Today shall write a long and proper entry.. Though now is tired after self-trg.. but nt as tired as yesterday.. :)

Seriosly, sorry all readers for the improper entry for the past 2 days.. Past 2 days i was really very tired that I have not much energy left to write a blog.. especially yesterday.. Yesterday was my 1st time playing GA for half a game.. I was surprise that I can survive for so long..cos my stamina SUCKS!! I wanted to play GS so much but Ms Koh and Mdm Chan don't allow.. I played GA quite horribly..especially last quatar..but I understood more about GA.. (still nt enough though).. During last quater.. I was very fustrated cos I can't put in any balls at all..The last ball I shot.. I screamed.. Yesterday we can actually win.. I believe we can win.. 1st quater we draw.. 5, 5 but don't what happened.. after 2nd quater, the score differ by 9.. GRRR end of match differ by 21.. :( This should not happened yesterday.. SORRY EVERYONE!!

Before I continue my entry.. Sorry Val, but I hope you understand why am I doing so.. Cos I want you to play tomorrow.. I don't understand why you seem not willing to play.. I want you to get experience.. Hope u understand..

Today was kind of hyper in school but was kind of fierce as well.. haha! Last night slept very very early.. 1st time in 2006 slept before 10pm with homework finished.. that's a miracle.. but someone called to my hp twice.. I have no idea who this person is.. cos I was so tired that I was unable to hear the vibration.. Sorry.. Whoever called.. please call me again tonight before 11 if there's any important..

Sorry Shu Qin, I know I am damn bad to let you do the printing alone.. SORRY!!

In school, can be awake for all lessons but not Social Studies.. Haiz.. I wonder when can I 1 day in school don't feel tired..?? But I love Mrs Chua lesson.. NICE LESSONS!! :):) Just now had self-trg from 3-6pm.. Played all sort of position just now cos not enough ppl..

I thik that's all for today.. Btw, to those who actually people playing bball this Sat, the game is cancelled.. Sorry.. :(

Any short entry today.. sorry readers.. I m just too tired to write a long entry..

-We could have won.. GRR :'(
-Score: 10 VS 31.. :( COuld have put in more.. its all my fault.. Today is really my fault!! :(
-Sorry everyone..
-Missed NPCC trg today.. (cos of tournament) Heard that they chose ppl for the speech day le..
-Last of all.. Sorry KaiLIng..

THat's all for the time being.. SORRY EVERYONE!!

Shall write a short entry today.. Now very tired le.. Need to have LOTS of rest..

-went to watch I Not Stupid 2
-cried while watching
-a very nice show
-LOVE THE SHOW, Highly Recommended
-Today's school: BORING!!
-Dying of boredom
-NPCC trg..didn't practice much.. most of time playing bball
-Now need to go rest le.. BYE

PLEASE WIN TMR MATCH!! THAT IS MY ONLY REQUEST FOR ALL HGV NETBALLERS!!!

This current skin.. just to replace the CNY skin for the time being.. I thik that the CNY skin not niecly done.. Doing another skin now..

Today's match.. HORRIBLE!! HORRENDOUS!! HOPELESS!! HORRIGIBLE!! Lost.. 1 VS 52!! oh my god!! partly is my fault.. could have score another 4.. haiz.. Oppo team gt a very irritating person.. I hated her... haiz.. but nvm.. whatever is done cant be undone.. :(

Ok.. continue to write more later at night.. I need to go n bath now and go WATCH MOviE!!! WEEHEE!! :)

Feeling very sian now.. so decided to write a entry.. Here's a entry to vent my saddness.. :(

Just went to Pei Yun birthday.. on the way home.. saw many couples.. they are so lucky to have someone to care for them love them.. I may still young for BGR at the moment.. but there is something that I am very envy of all the couples..that is they ARE COUPLES.. When one of them is sad, someone is there to cheer he/she up.. when he/she is happy, there is someone to share the happiness with..

Haiz... recently someone very unhappy with me.. haiz.. No one can help me.. No one can understand how i feel.. There is no one that I can share my saddness with... (not that I want to complain my saddness out, but at least someone is there to cheer me up without listening)

Cos of the CCAs clashed.. Many many things happened..
1st: I got someone into lots of trouble
2nd: "fought" with a teacher
3rd:Unhappiness with a teacher got deeper
4th: someone got me into deeper trouble
5th:Someone become very unhappy with me.. thinking that its ALL my fault
6th:I am "controlled" in one way or another
7th: Misunderstand with 2 people got deeper
8th:I hate this kind of life..

