYE!

Before i start today's entry.. just reply to some post..

to J: thanks.. =)
to LY: eh.. not sad actually.. just had some flashback ytd.. ya.. =)

Yesterday while playing netball had a bad fall.. I injured my knees, hand, n mouth.. =( hand wasn't really serious.. but knees were pretty bad! Mouth there.. my friends thought was pimple.. ~.`

I guess this week will have no netball for me.. :'( seriously man! cos really hurts!!

Ok, gotta rest alr.. BYE!

2 years back.. I know him, 2 years back I know her. Now she and him are together. 2years ago, I thought, 2 years later, I don't wanna think!

A simple sentence that contain thousands and millions feelings..

2 years ago.. I know him.. ya.. around this time in 2004 and know him.. its during a Sat I think or during weekday, can't really remeber.. :( but anyway, ya.. really has that memory of how I knew him.. I don't wanna go into details of it la.. sorry!

2 years ago I know her. Ya.. I started playing in hgv netball team in around June/July 2004.. I only slowly know people there well in End of July, Start of Aug.. but then right.. there is this person, I always frget her name.. I can remember others but not her's.. LOLx.. but end up we are the closest of all.. LOLx

Now she and him are together.. Yaaa...... its on 12th March.. ya! Don't wanna talk much about this..

2 years ago, I thought.. 2 years later I don't wanna think. 2years ago.. I thought of just thinking of him everything.. but now.. I really wanna stop myself thinking esp. after ytd what I heard. its pointless thinking, its worthless thinking.. so now.. i just wanna stop myself thinking but yet.. it's a very difficult..

a sentence that contains, happy, amazement, sad, etc feelings.. lots and lots feeling that words can't be used to describe..............

For quite a long time, didn't go back on Sat for lesson.. oh well.. to had umpiring and refreeing.. ya.. had fun la.. SPORTS!! afterwhich went to eat with NPCC people.. and had a conversation with someone(M):
M: Why ur nick recently like so sad?
me: Life quite boring lo, everyday, go school, come home, eat sleep
M: and when you grow up, go work come home, look at child and husband and this is ife.
me: ya la, life is so boring lo..

and blah blah.. can't rmb liao.. sorry M tt i need to lie.. there are some other reason why I am sad.. I really dun noe how to put down things.. haizz...

I am here just to write a reminder list for myself of what need to be done this weekend..

->Perth skeleton(adjustment)
->Maths WS
->A. Maths TB
->E.Maths TB
->Chem WS
->Tcher day, details planning..
->Test on Mon and Fri. A.Maths, Geog.

Tada, done.. BYE!

I gotta say I am confused now. I really don't who can I trust now. Cos even the people who are closest to me are lying. Who are speaking the truth? =(

I really hate life.. it don't sucks, just that I have a big knot in my heart and people are pulling it tighter and tighter when I wanna untie it.

What should I do? Who can I trust? Who can I look for? PLEASE HELP ME!

So late still up? ya.. (obiviously) ok.. lol.. Every tuesday 100% will stay up late no matter ho fast I do my things or how slow I do my things. Weird!

These few days, my mum and my friend been telling me about people passing away. They are all very sad over the death. To me, I am actually happy for them because they don't have to suffer anymore in this world. Maybe there is something more interesting for them somewhere else? We can never know. But.. sometimes when I think what will happen if one day.. ..... I will be sad too.. but at the same time will I be happy for them?

Oh well, I guess all these can't be helped. However, why are others dying but not me? I WANT TO DIE IN SLEEP! But seriously if I am not going to die in sleep right, I wouldn't want to die. Very contradicting right..? Cos obviously I can't really think now cos it's very late at night le..

Since last weeks, most of my entries are either on life or death.. There's a reason for me doing so. It is because I can't really find a way to live properly. (Eh.. I am not too sure about the definition of proper). Sometimes life is just so dead and bored that I see no "life". I am also looking for the best way to die.

haiz.. really ah.. when holiday right, I shall take one whole week to find things and study life..! As for the time being, just life for the sake of living. Live day passing one day by one day for no reason. If any of you wanna kill me, please do so. the thing is one stab MUST die hor. If you wanna kill me with 2 or more cut or stab or by other means, I will call police and sue you for making me suffering. But if can kill me with just a cut or stab and I can die the next second, you will be rewarded, and show police this entry that you won't be sue or charge for murder cos is I am willing to let you kill me. ya!

AND I AM SERIOUS ABOUT THIS!

Today? early in the morning got call up for nothing.. -.` lol..

Life passed one day by one day.. and getting more lost and lost in life.. #.- Really don't have any motivation to live on.. I can't find any purpose living in this world.. Life is like so boring and dull. Everyday, go school, come home, eat, do homework, sleep. Weekend: wake up eat, go out, come home, eat, sleep. ~.` Nothing interesting!

Ya, I know what we do will affect others.. But others are going to die one day.. Those people affect by them are going to die one day too.. I mean is like when everyone is going to die one day, why did we live? Did we live for the sake of death? I had a friend told me that he hate see death. As for what's the reason, I have no idea. not that I like to see death but.. ALL of us are going to die one day. It's only a matter of early or late.

These few days been having comprehension about life, lessons talking about life.. etc.. All these are telling us to treasure our life, our lifes are precious. But seriously, I don't see how precious life is, i don't see the reason why we need to treasure life.

Not long again, I was talking to one of my friends about life, he said that our reason for living is we affect others.. but like i said above, ALL of us are going to die one day. Does it really matters how we affect others when ALL of us are going to die one day?

