Thinking about the entry before this.. Suddenly, these familiar qns came to my mind..

What's my responsibilities in life?
What's life?

Sometimes, I tends to hate people..
Sometimes, I tends to be selfish and feel annoy when helping people..
Sometimes, I feels jealous over small matters..
Sometimes, I just wants to have everything in the world..

Ya, I should not question myself about these questions.. as I have been doing so and these questions should rot by now..

The other day I was pondering about what I should do in the future..
I realise my character hardly suits into any career. I thought of being a doctor.. but I do not know how to care for others. I thought of being police. The life has too little freedom. I thought of setting up a business. What business should I set up?

It seems that there are zillion of questions about myself and life in my little brain.

Somehow, I feels that I don't know how to lead a life or rather I don't know what exactly is life all about.

Nowadays, my only companier is homework and sometimes netball. Yes, only homework and netball.. Somehow, I just don't feel like talking to people or rather I feels that there's no one that I feels comfortable talking to..

*sigh*

就连，你，这平时我最想说话的对象，我都不想与你说话。总觉得你恨恐怖。

Ya, I really feels that people around are a distance away from me.. The feeling of strangers is what I feel..

*sigh*