I really want to shut my ears and close my eyes.. so that I can no need to hear and see the painful world till the world is beautiful.....

What i expected kind of come true.. =(

=(=(=( I am really under great pressure now.. If these were to go on, I am really afraid that I can't that it anymore and will collapse.. I really don't wish to see that.. REALLY REALLY Don't Wish to see that...

What will happen if I didn't say out anything? Will the outcome still be the same?? I really wonder what will happen.. But at least I know what's the result.. AT LEAST! ya.. but I really really . . . . . . . . breakdown...

If someone ever ask me, what will I do if the nightmare carry ons.. My answer will be.. THE END! If someone ask me, since I am afraid, then why did I do so.. Because at least I know now that I have wasted 19 months of my life..

I can find no word to describe what I feel now.. I can only say.. to me LIFE = NO LIFE now..

My heart is Xin Ru Dao Ge (a sword cut open my heart)

. . . . . . . . . .(to: you-know-who-you are.. I think its time, that everything between us is over.. Nothing will remain the same..)