This is the 100th entries.. But it is very sad and angry entry..

Since yesterday I had this question in my mind... Netball? NPCC? I can only choose 1 now.. Both had crashed together.. I have no idea what to choose..

Netball is my life.. I am only happy when I have Netball.. In another words, I need Netball to survive.. I may not be needed in the team now cos there is still Marianne.. but I play for the sake of my passion..

NPCC is... I have no idea what is it to me.. But I feel stress when I go for the trainings.. At the same time, I would say NPCC do let me learnt something.. And NPCC was what made me to be close with people in Netball.. I go NPCC cos they have some duties for me.. I would not say they need me but rather I need to be grateful for what NPCC gave me..

It is only now that I have scarifice either 1.. After the tournament, I can have both.. but I was force to scarifice 1 of them now.. Why is that so..? Must the situation be so cruel to me that I HAVE TO SCARIFICE either 1?? Why can't just the NPCC be more understanding and give me a way out..?? Why is it so difficult?? Whatever the rest learn during training, I can learnt after school on other days.. and Why is NPCC blaming me for things that I have done it correctly??

WHY?!?!?!?!?!