It's 29th December 2007 already! 2 days and a few more hours left for 2007. Wow!

All right, it is such a rare sence that I don't update my blog for a few days for this December. Actually, I wasn't busy these few days but I was just to tired and lazy to update my blog. =P All right, so what have happened these few days?

These few days I hadn't been feeling very much well. On thursday night, my body was giving me signals that I need to sleep early if I don't want to fall sick. Yesterday, my ankle was kind of hurting and today, the sun made me haywire. I am feeling sort of dizzy right now. =_+

Despite being sick, there were quite a number of activities going on. On Thursday, I had a hair cut in the morning. I cleared all my papers in the afternoon (finally). All the workseheets, mock papers, test papers and notes are well filed up and neatly arrange. I realised how small my house is. I didn't have much space to put my files. I could only stack them up and put them on my drawers. The shelf in the storeroom now is packed with books. Seriously, clearing all these papers gave me an excellent sense of satisfaction. =) Nothing much for the night afterwhich.

Friday was suppose to be boring since the court is yet available for training. However, after meeting, Shi Jie, Alia and Michelle my day was changed. We had lunch at Causeway Point and played basketball afterwhich. It has been such a long time since I last played basketball out of school. The last time I played outside school was 28th Dec 2005. Oh my goodness! You know what? It is exactly two years apart! Ha!

I was out at Kallang today. I was under the sun for 2 hours. THese 2 hours of sun made my head go round and roung which usually don't happen in the past. I think it has been really quite sometime since I was under the sun. All right, I think I need another rest. BYE!

Sorry Li Ling, can't join you for tomorrow, I think I needed a rest.

1. Do the following WITHOUT complaints

2. Choose 5 people to do this after you completed yours

3. Leave a tag on he person’s tagboard to say he/she have been tagged


Favourites

Colour: All colours


Food: Anything that is edible

Song: Yan Lei De Wei Dao (The Flavour of Tears) by Energy

Movie: Don't really like movies.

Sport: Netball.

Season: Spring.

Ice-cream: ALL.


Currents

Mood: Neutral

Taste: My mouth is empty

Clothes: white t-shirt and shorts

Desktop: HP Pavilion a1377d media center PC

Time: 0911hrs

Surroundings: HP, house phone, steering wheel, speakers, tv, headphones, mic, printer, joystick gearbox etc .

Annoyances: nil.


First

Crush: identity is protected.

Movie: Lion king??

Music: National anthem


Lasts

Cigarette: nil

Drink(alcohol): Singapore Sling

Car Ride: nil

Phone call: yesterday, 8 sec

CD played: upgraded to MP3(long time ago)


Have you ever

Dated your best friend: no

Broken the law: siao

Been arrested: then can I be still here?

Skinny-dipped: upper ini?

Been on TV: Yup.ITS SHOWTIME! Cheerleader

Kissed someone you don’t know: you need a mental doctor?


5 things that you are wearing:

1. T-shirt

2. Shorts

3. Undergarments

4. Spectacles

5. Watch


4 things you’ve done today:

1. Eat

2. Sleep

3. Use computer

4. Use HP

5. Stand up and Walk


3 things you can hear right now:

1. More than words by extreme (song)

2. Vehicles passing by

3. My grandma rattling pots and pans


1 thing you do when you are bored:

Find that SPECIAL PERSON=)


5 people:

Nobody force you to do nothing.

Nothing much happened yesterday. I only managed to cleaned my clothes drawers, cleared some papers and wrote some cards. Didn't finish everything that I wanted.

As for today, the afternoon was suppose to be devited to netball but due to some reasons the training is cancelled. It wasn't too bad for me, I guessed. I made use of the time I had to clear up A LOT of things. I washed my ankle and knee guards. Cleaned my bag (FINALLY!!). Cleared a whole stack of papers. Not bad Not bad.. hee hee.. =)

For tonight, gonna write finish all my card and sent the email out!!! I had better do so man!! If possible, I will clear my table as well. The table is once again in a mess.

Since I get things done faster than I expected it of myself, shall have a change in plan...

Plan for tomorrow:
Morning - Hair Cut (my hair is kind of long now )
Afternoon - Arrange and pack my shelf in the storeroom plus self training
Night - Revision and Reading

Sometimes we may just don't know what will happen next. Not that I am being permisstic but rather, I just don't what will happen next, seriously.

Seriously, I want to tell you that I have never get over you. I want to hold your hand. I want to be with you. I really didn't want the night to end. I asked you if you are in hurry because I wanted you to stay. I wished we didn't just ate our food that night. I wished we could spend more time together that night. I will not mind even if I were to stay by your side till the next day.
emm...
I hope I didn't see that look wrongly. Were you telling me somethng through that look that day? Were there a message for me?
emm...
I wished the phone call didn't end even if I have to pay more when the bill comes. I wished the night was spent on phone with you. I don't mind talking to you till my saliva dries up. I just want to be with you. I like you. I really hope to hear from you if you ever fall for me even if I am not around. This is all for you, 52637 T.
Things went through me mind... Life can just be so unpredictable at time..

Ahh.. Holiday is coming to an end. It is soooooo fast!!! Countdown.. 7 more days to 2008! Oh goodness!!

I have still a few more things to do for 2007!! Got to work extra hours! lol!

I was out at Christine's Birthday yesterday. It was all right, I guess. We were just talking and talking and cam-whoring.. Then, was out at CDANS swimming pool today with LI Ling. It was not bad. =)

Plan for the rest of the holiday:

25th Dec:
Morning - Clean the clothes drawers
Afternnon - Send email and write finish the cards
Night - File in half the paper s

26th Dec:
Morning - Wash my bag and send out all the cards
Afternoon - clear some papers and off for netball till night

27th Dec:
Morning - Clear the remaining papers
Afternoon - Clear my table plus self training at home
Night - reading

28th Dec:
Morning - Pack my table
Afternoon - Lessons and off to netball till night

29th Dec:
Morning - Lesson
Afternoon - Nap (hehe =P)
Night - Reading

30th Dec:
Morning - Get everything ready for a new year
Afternoon - Off to netball till night

31st Dec:
Shall keep this day as it is.. =)

All right, gonna work on stuffs now..

Thanks... but.......................

I need to spend every second wisely from now onwards. I realised how much more things I need to do before the new year starts.

- write 2 cards
- write an email to Mrs Lim
- Clean my drawers
- Clear those stacks of papers
- Wash my bag (I am really lazy to do this)
- Clear my table
- Build up my stamina
- Do reading (been trying to do so but for reasons, nothing much is done, =_=)

Oh goodness.. so many things to do yet not much time left.

It feels like a burden to me. I really want to enjoy the game without any burden on me. To come to think of all the related problems, I always feel the pressure. I want to feel flying when on court. I know there's one person who feel worse than I do. It is just so difficult to hang in there. I really hope someone can help the both of us. I really hope so...

Hold my hand, will you?

我不知道我是用什么感觉感情来对待你。

Today's theme is Friends.



Honestly, I feel that I do not have many friends in Hillgrove. Although I am known for a student who involve in almost every single programme in Hillgrove.

2007 is coming to an end! 10 more days for 2007 only! Time flies, didn't it? 4 years of life in a school which I didn't predict that I will be in, has passed. I am truly amazed by what I have been through. Everything has made me grow. Thanks to everyone who has given me everything.

For the next few entries will be some flashback about my days in Hillgrove Secondary School. Each entry will have different theme. Today's theme will be CCA.