Just because of a matter, so many things happened.. haiz.. I am hoping that days after new year could be better.. but things seem to be not like what I want.. :( I seriously feel like crying out so much now.. But who can lend mi a shoulder to lend on?? Haiz.. I want my life to be like before last year Aug.. life then were PERFECT!! I miss that life..

Life oh life.. what's life? Am I fated to such life for long term? Why??!!?? Can I have a better life..? PleaSE!!

What can I say?? These few days.. MANY MANY things are happening.. But first of all

To Marianne: Sorry, other then sorry, I really don't what to say.. Once again sorry..

On Fri, had a super tiring day.. What happened was..In the afternoon, had a geog project meeting with the Senoko people.. they said that we were on the right track at the moment.. :) BUt there are many things that we can improve on.. :) Hopefully all our effort will not be wasted..

To NPCC people: PLEASE UNDERSTAND why I didn't go for training(s) or LATE for trainings.. It is my fault for getting involve in things that are clashing with NPCC trainings.. But I hope that you people can understand..

Now I have a problem persuading my father to let me go to a camp in M'sia.. :( I want to go M'sia alot.. Cos I have never been to M'sia before, or rather I shall say I have never go out of Singapore before.. I have been to Sentosa TWICE only.. Haiz.. My father thinks that M'sia is a very dangerous place cos there are Singaporean who went to M'sia and they went missing there before.. so it is very dangerous for me to go as well.. haiz..

Before I end this entry.. To Pei Yun: Happy Birthday!!

To: you-know-who-you-are

Please, please, please tell me what you want? Wanted to talk out things with you but you do not seem to bother, listen or care.. Now that I make a desicion, you seem unhappy with it.. So what exactly you 1 mi to do? can tell mi?? I do not wish to see any war(s).. I am really very stress up with the problems already.. Things are getting better when all of a sudden you drop me a bomb.. I mind what you think, what you feel.. If I have did something that you think is not right, can we just talk things out.. come out with a solution.. PLeaSE PLEase PleASE.. I do not want to see any black face anymore.. not that you don't have the right to show black face.. but before you do so, can we have things talk out? I was really upset when I saw the face you gave me yesterday.. Any unhappiness, please say it out can???

OK, I'm bck! haha

Just now my uncle and his family came.. Had chatting.. makan, play WEB-game.. haha

OK.. just now went to read some of my friends blog.. most of them seem so sad so troubled.. Specially one of them, named Jeremy..(view his blog through my link) In his blog, he worte till very vey sad.. Some other stories, some are somehow similar to my situations in the past.. There are also blogs that are writing something happy.. Like Aiping...

I WANT TO GO WATCH I NOT STUPID 2!! WHO WANT TO GO??

and before I forget.. HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

These few days the New Year.. ok lo.. haha.. nothing much to say about it.. Practically doing the same things lik last year.. other than this year went out later thn the past few year.. cos my bros n I.. ALL OVER SLEPT! HAHA!!

After visits come home, DO HOMEWORK!! oh ya.. on the 1st day of new year.. I was shock to receive some "weird" sms.. got someone EARLY IN THE MORNING, 7+ i thik..sms mi ask mi geog test stuffs.. aiyo.. thik too much!! haha.. thn on 2nd day..

Now go serve guests 1st.. l ater than continue! :)

Thanks to all the people who are concern about me.. I am much much better now.. Thanks lots..

Today temp wasn't as high as yesterday le.. mostly between 37-38.5

MADE A NEW SKIN TODAY!! DO rAte.. :) Rating: 10.. :) I made this specially for New year.. :) Hope You guys like it.. :)

Now need to rest le.. before the temp shoot back again.. -.-

now having fever..39.3.. ytd night alr from 38.1 lower to 35.9, 36.2..but in the morning shoot back..now is damn cold!! GEEERRRR!!ytd.. after recess go home le.. cos was having serious headache n hav slight fever..

Anyone has any method that can get rid of fever?? I tried eating pandanol, see doct, have ices on my forehead, keep drinking water.. All these method dun work.. haiz.. if any of you have any methods please kindly tag at the tagboard.. THANKS!!!!

