Exams and Attachment

It is almost 2 months into 2014. Busy buzzy life. The craziness does drive me to my limits. The week before Chinese New Year was probably the most crazy week. I was preparing for exams, CNY, coaching and other netball stuffs. As always, I hate such lifestyle.

I am just glad that I pull through the exams. I am currently attached to Khoo Teck Puat Hospital Outpatient General rehab. It is probably not my cup of tea. I don't like the pace. The working hours is insane. Everyone works minimally 8am-5.30pm. It is like telling your patients work-life balance when it is never possible for the healthcare workers.

It has been a tiring first week, juggling both attachment and netball trainings. I am not at my best form for both. I had a good rest over the weekend. I will make this a better week! Go, Mui!

It was only a dream.

My happiest moments of life are being able to be have fun with people. I miss travelling badly. Those days were and have always been my best memories of my life. Netball memories are always the best too. Of course, time spent with family are the best.

I hate reality because people are cruel. I have previously posted about the cruel reality in my course/school.
I hate having to live in moments that don't involve netball, travelling or family. I have been to many other industries, workplaces and met all sort of people (well, maybe not). The truth is people don't care about you beyond the 3 groups of people I love to interact with.

Someone said to me, "I don't understand why you are so crazy over netball." I have tried to explain multiple times. The person just couldn't understand simply because she can't understand the value of people and relationship, at least in my opinion.

I hope to go back to those days where I will be at netball, travelling or spending time with family only!

Hello 2014!

It has been a busy and fruitful January.

It has been two short weeks back to school and exams are coming next week. It is indeed a really fast second half of second semester.

IVP has just gone by so quickly. We lost to TP 34-36. To be honest, I am glad we lost the game because I gained a team who is ready to fight ever harder. "The best way to unite a team is to have a common enemy." It is true, isn't it? Having say this, we really need to put in a lot of hard work as 6 year 3 are graduating from the current team.

I made it to Marlins NSL team. It will be a challenging journey ahead. With hard work, everything will be okay.

There will be more netball actions coming up in the next few weeks with zonal tournament starting for my students and NSL training starting.

Jia you, Mui!

Achievements in 2013

Daisy Tan Carnival (Marlins Air) - 4th
Surf n Sweat (Frenz) - 1st
Beach Netball (Frenz) - 1st
Mixed Social League (Frenz) - 1st
Katana Netball Carnival (Cookie Monster) - 2nd
Moulmein Netball Carnival (Elmo) - 2nd
Community Games / Netball (Wowberries) - 1st
Community Games / Basketball (Helltics) - 2nd
SunNUS (Frenz) - 1st
Ulu Pandan Carnival (Frenz) - 2nd
Netballuxion/Women (Frenz) - 3rd
Netballuxion/Mixed (Big Bird) - 1st
ENL/Mixed Club A (Frenz) - 2nd
ENL/Women Div 1 - 1st
POL-ITE - 3rd
Pesta Sukan/Mixed (Frenz) - 3rd
Pesta Sukan/Women (Marlins) - 1st
Infinity Carnival (Exalt) - Plate 2nd
Bali Flames Invitational (Just4Fun) - 3rd
Tampines West GRC Carnival (Powerpuff Gals) - 3rd
RP-Sembawang GRC Carnival (Gorgeous) - 1st

The Truth

I have yet to find the motivation to get me to be more involved in my course. In fact, I am not quite interested to ask for more from myself. I am not motivated to do well in the course. It feels like a useless course to me. I am carrying on with course simply because it is mandatory.

I know I need to be diligent, be interested, be inspired that my profession will help a lot of people and be well versed with the facts of all the modules. However, I am simply not interested nor inspired to be a physiotherapist. There are many reasons behind it.

The education system has made learning lifeless. It is all about know the facts, not about problem solving. We are probably no different from China's education where everyone is busy memorising the facts and does nothing else.

Result is the most important indicator of your success. Everyone focused on the result and not the learning process. If you do not score an A/B, you are deemed as an useless student who has chosen to be stupid. And you will be a great physiotherapist if you are in the Dean's list. I don't deny that result reflects your learning and your ability to comprehend facts. However, way too much focus has been placed on the result that no one cares about your learning.

No one cares about you. When everyone is so concerned with their results, no one has time to care for you. If you meet any difficulties, you are left to rot. I don't blame my friends nor my lecturers for being practical as the society has shaped them to be this.

Everyone believes that life revolves around studies if you different, you are thought to be a fool. As everyone is devoted to scoring A and thus, do not have any time to care for you, the narrow-minded folks will believe that it is stupid and silly to do anything beyond studies. In their opinion, 'work-life balance' is the stupidest phase. We then start chatting about life on different frequency. A strained friendship is usually the end result.