Honestly, I didn't enter Hillgrove with the mindset of carrying on with Netball. I remembered I wanted to join CCA like NPCC, Badminton and Girls' Brigade. However, during the CCA day, I only signed up for Netball. Yet, after the CCA day, I went for Basketball try out. I got into the team but sometime after the selection, I decided to withdraw. Then, I was in NPCC. Seriously, this was a little bit unexpected for myself. Despite how much I wanted to be part of NPCC in my primary school days, I didn't notice much about NPCC during the CCA day and it wasn't my first choice of CCA. Yet in the end, NPCC became my first CCA.

Only in June 2004, did I go back to Netball.

Since June 2004, I had 2 CCAs. Throughout these years, it wasn't easy to handle both of them well. There were days where trainings for both crashed with one another. There were days where I missed NPCC trainings due to tournaments. I had numerous quarrels with Miss Wang over these. The quarrels made me detest NPCC for quite somewhile. Now, I understand all the scoldings and naggings that she gave me. I think she is actually very kind to me. If I were her at that time, I think I would have been worse. All the scoldings and naggings that she had given me, really made me learn. I feel that they are very precious despite how much I hate them.

Apart from the struggle of handling both CCAs, I think most of the every other part of the memories of both CCAs are pretty sweet though I have some regrets. In netball, I think I was one of the very lucky few to be able to represent Hillgrove for years. I still remember I started representing Hillgrove when I was in Sec 2 for B Division. Although I didn't play much in the zonal tournament in 2005, I am still glad that I am in the team. However, there were times where I am really upset when I am just not able to play in a game or performed badly. This is all a learning process. A big thank you to Kai Ling for helping me and giving me chances to play and improve myself. Of course, a big thank you to all my team-mates that I have played with before. Without you guys, there wouldn't be me in netball. I truly value the friendship that I have made in the team. All these years, Geraldina..辛苦你了! As I moved on in netball, my dearest Seniors stepped down, Kai Ling left. New members came so did a new coach come. I hoped that the juniors will continue to work hard and improve themselves. A big thank to Madam Siti. She has never failed to drive me to a higher level. To all teachers who have in-charged of netball before - Ms Chong, Ms Alicia Ang, Ms Koh, Mdm Chan, Mdm Teh, thank you very much for what you have given us!

NPCC is just like a drama to me. The drama has been on air for 4 years. The final episode has just ended not long ago. I remembered I joined NPCC under the influence of my brother and I wanted camps very much. I also respected NPCC very much. I actually didn't get much from what I expected from NPCC. I expected a lot of outdoor activities. NPCC turned out to focus on drills and campcraft only. My batch was a pretty an unlucky and troublesome batch. We aren't very united. We don't learn things well. We only started training after April 2004. Many people tried to help us but most of them gave up in the end. It was indeed very sad and disappointing that only very few lasted till the last training. Nonetheless, all of us graduated from NPCC successfully in the end. A big thanks to those who have helped us before - Ms Wang, Mr Tham, Mr Teo, Mrs Chew, Ma'am Wanyu, Ma'am Lydia, Sir Jeremy, Sir Soon Sim, Sir Sam, Sir Izwan, Sir Faizal, Sir/IC James, IC Atinah. As well as to those sirs and ma'ams who have organised the NPCC events and helped out in our school events, thanks!

Throughout my 4 years in NPCC, I found a few soulmates who are always there for me when I need them. To Sarina: Thanks buddy. I know I have given you a thousand and one problems during these years but thanks for helping me whenever I need you. To Yong En: I just so love our hang out. Those moments after trainings with you are unforgettable. Those days where we just simply complain about every single thing about NPCC are just so unforgettable as well. Thanks for always there for me.

I just so love these memories I had with both the CCAs. But, I know things could have been better back then. Well, time has passed. Let's just take it as a lesson to be learnt. =)

This morning's weather was.... cooooooooold. I just loved the wind. Excellent morning! I slept all the way till 12noon. Afterwhich, slacked till 3 plus going to 4. Only then did I start doing something. I tried to arrange PAPERS.

My level of shelf in the storeroom is packed with papers.It is kind of headache to clear ALL the papers. My files are way too small for all the papers. It is very hectic to sort out all the papers. It is probably going to take me daysss to sort them out and file them up.

I truly realised how many trees have we killed during the period before O level. I have just so many practice papers!! My goodness..

All right, I am going to continue to sort out my papers.. BYEEE!

Was out today in the noon. I realised a few situations that irritate me quite a bit. People are kind of lack of patient. I always wondered why can't people wait for passengers to alight from train before boarding. Why do they want to block the exit just because they want to enter the train ASAP? The practice of standing on the left of the escalator doesn't seen to be in use. I think despite the time of thday, we should always stand on the left of the escalator.

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The shopping trip today was kind of good. Spent 2 hours at Jurong Point. Back at home at 6 plus. Slacked. Kind of bored!!!!

我害怕失去你。。。

Good game! Good effort! Good job! Keep going juniors. You have done well! That's the way! The netball game earlier on was fantastic! I truly enjoyed it. The laughter just went on and on and on. Keep it up people. That's the way!

I..........

Things are going sweet for her. I think I am glad for her. It is really good to see her move on and seriously I have never seen her heaven smile before. This is the first time that I saw her smiling with the world going round her only. I mean really. Giving you my blessing, dear buddy. However, please don't be too over. Personelly, I feel that you are going kind of over already. Maybe I don't know how things work in life, esp. BGR but I hope everything goes well for you.



That night was great. I can't use other words to describe though I have some other better words in my mind because I don't have the right to do so (yet). Just like what she said, I wish the night didn't end.

I truly want...

I am seriously getting fed up with some people. It is just so pointless to help people who don't help themselves. A effort-less game is a lousy game. Being absent for trainings is fun right? Can you guys please think for us? Nevermind. Getting angry for you guys are just simply wasting my energy.

Had netball earlier on. Certain parts of the "training" was fun though. =D No point talking about those parts where I just feel so hopeless.

Damn it! I have wasted so much time this holiday. Damn it! I need to buck up! Come on! Hui Mui, BUCK UP! I have better use time properly and meaningful. I seriously didn't do much to help myself. Not much things are done. buck up buck up!

I am going to be selfish. It is just so irritating to respect people who don't respect you.

So...... sooo.....

Okay, let's see how free am I..

Today: Evening going out with mum
Sunday: Out with Sarina in the early noon. Netball Training at 4pm
Monday: Lesson in the morning
Tuesday: Nothing
Wednesday: Nothing
Thursday: Nothing at the moment
Friday: Netball Training in the late afternoon.

My goodness. I am very very very free right? Yes I am! People, can help me fill up the empty spaces? I am just so bored at home.. I am on for anything. Seriously, anything. =)

Earlier on went for netball. Seriously, horrible! I am serious about this. to all juniors who are reading this. The game was horrible. I only saw Michelle working. The rest were modelling. Seriously, you guys simply give up even for the 5 VS 3 game. It is truly disappointing.

Thanks Cik Siti. Your words are valued. =D

Youtube is addictive. wahahaha! I did not sleep for the whole midnight. I planned to stay awake till 8am or 9am but due to some reason went to bed at around 6am.