Real tire now..Till the extent that can hardly open my eyes.. Today played against Unity Sec.. Result 13VS 42.. though lost but still quite satisfy with the result.. at 3rd quater scored 6.. :P

Nowadays the sch SUCKS.. I HATE THE LIFE.. IT IS SO DAMN HORRIBLE!! I really wonder am I really going to continue this life forever?? if it is so.. seriously.. I rather dun go to school..Seriouly hate school now.. HATE!!!

Everyday just wish to have school ends early but it seem SO IMPOSSIBLE!! GRRRRR! Haizz.. but what to do?? no choice..

Ok, need to go and do some stuffs and have a rest cos my back can tahan for long le..

Feeling so bored now.. haiz.. BEEN DOING HOMEWORK FOR THE WHOLE DAY!!

Now still doing Eng, but seriously dun noe how to do it!! GRR!! Sian sia.. haiz.. Tomorrow need to go back to sch again.. Nowadays HATE SCHOOL MORE THAN I HATE ANYTHING!! but wat to do?? haiz..

Ok.. better go back finish Eng n go SLEEP!!!!

After all arguement and unhappiness.. I got "settled" down and played the first match yesterday.. as in a complete match.. Score.. 46 VS 4.. we lose.. :( I am not really happy with the style I played.. Especially last quater.. it SUCKS!!

Mistakes: Passes got problem, shooting in the last quater was horrible, rebounces.. HAIZ!! all these I SHOULD NOT COMMIT!! Tomorrow I MUST NOT COMMIT THEM AGAIN!!! So "old" already still can have all this mistakes!! GRRR!

When CIP after the match, so damn tiring! Went to Chinese Garden MRT station to do collection.. NOt bad la.. cos there only Calista and me.. :>Finish at 3pm with the tin 3/4 quater full.. (= By then, was really tiring but at night there is still another event..

The whole team (almost the whole team) together with our DEAREST coach KAILING.. We went out for dinner together.. Initially, we can't decide where to go for dinner.. Decision: GO TOWN!! Had lots of fun on the MRT..

THanks lots to Kailing for treating us the dessert.. THANKS!!

Reached home at 11.15pm.. GOSH.. break my previous record.. the other time the lastest I reach home was 10+ only.. haha..

Ok, need go and RUSH homework already.. still have, chem, chinese, eng haven't do yet.. GRR

Solution was given to me this morning.. I HATED THE SOLUTION.. It is a solution that has no solution.. All i can say is the RED DEVIL is controlling me.. I HATE IT!!

After which, I APPEAL!! HMPH!

Final solution: In the next few weeks, go for Netball.. after which then shall see.. but mostly if we get into 2nd round.. I can't play.. WHAT THE HELL IS THIS?? However, I insist in quitting NPCC if anymore unhappiness.. Ya.. and that will be it if anymore unhappiness.. M!

Things are settled for the time being.. haiz.. future? haiz.. Wonder what will happened.. All I can say is I was stupid for joining NPCC.. I should not have joined in the first place.. but its all too late.. THERE'S NOTHING I CAN DO NOW.. haiz...

This is the 100th entries.. But it is very sad and angry entry..

Since yesterday I had this question in my mind... Netball? NPCC? I can only choose 1 now.. Both had crashed together.. I have no idea what to choose..

Netball is my life.. I am only happy when I have Netball.. In another words, I need Netball to survive.. I may not be needed in the team now cos there is still Marianne.. but I play for the sake of my passion..

NPCC is... I have no idea what is it to me.. But I feel stress when I go for the trainings.. At the same time, I would say NPCC do let me learnt something.. And NPCC was what made me to be close with people in Netball.. I go NPCC cos they have some duties for me.. I would not say they need me but rather I need to be grateful for what NPCC gave me..

It is only now that I have scarifice either 1.. After the tournament, I can have both.. but I was force to scarifice 1 of them now.. Why is that so..? Must the situation be so cruel to me that I HAVE TO SCARIFICE either 1?? Why can't just the NPCC be more understanding and give me a way out..?? Why is it so difficult?? Whatever the rest learn during training, I can learnt after school on other days.. and Why is NPCC blaming me for things that I have done it correctly??

WHY?!?!?!?!?!

Ok, had the first match of the year today.. VS Regent.. None of us won or lost at the moment.. COS THE MATCH IS POSTPONE!!!!!! to this sat.. 8.30am to 9.30am.. damn it.. morning I can't play properly de.. GRRR!! Nvm.. shall still try my best if I am on court...

