Venting frustrations

I am getting just so frustrated about myself.

I still feel that disappointment from the last lost. I am feeling frustrated that I am not doing well in studies. I am angry with myself for not performing up to the level that I want to in netball.

Wanted to type more but decided not to in the end.

BYE!

All of a sudden, I have this feeling of typing something.

I vomit on Wed morning, 3.30am. The vomit stinks! On tues training, I ate durain cake after training. Happy Birthday Shu Ping! (It was SP's birthday on Mon) The vomit smelt of durian. Followed by diarrhoea. I was hell tired by Wed afternoon since I did not sleep the whole night. I visited the doctor then. I had some problems with my intestines. I did not go to school today either to rest at home. Feeling much better now :)

My left knee is falling sick. :( Will be going to polyclinic tomorrow and see how things go.

Buck Up! REVISE!

Homework due by Tues:

1. Chem Prelim Paper 1
2. Chem Rev, Chapter 1 - 4
3. P n C, Graphing Techniques
4. RJ GP Paper 2.
5. Bio 04 - 07 MCQs.

OMG!

Stressful

Life has been stressful. I teared on my way to Ngee Ann Poly today. I feel that there are many things bottled up and I didn't know how to loosen up myself. Oh well..

Anyway, today at Ngee Ann Poly was fun. :)

Study, study study!

I can finally blog. I was very tempted to blog just now but I told myself that I can only blog after I have finished my work.

Last term in JJC started today. I am quite disappointed with myself today when I got back the Chemistry papers today. Paper 3 was way below my expectation. I found out why its below my expectation though. BUCK UP, HUI MUI!

People are complaining about their life. Oh well, saying as if the rest of us are at fault. I shall just ignored it.

I hate the feeling of not being able to watch TV at home. :( I pity my second brother.

Yesterday was fun! I went for Mixx n Match Street Netball Challenge 2009. The umpiring was much better than Pesta Sukan. But I think the registration can be further improved.

After the game, both the teams + KS went for lunch together. I regretted not bathing before leaving Kallang Netball Center. :( We went to Ri Ben Chun (I have no idea what is the English name of the Restaurant.) Then, we headed to Orchard with 6 people remained. Shopped a little bit. Off we went to Billy Bomber for Chocolate and Cheese Fondew. (Sinful, huh?) And off to MOVIE! We watched The Time Traveller's Wife. I was totally lost from the movie for the first half an hour. All thanks to GRACE! haha! Overall, the movie wasn't too bad. However, a climax could have been better.

After movie, off to Pasta Shop for dinner. (Another sinful moment!) I loved the pasta. They were GREAT!

Saturday was fun too! Nigel owes me a KIKAPO! haha! I went down to NIE for umpiring. I missed out a few calls. Work harder!

I have a lot of thoughts on my mind. I have a few frustrations too. Right now, sms-ing someone to get rid of one of the frustrations.

However, I find it very difficult to pen down my thoughts. I feel very uncomfortable in giving my thoughts a tangible form. Emm..

Lunch out with Panda and Vanissa was fun! :D photos coming up.

Things for today:
1. Eye contact before passing.
2. Eat into defender's space before go for lunges. (the roll)
3. Passes. Make it easy to receive.
4. Let the feeder lead the shooter to the empty pass. (EYE CONTACT!)

Thanks peep for the help! :D

:( I accidentally deleted an important email that I spent half hour typing and need to re-type it out. I have just sent the email out.

Things are starting to pile up. Stress!

I went to CCAB for some netball today. I didn't have the drive to play netball today. In another words, I am getting a little bored with netball. Yet, this week is fully filled with netball action.

Today - Friendly
Tues - Trg at Kallang
Wed - Hgv trg
(I am way too lazy to type things out in full right now after spending 1 hour in total to type out the email.)
Thur - Umpiring
Fri - Hgv trg
Sat - Umpiring
Sun - Carnival

OM Tian. A lot eh? But no worry, I will make sure I study very hard throughout this week of school holiday. I must not make the same mistake that I committed during Prelim. Jia You!

Ciao! I need to go to sleep before I am late again.

Today marks the last day of Prelim. :):)

I went shopping after the paper in the afternoon with Cik Siti. It was a fruitful trip. I manage to get all the cosmetic that I need for time being.
:):) Thanks :)

Good News! Our proposal is being accepted. We will work hard to make it a successful event. :):) Triple joy for today. :):)

More shopping! :):) I need to beautify my drawers and waredrobe with more colours. :) Save more money and spend more! :) hehe!

netball

I have so much things to pen down today.