For the whole morning, I was watching some variety shows and now had some drama planned out. I think all of them are Taiwan Idol Drama series. Here are the dramas in line for myself:

1. 爱情两好三坏
2. 斗牛 要不要
3. 魔剑生死棋
4. 公主小妹
5. 终极一家
6. 美味关系

The weird thing is I woke up at around 10.20am. I was super tired by 1.30pm. Seriously tired. Went back to my bed at 1.30pm and slept all the way till 6.30pm. =) Pig huh? Everyday, Sleep and sleep. haha! But the nap today is so much better than yesterday's. I don't get headache after waking up. I think there was lessing things in my mind when I sleep.

All right, gonna carry on watching my dramas at youtube. Bye!

I almost could not wake up to go out today. =_+ and the thing is yesterday this morning I could not sleep and I didn't sleep yesterday afternoon. For the whole morning I was feeling very very very sleepy. On my way down to BUgis in the afternoon, I was taking a nap on the train. On my way back to Bukit Batok, I was taking another nap on the train. When I reached home in the late afternoon, I slept from 5pm to 8.30pm. Seriously man! However, the long nap wasn't nice at all. My body was resting but my mind wasn't. There were quite a number of things going on in my mind. Netball, of course and many more. When I woke up, my head was very heavy and I think I had a headache. It is much better now. =)

Not doing anything now other than blogging here. Boring right? I seriously feel the bored-ness.

Drama in line..
斗牛，要不要
魔剑生死棋

I miss you.

I will consider today as a more productive day although I didn't carry out my actually plan. I actually planned to go Bugis and have netball at 5pm.

The weather at the early part of the day was excellent. The sun was shining brightly. However, decided to stay at home and training was cancelled due to some reasons. But but but, the lazy bum was hardworking today. =D I washed my shoes and my watch strap. I also opened up an ENGLISH storybook to read. This is rare! I am quite proud of myself for this. =P

Other than these, I was practically lazing around. =(

I feel like watching shows, movies, dramas and all kind of television programmes! It has been years since I last do so. Days back in primary school, I was a live television schedule. I can tell you every show at every hour. Now, I watch at most 2 television programmes a day. Sometimes, I can just stay away from TV for 2 whole days. I totally lost touch with the TV. Anyone has the drama series, Dou Niu, Yao Bu Yao( 斗牛，要不要)?

I will stay for you. I promise.

I heard of this before and I believe in what it is saying..

The Greatest Distance is when you are in front of me but I can't feel your presence.

You made me feel like you are just like the weather. You are making the water so cold that I don't dare to use the water. I really hope that you were sad for what I am hoping.

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Just a boring day. Seriously, boring. Nothing much for me to do. I just don't feel so right about the life I am having now. I feel empty. And honestly, I miss Maths! haha! seriously. I just simply miss the numbers.

Meet up Marianne in the evening. hahaha! (marianne, this laughter is for you! I know you know what happened.. =_+)

Where are you, boy?

我真得很希望，很希望他们所说的会变成事实。我很希望我那时做的梦会成真。

歌手：徐冥蕾 专辑：新绝代双骄三游戏的
歌曲：守候

我能等你吗?
在那淡淡月光下
静静想你

我能等你吗?
在那熟悉的地方
轻唤着你

风里传来你的呼吸
云里映着你的笑意
林里的鸟相偎相依
我却孤寂

我等你回来
把那窗儿蚩向我依赖

我等你回来
带着纯真的风采
宛如小孩

衣上装满你的记忆
夜里的梦多么清晰
冰冷黎明只剩叹息
如何忘你

迷离的夜
飘响着无边境的旋律
在耳边旋绕不停

载着思绪的雨
带我找你
纵然是梦想也罢

宁愿寂寞放弃自由
怎样也想抓住你的手
春夏秋冬你的承诺
我会守候


歌手：陈淑桦 专辑：陈淑桦珍藏版
歌曲：一生守候

等待著你
等待你慢慢的靠近我
陪著我长长的夜到尽头
别让我独自守候
等待著你
等待你默默凝望著我
告诉我你的未来属于我
除了我别无所求
你知道这一生
我只为你执著
管别人心怎么想眼怎么看话怎么说
你知道这一生
我只为你守候
我对你情那么深意那么浓爱那么多
等待著你
等待你轻轻拉我的手
陪着我长长的路慢慢走
一直到天长地久
等待着你
等待你紧紧拥抱著我
告诉我你的心里只有我
除了我别无选择
不管他喜还是悲
苦还是甜
对还是错
永远爱我

You know what's going on when I put on lyrics.

Happy Birthday Alvin! Sorry friend for not going for your party. Sorry Atikah. @_@

I am so broke now. My piggy bank is so empty. =( Shall see how it goes..

I need to start washing my things now.

Things to wash:
Black Slingbag
Watch's strap
Clothes' drawerS
School Shoes

I feel like washing them but I am just so lazy... =P Shall see how (again?) hehe.. what's more the weather has been kind of moody, just like me. Ha! Now, you know Hui Mui is a lazy bum..

Seriously, I am going to give up watching Why Why Love. I have watch about 8 episodes and seriously, this is a rare drama that after watching for so long it didn't catch my attention at all. I have no idea what's the focus for the drama.

I carried out bold actions. I wished your answer was no, seriously. I wish what they said is reality.

This is what the friendster horoscope tells me about today:

You are ready for seriously bold action today! It's time to step up and make the grand gestures you know you can make. If you have been beating around the bush with someone you have growing feelings for, today is the day to bite the bullet and confess your true feelings. It's now or never. If you have been contemplating a travel adventure, today is the day to book the tickets and commit to going. Time is slipping away, you need to act now to get what you want.

Is it true?

I an back in my don't know mood again. seriously, the feeling of lost-ness is in me now. =_+ I regretted saying things out. I rather keep things away. but oh well.. nevermind.

All right I am back here. What exactly has been going on? My blog sounded kind of sad recently. Maybe I am just not getting things done, I guess. My mind has been wondering all over the place. My temper has seriously flew high and sorry people. Seriously, I have no idea what happened to my temper. It just went off. I don't seem to be able to control it. =_+ My mood has been kind of bad. Nothing seems to interest me. I have been watching a Taiwan drama, "Why Why Love" over the past few days. I have watched almost 5 episodes and it didn't interest me at all. I am not sure if it is the content of the drama that is the problem r is it myself. The drama is kind of boring. Reading of books didn't interest me as well. Goodness! Things are just so wrong. *Sigh* And well.. For those who knows me well, will know what can give me just a depressed mood. Seriously, I have no idea how to deal with this. It is kind of sucky. Nevermind. I think time need to help me again.

Today is 7th December! People, do you still remember this date? I miss all the people from 13 nations so much! and woah! It has been a year since we last met. Time flies. I feel like flying to Japan now and celebrate Christmas like we did last year. MERRY CHRISTMAS TOYKO!! I just simply miss Japan. My twin, Liz! argh! Long long long time didn't see her already! Babe, I miss you!!!

Miami oh Miami, I think you have slept loooooong enough. It is time to wake up and fight like a champion. You guys played so dead. I wanna see the champion in you guys again!!

I want you

Life looks very wrong now. Things go very wrongly as well.

I think I really need a lot of time to get everything right..

I want to be beside you now.

I am worried. I am sad. I am jealous.

This is what the friendster says :
Relationship issues will come to the forefront today when it feels like someone may be holding you back from happiness. Re-evaluate what is going on and ask yourself if this is a positive partnership for you. As long as you are happy with who you are and where you are going together, you're doing fine and this is just an unpleasant phase. But if you keep asking for things to change and you don't think they are hearing you, it's time to sit down and have an honest heart to heart.

IDK.

Cik Siti, very sorry.