On the bus, we are kind of mad.. haha.. Ya.. all of us were telling all kind of jokes.. haha..

To Marianne: Hope you get well soon, we need you..
To all HGV Netballers: Take care, try your best not to get sick..

Everyone in HGV Netball Team.. Must play our best, ok? JIA YOU!!


NETBALL ROCKS!!

Just come back from Chinatown.. :)

These 2 days been doing lots of shopping.. Yesterday went to some Pasung Malan and to some shops that sell clothing.. today went to Jurong West which is full of CNY's stuffs and Chinatown :):) Ate alot today!! haha.. gonna get pump soon... GRR!! haha..LOVE THE FOOD IN CHINATOWN!! heehee..

Ok.. that's all for the time being.. VERY TIRED now.. :( haha

OH MY GOD!! WHAT IS HAPPENING TO ME?? WHY IS MY SHOOTING SO HORRIBLE!!

Today after school, once again had netball training..Started off with jogging for 20min (think so).. followed by courtwork.. The seniors were teaching the juniors.. Juniors arh.. Quite good.. there are many potential players..

Other than teaching the juniors.. we also practice down the court as well.. MY SHOOTING SUCKS!!haiz.. It was worse than yesterday.. GRR!! Anyway.. I FINALLY KNOW HOW TO DO DODGES!!! Dodges may seem to be an simple action.. but for a long time no matter how I dodge I can't get rid of the defender.. HMPH! But luckily.. today my dodges improved.. can get rid sometimes.. (better than none, like the past..)

I am so tired today.. But worth it.. :) Ok, gonna go rest already.. Need to have a good rest.. =P hehe..

Finally have time to write my blog le.. feeew..haha

Been busy solving problems.. and got very pissed off these few days.. Ytd.. what I expected happened.. CCAs crashed and end up NPCC people not happy with me.. I REALLY HOPE THAT YOU GUYS CAN UNDERSTAND!!! anyway, after the tournament.. I CAN HAVE BOTH CCAs ALR!! :):):>:>

Yesterday, we also know who are down for the tournament alr.. I don't really like the combination.. MY SHOOTING SUCKS!! Gosh!! Tournament round the corner still like this.. GRR!! But seriously.. I am like.. 2 weeks DIDN'T do any shooting AT ALL.. wa piang!! haiz.. Must practice!!

tt's all for the time being.. need to go rest liao.. tmr still have trg + sch..

Had a "long ride" today.. haha.. Ya, had a long MRT ride to Tampines Mall just to get the Eng tb n wb.. spent 2 hrs on the MRT.. grr.. Anyway, Christine and I bought the last 2 tb in the whole Singapore.. (as in the last 2 in popular of the shopping center)

Today's lessons: boooooorrringgg!! Dying of boredom!! Please help me!!

Nowadays been very busy.. Last year a week can write about 4 to 6 entries, now only 3 so you guys can roughly imagine how busy I am nowadays!!!

Went to help out in the sec 1 orientation camp on fri and came back today.. The new sec 1 are kind of pampered.. and quite a no. of them don't respect and listen to their seniors.. haiz.. I scream at them until I got sore throat last night.. By the way, I found a guy name Dragon!! He can shout very loudly.. REALLY VERY LOUDLY!!

The camp.. ok la.. AT LEAST they got camp.. my year no camp.. nothing.. after my batch then have camp.. GRRR.. haha..

Today, I actually wanted to sleep till 6am but the sec 1 were making so much noise that woke me up at 5am.. They can sleep, don't want to sleep.. In late morning, had cca open house.. This year I didn't really bother to go and ask people to join unless those I think they are potential people when I saw them play captain ball yesterday..

At the same time also receive bad news.. NETBALL IS ON WED!! GRRRRRRRRRRRR!! I AM GOING TO DIE!! NPCC IS ALSO ON WED!! What should I do now? I really don't know.. even the person who normally has lots of ideas that can help me also "brain dead" already.. As in, the problem is so serious that no solution to it.. haiz.. :( I am going to get scolding or nagging for an hour next week.. HELP ME!!!!!!!!! I don't want to get nagging nor scolding!!!

Anyone who think they can help me please tag your suggestion at the tagboard.. THANKS!!

