I am very upset with myself.
Looking back at my achievement so far, nothing shines out immediately. What have I been doing for the past 18 years?
I was thinking through what was the greatest achievement that I have obtained so far. But, guess what, I can't give you an answer. I have been through many things in my life but I do not seem to have achieve anything.
In primary school, I was a Vice-Head Prefect then Head Prefect. But how far have i gone from there? I played netball in primary 6. How far have I gone from there? I have not meet any target that I set out for any of the seasons.
In secondary school, things aren't any better. I was a sports leader, student councillor, in NPCC and Netball. I had an exchange programme. But what have I achieved? Sports leader - I did not learn much. Student councillor - I failed to work with the team; we failed to improve the school. NPCC - seeing how divided we are and not doing so many things that I could have done, breaks my heart. Netball - given another chance, I wished we have progressed much more.
In JC, life seems to be slightly better. But not. House Council was a failure. I failed to carry our my duties as a vice-cap. Netball? I have learnt several important lessons and skills but I failed to make changes. I failed to initiate changes. We could have gone much further. Redsports - My character fails. I failed to bring myself to a higher level. I promised something and I failed to do it. It jolly well could have severe consequences.
Friends - I failed to accept people for who they are.
I have failed.
Thursday, April 30, 2009
Monday, April 27, 2009
Friday, April 24, 2009
A Div 2009
Complicated feelings.
VJ vs JJ - 36 - 34
AJ vs JJ - 41 - 39
HCvs JJ - 49 - 29
Em..
Against VJ, it was a tough fight. We could not take a lead throughout the game. At a point of time, we were down by 6 goals. Taking one point at a time, we draw the game with 3 minutes to go. But, having the most crucial centrepass of ours being overturn and not missing any of theirs, VJ took the victory home.
Against AJ, we put up another good fight. The game started with AJ scoring 5 consecuetive goals. Finding our comfortable paste was the key to aid us in narrowing the margin. We were down 1 goal at the end of first quarter. We then take a 2 point lead at half time. Entering fourth quarter with 3 point lead. The start of fourth quarter was not smooth for JJ. AJ scored theirs and overturn ours to narrow the deficit to 1 point. This was maintained till with 1 minute 30 second left on the clock. AJ eventually win the game 41 - 39.
Against HC, HC dominates first quarter to win the game. We could not find our flow of attack. Poor shooting from me did not help. First quarter ended with HC taking 20 - 5 lead. In second quarter, both JJ and HC were taking turn to score our own centrepasses. 30 - 16, at the end of second quarter. Horrible shooting from me limited us from narrowing the margin. We scored only 3 goals in the third quarter. Fourth quarter was much better. We were the one taking control of the ball most of the time. But, last half went a bit haywire. We lost 49 - 29.
VJ vs JJ - 36 - 34
AJ vs JJ - 41 - 39
HCvs JJ - 49 - 29
Em..
Against VJ, it was a tough fight. We could not take a lead throughout the game. At a point of time, we were down by 6 goals. Taking one point at a time, we draw the game with 3 minutes to go. But, having the most crucial centrepass of ours being overturn and not missing any of theirs, VJ took the victory home.
Against AJ, we put up another good fight. The game started with AJ scoring 5 consecuetive goals. Finding our comfortable paste was the key to aid us in narrowing the margin. We were down 1 goal at the end of first quarter. We then take a 2 point lead at half time. Entering fourth quarter with 3 point lead. The start of fourth quarter was not smooth for JJ. AJ scored theirs and overturn ours to narrow the deficit to 1 point. This was maintained till with 1 minute 30 second left on the clock. AJ eventually win the game 41 - 39.
Against HC, HC dominates first quarter to win the game. We could not find our flow of attack. Poor shooting from me did not help. First quarter ended with HC taking 20 - 5 lead. In second quarter, both JJ and HC were taking turn to score our own centrepasses. 30 - 16, at the end of second quarter. Horrible shooting from me limited us from narrowing the margin. We scored only 3 goals in the third quarter. Fourth quarter was much better. We were the one taking control of the ball most of the time. But, last half went a bit haywire. We lost 49 - 29.
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
Dull moments
What am I doing?
I have a lot of work stacked aside. However, I am very reluctant to be bothered with it.
I feel that life is kind of dull now except when it comes to netball.
Staying in school, I would simply let time passed by. Going home, I would only go online or take a nap. Talking to my mum is not something wise to do.
Dull moments...
I have a lot of work stacked aside. However, I am very reluctant to be bothered with it.
I feel that life is kind of dull now except when it comes to netball.