Where am I heading now?

I feel like stepping one step forward. But i don't know how.

My mood is kind of down now. Partly because of what I know. I can feel the sadness. Partly because of what happened at home. Sometimes I wonder what's call home. It sucks when the moment you reach home and people just don't bother about you and worse still, parent starts nagging. Say this also wrong, say that also wrong. do this also wrong, do that also wrong. 难道就没有一样东西是对的吗？Why is there only wrong? Seriously, there is nothing right? do you actually know that I am your child?

Sometimes I really wonder if I am a human.

Yesterday.. emm.. I wouldn't say that it is exactly a good day. Went out in the afternoon with Merina and Cik Siti to get myself a pair of shoes. Finally! By right we have more things to shop for but in the end due to me, we shopped for my shoes for 4 hours! hehe.. By right, we need to buy skorts as well but we didn't. Hehe.. thanks people. Love you! and tata.. MY SHOES!! I love my shoes. so does Cik Siti! =P We love MY shoes! Afterwhich we head to training from Queensway shopping center.

I am quite please with the attendance. However, I didn't like the attitude of some people at all. It sucks man! Don't wanna go details into it. I left early to send my friend into NS. LOL! We are proud of ourselves that we tricked 3 people. But during the whole dinner, I didn't feel eactly right cos of what we heard. I am kind of worry. Anyway, after dinner, went Marianne's house (again) for some shooting. The lighting was bad. I received hard knock on my head physically. You can see a bruise on my forehead now. But no worry, I am fine. Seriously used to it already. I still remember months back, sickening man.. One carnival,received 5 wake up calls at 5 different parts of my head. =_+

Hope everything is all right for you. I will be there for you if you need.

How should parents work with children? How should children work with parents? I have wrote a similar debate about these questions before but now, they set me thinking again.

Parents worry for children. Children don't feel comfortable. Parents don't worry too much for the children. They say parents do not show concern towards them. Children always ask for freedom. Parents tend to be reluctant to do so.

How should parents work with children and vice versa? Maybe this is how life works. but I just really like it. Honestly, to a parent what is the most important thing that he/she wants from his/her children? A degree? A happy childhood? or A good life partner?

Realised my choices do not include a good life? Because everyone has different definition for "a good life" And seriously, I feel that being rich doesn't mean having good life.

I think we should sit down and think about this with our parents and/or children..

I must work hard. I need to work harder. I know I am not good enough. I know my play isn't good. I know my sweat need to be shed. I must put in a lot more effort. I am always give in 100.1%!

I learnt an important lesson today. When you tell someone a timing, do state clearly if it is A.M or P.M. It is very important that we do so. haha!

Feeling very tired right now. *yawn* all right shall blog about what I saw tonight and gonna say GOODNIGHT!

On my way home just now, saw 2 accidents and it was kind of scary. There was a motorcycle that fell at expressway. Ouch! Seriously, I think that it truly hurts. Afterwhich there were 2 cars that bang head to head. Luckily no one is harmed. Somewhere near my house, there were 4 cyclists who wanted to start cycling when my dad car went past them. Phew! HENG!

Hey, people please drive carefully with patient! Any careless-ness may just cause a life to be lost. Please be patient as well. Do not because of a moment of anxious and cause a life to be lost.

I remembered something. To all drivers out there, please show signal when you want to turn! This little effort can help to reduce death due to accidents. I am serious about this. Just a signal can actually tell everyone a lot of things!

My heart is wondering again, I think.

Slightly more productive..

Did 1/2 hour jog.. jogged for about 4km. Well, obviously, my muscles need of this. I rearranged files in my computer. Not exactly fully done, I will be rearranging certain files again. Cleared and organized my worksheets and books. I am done with my books. Left with worksheets on my shelf only. =D My table looks so much better now. Managed to do some reading as well but so far, I don't know why, the stories that I read have a sad ending. Netball wise, I don't if I am being demoralised or motivated to work harder. and ya.. don't be surprise to hear funny things from me.

Where is my heart following now? I am stil doing what I have done in the past?

I received a dead hard knock today. before I continue.. let me do somethings first..

To all the 5 outstanding dragonboaters.. you have done singapore proud. we will always remember you.

The news made an impact on me. Life is just so fragile. I believe we still remember not long ago something happened to my school. Is this really the way life has to go? Through this whole year, many such news has been appearing. Life is so dangerous? People just come and go..just LIKE THAT. It is scary.

All right.. My holiday has started quite sometime back and things didn't exactly go the way I wanted but it is ok. I tried looking for a job but it doesn't look like I will be working. Personally, after looking for a job, I feel that a job will be burden for me eventhough I will be receiving money. I feel that it is a burden because if I were to work, I will not have time for other activity such as upgrading myself, training and going out will friends. If I don't get a reply from my previous application, I will just give up and concentrate on what I would like to do during this holiday.

Talking about upgrading myself, I am serious about this. Although a big O is over, the O actually motivated me to work harder. I know I needed to work extra hard to achieve better result. I need to improve my languages.

Training wise, someone motivated me to work as hard as this person does. I felt that I was lousy. I know I can do better than now. To get to where I want, I know I needed to shed more sweat. I know it is not going to be easy but a dream will lead me there. =)

Going out with friends and having gathering is going to be a big part of the holiday. I have been busy here and there for the past years. I think it is time to get in contact with friends and people around me to catch up with one another. Seriously, back in those hectic days where responsibilities were part of my daily life, it was really difficult to catch up with people around me. I am always on the go. So.. ya..

My tableS are still in a mess. Papers are all over the place. Books are mostly cleared. Excess stuffs are here and there, everywhere. I need a few days to clear them, I think. My computer is in a mess too. Files are all over the place. I have repeating files as well. Seriously, I find clearing and organizing the files is a difficult task. I tried clearing and organising some files yesterday and I realised how tough it is.

Well of course, there are going to be a few more things that I would like to do in the upcoming month, December! I miss Japan! It is going to be a year since the day I departed for Japan. I missed those days back in Japan. I missed all my friends from the 11 nations! I miss the home in Tokyo. I missed my dear friends from Tokyo Metropolitan Kokusai High School. I miss the leaders from AFS. I miss every part of the programme. A big thanks to AFS! I want to return to Japan!

All right, a bit way of the track.. let's get back.. haha.. I think this is the best time to contact all my dear friends again. Like I say, in the past I was really very busy and didn't have much time to type emails and write letters. I am going to write letter and emails to all my friends overseas! I am just worried that I can't complete all letters before 2008. I will try!

I want buy to SHOES! Yes! I need new shoes badly. I still have another running shoes but I just don't feel very comfortable in it. Both my training shoes are not in best condition anymore. They actually still can be used but I just don't feel exactly right in them. hehe! So conclusion, NEW SHOES! Give me this as Christmas present, okay?

I think for now I shall get all this things done before I move on to new focus. =)

You get me on. Please burn me on.

What's there to be upset for? No, I should say what right do I have to be unhappy? If I were to show any sign of unhappiness, I am just getting myself troubles. Everything you say is right, isn't it? All I can do is find my own way out to get my own life. Seriously, since you have put hings that way then what else can I do and very abivous, n-o-t-h-i-n-g. I know it is not totally your fault. Afterall, it always take 2 hands to clap. Everyone contributes to this sickening problem. I know it is pointless to grumble over it. so well.. THE END!

Let me vent my fustration.