Yesterday I was too busy to come online.. Yesterday first day of school, yet I am so busy.. :(

All I can say is the year started off badly!! Out of all bio classes, only my class Ms Wang teach.. grr.. For other subjects.. during lessons the atmosphere is damn tense!! Haiz.. Hopefully we can get noisy abit as the year goes.. :)

Today, CCA started today.. NPCC was kind of boring today.. Nothing much..

Shall update more some other day.. need go and rest already.. :)

Here's my very first entry for 2006 :)

2006 is going to be a very challenging year!! Cos, I am taking up new subject.. have dreams to fulfil(wonder if I can fulfil it!!??)and lots of new things to come by.. I had made some resolutions, promises and aims..

1.Must brush up my languages!!
2.Be in my fullest in all netball training to produce the best result!
3.Learn to have higher level of tolerance
4.Work hard at all times to produce good result (academic)
5.Be a national player (can I do it??)
6.SAVE UP MONEY, by Dec at least have $50 saving!!
7.Try to balance everything
8.Try to spend as much time as I could with my family
9.Hope that HGV Netball can continue after Marianne's batch step-down
10.Last of all, my Netball career can continue FOREVER!!

3 hours 32 min to 2006!! WOO!!

Times flies.. 2005 had come to an end and 2006 is going to start within a few hours!!

Many things happened this year..

In Jan, I continued my netball career.. I played the very first game for hillgrove..(against YCSS) :) It was also my first game after one and a half year break.. However, I was unable to start the year properly cos of my sprained ankle..

As the tournament started in early Feb, I played as a sub-GS.. When the tournament ended, I was kind of sad with what I had done and how I performed during the games..

March-ONE OF THE UNFORGETTABLE MONTH!! After the tournament, we had some more games to go.. WE WON OUR FIRST MATCH OF THE YEAR!! It was against Fuchun Sec.. The whole Netball team were over the moon!! During March holidays, I went for a Science camp at Sentosa.. It was my very first time going to Sentosa!! After 3 years of keeping my hair, I cut it to very short.. till the extend that I don't have to tie it up.. End of March, all of a sudden Marianne and I got very very close.. All thanks to that someone.. haha.. :)

April, MANY PEOPLE LEFT.. I no longer see them as often as I use to be.. Especially that someone.. Marianne and I got closer than ever!!

Anything for May?? I don't think so.. haha.. other than doing badly for MYE..

MOST UNFORGETTABLE MONTH OF THE YEAR- JUNE
Had a very special birthday... THANKS MARIANNE AND VAL!! On birthday, after the celebration.. I had NPCC annual camp.. that someone gave mi a "surprise".. The annual camp was kind of like an unforgettable camp.. :) Had a CSSP camp in the middle of holiday.. not really nice, not really bad too.. :)

Started off July with ATC(it's a NPCC camp).. It was fun and tiring.. :) I had it at Pulau Ubin.. Nights there were sleepless.. and started this blog.. :)

Aug!! Life has never worst than this!! Many many many things happened.. Luckily.. there are still things to brighten up the month.. I had my very first carnival after entering hillgrove.. I also had won the very first game that I played for Hillgrove!! :)

A surprising month: SEPTEMBER.. Had the best camp of the year.. NACLI CAMP!! and my shoulder FINALLY GOT SOMETHING!! Waited for the rank for 2 YRS!! and a fellow.. gave me a real shock!! haha.. the fellow told me something that I didn't expect to hear it.. However, as the month was about to end.. I was in a very very pissed mood....

First time got so distracted in exams.. what happened in Aug and Sept made me very distracted throughout the whole month, October!! I didn't produce very good result for EOY.. haiz.. I made my very 1 own blogskin too.. :)

HOLIDAYS!!I was hoping that since it is holidays I got have peace and enjoy November.. BUt things didn't turn out like what I expected.. There are lots of obstacles!! Anyway, I had a busy november after I joined the Geog group..

Last month of the year!! December started off quite good.. had quite a no. of gatherings with diff ppl.. :) But there are STILL people "interrupting" my life.. Made my 2nd blogskin!!(current) :)

Overall.. Not really a good nor a bad one.. learnt alot of things, met alot of people.. had lots of unexpected experience.. :)

Once again need to write a short entry cos I am kinf of tire now..

all i 1 2 say today is.. STOP CONTROLLING MY LIFE!!! I had enough!!