The above factors have distanced me from learning. No one understands all these. No one understands why I value fun learning more than the result. No one understands why I am feeling lonely. No one understands why I hate studying so much now.

Everyone only understands that by getting a diploma, it will get me a job with decent pay. Everyone only sees that I am a lazy person who refuses to be diligent. Everyone thinks that playing sports is silly, result is more important. Everyone thinks that I will fail.

What a year thus far!

Sometimes, I see how God is trying so hard to make me appreciate my course.

If it is not okay, it is not over. Work hard.

I went to look for my lecturer, Claudia, for help with regards to my shoulder issues. Well... Like any other physiotherapists I have met, I was grilled. It was more of a student-lecturer interaction than patient-therapist interaction. It was STRESSFUL. I didn't quite like it.

Despite the unpleasant session, my shoulder feels a lot better. I am determined to work hard. I HATE the feeling of being looked down.

Clinical attachment started 3 days ago. I thought the grilling session at Claudia's place was bad but the attachment was worse. I have never felt so incompetent.

I am quite discouraged on the first day. I could have made the choice to leave the course and do something else. Thus, having a negative mindset coupled with pressure from my supervisor, I felt really lousy and overwhelmed.

I am in the paediatrics department. It saddened me to see infants and adolescents who are born with diseases, deformity or genetic issues. I thought to myself that no matter what we do, the kids will never be perfect. They will only struggle in the future in our competitive society.

Today, I saw a DMD 30 years old patient. He inspired me. 30 years old is considered a long life-span for a DMD patient. Despite the challenges he faces in daily life, he continued to be a useful person and contributes to the society in every way he could. My profession helps to prolong his life and decrease his chances of infections.

I come to realise that my profession cannot make someone perfect. However, we can help to improve their quality of life and assist them to contribute the society in whichever ways they would like to.

Mui, it is not over yet.

November

Time flies. It is already November! 2014 is coming!

School is going into the fifth week and things are getting hectic and crazy. Despite the packed academic schedule, things are starting to look good too. I guess the turning point is my attitude towards things.I have learnt how to let go things faster than I used to. I have also learnt to begin every judgement with a positive view. It makes life A LOT easier and I handle less troubles.

Clinical 2B is starting soon. Everything will be great! :)

September - The Month Of Traveling

I have traveled 23 days as of this moment. I first went to Taiwan where I was welcomed by the warmth and the friendliness of the locals. Then, I flew to Australia on 21 Sep where I was welcomed by lovely weather.

Taiwan has been a great and fun trip with my fellow netballer, Jia En. We have explored so many places!

Here's the list of places that we have been to: Seven Stars Bay, Taroko Gauge, Hengchun Ancient Town, Chu Huo, Ah Jia De Jia (Hai Jiao No. 7), Mao Bi Tou, Hou Bi Hu, Bai Sha, Wu Shan Ding Mud Volcano, Dream Mall, Art Pier 2 Area, Qing Liang Farm, Monster Village, Carton King, Swiss Garden, Cing Jing Farm, Miniature Museum, Shi Lin Night Market, Xi Men Ding, Bei Tou, Dan Shui, Zhong Xiao East Road.

After a short break in Singapore where I attended a course and catch up with my family, I flew off to Sydney for 6 days before heading to Brisbane.

Here are the places that I have visited: Royal Botanic Garden, Manly beach, SeaLife Aquarium, Madame Tussaud, Sydney Fish Market, Taronga Zoo, Bondi Beach, Bronte Beach, Powerhouse Museum, Sydney Tower (with a sky walk), The Grounds @ Alexandria

I am currently in Brisbane. Heading for a nap now to relax and will be heading out for a run along the Brisbane river in awhile :)

Thanks for all the love thus far! Nice meeting all the people that I have come into thus far! Off to Gold Coast at 5am tomorrow!

Training for this week

Monday: 400D, 100S X 3 sets (Skipping)
Tuesday: 5km run 32:13
Wednesday: Hamstring Raises 6 reps X 2sets (single leg)
Thursday: 100m bs X 10, 50m bs, 50m fs X 10 (SWIM), 25m x 8 water running, 25m x 4 side step in water

My Travelling Goals before 30 years old

I started exploring beyond Singapore when I was 15 years old. It started with a trip to Perth, Australia with my secondary school. The postcard worthy sceneries spark my interest to explore the world.

In 2010, after leaving SMU, I went on a road trip with a friend to North Island, New Zealand for 15 days. We moved around NZ in a campervan, travelling more than 3000km. I found new definition to travelling. It is not just about the beautiful sceneries. Neither it is about the exotic food you find along the streets. Travelling is about the connection with the locals and experiencing the culture.

Over the last eight years, I have been to many Asian countries. The experiences have been rewarding thus far. I am not going to just stop here. I have a list of places that I would like to visit before I turn 30 years old.