What is this man? 0 attendance! Z-E-R-O Oh come on! It is stated VERY CLEARLY that when you guys are suppose to appear on the court. I am damn disappointed. And what is she is not coming so I am not coming? Hello? What's this? so if one commits suicide, you are going to follow what she does, is it? Oh, come on.. You are not a 3 years old kid. You have your own mind set. No tournament, no trainings? I think you can quit if you guys want to continue this attitude. Seriously, let me tell you guys.. I am very disappointed. You think you are very great? This will only happen in your dream! Seriously! Totally R-U-B-B-I-S-H!

Come on lo! I am wrong with this, I am also wrong with that. And yet you never tell me what's right. If you are really that unhappy with me, please just tell me this, Hui Mui, get out of this house. This will save me a lot of troubles. Sometimes, I really try to improve on the situations. However, things just simply don't work. What's the problem, you tell me! Keeping quiet seriously will not make things better. I am trying to open up. I have taken the first steps. Will you please take the second step? Seriously, sometimes, I just feel so sucky staying in here. It totally sucks!

All right.. Emo time..

I think things turned out better than I thought. However, I was worse than I thought I could be. You were the last second image on my mind before I slept. Because I kow if you were the last image on my mind, I will never turn in. I wished badly for something. Really badly. When things just go so wrong, I really hope to have your sprite to keep me alive. I am losing hope right now. Please keep me going. I need you to burn me on.

Get lost if you don't want to play. Get out if you like it.

I am seriously getting very pissed. You didn't try, you are telling me you want to give up. You are lazy, what do you want me to do? I am very disappointed. So what if there are tall and strong opponents? So what? You tell me? Come on man! If you don't want to play netball, just let me know. I am getting sick and tired of your nonsense!


I am sorry, I didn't expect this. =(

been out for the past 2 days.. Was out yesterday to get some admin stuffs done as well as went round jurong point doing walking. haha! was thinking to do some shopping but there was really nothing that I wanted to shop and what's more, the chicken chop that I had before I enter JP, spoilt my mood. I didn't like the taste at all.

Managed to read finished one chinese novel, Ying Hua Shu Xia De Yue Ding. I didn't really like the style of the author but the content was good. =)

I was out today at Ngee Ann Polytechnic for Redcamp 4. I felt that it was kind of boring. I won't say it was totally boring. The start of the programme was excellent but as the day goes on, everything got so caught up and chaotic.

this is what happened over the past two days.. all right.. I am tired now.. eyes are going to close at anytime.. Goodnight people!

I have been writing my blog for 2 years and 4 months with 450 entries, with an average 16 entries per month. Woah! Not bad eh. =)

Started writing my blog in mid sec 2. I think I really enjoyed writing entries. =) Now that the hecti-ness is gone for the time being (I think), my blog is just such a wonderful tool for me to look back at those days. Seriously, I missed those days! Now my life looked empty and has it is for now!

It is time for me to re-organise my life and get myself productive. I just feel so wrong slacking all day long. For a day or two, I feel that it was nice but for daySSS, I just feel so wrong! My body just feel so energy-less though it is filled with energy. Please give me things to do!!!!

Right now, the only thing that I have to do is to clear my table, my study area and arrange my stuffs. and that's all! ROAR! Sounds boring right, been repeating what I have said last entry!

I am badly burnt from yesterday games. I mean really badly burnt. I was under the Sun for 6 hours. My toning is very obivous! You can see socks on my feet even if I am not wearing one. =( Ya. that's how obvious the toning is.

Nothing much for today other than spoiling my house's kettle! hehe! I was boiling the water and I forgot about it until my brother came to talk to me. That was like 1 h 30 min later. The bottom of the kettle is totally black! =/

Miami Heat, it is time to wake up. Even since the new season of NBA started, Miami has been very drowsy. They have only win a match so far. My goodness! Come on Miami Heat!

I am feeling kind of empty now. You know, it is like in the past I have things to do every second. But now, I am like packing my books which is like A LOT, eat, sleep, do some reading and use computer ONLY other than netball. I am not really used to this. I kind of missed those days where every seconds i am on the move, on the go. haha!

Anyone wanna hire me?????

Graduation Day is over. It was kind of fun. =) Thank you Mr Bambang and Mrs Chua for making this event possible! I think I spent a bomb for this grad. day. I spent around $160 (on 4 items). Thanks Dad and Mum!

i am amazed with who actually read my blog. emmmm..

Thanks MUM! I love you!

Things don't seem to be going smooth. Things are kind of bad I guessed. Maybe I was paranoid. Maybe I was at fault. Maybe things are simply bad. It has been quite sometime since I last really cried.

anyway, I cried last night. And this is what people call cry to sleep. I don't know what you are thinking the moment you are reading what you have just read. Afterall, I am a human.

There are really a lot of things in my head. Some of it, I gave up. I can't be bothered with it anymore. It is pointless to help people who give up on themselves. Some of the things that are in my head really bother me a lot as well. Maybe this is life. Maybe I need to go through something before I get something. but at times, it is not easy to hang on in the storms.

how should I go on from here?

Weehee! I am damn happy right now!

Guess what? Singapore won the bid to host World Netball Championships(WNC) 2011. Weehee! Singapore is getting more lively, isn't it? Formula 1 Car Racing in September 2008, and now, WNC in 2011! Waha! Can't wait to watch the upcoming events held in my own country!

However, however... I need to save up money first. =_= I am estimating the cost of tickets for WNC to be around 500 dollars for the days of round robin till final.

Let's hope that Singapore will also win the bid for Youth Olympic that will be held in 2010.

Go Singapore!

I am sorry, Mum. I know you want to give me the best but I just simply can't make up my mind.

Thanks, Mum. I really appreciate what you have done.

Blogging has become more and more popular among us. There are actually really a lot of blogs going around. There also a lot of websites tat provide the service for us. Let's take a look at some of the available website that we can tune to if any of you are looking for a space in the internet to write your feelings and daily events.

Myspace
Taiwan Yahoo
Blogger
LiveJournal
Xanga
Friendster.com
Wretch.cc
Freeweb.com
Geocities.com
weblogs.com
Wordpress.com
Blogstudio.com

i think there are many more but I shall just list a few. How many of which have you tried using? How do you find them? Do they provide excellent service?

Personnelly, I have used blog at friendster, blogger and taiwan yahoo. Currently using here, blogger. I find that friendster is for beginner and for people who just want to have a feel of what blogging is like. Their layouts are simple yet provide sufficient structures for you. I think blogger is for more advance users. I remembered 2 years back when I tried using blogger, I was totally lost. I couldn't figure out how to use the website at all. Recently, there is the new form of template that is available. I found that it was way too difficult for me to figure out how to use. It took me quite sometime to learn how to use it. I think that once you learn how to use blogger, you will love it. As for Taiwan Yahoo, I am still figuring out how to use it. haha!

Blog of course come with blogs' tool. There are one thousand and one websites that provide blogs' tools which include, tagboard, blog skin, counters and etc. There are really a lot of tools and accesories. I think these tools actaully help to make our blogs look more vibrant and more lively. Some special features that I liked very much are poll board, clock and counters. I liked the poll board the most. I find that it helps me to "investigate" certain issues. hahaha! I am just kidding. poll board actually provide a wonderful opportunity for the readers to interact with you other then through tagboard.

Interesting huh? blogging involve so many websites and so many things.. =D

I can't wait. I can't wait. What exactly am I waiting for? I can't wait for things to move on. You know what's the feeling like when you feel like doing something but you are worried about something else? That feeling doesn't feel good!