People said that I thought of all these are only making my life difficult and complicated. To me, I really don't see any motivation and reason to have a life on Earth. You may ask, why don't I commit suicide. I really wanna die. I really wanna someone come and kill me. Or die in a sleep. I don't want to commit suicide cos I don't want to cos pain for myself, as in.. the stab hurts.. but if someone kills me, the pain come from someone else. Die in sleep will be the best.. no pain at all.. PERFECT DEATH!

Readers, if you like living in this world, can tell me why??

A new week gotta start, yet I feel very chaotic. -.` I been feeling dizzy since ytd night till just now around 4pm.. ya..

Shall just be a short entry.. need to get back to work and go and rest.. =)

I guess I think I know what is happening..
But oh well.. I think sould keep some stuffs within myself..

Whole day been doing homework.. hoping can finish all the homework today.. thn can go enjoy tmr.. .


Things to clear up this weekend:
~~Perth Proposal
~~Perth Scapebook
~~Photos for T Li Ling (really very sorry..)
~~Physics Workbook
~~A. Maths
~~E.Maths
~~English
~~Chinsese
~~Chemistry
~~Social Studies
~~ Teachers' Day Plan

Till now.. only manage to finish:
--Phy Wb, A.Maths, Eng, Chinese.. Oh well.. thouugh I am busy but people please do not ASSUME that I can't cope.. lol.. ya..

Ok.. now shall go back and do the others already.. later then update blog again.. =)

This week is pretty bad for me.. Really bad I guess..

Too much things already.. I guess.. sister very sorry.. Really very sorry.. I didn't mean it, I didn't know that there will be such a great impact.. Very sorry..

Now all I care only the big matters.. can't really bother with the trivia matters.. Sister and I, the sistership seems bad.. I am really afraid with what's gonna happened.. Though it hurts me, this isn't what I want to see. Really.. Everything has come and gone too fast.. I guess.. Maybe its so fast that everyone can't handle it well.. Yet, I can do nothing about it.. Was it my fault..?

I am really bothered over it.. I really hope i can do something about it.. Amirah, you are right.. what you told me the other time was right.. Now, I am lost? or maybe I am not..

Whatever it is.. Hope nothing big and scary is gonna happened.. and Take care sister.. If there's anyway, I can help you.. PLease, Please, Please tell me...

Today, was still feeling abit sick.. Could hardly sweat.. -.` Anyway, wasn't as serious as yeaterday.

Today's Bio and Phy test.. Ok? think so. lol.. ya.. Hopefully! But nvm.. its OVER!

Today netball trg.. normal.. lol.. ya.. normal.. but still has rooms for improvement! YA!!!

Shall stop here today.. BYE!!

Fever today.. but I didn't realise until Li Ling told me.. LOL.. ya.. was trembling.. Thought was just only feeling nervous therefore tremble.. (nervous for what? no idea) Ya.. after school, ask my friends to see if I am really having fever.. Ya.. I am.. I just keep on trembling till I finally SWEAT!! Thought got better but after the sweat dry up, fever came back.. ~.` Obviously no one care! Ya.. everyone only bother about the training.. Maybe in my daily life I didn't care for others.. oh well.. this maybe a retribution.. Fever wasn't that bad.. worst part.. EXTRA TRAINING on Fri! I am going to curse and swear the person who does so.. HMPH! Damn it.. Was very irritated by it..

Was most upset when just now, someone just can't be bothered.. I almost wanna blown up.. but nvm.. I know that someone has someone and ya.. NVM!

Ok.. test revision now.. ya. BIO + PHY! -.~

More than often.. sadness and disappointment covers my happiness

I don't know why.. yeaterday night, I had this thinking.. Its was very complicated and messy.. Here's what I am thinking: (you simply refer to NO ONE)

Why was this earth created..? How was it created..? When Earth was created what was the purpose of it..? What the point of living on Earth where everyone in this earth is selfish..? (you maybe offended by this sentence, but think through, is it true?) How was man created..? This Earth is just simply weird.. We are going to live and die one day.. What's pt of livig when we are going to die one day..? Is like, what's call life? Doing so much in this life and one day everything is just going vanish as you can't take it away with you.. More than often we are force to do what we don't really like to do.. We are seriously studying for the sake of studying.. Every rules and regulations are set by humans.. Why did humans set such rules and regulations? why went we go school. we must wear uniform and not other type of clothing? very often, if we don't follow the correct and acceptable way of living we are being left out by the WHOLE WORLD! worst still got punished for not following rules and regulations.. Just take for e.g stealing.. If a person steal things, he is called a criminal.. but in the first plae did we ask why did he steal? Why on erath everything must be buy using money? YOu earn the money, you will spend it.. it will be a money cycle.. Ok, maybe you wanna be rich.. but end of the day you are going to die, you can't bring money with you.. or maybe you wanna leave the money for your next generation.. Why do we need to have next generation? Ok, this what many people call life cycle.. is it necessary to have a life cycle?? When the next generation is born, do they really wanna be born?? Life is like so complicated, we have to face so many things.. and often, money made life difficult for everyone.. This world is just simply so not a world..

Ya.. this was just simply my thinking.. Only part of it.. cos. I really think through alot of things ytd.. now, back to word again.. ya.. BYE!

Damn freaking pissed off still.. ya.. can obviously see that I get irritated damn easily today.. Ya.. really very easily.. so please try not to irritate mi.. or you re really going to suffer from my blast.. serious.. no joke..

School as usual.. boring.. =( ya.. Now i see bio then wanna tear the book already yet I wanna get an A1.. ~.` sian lo.. haiz..