Staying in school, I would simply let time passed by. Going home, I would only go online or take a nap. Talking to my mum is not something wise to do.
Dull moments...
Monday, April 20, 2009
A little wish...
在我心里闪亮着的小希望：我希望一天会对我说：“妹！加油！”
每当我去比赛时，对我而言，没人的鼓励比我母亲来的有力。
妈，这是我心中的小小希望。。。
In the deepest point of my heart, there is a little wish that I hope that it will come true one day - I hope one day I would hear words of encouragement from my mum on days of tournament.
Nothing is as impactive as the encouragement from my mum.
Mum, I hope...
每当我去比赛时，对我而言，没人的鼓励比我母亲来的有力。
妈，这是我心中的小小希望。。。
In the deepest point of my heart, there is a little wish that I hope that it will come true one day - I hope one day I would hear words of encouragement from my mum on days of tournament.
Nothing is as impactive as the encouragement from my mum.
Mum, I hope...
Friday, April 17, 2009
What we can control
We can't control what others want and how they choose to react but we can choose what we individual can fulfil. It does not matter how far they want to go. What matters most is how far do we choose to go.
As long as we have tried my best to carry out our roles, the result would not matter be it the desired one or not.
As long as we have tried my best to carry out our roles, the result would not matter be it the desired one or not.
Monday, April 13, 2009
Dreams bring us to a greater height
I came to realisation of how important to have a dream.
Only with a dream, we motivate ourselves to strive for excellence.
Only with a dream, we find the meaning in life.
Only with a dream, we live for ourselves.
Without a dream, we lose our source of motivation.
Without a dream, we can't feel our life.
Without a dream, we live for the past.
Only with a dream, we motivate ourselves to strive for excellence.
Only with a dream, we find the meaning in life.
Only with a dream, we live for ourselves.
Without a dream, we lose our source of motivation.
Without a dream, we can't feel our life.
Without a dream, we live for the past.
Sunday, April 12, 2009
Friday, April 10, 2009
Spread the Love
From: http://triggerers.blogspot.com/
There was a farmer who grew superior quality and award-winning corn. Each year he entered his corn in the state fair where it won honor and prizes.
One year a newspaper reporter interviewed him and learnt something interesting about how he grew it. The reporter discovered that the farmer shared his seed corn with his neighbors.
"How can you afford to share your best seed corn with your neighbors when they are entering corn in competition with yours each year?" the reporter asked.
"Why sir," said the farmer, "didn't you know? The wind picks up pollen from the ripening corn and swirls it from field to field. If my neighbors grow inferior, sub-standard and poor quality corn,
cross-pollination will steadily degrade the quality of my corn.
If I am to grow good corn, I must help my neighbors grow good corn."
The farmer gave a superb insight into the connectedness of life. His corn cannot improve unless his neighbor's corn also improves. So it is in the other dimensions! Those who choose to be at harmony must help their neighbors and colleagues to be at peace. Those who choose to live well must help others to live well. The value of a life is measured by the lives it touches.
Success does not happen in isolation. It is very often a participative and collective process. So share the good quality .....
"Live with no excuse & Love with no regrets . when life gives u a hundred reasons to cry ,show life that u have thousand reasons to smile".
There was a farmer who grew superior quality and award-winning corn. Each year he entered his corn in the state fair where it won honor and prizes.
One year a newspaper reporter interviewed him and learnt something interesting about how he grew it. The reporter discovered that the farmer shared his seed corn with his neighbors.
"How can you afford to share your best seed corn with your neighbors when they are entering corn in competition with yours each year?" the reporter asked.
"Why sir," said the farmer, "didn't you know? The wind picks up pollen from the ripening corn and swirls it from field to field. If my neighbors grow inferior, sub-standard and poor quality corn,
cross-pollination will steadily degrade the quality of my corn.
If I am to grow good corn, I must help my neighbors grow good corn."
The farmer gave a superb insight into the connectedness of life. His corn cannot improve unless his neighbor's corn also improves. So it is in the other dimensions! Those who choose to be at harmony must help their neighbors and colleagues to be at peace. Those who choose to live well must help others to live well. The value of a life is measured by the lives it touches.
Success does not happen in isolation. It is very often a participative and collective process. So share the good quality .....
"Live with no excuse & Love with no regrets . when life gives u a hundred reasons to cry ,show life that u have thousand reasons to smile".
Paradox of our time in history
Came across this blog: http://jimsonkjoy.blogspot.com/
"In school we learn the lesson first and give the exams but in real life situation, Experience gives you the test first and then gives the lesson."