1) One month tour around Netherlands, Germany, Czech Republic and Denmark
Travelling around Europe is easily any traveller's dream. These four countries have rich history and castles that are of hundreds years old. One month would be perfect, given the amount of holidays I have. It won't be too short to explore each country. Amount the four countries, The Bone Church at Prague, Czech Republic would be the most anticipated attraction to visit.

2) Two weeks tour around Seoul, Korea
Korea has always been famous for their cosmetic products that are dirt cheap. Korea has definitely more than just that. During spring, the blooming flowers turn the gardens and parks into romantic walk ways. A walk around Jeju Island would bring you to the heaven.

3) Cycle from Tibet to Nepal.
Nepal is located near Mount Everest while half of Mount Everest  is part of Tibet. Being a city girl, it is always blissful to be surrounded by mountains. Many people have travelled by four wheels to the base of Mount Everest. It will be very cool to travel to the base of Mount Everest with only two wheels. After leaving Tibet, immerse oneself with simple lifestyle at Nepal. Do a hike up at one of the many mountains in Nepal.

What's Left For August?

Okay, August is going to be a busy month for me with the activities lined up.

14: Swim + Run
16: Run
17: Pesta Sukan + Zenith BBQ
24: Peiru House Warming
25: Railway Mall Expedition
26: First Aid Course
27: First Aid Course
28: First Aid Course
31: PSC Umpiring

Looking great for a fulfilling month!

Inspired

I read about this lady, Pamela Lim. She is amazing. She believes that every child has a talent or otherwise talents. As long as you use the right method, you can bring out the true potential of the child.

I have been struggling with coaching. I see myself improving over the last few years but I have yet truly build a team. Pamela mentioned that it is more important for a child to motivate himself to success than to success because we have pushed him. He goes a longer way.

I see the same as Pamela.

It is time to rethink the structure of my coaching sessions.

Amazing things you find online

Free e-books
http://www.hongkiat.com/blog/20-best-websites-to-download-free-e-books/

Lovely online education resources
http://www.lifehack.org/articles/productivity/20-places-educate-yourself-online-for-free.html

Blogs about fitness
http://www.lifehack.org/articles/communication/12-fitness-blogs-check-out-you-want-strong.html

Public Holidays

It sucks pretty much to study during public holidays. Public holidays are the only time where people around you are free. It kills the mood to enjoy with exams round the corner. At the same time, I am not in the mood to study. This just sucks.

I have been sleepless for the last few nights. I need to get back to the regular sleeping hours.

I will be doing my first race since last April. Go, Go, Go!

Friendship

I think friendship is amazing. You form friendship in the most unexpected manner while some friendship just can never be formed. It feels like sometimes God has determined who should be around you and how close they should be with you.

I do believe that there are true friendship. I definite true friendship as people who will be there for you regardless of what they have been through with you. These people stay close with you even though you may not have spend a lot of time with them. But, every moment spend together are sincere. These friends deserve the best from you. They should only be treasured and never ever spend a moment that you are sincere. These friends stay with you for life time.

I have met most of my best friends in the most unconventional ways. I just want to tell them, thanks for being around me. I love you guys.

Apart from my best friends whom I have true friendship with, the rest are complicated.

Colleagues, project mates, classmates and any people whom you have relationship with due to activities or formal work may or may not end up as your friends. I find them the most complicated people. Some of them do eventually become some of your best friends. When they are yet to be, they are divided into many categories.

Worker Partner
These group of people are related to you nothing more than work. I usually don't consider them as friends simply because I can't open a conversation with them beyond work.

Friends
They are people who you can strike conversation with, have a meal together and do things beyond formal work together. However, you may not share personal things with them. Sometimes, this is due to different ideology or different interest. They just don't have the patient to listen to you.

Good Friends
This is closest level to best friends. You could almost do anything with them. You share most of your stories with them. The only reason why they are not your best friends yet is that you are not sure if they will be there for lifelong or you don't have that special connection yet.

I am thankful for how God have placed people around me. I will enjoy the friendship while it last.

English, I used to hate you!

I am amazed with how I am still catching up with blog. The blog is 8 years old and still going strong.

I used to hate writing and reading. I have learnt to appreciate it and see the importance to them well. I am still not at my best yet. However, I am consistently trying to improve my language ability. I used to dislike languages, especially English. Chinese was not much of a problem for me but English was. Every year, I need to pass English in order to be promoted. It was a pain to ensure that I pass my English.

During my JC days, I picked up journalism. It was difficult to put a piece of news together. To begin with, it was tough to write a proper sentence without grammar error. Forget about the vocabulary. That's way to tough. Years in Red Sports have definitely helped to improve my writing ability and changed the way I view language.

There are still many words that I do not understand their meanings but I will continue to try. Language has empowered me. Not only can I communicate with other people, it allows me to catch up with the events that are happening around the world. Most importantly, language helps to deliver a message.