Went west mall after school.. damn it! No Eng textbook again.. ....... Siao liao lo.. history gonna repeat again.. Sian! Pray hard that I dun have to run through out the whole Singapore just to get the Eng book like the other time whereby I gt my Eng at Tampines.. -.-

Ok.. that's all for today.. Homework time..


*The sight of you make me puke..~ Still damn pissed off~*

Got myself a new skin.. ya.. This is the 5th skin I made.. A bit not my usual style.. Ya.. But Hopefully can get my message of this skin across.. lol.. ya.. and also to "CELEBRATE" 1 yr old of my blog.. yup.. In 7 days time.. its my blog 1 yr old "birthday"

I spent quite a long time to do this.. cos I have no idea what the layout should be..

Do rate my blog.. there's a poll at the 5th navigation

OK.. homeworking time.. lol..

* hv u read the msg? *

These few days things weren't going very smooth..

Wed NPCC training was quite bad.. things didn't went well at all..

Thu Netball training wasn't too bad.. But I was pissed off at a moment that I really shouted.. Some of the juniors were performing so badly that I really wanna say that they sucks.. The seniors were doing a wonderful job.. And Thanks Mdm Chan..

Fri Councilor Investiture went well.. but when I reach home.. Something real horrible happened.. and shall see what will I kena on Mon.. ~.`

Today will be a homework day..

and.. my aim now is get A1 for BIO! HMPH!

Having a pile of homework today.. Ya, missed today's netball at BBEC there.. =(

Been busy this week.. and ya, have quite few things not done yet.. )=
1. Perth PP slide
2. Perth Scape bk
3. TD Proposal
4. English W.S
5. 40 Bio MCQ
6. Mindmap (Bio)
7. Prepare for tests
8. Get the photos done
9. Settle my NPCC stuffs
10. Physics Wkbk

... Ya.. been on a really down mood.. Wanted to get some help but I only had people gving me problems.. So I just simply heck them and shall not discuss things with them..

In my mind, I been wondering who can I talk to.. When I am down, I can hardly concentrate.. Maybe this is mood swing.. I have no idea.. oh well.. sometimes feel really sian man..

Ok, guess that's all for today.. need to go and finish what's mentioned above..

~.- *sign*

Feeling very down today.. can hardly concentrate.. ya.. thinking n thinking n thinking.. of? 3 questions:

What's life?
Who am I?
What's feelings?

3 simple questions yet in my 15 yrs of life I have not figure the answer out yet.. I feel guilty today.. for not doing something.. Honestly, I don't really know the definition for guilty but that what most people say.. Words and description are set by humans.. they set the language.. sometimes, really don't know what to use to descrbe things and feelings.. If I were to use my own words, no one can understand me.. If I use what's set, I have no idea what to use.. Often, I really don't know what am I feeling, because I have no words to tell myself so..

Someone will hate someone when the person can't accept the other person behaviour.. Ya, this is true.. but.. what's call acceptable behaviour?? Everything are being set by humans.. Humans set the rules and regulation.. In my opinion, some rules and regulation are set due to selfishness.. some are set because they care for others.. But whether is it for themselves or others, the moments these rules and regulation are set, EVERYONE MUST follow.. Haiz.. By following rules and regualtions is that call life??

Then, what the correct way of living?? Do what is expected of others..?? I have no idea.. really no idea.. To me, hardest thing to do in the world is to lead a simple life.. Many times, feeling "don't know"(others call this feeling: lost), yet I have act as if I know.. Well.. I really have no idea, how to be myself.. what exactly is life to me?? How should I feel to be myself? What should I do to be myself??

Answer: don't know!

*sign!*

Gonna go back to school soon.. =( for councilor rehearsal.. I can't get a cord shoe that has my size.. URGH! lol.. oh well.. nvm..

In school, can be happy, but out of school.. all the emotions come.. I have no idea why.. but sonehow sad these few days over certain matters.. well.. Hope can overcome them.. =]

I REALLY MISS PRIMARY SCHOOL LIFE!! VERY! Really wanna go back to those days.. Went back to pri sch on tues.. went looking round the school.. lots lots, and lots of memories flashback.. ya.. I really gotta say.. my primary school is so much better than my secondary school.. In term of system, facilities, discipline, educate, etc.. (THIS IS ONLY MY OPNION!!) Really wanna go back there and study.. but well.. we always have to move on in life.. can't always stay at the same spot and not moving.. Having dinnemia.. LOL.. ok.. I gtg liao..

Shall be back later.. anyway..

FRANCE GOT INTO THE FINALS!! =D

This is my 200th entry.. =) My blog is going to ONE YEAR OLD!! and ya, I year has passed since I started writing my blog and creating blogskins.. Currently, this is still my fourth blogskins.. not having any plan to have new blogskin.. Maybe when I had reach my target.=)

These few days been kind of lazy to update my blog.. FRANCE won BRAZIL!! Was surprised but wasn't shock since they were once a champion in the year 1998.. =P These few days, Brazil had lots of critism as well.. Oh well, in my opinion, I think that the fans should not have so much critism about Brazil.. there must be a winner AND a loser.. If France lost, people will said that they can't make it, whatever shit.. Why don't we just take it that France luck is better this time round.. Though I support France for this World Cup, I agree that Brazil has the potential to be the champion.. =) Another match, England VS Portugual.. Many poeple were expecting England to win.. Well.. just like Brazil, they lost.. History repeated, they lost at the penalty.. Penaly really got to depends on luck. I just hope that England can have better luck next tie round.. =))

Ok, that's all for the time being.. gotta sleep already.. =)

I am feeling very lost now.. Maybe its cos I am tired.. maybe its not..

