ENL

I have enojoyed my holiday, I would say. It was difficult to make a good balance between events. (I have not revise Maths and Chem!) I was down for ENL this holdiay. It was a good experience.

Mixed Open - Although started playing in mixed open still start of 2008, I have not played in an hour game before. It is a different ball game from that where there is only women on court. I was certainly challenged to my limit (both physically and mentally). I was down for umpiring yesterday. As a watcher of the final where players got really heated about the game, I finally internalise the meaning of being emotional on court. I had bad attitude on court for 2 of the games. Come to think of it again, it just a game afterall. Respect the umpires and keep the game going. Whatever that went right, whatever that went wrong, just keep the game going. :)

Round up for the ENL: 3 wins 1 loss. :)

Umpiring - Up-ed by another level :) I have learnt a lot of things from this season. Thanks to all the umpire coaches. I think that it is great that they are around. It is good for the newbies as ENL showcase a lot of playing styles (Year End League hardly have many clubs signing up), a good chance for us to learn and pick up new things. However, it is not possible to learn unless there are some basic guidance. :)

Time to go back to my pile of revision. BYE!

Comp crushed :(

time to re-charge!

Weekend is finally here!

The week has been eventful. Let's take a look.

Monday: Geography Common Test in the afternoon. I had umpiring at night.
Tuesday: I went for Hillgrove training in the afternoon and went for AVP training at night.
Wednesday: Umpired for Hillgrove's game in the afternoon (well done girls!) and Umpired for ENL at night.
Thursday: Attended a seminar and had an ENL game at night. (YIPPEE!! :) )
Today: Went to watch 'A' Division Rugby Final.

Although I was very tired, I enjoyed the week. :) Gonna re-charge this weekend to be ready to chiong again!

Things for today's umpiring:
1. same northern side as bench official
2. Watch out for 3 feet.
3. Open up earlier at the goal line.
4. Give advantage appropriately.
5. Re-positioning.

Should I rest?

I am kind of worried for myself for umpiring. I feel really lousy about myself. I was testing myself today but things seemed bad, very bad. I could not keep my focus on the game for long. I tend to wonder into the space easily.

I felt quite tired before the game. What's wrong with me? Am I not having enough rest? I slept for 8 hours yesterday and when I woke up this morning, I felt fresh. In the afternoon, my body seemed to be breaking apart.

Should I really take a rest? It takes time to reach the peak form after the rest but I would have a fresher mind. Should I give myself a break that is long enough for my body to recuperate and let my knee be on holiday?

I am very reluctant to give up what I have now. I want to build on from where I am now. On the other hand, I feel that I do not have that energy to push myself sometimes.

What should I do?

The progress report for first half of the year is out. The result is BAD. But, I would say that I am not disappointed because I know I deserve it.

GP: E
Geography: D
Biology: E
Chemistry: B
Mathematics: A

Obviously, such result will kick me out of contest for a place in local universities. I have just got to buck up!

more netball, please.. hehe :P

I am lack of netball to keep my life proper. Haha! just joking. Anyway, I am having once or twice netball a week now. The best part is I am eating as much as I do when I train 7 days a week. Emm.. I kind of miss those weeks where I need keep stuffing 2 sets of clothes into my bad daily.

Yesterday training was quite fruitful. Identified a few problems to work on.

1) Stop holding for too long.
2) Do not cut off everyone lanes, run at my stripe.

I need to run MORE! I need to increase my weekly mileage from 10 to 15!!!

motivation, where are you?

I am getting into my complain mood again.

I can't find any form of motivation of drive myself to get work done. I have been lying around at home and not doing much and I hate this. I hate not using the time to the utmost usage. The feeling of kowing that I have wasted time yet not having a source of motivation to drive myself to better spent the time, is totally horrible.

I have 3 days of school-less days. But, what have I done over the past 3 days?

Sat - Maths basic questions.
Sun - Chem File
Mon - Edit photos plus one story.

Isn't this bad? Completing only 3 tasks over the past 3 days! A Level is round the corner but I am not doing much to help myself. Parents-Meeting Session next Friday. Sigh!

You know what? The worst thing is that I keep forgetting what I have to do. I will keep thinking that I don't have much work to do when I have piles and piles of work to be completed.

:(

I sort of hate the way I am living now. I know I need to buck up. But, how to?

I hate going home facing this and that. I hate going to a place where I don't know how to express myself. (I mean my home.)

ARGH!

I am wasting time.

:( I am wasting time. ):

just a little thought

There were so much thoughts running through my mind.

I miss playing netball with jj. I miss A div time. Today marks the last day of second round. I was imagining how things would have been if we have entered second round. We were so near, yet... so far.
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I just have got to put up a brave front in front of you. I was over the moon when you smiled at me. But I was disheartened when I am not sure what you meant by that.
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Don't ask me why I didn't do this or that. Why don't you place yourself in my shoes?
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It is a blessing to be able to walk. I was unable to walk properly this morning. It was very scary.

