Laughter? Smiles? All these are so impossible for mi to have them..

One after another one..

I think it is time to take up lesser things ba.. I found out what's the problem with me.. I got to admit that I am really very greedy. Somethings are not really what I want but I take up because I am jealous and greedy.. How can I kill this greediness in me?

I should learn how to be not so jealous easily.. or I am going to get myself into deep troubles.. Haiz.. Why am I like this?? WHY?? How to change?? HOW??

Been quite upset over this.. and also very stressed up due to my greediness.. I can't blame anyone but myself.. I am like a refugee in school.. kept running whenever I see some teachers that I don't wanna meet.. I am afraid of their scolding and nagging..

I don't what happened. I am like getting too over-sensitive with things and people.. I mean really. I sensitive till the extend that if someone change the tone of what he/she is saying I will start thinking of things.. People who know me well enough will know what I will think..

I seriously don't want to go to school at all.. It such a scary place.. A place full of nightmare..

Anyway, I really want to thank this very good friend of mine.. Thanks for listening to me whenever I need you.. Thanks lots.. At the same time I am kind of upset with one of my close friend. I wanted to talk her so much but she refused to listen and don't even bother to talk to me..

Haiz.. all I can say is.. I really DON'T KNOW WHO AM I NOW!!