Had a horrible week?? Maybe I am, Maybe I am not.. Don't know..

But some news really made me mad.. People are looking down on the team.. Everywhere has problems now.. Feeling lost on how to solve the problems.. People just can't be bothered.. cos I don't think they don't even bother to find out?? Nvm.. Wanted to talk to my sister.. but will.. she must be busy with own personnel life.. so ya..

Kinda troubled now.. I guess..

Have few things that I promised but they are undone.. ~.` Very sorry people, if I own you things.. Especially Amirah.. very sorry.. Give me a bit of time to get back myself..

and yaa.. I am realy not myself not.. as for, what exactly is called myself.. I actually have no idea.. OK, I am lost now..confirm that I am lost.. think so bah.. ya..

Sister, if you read this.. I really wanna talk to you!!! 543: if you read this please give me a call.. OLL: if you read this, please give me a call!!

Can't really find a words to describe my feelings now.. I am angry, disappointed, lost, confuse and?? don't know.. ya!.. ok.. nvm..

Shall go and rest.. Maybe after a sleep things will be better.. =]

Can school starts at night..? lol.. I knows this is totally ridiculous.. haha..

I wish this can come true.. Studying at night is so nice.. For me, its true.. for others I am not to sure.. heehee.. This few days, been doing homework until 3, 4 am in the morning, after a few hours sleep, I am still awake.. hahaha..

=]

Happy BIRTHDAY.. to Calista..

Her birthday is on 24th. ya.. no mistake.. =)

Today..?? Homework, homework.. and homework.. lol.. I manage to finish CL, A.Maths(left graph'-`) and looking for the paper that has the website for the Chemistry.. lol.. Left with Bio, Eng.. Weehee.. =)

While reading the Chinese book that is needed to complete the homework, alot of thoughts went through my mind.. Title: Yi1 Xiang4 Qing2 Yuan3. Its a book that reveal life in Singapore.. and I find that its very true.. and alot of feeling overwhelm me when I was reading it.. lol.. can try reading it.. through words used are of higher level but these words really bring out the feelings.. =)

Just now smsed him.. well.. was actually looking a night-chatter.. but no one can stay up till as late as I do.. lol.. I mean not that there is someone that I can chat with and they stay till as late as now.. lol.. Use to have 2 night chatter.. but now.. not even one available.. lol.. its ok.. =)

Back to my work already.. 2 days left to finished the rest.. ._.

Netball as usual.. but today.. really BASIC!!.. *sigh* oh well.. but nvm.. Don't know why.. today can't run for long man.. will pant lik dog after a short run.. and my knee HURTS!.. *sobx*

What's the definition of holiday?
Ans: stay away from work..

School holiday??
Ans: stay away from school work..

But this is never true man! Teachers LOVE to give tons of homework during holiday.. and make themselves mark like mad.. or some don't even bother to look through.. ~.- I find it weird.. Students can't finish the work.. and when school reopen, teachers will scold as if there is no tomorrow.. When all the homework are handed in, they mark like mad.. if not, can't be bothered to look at it..

Don't you guys find it weird?? Is like, what's the point torturing everyone?? Maybe, by doing homework can improve the subjects.. but the thing is.. if someone is hardworking, he/she will find the way out to improve, if he/she is lazy, no metter how much work you give, no improvement can be seen.. For me, I will only bother in the subjects that I am interested.. What's worse.. I even heard people stressed with HOLIDAY HOMEWORK!! my goodness.. this is totally a torture for students..

Teachers are so weird.. emmm...

Feel like blogging again.. lol..

Been kind of sian just now.. I realised alot of things nowadays..

I had been kind of lazy these few days.. lol.. but seriously ah.. gotta work hard man.. I was so slacked that I forgot quite a no. of formula.. ~.- Keep on don't have the mood to study.. *sigh* What am I becoming man?? lol.. ok.. well.. now shall work hard!

Just now I realise I had a book that I borrowed and its overdue!!! for 8 days liao.. *diao* my goodness..

Seeing people sad again.. not just one but a few.. life really that sad ma?? Some of them is just like how I felt in the past.. oh well.. I crawl out from the darkness slowly.. ya.. people.. don't give up.. ya? Keep going..

I realised my mistakes.. really.. gonna have something done.. before everything is too late.. =)
*Is this true?*

Ok la.. go back to the pile of homework liao.. =)

Never be the Jack of trade, be the King of trade..

YES!! haha..
I guess this is a sentence that I must always remember in my mind.. as well as this sentence:
Its nice to be important, but it is more important to be nice..

Had somehow reflected on myself.. on the past and the present..
and I realised.. Oh well, the past has been the past.. it can never be the future.. All I can do now is change and be better in future.. =)

Went for some netball just now.. my friend had some problem.. I have no idea how to help her.. I can't even make her feel better.. mmm.. how?? What can I do? Buddy, take sometime and relax.. ya??

Just now netball, nothing much.. shooting and shooting.. cos my shooting is not up to my standard yet.. need to be improved.. M!

Now then I realise.. I have LOTS of HOMEWORK LEFT!!! AHH!! haha.. nvm.. at most scolding only.. BLAHAHAHA..

=)

Apologise, and aplogise.. seriously.. this is what I wana say.. to: my team who played last 2 days at the street netball.. and to the opponents who we played with..

The street netball didn't really gone well.. But I tried my best.. sorry to all the above mentioned people..