It feels just so good.

Thanks Bee Hoon, for the mini donuts. They were delicious!

It's feel just so good to play netball with AVP again. :)

Needed to complete an essay yesterday and as per usual, reserach is reqiured. But, guess what? I enjoyed doing the research. I dislike reading. The research that done yesterday has driven me to do more research and more reading. (:

Life is so packed! I want more time available for reading!!!!

I have failed

I am very upset with myself.

Looking back at my achievement so far, nothing shines out immediately. What have I been doing for the past 18 years?

I was thinking through what was the greatest achievement that I have obtained so far. But, guess what, I can't give you an answer. I have been through many things in my life but I do not seem to have achieve anything.

In primary school, I was a Vice-Head Prefect then Head Prefect. But how far have i gone from there? I played netball in primary 6. How far have I gone from there? I have not meet any target that I set out for any of the seasons.

In secondary school, things aren't any better. I was a sports leader, student councillor, in NPCC and Netball. I had an exchange programme. But what have I achieved? Sports leader - I did not learn much. Student councillor - I failed to work with the team; we failed to improve the school. NPCC - seeing how divided we are and not doing so many things that I could have done, breaks my heart. Netball - given another chance, I wished we have progressed much more.

In JC, life seems to be slightly better. But not. House Council was a failure. I failed to carry our my duties as a vice-cap. Netball? I have learnt several important lessons and skills but I failed to make changes. I failed to initiate changes. We could have gone much further. Redsports - My character fails. I failed to bring myself to a higher level. I promised something and I failed to do it. It jolly well could have severe consequences.

Friends - I failed to accept people for who they are.

I have failed.

We have the right to express our thoughts and feelings but some are meant to kept to ourselves. A well-learnt lesson today.

An opinionnated dominace person gets into trouble easily.

A Div 2009

Complicated feelings.

VJ vs JJ - 36 - 34
AJ vs JJ - 41 - 39
HCvs JJ - 49 - 29

Em..

Against VJ, it was a tough fight. We could not take a lead throughout the game. At a point of time, we were down by 6 goals. Taking one point at a time, we draw the game with 3 minutes to go. But, having the most crucial centrepass of ours being overturn and not missing any of theirs, VJ took the victory home.

Against AJ, we put up another good fight. The game started with AJ scoring 5 consecuetive goals. Finding our comfortable paste was the key to aid us in narrowing the margin. We were down 1 goal at the end of first quarter. We then take a 2 point lead at half time. Entering fourth quarter with 3 point lead. The start of fourth quarter was not smooth for JJ. AJ scored theirs and overturn ours to narrow the deficit to 1 point. This was maintained till with 1 minute 30 second left on the clock. AJ eventually win the game 41 - 39.

Against HC, HC dominates first quarter to win the game. We could not find our flow of attack. Poor shooting from me did not help. First quarter ended with HC taking 20 - 5 lead. In second quarter, both JJ and HC were taking turn to score our own centrepasses. 30 - 16, at the end of second quarter. Horrible shooting from me limited us from narrowing the margin. We scored only 3 goals in the third quarter. Fourth quarter was much better. We were the one taking control of the ball most of the time. But, last half went a bit haywire. We lost 49 - 29.

Dull moments

What am I doing?

I have a lot of work stacked aside. However, I am very reluctant to be bothered with it.

I feel that life is kind of dull now except when it comes to netball.

Staying in school, I would simply let time passed by. Going home, I would only go online or take a nap. Talking to my mum is not something wise to do.

Dull moments...

A little wish...

在我心里闪亮着的小希望：我希望一天会对我说：“妹！加油！”

每当我去比赛时，对我而言，没人的鼓励比我母亲来的有力。

妈，这是我心中的小小希望。。。

In the deepest point of my heart, there is a little wish that I hope that it will come true one day - I hope one day I would hear words of encouragement from my mum on days of tournament.

Nothing is as impactive as the encouragement from my mum.

Mum, I hope...

What we can control

We can't control what others want and how they choose to react but we can choose what we individual can fulfil. It does not matter how far they want to go. What matters most is how far do we choose to go.

As long as we have tried my best to carry out our roles, the result would not matter be it the desired one or not.

Dreams bring us to a greater height

I came to realisation of how important to have a dream.

Only with a dream, we motivate ourselves to strive for excellence.
Only with a dream, we find the meaning in life.
Only with a dream, we live for ourselves.

Without a dream, we lose our source of motivation.
Without a dream, we can't feel our life.
Without a dream, we live for the past.

Where to go? Which area should I explore? Emm??

5 nuns at a bar