"The paradox of our time in history is that we have taller buildings but shorter tempers, wider freeways , but narrower viewpoints. We spend more, but have less, we buy more, but enjoy less. We have bigger houses and smaller families, more conveniences, but less time. We have more degrees but less sense, more knowledge , but less judgment, more experts, yet more problems, more medicine, but less wellness. We drink too much, smoke too much, spend too recklessly, laugh too little, drive too fast, get too angry, stay up too late, get up too tired, read too little, watch TV too much, and pray too seldom. We have multiplied our possessions, but reduced our values. We talk too much, love too seldom, and hate too often.
We've learned how to make a living, but not a life. We've added years to life not life to years. We've been all the way to the moon and back, but have trouble crossing the street to meet a new neighbor. We conquered the outer space but not the inner space. We've done bigger things, but not better things. We've cleaned up the air, but polluted the soul. We've conquered the atom, but not our prejudice. We write more, but learn less. We plan more, but accomplish less. We've learned to rush, but not to wait. We build more computers to hold more information, to produce more copies than ever, but we communicate less and less.
These are the times of fast foods and slow digestion, big men and small character, steep profits and shallow relationships. These are the days of two incomes but more divorce, fancier houses, but broken homes. These are days of quick trips, disposable diapers, throwaway morality, one night stands, overweight bodies, and pills that do everything from cheer, to quiet, to kill. It is a time when there is much in the showroom window and nothing in the stockroom. A time when technology can bring this article to you, and a time when you can choose either to share this insight, or just ignore
Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away" By George Carlin (1937 - 2008)
"In school we learn the lesson first and give the exams but in real life situation, Experience gives you the test first and then gives the lesson."
"The paradox of our time in history is that we have taller buildings but shorter tempers, wider freeways , but narrower viewpoints. We spend more, but have less, we buy more, but enjoy less. We have bigger houses and smaller families, more conveniences, but less time. We have more degrees but less sense, more knowledge , but less judgment, more experts, yet more problems, more medicine, but less wellness. We drink too much, smoke too much, spend too recklessly, laugh too little, drive too fast, get too angry, stay up too late, get up too tired, read too little, watch TV too much, and pray too seldom. We have multiplied our possessions, but reduced our values. We talk too much, love too seldom, and hate too often.
We've learned how to make a living, but not a life. We've added years to life not life to years. We've been all the way to the moon and back, but have trouble crossing the street to meet a new neighbor. We conquered the outer space but not the inner space. We've done bigger things, but not better things. We've cleaned up the air, but polluted the soul. We've conquered the atom, but not our prejudice. We write more, but learn less. We plan more, but accomplish less. We've learned to rush, but not to wait. We build more computers to hold more information, to produce more copies than ever, but we communicate less and less.
These are the times of fast foods and slow digestion, big men and small character, steep profits and shallow relationships. These are the days of two incomes but more divorce, fancier houses, but broken homes. These are days of quick trips, disposable diapers, throwaway morality, one night stands, overweight bodies, and pills that do everything from cheer, to quiet, to kill. It is a time when there is much in the showroom window and nothing in the stockroom. A time when technology can bring this article to you, and a time when you can choose either to share this insight, or just ignore
Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away" By George Carlin (1937 - 2008)
Thursday, April 09, 2009
Discouraged
I tried to improve my writing skill but everytime there seems to be there will be so much that will be editted. I tried publishing the articles on time but I have failed.
I have tried to improve my writing but no matter how many times I tried, I don't seem to be able to find the solution to the problem. Seeing nearly every corners of my work being editted, it demoralised me after putting much hard work . I have tried. But, the result is not rewarding me. How? How can I be better?
PW result is out today. I scored a B. I was hoping for an A. Sigh...
I have tried to improve my writing but no matter how many times I tried, I don't seem to be able to find the solution to the problem. Seeing nearly every corners of my work being editted, it demoralised me after putting much hard work . I have tried. But, the result is not rewarding me. How? How can I be better?
PW result is out today. I scored a B. I was hoping for an A. Sigh...
Wednesday, April 08, 2009
Thursday, April 02, 2009
New Skin
Don't read too much ito the skin. (:
I thought the previous one was kind of too complicated. I decided to look for a softer skin. And here you go. I think it is nice although I don't really like the words. so ya. (:
At the moment everything is under contruct. Will be back soon. :)
4 options! (:
I thought the previous one was kind of too complicated. I decided to look for a softer skin. And here you go. I think it is nice although I don't really like the words. so ya. (:
At the moment everything is under contruct. Will be back soon. :)
4 options! (:
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