Why so many people want to control my life.. later part of this year got 1 devil tried to control me.. now another one.. If u dun noe who u r.. u r 543!! STOP CONTROLLING LIFE..! ENOUGH IS ENOUGH!!

Yesterday was really tired after the game..Play basketball yesterday..

Before going for the game.. morning went to for the councilors meeting.. Next year my class is at the 2nd level!! same block as this yr.. wee!! The sec 1 and 2 are at the blocks behind.. pity them..

In the afternoon.. met up with Marianne before going to Bukit Gombak MRT station to wait for the rest..ALL LATE 20 MIN!!! haha.. their punctuality is horrible..!

The game starts!! We only had 9 people.. so it was 5 against 4.. At firat played full-court.. WA! CAN KILL ME MAN!! cos my team everytime score already then if didn't go in..the other team got the rebounce they will pass to their court quickly..and we had a hard time defending.. so they changed to half court.. after half hour.. 7 out of 9 people.. all can't really take it already.. HAHA!! our stamina was so horrible.. Oppo team their 3-pointer all were very accurate.. there is no time for us to defend at all.. GRR!!

After a rest, we had 2 against 3, 3 against 3, 4 against 3.. at the last game they came out with this rule by the oppo team.. we score 1 they down pumpings.. HAHA!! continuously I shot in 3 3-points.. After which, got 1 of them said if I shot in 1 more he will down 50.. AnD I DID IT!! Yesterday was a bad day for them..haha..

I need to go and prepare for NPCC already.. later got test.. haha.. bb :)

Shall write a very short entry.. I am too tired to write a long one..

Thanks Shawn for the gift..
Thanks Marianne for the peanuts and organize the game..
THanks to all the 8 people who played today.. Nice game..
Sorry to 3 of them for being so cruel..

That's all.. I am too tired to write somemore.. I go sleep already.. anything call at 7am!! Thanks

WEnt for Netball self-training in the morning.. Nothing much.. I practiced my defence more than my shooting.. haha.. shooting so horrible still practice defence.. haha.. got reason de.. cos tmr my job is defence.. shooting will leave it to marianne.. :)

Found better ways to defend opponent.. :) not exactly better ways but rather know more about defence.. haha.. After self-training, went to retrieve books from the bookshop.. But the bookshop was telling me that I didn't pay the money.. WAT THE!! Made me go find Mr Thiru to settle the prob.. GRRR!

By then, Marianne and I realise that some of the netballers, we have not contact them to tell them to pay for the jerseys tmr.. N tried for an hour before getting their no. ...

At home.. played like mad.. haha.. and had a nice nap!! :) Long time didn't had such a nice nap.. :) Ok, now studying for thurs (cos tmr not free. :P) bye..

VALERIE, U WIN!!!
u can be so last min sia!

Nvm.. :) These 2 days finally can use comp for about half a day.. :) Yesterday spent 1 FULL HR adjusting my blog.. Today actually wanted to go for chalet.. but my mum dun allow.. :( Stayed at home doing Chinese homework.. FINALLY FINISH!! spent a week doing!!

Also looked at other people blogskin.. cos I feel lik doing 1 chocolate blogskin but have no inspiration.. Now still have not got any inspiration.. haiz.. shall look at more tmr.. :)

That's all for the time being.. need to go n slp alr cos tmr got netball practice.. :):):)

Ok.. got a new blog skin.. :) 2nd blogskin for myself.. hehe.. Netball again.. :P

I don't know why.. i find it kind of weird.. I wonder how you guys' opinion.. feel free to tag your opinion about this new skin.. this skin took me lots of time.. I spend it mainly doing the "pict"... That's was the most difficult part of this blog.. I had a hard time learning how to combine symbols and letters to form these pictures.. I spent a week learning and doing.. Was kind of fun.. I got the idea from one of the blogskin I found in blogskins.com.. Click here to view..

I am still finding a better way to do the netball.. hopefully it can be done by tmr.. :)
Gtg.. bye..

Been very bothered this few days..

Shocks, pressure, stress, sadness.. Who can understand me TOTALLY now?? I believe that no one can understand me totally.. Cos even myself can't understand myself totally..

I am someone who does things according to my interest.. but it seem that in life this is impossible.. I read one of my friends blog before..

