Let me vent my fustration.

What is this man? 0 attendance! Z-E-R-O Oh come on! It is stated VERY CLEARLY that when you guys are suppose to appear on the court. I am damn disappointed. And what is she is not coming so I am not coming? Hello? What's this? so if one commits suicide, you are going to follow what she does, is it? Oh, come on.. You are not a 3 years old kid. You have your own mind set. No tournament, no trainings? I think you can quit if you guys want to continue this attitude. Seriously, let me tell you guys.. I am very disappointed. You think you are very great? This will only happen in your dream! Seriously! Totally R-U-B-B-I-S-H!

Come on lo! I am wrong with this, I am also wrong with that. And yet you never tell me what's right. If you are really that unhappy with me, please just tell me this, Hui Mui, get out of this house. This will save me a lot of troubles. Sometimes, I really try to improve on the situations. However, things just simply don't work. What's the problem, you tell me! Keeping quiet seriously will not make things better. I am trying to open up. I have taken the first steps. Will you please take the second step? Seriously, sometimes, I just feel so sucky staying in here. It totally sucks!

All right.. Emo time..

I think things turned out better than I thought. However, I was worse than I thought I could be. You were the last second image on my mind before I slept. Because I kow if you were the last image on my mind, I will never turn in. I wished badly for something. Really badly. When things just go so wrong, I really hope to have your sprite to keep me alive. I am losing hope right now. Please keep me going. I need you to burn me on.