My team won 1 out of 7 matches..
Here's the result.. one game 15 min..
XNIJ: 25-0
HSS1: 3-2 (could have at least draw.. it was my fault.. =( )
Chilli Padi: 1-5 (the only match we won)
Dynamic: 11-1
Climax: 17-1
Team Estrelas: 13-0
Ichi: 26-1

Went I came home, I had 16 hours of sleep..

I am still tired now.. ~.`

Very pissed off now..

Because? Nothing is going right..

Please work as a team.. I know it was my fault.. but I hope I can be forgiven and let's work as a team..

What can I say about today?

A bad day? well. I made it a bad day..

Was it wrong for me to say what I have said..? What could I have done? Was it my fault to get angry..?

Well.. nevermind.. whatever it is.. Let time do part of the job.. while I think how to resolve it.. =)

Talking to my sister now.. haha.. ok.. actually wanted to talk serious stuffs but ya.. end up crapping session..

I promised to stay happy..

Ok, I will.. I will nt be sad over a stupid guy.. ok.. not stupid.. haha watever..

the SUN is back.. HAHA..

People.. no more worries..
Thanks to EC and Amirah.. =)

Why sad?
Happiness is the better way to live.. =)

Life turned its angle..
Love sank..
Feelings are to be kept..
Days turned dark..

Rain freezes..
Ice melted..

The corner turned with every moments vanishing..

Never wants this again..

Sorry everyone..
Its my fault today..

A big thanks to Juli.. =)

Disappointment is all I experienced today..
Why?
Reason for not putting in effort:
Lazy..
Leg wobble..

Bullsh*t..
This didn't create that much of disappointment..
Is when people said they give up..
I wanna run and run and run..
Non-stop..

I hate hearing it..
Why can others make it but not us?
Was it my fault?
What can I do to improve?

I have people telling me:
We can't make it la..

When you know can't do it..
WORK HARD!!

Nevermind..

People.. I know I should cheer up..
But I really don't know how..
Please give me suggestions..

Can you be there again?

Netball has never failed to cheer me up,
Make up my mistakes..
Yet, this time, netball only work for half of it..

I seemed so lousy..
The moment thoughts of someone come..
My mind was ruined..

What has the someone did..
Is actually 2 people..(Not my sister)
I do not know how to present myself
whenever she come to my mind..
I lost my way of direction
whenever she appear..
I am scare of her..
Is there anything going to happen to my Netball??
I am scare...

The other one??
He gave me EVERYTHING..
Happy, Sad, Disappointment, Fustration, everything..
When he left..
What's left?
Everything other then happy..
Why can't I be happy?
He was once too important to me..

Who is he?
Why can't I simply said it out?
Cos..
Because..
I am scared..
I am afraid of facing the consequences..

I am facing him almost everyday
Even during holidays.. (Not my brothers.. ~.~)
Cos, even in my dreams, he appeared..

Months and days have passed..
Yet, thoughts have not been forgotten..

After months,
why all of a sudden, so much of him came out??
cos,
I miss him..

How much do I miss him?
All of his msg are kept..
All his picts are kept..
All his words are remembered..
Everything of him remained in my mind..

I really wish 2 years ago..
I don't get to know him..
Don't get to see him..
will everything still be the same..?
When I don't see him, know him??

Haiz..
and Haiz..
and only haiz..

Could I have done more?
Could I have been more devoted?
Or could have have just do nothing?
What's the correct path?
I don't know..
I really don't know..

Thanks heaven..
One more year..
I will leave the sad place..
The place that had too much too much bad memories..

I use to say that canteen is beautiful..
But now, the canteen is just so ugly and empty..

In the past, no matter how bad my day is..
Him and/or netball..
NEVER fail to cheer me up..
But now......

Since I came back from the trip..
I seem sad..
Yes, I am sad..
You can say I write this cos I am AA..
Whatever..
I am emo..
Up to you..

I gotta say..
this trip has told me truth..
Nothing but truth..

Though truth are cruel..
But they are good truth..
They are good truth, why am I sad??
Why??
Cos, I don't know how to react to it..

Life oh life..
Cheer up?
I don't know how..
When everything goes wrong,
How do I face it?
Is this called stress?
I think its call sadness..

Am I the only one feeling such after the trip?
Am I?
If you are, do tag..

How can I make myself feel better?
Do things that I should do?
But that's shouldn't be the way..

Though I feel sad
Yet, I can't cry..
Or, I am not sad actually?
Or it wasn't called sad?
I don't know..
Its up to individual to interpret..
To me..
sad is what I called..

What I wanna do now?
Shout and scream my lungs out..
This seen mad..
But its the best way to get rid of my sadness..
Since I have no one to talk to now..
Don't tell me, I can talk to you..
There is only 2 and 1/2 people
That i can talk to with no fear..
But none of them is available now..

I really hope to talk to him again..
But I know I can't..
Well.. he is not the 2 and 1/2 people..
I never tell him anything about myself..
As in, deep in details..

I still remember..
Last year 15th April..
.................................

But its all over..
Nothing can change..
Cos..
If anything change..
the price to pay is high..
I mean Really High..

Now, it just seem like last year Aug..
Things were bad then..

How bad?
second worst period of my life..

I know its no point being sad..
But I really don't know what to do to pick myself up..

After truth are been discovered..
I am..
Lost..?
I don't know..
my mind..
is just simply...
I don't know..
Yet I need to act as if..
I know..