Here's what she wrote..
Passion we can pursue but only for a short span of our lives. Take for example, a student has a passion in playing soccer. He can play that sports well all the way till he finishes his academic path, after which he has to give up soccer for that passion can never be his career. The only consolation is that he can be a coach, but still he must be a certified coach. He can still play soccer but only for leisure. Career is still another area he has to pursue for that matter of fact. Of course those in arts get a bit better, they can pursue but again, only if they have the financial stability.

That's very true.. isn't it?

Since I am still young now, can I pursue my passion my interest? I hate to go against my passion and interest.. The feeling of doing something that I don't like is horrible..

(the next paragraph may offend someone but that's what I feel)
I have lost my interest in NPCC.. can I have sometime to find back my interest in it? or else it will be meaningless going for it right?? It maybe selfish of me for asking for a break now.. but isn't it selfish of you (you know who you are) to ask me to do something that I don't like? Since I have something more important to do now.. why can't I just concentrate on it?

I admit that I am trying to run away from some stuffs.. but by running away, I can concentrate on something else..

Like my blog address: Trying to have my dreams on.. I believe that everyone know what my dreams are.. For those who don't know..I want to pursue Netball's highest level: Be a national player.. I am not sure if I can make it.. but I need a chance to try out.. why can't you people just give me the chance??

Haiz.. nvm.. let time decide EVERYTHING.. Hopefully, time will give me the right things..

By the way.. MY SONY ERICSON IS BACK.. WEE!! :):) must really thanks my father.. He took 2 days to repair it..

To all readers: MERRY CHRISTMAS!!

Changed my blog skin to blogger's skin..

Now dun really have an idea what kind of blog skin I should have so put this..

For the past few days.. stayed at home.. cos been going out too much recently..

Went to do Netball jersey and t-shirt today.. Sorry Xiu Ying.. We won't do it again.. :)
Spent 2HRS in the shop!! haha.. Each of us need to pay $52 for the jersey + tee... I no $$ le!! :'( Worse still my hp spoilt too!! WAT THE.. nvm.. using my mumn's phone now.. haiz.. nvm... Just now when come back from Queenstown Shopping Center, the bus 61 was kind of a crazy bus.. sit until wanna vomit sia..

Ok.. tt's all for the time being gotta go polish my boots for tmr liao.. haha. bye..

Emm.. went swimming yesterday.. not much imrpovement.. swam alone.. Haiz.. nvm..

Today? Morning.. watched NBA.. LAL VS WSH.. Finally saw Lakers won a match.. not that they don't win often.. just that all the matches that I watched they don't win..
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Sometimes, I wonder..
Is it true that the higher once goes, the lonelier he/she will be??
Why do people and things come and go? Left behind loneliness
Why can't they stay forever??

Is this what you call life??
If this is so, I rather choose not to be born.. Haiz..

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Am I asking for too much??
Why can't things go my way?
Why are there so many and things blocking my way??
Can't I just be successful in one of the aspects that I want to be succeed?

Many people around me has gotten what they want.. but not me... or just that I din know that I have got it? Which is true?

CAN SOMEONE TELL ME???

Li Ling.. PLEASE EAT BREAKFAST BEFORE YOU GO FOR RUNS IN THE MORNING!! PLEASE!!

Went for runs and jog in the morning.. Started with 100m race.. The run was horrible.. 17.97sec!! 2 sec slower thn my best!! THAT'S ALOT!! and continue with jogging..

After running for 3 rounds, I can't find Li Ling.. When I was about to continue to complete my 4th round.. saw her very pale at the seats.. She called me over.. and she told me she felt dizzy..

Thanks to the auntie who helped her..

Jogging was so horrible.. 3 rounds 10min!!! WAT THE!! Must train harder!! can;t let this happen again..

Reach home, like ran for 7-10 round.. was damn tired!! Haiz.. My stamina MUST improve... I MUST TRAIN hard!!

Been super long didn't update my blog..

Last thursday went to sch to have self trg.. Kind of fun.. We(me, Marianne, Shi Yun, Val) had bonding session.. haha.. all so close liao.. haha

Fri..went out with mum to buy clothing but end up buying shoes.. HAHA!! Since then.. till today only then I can use comp.. cos my bro.. :(

My Sat and Sun was kind of bored.. pratically slept for 2 full days.. heehee =P

Mon WAS FUN!! WEEHEE!! Went ECP with HGSS Netball Team.. Had lots of fun..