I am happy with what I have achieved thus far. This is not it. I want to be better at it.

Adevnturous

I am feeling adventurous now! haha!

List of toys to explore:
1) Bike
2) Skates

List of crazy things to do:
1) Dive
2) Ski
3) Yoga
4) Trekking

woohoo!

My Record Sheet Thus Far

Daisy Tan Carnival (Marlins Air) - 4th
Surf n Sweat (Frenz) - 1st
Beach Netball (Frenz) - 1st
Mixed Social League (Frenz) - 1st
Katana Netball Carnival (Cookie Monster) - 2nd
Moulmein Netball Carnival (Elmo) - 2nd
Community Games / Netball (Wowberries) - 1st
Community Games / Basketball (Helltics) - 2nd
SunNUS (Frenz) - 1st
Ulu Pandan Carnival (Frenz) - 2nd
Netballuxion/Women (Frenz) - 3rd
Netballuxion/Mixed (Big Bird) - 1st
ENL/Mixed Club A (Frenz) - 2nd
ENL/Women Div 1 - 1st
POL-ITE - 3rd

Motivations

• You don't need to be famous to inspire others. Being yourself and making every action of yours counts will inspire people around you. You can make the difference in someone's life simply with small actions.
• How far ahead should we plan? How much should we treasure about our present? At the end of the day, everyone will just tell you that life is fragile. 
• 或许我们在找寻别人的认同时，失去自己对自己的认同。What matter most is the faith you have in yourself. Don't lose it just because people around you think otherwise.
• 有人说我很强和我有打不死的精神。所以，她叫我小强！哈哈！
• You are no different from a dead if you have no goal, no dream. Dream big. Dream is the only thing that is free of charge and yet allows you to achieve most!
• If you think adventure is dangerous, try routine. It is lethal. (from a friend)
• Selflessness is about letting yourself free 

A Busy Weekend

Long to-do-list!
1) Neurophysiology revision
2) MS notes for practical
3) MS practical tutorial
4) EPA practical revision
5) Psychology to Netball Singapore
6) SCC June Coaching Sheet
7) Dad's taxi sign

Stress

I am quite stressed up with all the things that are going to happen next week. :(

I hate selfish people! ROAR!

JULY!!

This July is so packed! Sometimes, or rather on many occasions, I just feel like giving up. It is really tough to maintain a good balance with everything. I don't quite agree that life should be like this. Sometimes, I feel that I am living in fear. It is scary!

15 Jul: POL-ITE
16 Jul: Research Methodology Presentation
17 Jul: POL-ITE
18 Jul: EPA exam
19 Jul: Neurophysiology Exam and POL-ITE
20 Jul: Div 1 Final
22 Jul: Statistics Exam and POL-ITE
23 Jul: MS Exam
24 Jul: POL-ITE
25 Jul: NP and CP Exams

Dear GOD, I need the strength to survive this and do well in them!
I know I am not going to give up. I hope with you help I will be able to strive for excellent.

Travelling soon!

I am getting really excited for the Septemeber trip to Taiwan and Australia!

Work hard for my results! Save lots of money for the trips!

I can do it! YEAH!

Budget for Taiwan: SGD$2000
Budget for Australia: SGD$2500

June

Been sometime since I last wrote a post. Life been hectic and messy.

Nonetheless, I have enjoyed my birthday celebration with varies groups :) Thanks people :)

May is coming soon!

April is coming to an end!

It has been an amazing and fruitful month. Life is filled with ups and downs, as usual. Losing confident in myself to play netball was one of the greatest challenges that I faced this month. I asked myself who am I. Thanks for helping me to get back up, Jean! I know I am not back yet but I am coming back slowly.

NYP Netball has been giving several issues. So much so that I had enough. It is time for me to move on. Oh well!

Highlight of the month: I went to Bangkok alone! For the first time in my whole life, I traveled alone! I have met amazing people, eaten delicious delicacies and shopped till drop. Haha!

I am proud of my Juying girls. They are growing everyday. :)

New Blog Skin

I have changed the background of the blog. I like it a lot!

It feels great when you are able to making someone smile. =)

Life Gets Insane!

Life can get really crazy sometimes. Life challenges both your mental and physical abilities all the time. Life can get so harsh that you feel like giving up. Then, you look back and see how life first begin.

Life hasn't been easy and I know it will not get easier. It will only challenge me to be a stronger and better person.

During the process, I may get worn out, be filled with frustrations, learn many things and meet lots of people.

I can't thank all my friends enough for standing by me through all the hard times and be there for me to share joys with them. I can't appreciate my family enough who are there everyday. I can't thank life enough for all the opportunities that have been presented to me thus far. Life is beautiful. I just need to learn the beauty of it. Life has been good thus far. It will only get better.