I think for the past two days, I was kind of productivity. I did 4 Physics Paper 1 and 3 Chemistry Paper 1. not bad huh? hehe..

What's wrong with world again? sickening!

I liked Annette's 7th Nov's entry. It reflected how I feel.

It is really up you-juniors to play the game. At the end of the day, it is you who will be holding on to the certificate that reflect your performance in the team. You will be the one having the CCA grade.

This is what most people are expecting me to wear on 15th Nov- dress without heels. hahaha! It sounds a little bit funny to me. The reasons they gave are they have yet seen me in dress and if I wear heels I will be "too tall". hahaha!

This morning workout was great! However, I was unable to do certain exercise due to the injury. but nonetheless, it was still great! I spent one hour in the gym at Bukit Gombak Sports Hall. The conclusion that I got after the one hour workout is I need to go gym more often to regain my stamina and muscle strength. =_+

Back at home in the noon was pure slacking. haha! Only manage to get something done not long ago. Tried some MCQs (Chemistry). I realised that some facts have escaped from my brain. I need to read the textbook again. =_+

Recently found these 2 songs and I think they are quite nice.
着火 by Tai Ji and 5566
世界最美的风景 by 5566

I like this video too.



That's all for now.. =)

My shoes have pronouced dead. I mean my training shoes. I can't wear it on wet weather or else one of my foot will be soaked in water. The friction is totally gone. The material that covers the sole is worn-out.

I want to buy new training shoes! but...... I do not have the money at the moment..

Anyone wanna hire me? hehe..

Netball in the morning was fun. We ran, jumped, landed like old women! hahaha! My runs weren't very smooth. My landing didn't look right. My passes weren't very strong. The accuracy was fine though. My body was kind of stiff. I think it is time to recover what was lost during a month.

Anyone interested for jogs in the evening and/or morning?

That's about all for today.. =)

Today is Day 1 of part-time holiday.. Went out with (Tan) Li Ling and her sister, Li Zhen. Li Zhen is damn cute. haha! The three of us went Vivo city. We actually planned to looked for clothing for Graduation Lunch but in the end we walked around to look for the candies' shop. We bought nothing except candies.

Afterwhich, went for netball. Finally! However, I was a little bit disappointed. I didn't really like the way some people asked questions. maybe it my problem.. the number of people present for the training was disappointing.

Reached home at 7.30pm. I was a little bit demoralised by what my mother said. I don't like the way she tells me things. I felt that she is not supportive. I wondered if things are really that bad. I wondered why can't she just tell the problems that my brothers have into their faces.

I feel that something is not right.. *sigh*

I am finally back.. Ya.. finally..

The very first question from everyone, How's O? Honestly, my answer is like that lo.

Next, what are you going to wear for Graduation Lunch? Seriously, I have no idea. Really! I realised that I don't really to buy clothes. hahaha. Whether I am going to wear dress or skirt with blouse, I have no idea. Maybe pants and blouse. ha! Wearing heels? No idea. Maybe, maybe not.

When will I be done and have "freedom"? 13th Nov will be the offcial date. But, for now I can play a bit already.

The above questions are the most commonly asked questions. and ya..

During this period of examinations, a lot of things went past my mind. I mean a lot. I was thinking about netball. ah theee.. Well, obviously, there are a lot of netball matters. Sometimes I feel that I am trying my best to help people but it is so difficult when people don't help themselves. Sometimes, I really feel like letting out all my fustration but I know it is not going to help. What else can I do? I asked myself this. You may ask why am I bothering so much. I will tell you that this is where I was born therefore I want to make it better.

How can I keep the team keep going? Is this going to end? I hope not. But what can I do to make sure that things run smoothly? Feeling a bit loss in there. Calling someone over, will there be loads of changes? Will the team grow? or something that we don't wish will happen? I don't know.

and well.. I did thought about the future. this is complicated! I thought of what is my career going to be like.. but for now, I have yet get myself an answer. I did do some reflection as well. Seriously, I would like to say sorry to some people for whatever I have done.

During this examination period, I came across some ridiculous people as well. When I met those people, the feeling was seriously sucky. Shall not elaborate much on it..

Though there are *toot* people, there are very helpful people as well. Thanks for being there when I need you. I met encouraging teachers. I met supportive friends. Thanks!

I think these are the things that I came across during these few weeks.. =)

NBA new season has started. Miami don't look well. =_= Spurs looks good. =). Lakers.. eh.. looks not too bad. Derek Fisher is back at Lakers. =) Kobe Bryant and Derek Fisher should be putting up a good show, I hope.

My whole body is damn "itch". I can't wait to have things to do. haha. Anyone wants to go swimming? I feel like going for laps to master the skills. =) I want to go for runs! I can't wait to go for rounds at the hill near my house. I don't feel really right without sports. haha! People call me if there is any sports activities going on.. ya..? hehe..

I am feeling kind of bored right now.

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Red Sports.
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A strong feeling hit me. All of a sudden, felt that life is actually so short. It is probably 80 years long? If I am lucky, maybe 90 years. In reality how much time have I wasted? A lot actually! Now I am 16 years old. I am probably left with 64 years or so to go?

I was planning about my life the other day and this 64 years cannot actually allow myself to complete everything that I want to do. What's more this is just an estimation. I may just live shorter than I am expecting. Isn't it time to treasure things? Isn't it time to trasure time? Isn't it time to treasure chances?

Although I have lived for 16 years, I have already regretted before. I regret for not grabbing on to the oportunities that I am given. And I know time cannot travel back into the past. I think I need to shake myself and wake myself up. Stop wasting time. I should be doing what I should be doing.

自信心好想再次受到糟蹋似的。我的周围好像空空荡荡似的.

Yesterday, a friend sent me a sms and that sms made me reflect on myself.

I asked myself. What's my value? Is my value really that low? My effort is wasted? Am I on the wrong track..? I kind of lost the confident in me again.

What am I asking for to get at the end of the day?

Who's out there?

to those whom i own you things.. sorry.. I will get them done asap..

watched Mr Fighting for the 4th time. Tears rolled down as I watched the show. I was truly touched by the show. wanted to post the 20 episodes but when i posted it my whole blog sort of paralaysed.

our graduation afternoon's theme is summer elegance.

时间飞逝的还真快。在不知不觉，漫长的四年就这样结束了。若你问我对于这四年，我有何感想

我想就算你再给我再多的时间，我说也说不完。因为老实说，在这四年里，太多太多事情发生了。有好有坏。有喜有怒。我想对那些我成接触过的人，说声谢谢。没有你们，就没有今日的我。



在那么多人当中，我有两个我想特别感谢的人。她们分别是亲爱的王丽玲与王老师(Ms Wang)。



亲爱的丽玲：

还记得我我们如何认识的吗？哈哈！如今回头看，还觉得我们认识的方式还订得别的。还真的“不他不相识”。哈哈！

i was searching for something in the afternoon. I was looking through a conversation history with one of my friends. I was amazed by what we actually chatted in msn. I was surprised that we actually know each other for so long already. emmm.. hahaha..

My brother and I are engrossed in Mr Fighting(格斗天王). I watched the final episode for the 3rd time last night. I find that this is one of the classic. =)

All right, shall settle down and open up my books. Everyone, all the best!

thanks

Jogged 4km. SHOIK! =)

everything will fine, right?

time is going at a really fast rate. It has been a week since i last updated my blog. Here's something to share. I was out on Wed evening to play at Guilin View as it was Mid Autumn Festival. Enjoy the pictures.
Guilin View
Another view of it.
With our lanterns.

out star. look a bit weird right..?
another picture of it.
US!
our circles.
our creation.

