Been very bothered this few days..

Shocks, pressure, stress, sadness.. Who can understand me TOTALLY now?? I believe that no one can understand me totally.. Cos even myself can't understand myself totally..

I am someone who does things according to my interest.. but it seem that in life this is impossible.. I read one of my friends blog before..

Here's what she wrote..
Passion we can pursue but only for a short span of our lives. Take for example, a student has a passion in playing soccer. He can play that sports well all the way till he finishes his academic path, after which he has to give up soccer for that passion can never be his career. The only consolation is that he can be a coach, but still he must be a certified coach. He can still play soccer but only for leisure. Career is still another area he has to pursue for that matter of fact. Of course those in arts get a bit better, they can pursue but again, only if they have the financial stability.

That's very true.. isn't it?

Since I am still young now, can I pursue my passion my interest? I hate to go against my passion and interest.. The feeling of doing something that I don't like is horrible..

(the next paragraph may offend someone but that's what I feel)
I have lost my interest in NPCC.. can I have sometime to find back my interest in it? or else it will be meaningless going for it right?? It maybe selfish of me for asking for a break now.. but isn't it selfish of you (you know who you are) to ask me to do something that I don't like? Since I have something more important to do now.. why can't I just concentrate on it?

I admit that I am trying to run away from some stuffs.. but by running away, I can concentrate on something else..

Like my blog address: Trying to have my dreams on.. I believe that everyone know what my dreams are.. For those who don't know..I want to pursue Netball's highest level: Be a national player.. I am not sure if I can make it.. but I need a chance to try out.. why can't you people just give me the chance??

Haiz.. nvm.. let time decide EVERYTHING.. Hopefully, time will give me the right things..

By the way.. MY SONY ERICSON IS BACK.. WEE!! :):) must really thanks my father.. He took 2 days to repair it..

To all readers: MERRY CHRISTMAS!!