I am ready to work really hard. I have sorted out my mind and prepared myself to fight the battle.

I have wondered many questions and I am amazed of how God unfold the answers.

I have been asking myself several times to find the answer to my purpose for studying physiotherapy. Recently, I found the answer. It is for me to help the people around me to maintain a good physical health. Quitting the course will not allowed me to learn more knowledge to help more people.

On another occasion, I asked myself how could I appreciate myself better. I found the answer in the end.

Life is amazing. Keep believing!

I read a note from Joyce about how umpiring is about the joy of umpiring and not the outcome of umpiring. It is not the fame that is important. It is the ability to conduct a fair game for the players that matter.

I think this apply to many aspects of life. Enjoy the process. Let the result take care of itself. Allow the passion to do its job.

Happy 2013!

Happy New Year!

I have thought for very long before I was able to come out with my goals and resolutions for 2013.

1) Catch a sunrise.
2) Y1.2, Y2.1 results: 3.3 for each semester
3) Run standard chartered marathon
4) Compete in Lifesaving Still and Open Water Competition
5) Be disciplined in strengthening programme and trainings

Blessed

I completed about 30 laps (include warm-up) during friday training and I did 20 laps (exclude warm-up) today! Woohoo! All done in freestyle. Well done!

Years back, I started shooting with right hand after my left thumb suffer a stress fracture. Recently, I am progressing well in freestyle because I can't swim breaststroke due to my knee injury. Blessing in disguised!

Biceps Femoris Injury

After consultations with 3 different physiotherapists, the common conclusion is that it is the biceps femoris that is giving me the problem, particularly the tendon. The cause was poor range of ankle dorsiflexion and the repetitive action of sprinting (concentric and eccentric contraction of biceps femoris).

I will work hard for the rehabilitation process. Legs are feelings wobbly after each session! Shiok and tiring!

December, you watch out! I will work 10 times harder to be ready for 2013 seasons!

I felt really lost and frustrated to hear that no more netball and swimming training for now. Oh well, work hard and get back strong! Go go!!

Tiring November

It has been a busy, tiring and fruitful November.

There are so many things. There were so many moments that I feel like giving up. However, I didn't. I am very glad that I did not. Jia you! I will survive this week and all the other weeks! :D

 I am in a dilemma. I don't know what will be the best for my students and myself.

things in hand:
studies
juying
scc
lifesaving
marlins
tuition x 2

emmm... so many things..

Beyond Hopeless

It was beyond words that could describe my feelings for the team, NYP Netball. It is not about losing the game. It is about how each and everyone value the game. I am not disappointed rather I feel annoyed and zero ownership.

NATO suits perfectly well for the team. No Action Talk Only. Why? We give one thousand and one comments about the play. However, no one takes the comments seriously. I have only one feeling for the team. I have given up. I will only give my best for this season and after that, I will take my leave. FULLSTOP.

Did badly for my first semester. I will buck up and work harder. I have kind of decided to leave the lifesaving to focus on running and netball.

Jia you Mui! Go Go!!

Netball

NYP netball.. Sian
SNG.. Sian
Next year NSL.. Sian

: (

Stressed

Is it the stress that is driving me crazy?

I am wondering if taking the scholarship is the right thing to do.

I really don't know. =/

Local education is a bloody failure!

Set it, Achieve it!

I have signed up for 30km at the end of Oct. 3 months to train to get there.

Target: 30km - 3.5hours; 42km - 5.5hours

General idea of training:
Mon: Easy Swim + HK Coaching + NYP Training + Core work
Tue: Interval + NYP Lifesaving
Wed: JY Coaching + Easy swim
Thu: Fartlek + HK Coaching + NYP Training
Fri: Self-swim + JY Coaching + NYP Lifesaving
Sat: Fartlek + Marlins Training
Sun: Long Run +Tuition

Stressed up

I have been really stressed up over the last few days.

Pesta Sukan, scholarship, exams, presentations = enough to kill me.

I kept asking myself what do I wish to focus on. It is just so tough to answer.

Lifesaving? NYP Netball? Club Netball? Umpiring? Coaching? Tuition? Running? Academics? How should I rank them? I am confused and I am lost. =/

Race Against Cancer

I ran Race Against Cancer sometime back in July. Timing: 1hr 47min 38 s. 139 our of 359 ; )

It was my best race. Nonetheless it was fun : )

I have many thoughts today.

I need to buck up and start revision. I am not happy with B. I want A! Go go Mui!

I am happy with my Juying girls' progression. However, I am not happy with the injuries rate. I need to find out what's going wrong! I am definitely not satisfied with Hong Kah girls' progression. It is way too slow.

It is so easy to misunderstand one another, even among good friends. It is so easy to assume one another's intentions and cause some conflicts. Thank you awesome friends who have always stay by me and support my decisions. I truly appreciate your effort.