Other then was out on wed, through the week, was at home doing homework. I was only out on Fri again to meet up with Marianne. I was kind of affected by her on Friday. It was like both of us have similar problems. Somehow, I reflected on my life and got kind of agitated.

Sometimes, I just don't understand what are parents thinking. They tend to answer the questions they ask us. *sigh*..

Nowadays, for some reasons which I don't know, when I ask people some questions, they will reply something like, "oh you don't know?" "hey, you don't know ah?" "you mean you don't know?" Obviously, I don't know the answer to my questions that's why I ask you. -_-'''

Below, here are some pictures taken during 5 nations. Love Singapore! =)

Closing Ceremony.
I love her split!
Opening Ceremony.

Reality is cruel. Now, I know what it means. Sometime, things may look easy but when you are going to face it, it is a different story. Probably, this is life. oh well.

In life, I believe that all of us would like to be successful. What's your definition of success? How do you define it? I think it is kind of easy to define successful for yourselves. How bout the definition for you loved ones? Why not try asking how people define success for you? I can assure you that you will be upset and surprised by the answers.

望子成龙，盼女成风，天下父母一条心。



为人父母者，手中都握有两种“武器”，一种是赞美与打气，一种是批评与打击。



那些愿意而又喜欢和孩子一起成长的父母，理所当然的选择前者，他们把赞美化成鲜花的种子处处撒，让孩子在百花绽放的美好环境里学习。

I was cutting a cake into pieces just now and a thought hit me. "Are we constantly posioning ourselves, especially when you are cutting something?"

Let's see. When you use a knife for some time, due to friction the knife become blunt. This means that atoms come out of the knife. Where did the metal land on? High chances it landed on our food. Aren't we posioning ourselves? em..

Right now, the hottest topics among my classmates is where to go for the first three months and is Jurong JC better than Pioneer JC or vice versa? Well, I have no answer for any of the questions.

I would like to recommend a TV drama, Last Breakthrough. It is about a team of doctors and nurses saving lifes in different ways. I feel that the show is meaningful and I am touched by the show. Catch this show at Channel 8, 7pm at every weekend.

another week has passed. oh well..

last interhouse games for sec 4 wil be held next tuesday. time passes really fast. 16 more days left to be in hillgrove. i just had my last school assembly session, singing the school song for the last time. i felt sad. i think hillgrove has always been my 2nd home and honestly, i spend more time in school than i do at home. oh well..

to everyone out there, always bring along your personal items with you wherever you go. I was reading an article reporting about how one's credit card was misused when the card did not "really" went missing. it is kind of scary to know that such things happened.

nothing will happen, please...

Thanks teachers!

Thanks peeps! Thanks for your encouragement! I really appreciate it! =)

Something is wrong with my brain. I feel as though my brain experienced brain concussion. My head hurts but it is not the pain that you experience when you have headache. =.*

Damn it! It is truly disappointing. WTH! A number that does not worth much! seriously.

damn irritated with it.. grr..

Tagged by Wei Yang

List out your top 5 birthday presents that you wish for:
1] 天天开心
2] 天天健康
3] Mountain Bike
4] Netball Shoe
5] My dream come true

Answer the following questions:
PS dont have the questions for 1 to 11. HAHAS!

12] How you think people around you feel about you?
serious? fierce? smart? (what do u think?)

13] The character/s you love yourself are?
outgoing

14] On the contrary,the characters you hate yourself are?
too straightforward

15] The most ideal person you want to be is?
me, myself

16] Pass this quiz to 10 persons:
[1]Marianne
[2]Qiao ting
[3]Regina
[4] Annette
[5] Ain
[6]Ai Ping
[7] Li Ling(Ong)
[8] Isabel
[9] Shi Yun
[10] Pei Chun

Questions(continued)
17] Who is no.6 having relationship with?
I am not too sure if I am right..

18] Is no.9 a male or female?
female

19] If no7 and no.10 are together,will it be a good thing?
I don't think so

20] How about no8 and no5?
i think something must have went wrong..

21] What is no2 studying?
same as me, I think

22] When was the last time you had a chat with no3?
A few weeks back

23] What kind of music band does no8 like?
weird bands? haha

24] Does no.1 have any siblings?
yup, one brother

25] Will you woo no3?
no

26] Is no4 single?
don't think so.

27] Whats the surname of no5?
no idea

28] Whats the hobby of no4?
netball.

29] Do you think no5 and no9 get along well?
they do not know each other

30] Where is no2 studying?
Bukit Batok Sec

31] Talk something casually about no.1?
She loves JM!

32] Have you try developing feelings for no8?
no..

33] Where does no9 live at?
gombak

34] What color does no4 like?
no idea.. oops!

35] Are no5 and no1 best friends?
don't think so, ok.. no

36] Does no7 like no2?
no.

37] How do you get to know no2?
she's my primary school's classmate

38] Does no.1 have any pets?
yup, 2 cats

39] Is no7 the sexiest person in the world?
hahaha! yes? no?

Today is Monday. Prelim results are released, some I mean. well.. I would say so far things aren't really good. Just the papers. 3 Cs and a A. oh well..

When I received my chinese papers, I thought I wasn't a Chinese. The result is bad.

Don't ask me what happened. Honestly, I have no idea. Whatever.

Anyway, Li Ling, thanks!

心情总算好一点了。我不会说是因为问题已经解决。应该说我把生活步伐放慢了一点吧。

今天想向大家推荐一部偶像剧（很难得的吧？哈哈）
这部偶像剧是由５５６６主演的格斗天王。本身会推荐这部偶像剧的主要原因是我觉得这部偶像剧让我从新认识人生。这部剧集，我百看不厌。现在它正在优频道播映。（注意英奇名言喔）（丽玲，不要再笑我了喔！）

I think it is a waste for McLaren. Although I am a Ferrari fan, I think it is really a pity for McLaren. Somehow I feel that the remaining 4 races are going to be kind of boring and dry as the competitive atmosphere dies off. For more details of what's going on in the Formula 1 car racing, you may view it through the link to the official website at my "connections".

Singapore won the 5 Nations Cup! All the best to Singapore in their World Netball Championship (WNC)! WNC will be held in Nov at Australia. In the round robin, Singapore will be playing against Jamica, Fiji and Cooks Island. For more information, click here.

Prelim has come to an end. This marks the coming of another challenge. oh well.. Jia YOU!

I am proud of myself.. I got whatever I wanna do, done!

How's this skin..? bad, average, good?

click here to view another piece of my work.. how is it? nice, fair, horrible?

Feeling down again..

Weiyang, sorry!

for the past day, at times, an acute pain attack my hand. it hurts till the extand that i can't grab things.

my brain is way too small to contain so much things! ARGH!!! there are are way too many things going on! AH!

the lost one......

ok, let me speak in singlish..

i am damn sian over stuffs.. things piles up and sinks. wth.. it is damn stupid..

我对自己感到很失落，有时会觉得反感。有时还蛮痛恨自己。我对自己失去了自信心。总觉得身边的人不对劲。有时还会害怕身边的人。对生活感到有种恐惧感，有时会对生活感到绝望。生命好像不存在似的。

此时此刻，很想与某人聊天。（不是你脑海里正在想的人）但我不知道他现在的所在地。

An ultra random survey!

