How should I feel now?? How much more news can I handle..? I don't know...
News is coming after one another.. handling all by myself is not an easy task.. Wanna find someone to share but it seem like no one is there to share to.. All news are both good and bad.. I don't know if I should feel happy or sad for the people who gave me the news.. I really don't know..
From the poll I setup, people seem to feel that I am not a good buddy, friend, etc.. Probably that's why I received these news..
I really feel hopeless in things around me.. school, netball, life.. Nothing seem to go right..Just like today's training.. it was to bad that I never feel so hopeless in the team before.. juniors there are so NOT enthu.. Just doing the passes can kill the seniors.. they NEVER look where they throwing to.. I really hope to see more enthu people in netball.. before I quit HGV's netball.. School.. Life is just horrible.. many people think that since I score 1st in class why I am still feeling hopeless towards school.. in school, there isn't just study.. there many other things.. but these things I am just feeling hopeless in them.. Life.. IT JUST SUCKS.. Hate life more than ever.. But I sometimes do still that I am lucky.. However, most of time.. I just simply hate life.. Months and months of torture.. what's the point of living when we are suffering? It would be good that we just die, right? Haiz..
Life oh life.. . . . . . . . . . . (and probably this pict can tell how I feel now)
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