Lastly, when there is any misunderstanding, clear them!

I am feeling guilty for not accepting opinion. :'/

I want to travel around Europe for 9 months! I want to travel around in USA for another 6 months!
Everyday I am traveling, travel, travel travel, traveling! :D

It always feel good when you have a happy working experience with the people in your project group. You just wished to work with again in the next project.

It is normal to have some misunderstanding while working with one another.

Places and things to do in Singapore:
1) Mint Toy Museum
2) Sisters' Island
3) Pulau Hantu
4) Pulau Semakau
5) Labrador Nature Reserve
6) Southern Bridges
7) MacRitchie Nature Trail
8) Gardens by the Bay
9) Take a cable car
10) Singapore Flyer

A day filled with many thoughts..

I am glad that I am studying Physiotherapy. I am loving what I am studying now. I will revise constantly and daily to avoid backlog!

I definitely need better time management between all my activities and academic. Jia you Hui Mui, you can do it.

Find someone who can love you more than you do. And when you found one, treasure him!

It has been really some time since I last had a examination. The stress is back!! So is the stress for projects. Jia you, mui!

Jia you and jia you! Keep working hard. I am sure you will get there! Fitness trainings!!

Happy moment of the day: Self-swimming day! freestyle 10 X 25m, breaststroke 20 X 35m

Guilty moment of the day: Talked in an angry tone to my mum =/

Little happy moment today: my netball student walked up to me and said that I have inspired and motivated her to do better in her studies and netball :D

Explore!

There are so many things that I would like to explore!

1. Able to swim 20 laps in breaststroke
2. Able to swim 20 laps in freestyle
3. Complete a full marathon
4. Complete a triathlon
5. Complete an Ironman
6. Run a marathon in foriegn countries
7. Travel solo in a country
8. Learn other languages

and many more!

I'll focus one at a time and put in my best into it!

Side note: Mui, learn to listen!

Going into fourth week of school..

I am having this feeling of being dragged to revise my work =/. Am I already burnout? I don't know. I need something to re-energise me. Grrr :(

Starfish 2012

NSL has just ended last week. We finished fourth for the season after losing 36-41 to Blaze Dolphins during the semi-final. During the final, they announced the national opens team. It is definitely motivating and a little dishearten when you see people of your ge made it to the team but not you. I will definitely work a lot harder as I can only get better.

Overview for this season:
1. Great improvement for the runs
2. Improve confidence
3. Better finishing off of the run by being stronger
4. Improve stamina, be able to last at least 4 quarters

First trip of the year!

I am back from Bangkok!

The shoppin is seriously shiok! :) It has been so long since I last did so much shopping! Woohoo!

What's next? :D

By the way, I got into NYP, Physiotherapy!! Woohoo!

Updates

It has been a long time since I last updated my blog. February has been great. Lots of ups and downs. I was selected for M1 Starfish, playing my second season for NSL. I chose playing over umpiring. I have played in the first four games for NSL. I like how Sharryn trains us. Her training is intense and I have learnt a lot of things. I have also learnt a lot about myself from the past few matches. I will keep working on my flaws and use my strengths on court!

I applied for the MOH Health Science Scholarship and I got it! This is definitely a pleasant surprise! I didn't expect myself to get it! Thanks for the opportunity!

These few months, through the tough times, I am very grateful for all my friends who have stand by me. Thanks for always being there! As the saying goes, it is not the number of friends that you have, but the number of true friends you have! This is so true! The support from these awesome friends have helped me pull through on so many occasions! Thanks!

2012 has been really challenging so far. Jia you, Mui! :)

Hello, 2012!

2011 has come to an end and 2012 has just started.

I am sure that 2012 will be a fruitful year if I put in the effort. I am just a little lost about what do I really want. Emm..

2011 was great! I have struggled and survived. I played Netball Super League and IVP. I went to New Zealand and Hong Kong. I paid my first CPF while working at OCBC. I coached my first school, Juying Sec. I watched my first ever World Netball Championship and I want to watch it again in 2015! I went overeas 6 times this year! Hong Kong trip was my first ever netball trip!

For 2012, I want to travel to Thailand (either Bangkok or Phuket or both) and Hokaiddo! I will score only Distinction and High Distinction for all the modules!

I am back from Hong Kong! It was a fun trip! ;)

I am missing the cooling weather and the companions! =)

Just completed 1.58km with my legs :) It has been long time since I last ran long distance.

Self-reminder: learn to accept criticism. There are always bound to people who disagree with you. Find the logic in the disagreement. If none, move on. :D

There are many things that are not as simple as what they seem to be.

