All right, I have not blog properly for quite sometime. Ya, I have been quite emotional for the past few days, or rather for the past whole week. What on earth exactly happened? It all started with O level result. (Leave if you don't want to read what I will be typing.)

On 24th Jan, O level result were realised. I scored L1R5 - 11, 6As and 2Bs. Initially, people around were happy for me. However, as time passed by, I felt I was lousy. My mum kept comparing my result to my friends. and well, my friends scored 8 As, 7 As and etc. and Obviously, their aggregate for L1R5 were lower than mine. Apart from my mum's comparision, there were many people around me scoring 9 points, 7 points and etc. I really feel bad about myself. Next came, I felt so insulted by one of my friends. She insulted my result. Then, on Monday morning I went to a school, I felt my result was horrible enough that I was unwanted. With so much pressure around me. I felt I was lousy and the fact is that I am. I didn't do as well as others did.

That was only for academic. I felt I was unwanted at netball too. I felt that my skills were lousy. I felt I was lousy enough not be in the school team for JC. I totally lost confident in myself. I began to be very resistance to the world. I didn't like going to school at all. Things were really bad for me. One of the nights, I cried. That night, I just needed someone badly. For obvious reasons, I couldn't look for my parents. I looked for my closest friend but she wasn't available. I wanted to talk to him very much. I mean really very much but i just didn't dare. Thanks to one of my seniors, Cik Siti. She was my listener that day. Thank you very much!

Right now.. Things aren't very much looking good. I just wished to have him by my side, telling me everything will be fine.

I don't like your holiday.