Quite a sian day..

Wasn't in mood to do anything.. In fact, since what happened on 12th March, I can't get into any mood to do things properly. Now do the Social Studies report also do until quite sian..

Through 3 weeks had past but just can't get over it.. On and off get into bad mood easily.. especially when life got quite bad this week. The camp actually lighten me up abit.. but after which, life was quite bad..

Whenever I want to find someone to talk, no one is willing to listen to me.. Only one of my good friend who hurt me the most on 12th March could listen to me.. Like I said, since she was the one who hurt me the most, how much can I tell her?? not much...! Apart from this friend, I have a senior who I respect alot whom I can talk too but didn't really want to stress her up cos she had her own problems too..

On either wed or thurs, I was really sad till I actually cried alone while talking to my friend who was willing to give her ears to me. I think my friend knew it but.. nvm..

I used to have a super good friend?? who is forever there whenever I am sad or angry or whatever, so long I not happy, my this friend is there.. Don't really wanna trouble my this friend now le.. Used to chat with this friend till midnight before ending call.. but now, though wanna chat also don't know how to say.. cos this friend is a male.. and I am somehow afraid to talk to guys now due to some reasons..

I actually had another friend who care quite alot for me. I use to be very very close to her. But for don't know what reason, we started to drift apart. She is really a good listener and give lots of useful advise. However, recently, she started talking to me and when knew what happened she actually tried to console as much as she can.

For my whole life, I only had these 4 friends who actually bother to take the initiative to find our what happened and bother to open up theirs ears for me. Pathetic!

How pathetic canlife be?

I feel like screaming at some people now.

1.Can you please understand my circumstances before you accuse me? I was really busy and wasn't feeling well and you expect me to do a project in one day. Fine, you offer help. but it was late in the night. I didn't want to bother you so didn't tell you. AND u accuse me for not putting in effort and take up too much things then can't do the project. Though I was busy, I do wanted to do the project. If you think I am someone who is not responsible towards projects, fine, next time don't work with me then.

2.Let me tell you, you don't worth any friendship. You got trouble, tried to help you. When I wanted to talk to you, you just can't be bother to open your ears and listen. Fine, I am very grateful that you USE TO open up your ears. But when I want you to give me some advise, you just simply say up to me. I don't know what to do that's why I ask you right? Fine, maybe you are out of solutions, can't give any advise. Ok, at least there was once you gave me ONE advise. Can you be more responsible towards work?? I am tired of doing project with you.. It is more like individual work then group project. You just simply can't give some of your time to be devoted to the project. Next time, got anything can tell me ANOT?? When I know something, you expect me to tell you. When you know something, can you OPEN your mouth to tell me??

3.Can you please SHUT UP in class? You are damn freaking noisy. When on earth can you ever, some talking for a lesson? Talk like as if there's no tomorrow. Wa Piang eh! Come on la, there is always tomorrow to talk! Let me tell you, you are freaking noisy and you are very irritating. Talk so much, when teacher ask you to say out ans.. THERE WASN'T A TIME THAT YOU GAVE AN ANS! Please talk at the appropriate time, can anot? IF NOT JUST SHUT UP!

4.Can you please be more responsible? Please do things PUNCTUALLY!! Always dely daly. Stop dragging time. Please act responsibly. Since you take up something, do that thing well. Don't spoil it. Busy is not an excuse. AND WHEN ON EARTH CAN YOU BE BUSY WHEN YOU ARE DOING NOTHING? PLease la, act responsibly, can anot??

1 number stands for 1 person. 4 numbers stands for 4 DIFFERENT people.

Enough anger and sadness le... BYE!