Even since my brother come back from NS, I never stop getting jealous of him.. I always sees that my mum wants me to do this and that.. Somehow what I feel jealous about is.. why my mum always ask me to do this and that.. She never asks my brother to do things. Somehow I just don't like my mum to keep telling me what's not done.. I really feel fustrated with it.. Most of time, I feels that I expect things to be done by other people and not done me.. =(

Let's just take a very simple example.. my mum bought a bottle of face wash. I was expecting her to place it in the bathroom. Somehow, she will always place my brother's things in place but just not mine.. I just got fustrated with it. =( Yes, I know it is a small thing and I should not be bothered with it.. I just can't help feeling fustrated with what treatment my brother received and I am not able to receive the same treatment.

Emm.. *sigh*