Who can help?
Only you!
Who?
HIM!
Who?
I don't know..
cos..
I know he will never appear again..
Who else?
The 2 and 1/2 people..
Where are they?
Not in Singapore..
1/2??
Don't wanna talk with this 1/2 person again..

Nvm...

Whoever knows..
knows..
Whoever don't know..
Please don't ask..

Thanks..

......

Here's an entry for netball..

Gathering for HGV netballers..
-24th June..
-East Coast Park..
-ALL NETBALLERS!
-Include current batch of sec 4, Ai ping and Xue ting as well as current HGV Netballers..
-will be meeting Kai Ling
-For more info.. contact Marianne..
-Thanks!

Street Netball Competition
-17th, 18th June..
-Plaza Singapura
-The 2 team Players..
-Please contact me to meet up for training..
-My plan:
-->training dates as following: Today, 13th, 15th June..
-->Time: 5.30pm
-->Venue: a netball court outside school..
-->For more info: contact me..
-Do come down and support us..
-The competition will start at 11am

Ytd, there was NSL at Toa Payoh Sports Hall.. Wonderful!!
Congrats to KaiLing!!

Thanks to 4 pretty ladies out there..
Stacie, Amirah, Sarina and Diyva..

You guys tried your best to brighten the trip for me..
Thanks with love from the bottom of my heart..

I really wanna scream..
I really wanna shout..
Things were worst than I expected..
Life turned into dark clouds..
Never wants it again..
Yet, I don't know what to do..
Horrible feelings made me feel SUCKS..
The world overturned and tell me to stop..
Yet, I have no idea how to stop..

Who am I?
I am no one..
Who are you guys?
You guys are wonderful..

What happened?
Many things..
Have I changed?
I don't know..
But I guess I did..
For better?
I don't know..

What's the main cause?
Partly is this trip that made me think..
Partly is cos of what happened on 12 March..
What's 12 March?
The day, that my love has to be kept..
The day, that I almost lost everything..
The day, that I cried for the longest..
The day, that I never want it again..
The day, that I think that life is evil..
The day, the day, the day..

Why the trip?
Isn't it fun?
Isn't there so many first time?
Isn't it?
No.. all turn all rotten..
Its a trip that I spoilt my own image..
Its a trip that I wanna apologize..
Its a trip that I shouldn't go..
Its a trip that is not for me..
Its a trip that made me know what's in my heart..

What's in my heart..?
My heart only contain evil and evil..
Why?
I guess its what I have been true..
I can't be like others..
Others are good..
I am lousy..

Can someone get me out of this nightmare?
Please..
I had enough..
But I don't know what to do to stop..
I really don't know..

....

I was excited over it..
Happy about it..
Yet, it turn out to be dark clouds..
the darkness cover me..

There was so many first times
yet, the first times didn't really turn out to be good
Wanna thanks a few people who gave me shines

I wil never forget the darkness that cover me..
the situations that I met
make me lost my way..

I really don't know who I am..
I felt so evil..
I felt so sad..
I really don't know what's life..

I sucks..
You hate me..
Its not your fault..

The moment words are out..
I feel so lousy..

I don't know what is call care..
Everything I do is for the sake that I am scared..
I know this is wrong..

I know I am selfish..
Yes! I know..
Cos I feel that life is evil..

For everything in the world..
It seem to be against me..

Whatever I wanna do..
People aren't putting in effort for it..

I really don't know what's life
What's the meaning of it..?
I don't know what am I getting at the end of the day..

Perth good?
Ans: Not too bad..

Enjoyable?
Ans: ok la..

Wanna go again?
Ans: YES!! I LOVE THE BEACH!

Ok.. for the time being that's all for Perth.. when I get picts.. then I update more bt it..

Well during this long journey.. many things happened.. and think though many many things..
I somehow lost my way.. I don't know how to carry myself.. Feeling damn horrible..

Sometimes its wrong to walk away
Though we think its over,
knowing when there's more to say
Suddenly, the moments gone
and our dreams have ended here
and you just wanna change the way the world goes round

Tell me
have you ever love and lost somebody
wished there was a chance to say I love you
Can't you see?
That's the way I feel about you and me, baby..

This was part of my performance.. but I wanna say this to ______

This will most probably my last entry before I turn 15! Cos 2 MORE DAYS TO MY BIRTHDAY!!

These few days, though holi, but still can see me in school.. Today got Solar Car Competition.. HAIZZ.. ARGH!!! haha..

To my dear sis here: I will treasure you man.. I realise something.. I promise to treasure you!
To Pei Yun: I promise to help you in al ways I can just like how my sis helped me.. At least I will give you a hug everyday.. I promise!

I am very excited now man! Over? hehe.. shall not tell first! When I update my blog again then tell.. Blah..

Oh no! gotta go busy first.. update my when I am free..!

Anyway.. THANKS MUM!! THE BEST BIRTHDAY GIFT I EVER GET!

Wasn't in mood to blog for the past few days.. The week was very chaotic.. Well.. its a past.. shall not bother with the chaos..

Holiday started.. I was been asked a funny qn.. Do I have time to do other activities since I am so busy? Of COURSE!! I play netball as and when I want so long I have a netball in my hand.. I go out whenever I wants so long no objection from my parents.. Slack and work hard whenever I want.. You guys may think I am lying.. but well that's true.. just sometimes some of my friends find abit hard to fix into my time.. But I guess I can only have this life till the end of this year.. or maybe this life will end after june.. cos O' level coming.. well.. this is LIFE.. haha

I flare up last Wed.. cos a idiot irritated me to the core.. Buddy, I didn't mean to flare up at you.. This idiot was too irritated that I flared up at my friend.. =(( sorry buddy.. The idiot was giving me problems man.. Idiot YOU BETTER SHUT UP!! Don't want to talk to me then don't even ask me to do things..