I have always wondered if you are the right person for me. I have realised that i have lied too much to you that I think I should seriously stop lying. I guess you just not the kind of gu that I am looking for now. I did like you before but I think that is as far as I have gone. When I put you into the same surrounding as I was in, I realised I just find myself difficult to go near you. This has shown me a lot about how I feel about you. You are a great friend. I think you deserve someone who is able to share a common mindset as you. Sorry for all the lies that I have said because I just really do not know how to face many things. Sorry.

I am back from New Zealand! It was a rewardful trip ;)!

I think we are going well. But, I have a question to ask.. Is she still in your mind?

Thanks! I wanted to say that you are Mr Nice :)

Do you know, I like to look into your eyes?

It was great chatting with you and to understand you better! :)

You are probably the topic for my blog for now. Haha..

Thanks for coming down to lend your support! :D It was great to see you there! It seems like you understand netball, huh? HEHE! =P

Sometimes, I am really confused, not just about you but also my feelings!

I think a change of mentality to keep our relationship to just friends has probably make things much better.

As per usual, you are Mr Nice. Sometime, it is hard to just keep thinking that way. =(

I know you are not ready. I also don't know what would be the outcome one day. I am not sure if this is the way that you keep in contact with every temporary staff. Sometimes, I just wish I know the answer to all my queries. I dislike that feeling to keep waiting and being unsure of the final result.

Nonetheless, it has been good to chat with you and go out with you.

If you ever read this one day, please answer all my questions!

I have sort of clarified things with him. He said he still can't let go of his past yet. It is good to know what he is thinking. :)

I didn't expect to go out for supper with him today. It was good! :D Dinner tomorrow night! ;)

I am very scared to have that disappointing feeling! :(

I am very scared. I am scared to begin something that I can't let go.

Left OCBC on 2 Sep 2011.

I had met great people there. The place isn't that bad afterall. It is just not my kind of work. :)

The art of communication is probably the hardest thing to master in the world. I don't like it when I need to think thrice or more before sending every email. It can be quite annoying. But, this is life. Growing up is sometime nothing less than learning how to present yourself in the public and speak in such a manner that please everyone.

Should I be tresauring every opportunity to learn to communicate better or are people taking advantage of me? I seriously hate it when people tell me that they are busy and express themselves as if they are the only freaking souls that are busy! ROAR!

It is diffcult to comprehend what is life all about, isn't it?

September is coming! Augus has been a very tiring month! Jia you!

I didn't get into the 21s squad. It didn't come as a shock to me. I was mentally prepared for the result. Nonetheless, I think I have learnt and grown a lot when I was in the squad from March to July. I played my first ever NSL.

I should use this time to do things to improve myself both as a person and as an althete. Life is short. We can't predict the next moment.

When one door closes, there are many other doors that are opened. These are the routes we should venture into.

Time to be adventurous and try new things! *wink*

Netballuxion was great! I enjoyed myself. ;)

'Grace" which consisted of myself, Van Soh, Hui Lin and Shi Lin, finished first in Open Women. I think I could have contributed more to the team.

'AVP' which consisted of myself, Michael, Shu Ping, Grace, Daniel and Bernie, finished second in Open Mixed. I am happy with the result. I did not expect ourselves to finish top 2. ;)

I can't tell you how many times the thought of giving up playing netball has come to my mind; it is simply countless. What's more important is to pick yourself up after every fall :)

Life is kind of screwed now but it will be better!

Today was a great day!

I helped Litetutors to update some stuffs on the blog and the website. I should continue to work hard and see if that is a suitable route for me. I felt accomplished!

Yesterday night, a friend of mine told me that I have inspired him. Doesn't it feel just so great that someone tell you so?

Training today at Juying is much lighter and focused on basics. Nonetheless, it was a great training. The girls enjoyed themselves.

We are going to have a camp in Nov! I am looking forward to it!

I have thought about many things for the past few days. I think sometime life is about trying your best and reaping the best result of it. It may not be the ideal result but at least that the best and move on from there. It is difficult to do so. However, when you start trying to do so, you know you can venture on and make every second of your life counts.

When life is tough, share it with a friend. When life gets better, share it with a friend too. There are many friends who come and leave. There are friends who just shouldn't be even considered to be friends. However, ignore all these and cherish friends who are always there for you.

*Stay Positive, Mui!*

End of July

July is coming to an end. It has been an amazing July. I certainly miss World Netball Chmapionship. I also had my first netball tournament-Pesta Sukan, with my Juying girls.

They did fairly all right. Nonetheless, there are still a lot of things to work on, particularly space awareness and getting rid of opponents.

August is coming! There are definitely a few things to look forward to in Aug - Netballuxion and Pesta Sukan. I have not played with AVP in a game since last year Netballuxion! It will be a good gathering! ;) The following weekend, after Netballuxion, I will be playing my first ever Pesta Sukan with Nike. Woohoo!

