There's a million and one feelings circling in me.

I decided to cut off all form of communication with you and you. I know this is the only way to get things over and done with.

Well, it is very obvious. It's just so black and white.

All right, since this is what you have expected. The expectation was just too high too be met. Afterall, we didn't have a common goal.

Reality is just so cruel but I just got to cope with it. This is life afterall. I got to expect nothing less than this.

I have no idea where has the passion disappeared to, neither do I know why I am still going to the court. Netball is no longer enjoyable. Probably it is at a much higher level. Maybe not.

I just hate myself for being so last minute. Trying and hoping that everything will turn out well when I want to get things done at the very last minute. I had better change this habit!

Seriously, I have no idea what on earth is it going on between the few of us. Things are turning sour like it had never before. I truly hope to clear any misunderstanding and solve all problems between us.

Have I chosen the right path?