motivation, where are you?

I am getting into my complain mood again.

I can't find any form of motivation of drive myself to get work done. I have been lying around at home and not doing much and I hate this. I hate not using the time to the utmost usage. The feeling of kowing that I have wasted time yet not having a source of motivation to drive myself to better spent the time, is totally horrible.

I have 3 days of school-less days. But, what have I done over the past 3 days?

Sat - Maths basic questions.
Sun - Chem File
Mon - Edit photos plus one story.

Isn't this bad? Completing only 3 tasks over the past 3 days! A Level is round the corner but I am not doing much to help myself. Parents-Meeting Session next Friday. Sigh!

You know what? The worst thing is that I keep forgetting what I have to do. I will keep thinking that I don't have much work to do when I have piles and piles of work to be completed.

:(

I sort of hate the way I am living now. I know I need to buck up. But, how to?

I hate going home facing this and that. I hate going to a place where I don't know how to express myself. (I mean my home.)

ARGH!