WNC 2011

WNC 2011 was awesome! I worked with one of the nicest group of people that I have ever met - Suzanne, Edna, Sam, Julie, Judith, Vicki, Tertia, Lyn, Bernie and the local statistians! I am motivatived to be a statistian for other netball events. I want to earn and save up as much as I can to travel around New Zealand.

I felt sad for New Zealand for losing the final by one point! :(

I hate it when I screwed up my life. :(

Rooms for Improvement

I have recently started my new job with OCBC Bank (Raffles Place). So far so good. Nice colleagues, learning new stuff. Nonetheless, I feel weird to see myself in office wear. :/

I think I need to be more humble when I talk to others. I think I am getting too sensitive with things and I am being too proud of myself. I should tone down more.

I need to take care of my hygiene too!

Last but not least, I need to be more self-displine and display higher level of commitment towards everything, especially my tutees.

I feel very distant.

I need to be more positive!

Even since I quitted school, life has revolved round netball and probably only around netball. haha! Took up coaching in Juying Sec. So far so good, but hopefully nothing too fancy from them, especially the teachers.

I have also taken up another student for tuition. I have also took up an offer by U.Les, helping Red Sports to cover netball. I am also helping Netball Singapore to cover Netball Super League.

New lifestyle, I would say.

I am playing my first ever Netball Super League. I am very grateful for the opportunities. I have grown a lot, stronger and better. = ) Congrats to all who achieved their new badges during NSL! =D I will come challenging you guys! =D

I need to look for something to do in the morning!

You have made an impact

Will I get to see you again and talk to you again? Maybe i will forget you one day.

It is so strange how we started. I did not have a good impression of you when we first met. However, I take my hats of to you with how committed you are to make the season a great one for both the umpires and the players.

I remembered how much I wished for the season but not now. I wished the season did not end, so that I could see you again.

I wished I have asked you out today but I did not have the guts to do so.

Will I get to see you again?

We always enjoy the process of thinking that we are right..

I have moved on from SMU. I have withdrawn from SMU.

I do not think that this is a setback. I think this is just one of the many experiences in life. = )

Stop judging me with your blindfolded eyes.

It is not the physical aspect of failure that's scary. It is the mental aspect. When you fail, people look at you differently. People question you if you will succeed in your next attempt. Sometimes' others doubting cause us to doubt ourselves too. 

Others may say ''why bother about what others say?'' We only need to answer to ourselves.

What do you think?

I have made 2 major decisions today.
1. reject NS offer
2. play for NSL

They were tough decisions but i have to made them.

Througout the latst few days, I have been thinking what is life. I have come to a conclusion:
Do what you love in life.

Woring in office is seriously something that I don't like, thus, I rejected NS' offer. I enjoy being at the frontline, constantly be in action.

Playing is what I love. I enjoy umpiring too but I know I love playing slightly more than umpiring.

I will quit SMU and go and having a degree that I want.

What's next in life for me?

Being an umpire coordinator is not easy. Really.

Things haven't been going well. The week will get better! : )

If only today wasn't the ending...

We didn't want it badly enough...

Lesson learnt: Work on my stamina
Knowledge gained: Lobs, reading the game, playing as a GA.

No more dropped balls, put in every balls, take every rebounds, no more bad passes, no more bad decisions!

Looking back to 2010

Looking back at 2010, it has been a fruitful and eventful year!

Highlight of 2010:


19 PS
I have grown a lot during the 5 months, both phycially and mentally. I nearly quitted. The coaches have made me realised that result is not what matters. It is the effort and the process that matter most. Thanks everyone for everything! : )


Umpire Development Squad
There were so many things that I couldn't adapt to in the umpire circle. I was just about to quit this too. Iam glad that I stayed on and improved myself. It always feels good to surprise others how your hard work have paid off. Heee :) Thanks to all the coaches and fellow umpires who have helped me!

U Run 2010
This is my first ever race! I did it with other Red Crew, Screws, Jon, Erwin, Mai and Hong Yong. I finished 10th! Haha! It was a fun race. : )


First Semester at SMU
I have tried many things in SMU, including skating for the first time, trekking for the first time. Other first time, include getting a F for exam (aiyoyo!!). There are many ups and downs. These have made me grown up. :) More to come in second semester! :)


Many firsts
I have tried many things in 2010.

1. first time to coffee bean


2. first time to malaysia (and subsequently made another 3 trips)


3. first time, beating zenith, in Netballuxion, first Gold medal!


4. first 8km race


5. first 10km race (many more to come!)


6. first time playing frisbee!


7. first time staying over at someone's place

2010 has been an awesome year! : )

In 2011, there are many things that I want to do too!

I want learn skating, win IVP 2011, get straight As for my modules, watch World Netball Championship, work at Netball Singapore under Operations, volunteer for some sports events, work harder in umpiring and many more! Jia You! : )