Things to work on:
1. Left hand pass
2. Proper landing. Always land with outer foot.
3. Control ball with only one hand.
4. Fake. (when passing)
5. Dodges. (weight on outer foot)
6. Most importantly, Fitness.
7. Watch lots of game :)

Jia You! Discipline and work hard towards the ultimate goal!

Went to Kallang to have some netball today. Oh no! My stamina is dropping drastically after not training for months! How should I strike an excellent balance between revision and training?

I have just so much worries on my mind. It can be frustrating at many occasion to be a typical gemini who wants to try everything. ):

Happy Birthday Jun Wei! Getter older already! haha!

Studied in the morning and went for BBQ Party at Junwei's place in the evening. Had fun teasing at one another. :)

I have so many things that I want to say and do but I do not have the time to do so right now. ):

I will try to remember the thoughts till tomorrow.

Ciao!

I have just realised that I pen down my emotions but I do not pen down my activities. I shall try to do it from now onward.

Study day for me! Maths Maths and more Maths. :) Met Merina and Alicia to discuss some stuffs in the late afternoon and went home to do more Maths! I have finished more than 15 queations. I am proud of myself for this. :)

This week is going to be busy. Jia You!

studies is not the only thing in the world

I have so much thoughts running through my mind and I want to pen them all down.

I have just realised how big the world is. The world is really very big. Why do I say so? I have realised what I have seen, have experienced is nothing compared to the world. Being a typical Singapore JC kid who study all day long, thinking that studying is the only thing in life, I have developed this concept that life is all about studying. But, not! Life is way much more than this.

I have also developed this concept in me that everyone in the world (well, the world to me is this small.) need to study hard and work hard. I am so wrong about this concept. This is not even a social norm. However, these concepts are so in me that I cannot accept anything beyond this circle.

I have just realised that people do many other things apart from studying. People think about life. People think about how to be happy. People think of developing their own unique career. And most importantly, people priositise all these above studies which to me, I felt that people are going against the social norms. But, not! This is the social norm. People do not need to score straight As to be happy and lead a good life.

I am drilled to think that not doing well in studies is a shame. But, let's take a look at the world again. A typical commoner at New York on average holds 3 degrees. But, what's the big deal? People are happy too without a degree. I seriously need to get a life and see the world!

Honestly, I was shocked with what I read. I was shocked. I felt as though I was watching a drama series. I felt how things change and how the main character lived for the past few years. However, I was not ready to accpe those information at all. Seriously. I have many questions that I want to find answers to them.

Anyway, went out with Marianne to Bugis today. By right, the shopping trip is for me to get my stuffs for an upcoming formal event. Erm, my wardrobe have hardly anything beyond dri-fit and FBTs shorts. Anyway, Marianne started her shopping before I got anything for myself.

In the end, I managed to get what I want. :) Also, got myself a bag. I am very happy with the bag. :) Been longing for it for a long time. :)

:( I didn't finish the maths work that I set out for myself. I spent quite sometime reading some online stuffs and neglected my work. :( Bad, bad bad!

Have been down with flu for the whole week. :(

I felt really horrible on Monday. I felt as though the body did not belong to me. Tuesday onwards, things looked better :). recovering in process now. :)

Congrats! I have studied for Biology for 5 hours straight. :D

I can finally blog. My keyboard was down over the weekend. Then, Janson kept laughing at me. Horrible Janson. haha!

Had Pesta Sukan on Saturday. Emm. I was kind of sad with it. Nevermind, let's jia you in the next tournament! :)

*It feels damn good to type with the new keyboard*

btw, I got my earphone fixed too. Double joy =D

Flew to cloud 9 on Fri and came to earth today.

I missed my run last week :(

Ran 4.68km (Loop Hume Ave) today. :)

taking a breather

Finally, I could take a breather after working hard for the past 10 days. Honestly, I was quite worried for yesterday's papers. Even if I have completed the paper, my mind was still thinking about the papers. Emm.. And I have just got to keep reminding myself that "Stay Focus!"

Whatever that are over, are over! Oh well.. Concentrate on the upcoming papers!!!

Anyway, I was thinking of how I should organise my side bar. I feel that the order is kind of weird and messy. Emm..

so, what to do now?

what will you do if you have been trying to change something and after trying for so long, things are not changing?

you have been complaining about it to someone and the person is too frustrated to take in anymore complain about the issue. For this, I will stop mentioning this issue to that person. In fact, I will not mention it to anyone else.

How about the fomer isssue? Continue trying? Give up?