Wanna blog my homework as a reminder.. NOT TO BOAST!!
1. E.Maths FYS
2. A.Maths FYS
3. Chem WS
4. CL Bk
5. SS Proj
6. Phy WB
7. EL Assignments..(3)

Been doing the E.Maths FYS.. I spent 2 days to finished it.. 84 qns to be completed.. WOW! that's alot.. (to me) but well.. That's Mrs Tan.. haha.. ok shall go rest liao.. tmr still need to go out.. BYE people.. Sleep well..

*Count down!!-->6 days...(Not to world cup ~.~) *

Well.. i guess many people have mistaken my words.. i am not trying to build up any anger within anyone.. Before I wrote it.. I have a warning.. that if you will be offended don't read.. To the Passer-by.. I am not saying that its wrong to express your view.. and i got your words.. That was just my point of view towards school.. I wrote it when I was angry the other time.. Well.. I guess I have the right to express whatever I feel in my blog right? Same for you.. you have right to express your view too.. Well, I understand what you mean.. and I have also looked at the other view of the school.. =) I said sorry cos.. I have some comments from my OTHER friends..

People.. forget watever you have read.. on the entry that those who know I have deleted.. Its my fault for writing that.. Sorry..

Been BUSY!! today holi still need to go back to school.. =(

rush down to Bishan to buy some stuffs and settle the car.. damn tiring man..

I looked through thw calender if today wasn't a holi.. for the whole year.. none of the thurs wil be a holi.. n i wont miss netball.. grr.. nvm..

To _ _ _ _ _: Take a break when you need it.. don't stress yourself up..

GOODNIGHT!

By having good results.. parents will be happy for the child right?? I told my mum some of my result.. What she said made me feel that I did very lousy.. =( I told her that I am very happy with my Chem result yet she just said.. where did the half-mark gone?? As if.. I am just doing very lousyly.. =(

I got 99.5/120 for chem.. I am very happy for the result.. I was hoping that my mum will be happy for me too.. cos since young my science has been horrible.. but she don't seem too.. =(
Had I done badly?? How good is then call good..???

Did I do really that bad? I was careless.. I KNOW.. I lost 2 marks for nothing I was upset with it.. VERY UPSET.. yet.. she seem like blaming me.. hinting me that I am lousy..

I got back almost all the result.. DON'T COMMENT ANYTHING ON MY RESULT!!

Chem- 99.5/120
Phy- 98/120
Bio- 64/120
Maths- 96/100
A.Maths- 94/100
Social Studies- 30/50
Elective Geography- 15/25
CL(Paper 2)- 71/100
EL- Unknown..

Whole day been playing game and went for a jog just now.. still bad.. 25 min.. die liao.. haiz..

"I don't know if you are reading my blog.. oh well.. just wanna say.. please stop making me jealous.. I had enough of crap from you.. I know your life is good.. I KNOW!! You know OBVIOUSLY he is not online.. then PLEASE DON'T put things that you wanna tell him.."

Goodnight..

MYE has come to an end..

I read many blog on how their owners feel about exams.. well.. MANY said they will fail badly.. I personnelly hate reading such thing.. cos.. many of them said will fail badly the other time (last yr??) some did extremely well and some even came in first.. haiz.. nvm.. exam over.. shall not think too much.. =)

I shall start GAMING now!! haha.. BYE!

Feeling kind of sian now.. Just finish the revision for Physics.. Hopefully the info gets into my head.. haha.. and I AM HUNGRY now.. Ha!! I am influence by someone for this.. haha..

Last time when I stay up late, I will sms someone.. and this someone will be have supper at this "early" time.. haha.. But sad.. now can no longer sms this someone.. night life at home become bored liao..

Talk about this.. Kinda miss those days' life.. Really miss those days smsing this someone.. I had a record of smsing this someone from 1am to 5am!! Was kind of fun.. Will suan4 one another, talk crap, etc.. Who is this someone?? Ha! Shhhh.. Blah..!=P But if you know I am talking about.. sms me again, can?? Thanks..!

Ok.. now is 2am in the morning.. shall have a few hr of rest before go school tmr.. BYE!

Tmr PHYSICS!!!!! haiz.. i got the influence from Li Ling liao.. damn! hahaha.. jkjk..

But seriously I have no idea what to study for PHYSICS.. can never transform the theory into practical.... nvm.. just learn watever can get into my brain..

and tmr is the LAST DAY OF MYE!! Actually it is not smth to be happy abt.. cos.. end of MYE means gotta be busy again.. and seriously I have a very pack schedule.. =( nvm.. its good to experience things while young =)

Now I know why ppl hated Mrs Peng so much.. Ha! I shall not go into too much detail of it..

To all HGV Netballers: Celebration cum Gathering is cancelled..

Shall go and stuff myself into PHYSICS.. BYE!

Just kind of bored now.. can't concentrate on my revision..

Shall just blog facts of tmr exams.. =)

Why British don't let Singapore get independence?
1.For their own interest
-Singapore is a good port.
2.Communist threat
3. Singapore has no natural resource.

