Feeling very sian now.. so decided to write a entry.. Here's a entry to vent my saddness.. :(

Just went to Pei Yun birthday.. on the way home.. saw many couples.. they are so lucky to have someone to care for them love them.. I may still young for BGR at the moment.. but there is something that I am very envy of all the couples..that is they ARE COUPLES.. When one of them is sad, someone is there to cheer he/she up.. when he/she is happy, there is someone to share the happiness with..

Haiz... recently someone very unhappy with me.. haiz.. No one can help me.. No one can understand how i feel.. There is no one that I can share my saddness with... (not that I want to complain my saddness out, but at least someone is there to cheer me up without listening)

Cos of the CCAs clashed.. Many many things happened..
1st: I got someone into lots of trouble
2nd: "fought" with a teacher
3rd:Unhappiness with a teacher got deeper
4th: someone got me into deeper trouble
5th:Someone become very unhappy with me.. thinking that its ALL my fault
6th:I am "controlled" in one way or another
7th: Misunderstand with 2 people got deeper
8th:I hate this kind of life..

Just because of a matter, so many things happened.. haiz.. I am hoping that days after new year could be better.. but things seem to be not like what I want.. :( I seriously feel like crying out so much now.. But who can lend mi a shoulder to lend on?? Haiz.. I want my life to be like before last year Aug.. life then were PERFECT!! I miss that life..

Life oh life.. what's life? Am I fated to such life for long term? Why??!!?? Can I have a better life..? PleaSE!!