I have failed

I am very upset with myself.

Looking back at my achievement so far, nothing shines out immediately. What have I been doing for the past 18 years?

I was thinking through what was the greatest achievement that I have obtained so far. But, guess what, I can't give you an answer. I have been through many things in my life but I do not seem to have achieve anything.

In primary school, I was a Vice-Head Prefect then Head Prefect. But how far have i gone from there? I played netball in primary 6. How far have I gone from there? I have not meet any target that I set out for any of the seasons.

In secondary school, things aren't any better. I was a sports leader, student councillor, in NPCC and Netball. I had an exchange programme. But what have I achieved? Sports leader - I did not learn much. Student councillor - I failed to work with the team; we failed to improve the school. NPCC - seeing how divided we are and not doing so many things that I could have done, breaks my heart. Netball - given another chance, I wished we have progressed much more.

In JC, life seems to be slightly better. But not. House Council was a failure. I failed to carry our my duties as a vice-cap. Netball? I have learnt several important lessons and skills but I failed to make changes. I failed to initiate changes. We could have gone much further. Redsports - My character fails. I failed to bring myself to a higher level. I promised something and I failed to do it. It jolly well could have severe consequences.

Friends - I failed to accept people for who they are.

I have failed.