Why want merger?
Singapore:
1.to gain independence more easily
2. S'pore is a natural part of Malaya
Malaya
1. to control the communists
2. Singapore got excellent port

Merger Talk:
1. Common Market
2.Loan to Borneo Territories
3.Constitutional Matters
4. Citizensip
5. Special Rights of the Malays

What's the reaction?
Singapore: agree but PAP was splited..
Malaysia: initially at 1950s rejected but in 1961, agree
Sabah and Sarawak: agreed
Brunei: rejected
Philippines:not happy
Indonesia: not happy

haha.. ok.. go concentrate liao.. =(

Damn freaking angry now.. I have been angry since last night with my father..

"Your daughter want to lend a bike from the her friend and keep it at home.. Home got no space"

"Mei ah, you won't have the time to go cycling.."

The first sentence is by my mum the next sentence is by my father.. What's this man?? I am not angry with my mum.. I AM AGRY WITH MY DAD!!! I don't have time?? Come on la! You got see me busy before on weekend until no time to rest?? Have? DON'T HAVE! I want to go east coast you people think that is too dangerous.. I cannot go.. Bro in NS he still can have his bike.. what the hell is this?? It is simply bias.. Last time when want to give away the bike.. I resist and he told me the same old thing: You won't have time to go cycling! Just because my the other bro don't bike means I DON'T BIKE?? Come ON!! I am different! NOw just borrow bike say the same old things again.. 1 DAY I WILL HAVE MY OWE BIKE!! HMPH!!

So damn angry..

You guys make find it silly to be angry over such thing.. but I WANT TO CYCLE!! He NEVER understand what I am thinking..

I serious think that.. have a home equal no home.. go out later thn my mum give mi black face nag and nag.. say until i am bitch.. WTH!.. Ytd, go out until 10+ only then nag as if no tmr.. Ytd, want to go watch match, she don't let, I already didn't go lo.. Afternoon go play netball for while.. COS I can't study! Then might as well go relax la.. Then she say.. You can't have a sat stay at home for 1 whole day.. COME ON!! I HAVE LO!!.. When I stay at home what you want me to do?? The otherday stayed at home, I was bored to death!! So Boring la! I know now is exam.. but still need to relax de lo.. People just simply don't appreciate things.. In evening went out with Marianne, come home at 10+.. then nag and nag.. come on la.. ONLY 10+!!! My bro say will come home at 10, end up come home at 12.. NOTHING HAPPEN! WHAT IS THIS??? I go out not for nothing lo.. I have something to do that's why I went out..

ARGH!!!

A girl so what? Can't stay out late? Can't have a bike?? BIAS!

The other day got even more ridiculous thing... My mum stop me from going JOGGING!! WTF!! Jogging also want to stop me! JOGGING IS HEALTHY!! But I don't care.. I know myself well.. I want to jog!..

If I don't want or I know I shouldn't I won't ask you people to give me permission..

What on EARTH IS THIS?? In a home that there is nothing.. Ok, not nothing.. just that whatever I want to do.. I am not allow to do so..

I know it may seem that I am forcing my parents to give me EVERYTHING.. they don't give its ok.. BUT WHAT FOR GIVE ME SHIT WORDS?? I am still not that angry with my mum.. AT LEAST SHE EXPLAIN WHY SHE DON'T LET WITH REASONABLE REASONS.. But I am still angry cos something that she stop me are quite ridiculous lo.. like go jogging.. I AM THE MOST ANGRY WIH MY FATHER.. Can't have bike cos I WILL HAVE NO TIME!! STUPID REASON!

HMPH! ARGH!!!

Shall do some blogging to relax myself..

Well.. First of all.. sorry and sorry and sorry Pei Yun.. I really didn't mean it.. I sincerely apoplogize to you..

Yesterday went jogging.. damn! 26 min, die off liao.. GRRR.. before that.. my friend made mi damn jealous of him.. he went to watch a netball match and didn't ask mi along then was like telling me what happened during the match.. GRRR.. I am not blaming him for not calling me along.. just that.. I long time no training liao then also due to exam didn't go play netball for a week liao.. After hearing from him, I was like so jealous of him la..

Currently, the date for the celebration and netball gathering is on 12th May.. all HGV Netballers free?? Can try to confirm asap with me? thanks.. Place and time not set yet cos need to the no. of people going first..

I think that's all.. go back and mug liao.. bye!

I think today will be the last day blogging before starting my mugging for Mid-Year..

This few days were having mixed-feelings.. and was BUSY!! How busy am I now? busy till can only sleep for 4 hrs!! BUSY? YESSSSSS!!!!

Ok..On Tues.. had mixed feeling.. I was sad and ANGRY during P.E.. Sad? Lots of memories flashback.. and was thinking of someone.. " Love you always.. " Angry? cos we lost to a sec 1 class!! MY GOD!! sec 1 also lost! Aren't we too lousy? haiz.. Can't blame.. a class with only 9 guys.. HA! made history in HGV.. haha.. After P.E, was in happy mood.. But was somehow still sad.. every single part of HGV got memories.. I just don't know why there was so much memories flashback..

Wed.. BUSY!!!! The oral was still ok.. and we are getting no where in the Solar Car.. AH!!!!! I wanna complaint!! teachers are always giving last minute work.. ARGH! Worse still.. Give answers also anyhow give..! GRR!! as in, don't really bother to go through.. just provide STACKS of answers...

Today.. surprisingly didn't fell asleep.. was like had very little sleep yet can stay awake for whole day.. =) Sadly, today is Mr Fong last lesson with 3E1.. we are back to Mrs Peng hands.. oh well.. let's see what's going to happen.. hahaha.. And.. IS THERE SOMETHING HAPPENING BETWEEN _ _ _ _-_ _ _ and _ _-_ _ _??? ok nvm.. none of my business..

Shall go and sleep now.. Bye!