Feeling very bored so came to write another entry..
Whole day either watch tv or play comp...and thinking through some stuffs..

Thinking what is the definition of life...is it a process of suffering? or what is it? Sometimes I seem to be happy with the life I had but sometimes I thinks that I has a horrible life...especially in recent months... ever since August... nothing went right... problems are coming and leaving them unsolve... Is I don't want to face them and solve or are they can't be solve? I heard this sentence before... "since I am the one who created the problem i will have to be the one solving the problem".. but why are all the problems seem to be so hard to solve... One failure after another...How many failures do I need to face before I can succeed? or I am never going to succeed? Si pai shi cheng gong chi mu...it this sentence true??

Looking back.. since August.. life for me has always been hard... After common test, someone throw a spear into my heart and my heart has been bleeding till now..it is still bleeding...Follow by some unhappiness between me and someone... Holiday came, I thought I could have some peace...However, I was unable... Someone gave me a "shock", i really wish that this person has not told me anything and remain as what we were like before... What this person told made me feel......not myself......Coming up, a RED DEVIL tried to control my life... When all of these coming to an end, exams started....Doing horribly and receiving horrible results... Now having new problems again... WHAT ON EARTH IS THIS??? WHEN IS MY PEACE COMING??

I really wish that time can go back to the past... Current life, there are too many people "interrupting" my life... In the past, although there are still problems... I can have a carefree life.. but why now I can't?? WHY?? I wonder why did I choose such a complicated life... Can't I just have a simple and plain life? I know I am complaining this again and again in my blog.. sorry for that.. but I really wish to have a simple and plain life so that I can have carefree life...

Having this complicated life, is i choose de? or is I am fated to such life? or this is already consider simple?? Haiz..

Another thing that was in my mind for the whole day... is what happened on Thur... It made me realise alot of things... I am not sure if I get the right message...but my sixth sense told me that I get the right message... I should forget him and focus on other things... But how can I do so?? HOW?? I have tried all sort of matters that I can think of.. but none works... can anyone suggest some ways to do so..?? I wonder why I am being affected so much by just this 1 person... Why?? He is the first person that affected my life so much... why is he doing so...?? I just don't understand why...( to find out more about who I am talking about...click here)

Haiz..I have no idea what I should do now... Solving the problems? But what is/are the method(s) to solve them? Escape and leave the problems unsolve? but where can I escape to? Forget him? what must I do to forget him? Continue what I am doing now? but it seem so painful and hurtful by doing so..and is it worth it? What should I do?? I really don't know... I am looking for help...but it seem that no one can help me other than myself..haiz... I am so lost now.. I really can't differentiate what is the right and the wrong path now... HOW?????????????