1.What is your best friend's Mom's name?
- I have no idea.. haha!

2.What body part do you hate?
- I LOVE MYSELF!

3.Who was the hottest teacher you ever had?
- Mrs James.. I guess.. wahaha!

4.What body part do you wash first?
- hands

5.Do you have any piercings?
- yes, I do

6.Where?
- my ears!

7.What is your bf/gf's middle name?
- not at the moment

8.Is your driveway steep?
- no

9.What's your favorite flavored Pringles?
- original

10.Have you ever been tied up?
- yes, i guess.. i am not too sure.. haha

11.What was the worst thing you ever got grounded for?
- no idea..

12.First offence at school?
- not that i can remember.

13.Have you ever had two dates in one night?
- no.

14.How many times have you been cursed at?
- not that i know of.

15.Which shoe do you put on first?
- left

16.How old are you?
- 16 years and 3 months and 4 days

17.Have you ever been to a gay bar?
- no.

18.Have you ever had any friends juz for benefits?
- no

19.Is there one thing all of your friends have had in common?
- no.. everyone is different..

20.Did you French kiss before you were 18?
- no.

21.Have you ever been cow-tipping or snipe-hunting?
- no

22.Who is the last person you usually think about before you fall asleep?
- depends on mood and whatever happened during the day.

23.Have you ever had a song written about you?
- yes.

24.If you had to choose to not ever wash your bed sheets again or not wash your bath towel ever again, which would you choose?
- none. i cant stand both! haha!

25.Have you ever found anything in your parents' bedroom that was kinda 18+ stuff?
- not that i remember.. haha

26.What was your childhood nickname?
- crybaby

27.When is the last time you played the guitar?
- i do not know how to play guitar. =_+

28.Have you ever peeked opposite sexes in the locker room?
- no.

脑里，老是有些无论我如何思考，答案好像有点怪得问题。

这些问题经常把我压得我透不过气。我知道若不去想这些问题就不会觉得有压迫感。 但我总觉得，不解决那些问题，会感到很不舒服。

唉！

Somtimes I wondered.. who are the people visiting my blog? On average, I have about 10 visitors each day. However, more often than not, I have only 1 or less visitor tagging. haha! I know it isn't my readers' fault. Because I, myself hardly tag too. hehe! But, i do hope if right now, you are reading this entry. do tag, ok? let me know that you have visited my blog, ok? thanks. =)

Feeling low right now.



Things have gone wrong? I don't think so. I think the old HM is back. The one that I detested. Or maybe she is not back. Really, I don't know. Maybe, the world just isn't going the way it should orbit.



I was demoralised with netball. There's nothing pushing me to train for it. 面对着某些人，对他们的行为，我是彻底的失望。时不时，还完完全全不愿见到他们，见到他们就令我反感。



我把每句话，每样东西，看得太重了吗？有时，真的很讨厌某些人的言行举止。

Looking back at things.. I pondered..
Going so far in life.. has everything gone well?
Has I lived well?
is it still all right to carry on in life?

in the the present, i asked..
am i doing what i should be doing?
what exactly should i be doing?
have i lost my way?

predicting the future, i thought..
who is out there?
what do i want to have at the end of the day?
what is there to push me on?

has my life been going well?
is my life doing well?
will my life be all right?
how do i rate my life?

All right.. let me update some netball news.. 5 Nations is round the corner! The battle between the 5 nations will start on monday @ Toa Payoh Sports Hall. The first match for this championship will be between Singapore and Canada. The finals will be held next Saturday Click here for more details..

And today is Teachers' Day. The other day while I was talking to one of my teachers. I realised something and I find that it is quite true. Actually, all days that are dedicated specially for whatever event are kind of useless. Be it Teachers' Day, Mother's Day or Father's Day. If you were to show your gratitude to people around you, you should be doing it everyday and not wait till that particular day that was said to be dedicate to the people that you would like to show gratitude to. If you really think about this, you may realise most of the time when you thank someone on the day that is dedicated to her/him, you are actually doing for the sake of the day and not because you really want to show appreciation. But well, i am saying this not because I am trying to wash your brains or whatever, just sharing my point of views.. =)

Anyway, Hillgrove Netball Team had a mini celebration for our beloved teachers and coach.. Enjoy the photos..

Madam Siti got sabotaged. HAHA! and she tried to "share" her cream with Jowena..

ok.. now that you know the other side of Madam Siti! LOL!
Me and Mdm Teh..

Yesterday, after the celebrations in school, went back to my primary school. emm.. was a little bit disappointed. Not many of my ex-classmates came back. Well, can't blame them. Most of us are in the mids of our prelims.. so ya..

The classroom that i used to study. I love this classroom!
Pei Chun and I.
Ainah, me, Pei Chun..

Times flies. It has been 4 years since I graduated! My goodness! and yet, it seems like i just graduted yesterday.. oh well.. and seriously, I miss my beloved classmates..

Oh yes, Subway is @ West Mall now! I am kind of excited over it. Out of all the fastfood restaurants in Singapore, I love Subway and Mos Burger the most. and most of the time i get to eat subway at only Toa Payoh. ya! and Converse (West Mall's Branch) is having renovation sale.

All right, that's all for now. Gonna complete the bio homework. -_-'''

Take exams and learn life values..

考华文时，看到一偏让我思考的文章。想一想，我自己也犯了这个错。

It has been an eventful week. I am happy about what happened. I am relief with what happened. I am sad with what happened.

All right.. Let me start off with monday.. Not much of things that happened.. As I said earlier on, I missed the 3rd ASEAN School Netball Championship but the juniors went for the match. I am envious of them! lol.. Oh well.. in the finals.. Singapore played against Malaysia. Malaysia won with the score 50-35. Thailand came in third and Brunei came in fourth. Keep going, Singapore!

Then came Tuesday.. well, it is the last time that I was down for Netball. It is really time to settle down and open my books. It is really sad not to be able to train and play with the juniors. I really hope that they can continue to strive and do their best for the team! =)

Okay, Wednesday arrived. It is one of the most memorable day for me. Well.. Early in the morning, I got a surprise.. but wasn't really shocked by it. Somehow.. I think I guessed it.. Anyway, I have graduated from NPCC! It is really nice to see everyone once again. And my wish is fulfiled! Thanks everyone! Enjoy the photos.. there will be more coming up.. =)

Guess what, before we are officially step down from NPCC, we had a "drill test" -_-''' Well, obviously most of us didn't perform up to standard.. lol.. oh well.. haha

Thank you very much to all those who made these POP possible. >And oh yes.. EVERYTHING IS SETTLED! =) letting everything out! lol..

Thursday was disastrous.. My class was kind of messed up by some spactic people. We shifted to the Seminar Room. Yesterday night was kind of a "busy" night for me.. Had a mountain of homework.

oh yes, last night Singapore's Netball coach and players were on ESPN. Damn it! I didn't manage to catch them on TV. I was way too tired to stay awake to watch them in the evening

As for today... Although the classroom has been cleaned up yesterday, we used the seminar room anyway. I think the classroom has a smell. I really want to thank the cleaners for helping us to clean up our classroom. Your effort is appreciated. =)

Practically slacked throughout the day. The only thing that I enjoyed today was the biology remedial! haha! Atikah and I were practically playing throughout the whole remedial without getting Ms Wang's scolding! wahahaha!

And tomorrow is going to be Saturday! And you know what, I am left with 42 days in Hillgrove Secondary School.. Time travelled past us. oh well..