Here are some of the pict..











Sorry for getting some of you irritated..


I am real tan now.. :) skin color more balance already.. :)

As for yesterday..went for geog meeting..We had a hard time searching for books.. End up when we found the books.. they can't be borrowed.. GRRR!! Nvm, shall use internet.. haha.. "absorbed" more sunshine yesterday.. Had a nice time playing bball with Calistal, Joyce and Val..

Today? Did HGV weather studies project blog.. HAD LOTS OF PROB!!! Now still not perfect yet..Will be doing somemore later or tmr.. Anyway, thanks to the person who helped me in the afternoon.. Thanks.. :>

Ok..shall stop here for the time being.. update more some other time.. :)

I had all the feelings today.. Angry, disappointed, sad, happy, feeling sorry and feeling sian

Was feeling real sian for in the morning.. Nothing to do at all other than homework.. haiz.. nvm.. So went to sleep.. At 5, my mum woke me up and ask me to go out to buy stuffs.. I was kind of angry here.. Cos I was sian enough already yet still want me go do window shopping.. but still went out.. To my surprise, she got me goggles and watch.. THANKS MUM.. LOVE YOU!!! MUACKZ! LOVE THE GOGGLES AnD WATCH!! =)=)=)=D

On the out, Christine called.. sorry.. I din know about the matter that you told me just now.. sorry..

On the way home, smsed Marianne and Val regarding some netball stuffs.. sorry for changing the time.. cos I don't wanna continue stay under sorching sun..

Night was when where I was sad and disappointed... People who know me will know what can get me down so easily..

Now in sad, disappointed and sian mood.. :( haiz..

New month started but thing don't seem to go well.. *sob*

Finally free now to write a long entry.. :) For days didn't really hav the time to write a long entry cos been kinda busy...

Went Sentosa on Sat.. Have lots of fun there.. :) I long time didn't go to beach and play already.. LOVE THE BEACH!! the sand is real nice.. :) :) It is really a pity for those who didn't go or couldn't make it.. Hope to see you guys soon!! :):) Can't wait for the next gethering before 2006.. :) Though we long time didn't see each other but we are just like before, having fun as a class.. LOVE 6A'03!! YOU GUYS RAWKZ!!!

To 6A'03 and whoever want to go: Mrs James' husband is putting up a drama at her church.. on 18th Dec.. it is open to the public.. whoever is interesting.. just leave your name at the tagboard.. :)

Today's netball training.. Kind of bad for me.. Right knee is seriously injured.. most probably going to see a doctor by next week.. And today's training SuPER TIRING!! Run, run, run.. We did lots of running today.. Tried out "new" position today.. haha

After training, went to collect the geog's project data.. long time didn't touch the data thingy.. Forget everything.. HAHAHA!!! Just got them downloaded and left them alone.. =P.. Went to Mc to meet up with the rest to discuss about the project title.. But the discussion had no conclusion.. *-* Wil be meeting them again on 13th Dec..

ok.. tt's all for the time being.. not really long but much longer than the past few entries.. haha..

Ok, shall write a short 1..

A big thanks to the 12 of you for such a wonderful day at Sentosa on Sat..

LOVE 6A'03 AND SENTOSA!!!

To all Nacli's westerners: BBQ at East Coast Park, 15, 16 Dec... 10.30am meet at BB MRT Station.. bring $3 along.. Hope to see you guys soon.. :)

Now is writing blog in pain.. My right knee is in great pain.. especially when I bend it...

Today's training..not bad.. still ok.. but I need to improve on my shoot.. out of 10 scored onli 2... That's HORRIBLE!! Must work hard on my shooting!! M!

Ok.. I that's all for the time being.. will update more tmr.. :)

Been bothered with Monday's stuffs so didn't have the mood to update my blog yesterday...

Yesterday, whole day stayed at home thinking through some stuffs.. Kinda sad.. :(

Nevermind.. At least, something brighten me up today.. :) Went to Ms Ou's house today and had fun with this year's classmates... Feeling much better now..

Today is the last day of November.. Looking back.. Overall still not bad.. Beginning of the month, life was smooth.. but as the month goes.. life got slightly bad.. But I am glad that these bad experiences made me learnt some lessons.. :)

Tomorrow will be a new month and it is also the last month of the year.. hopefully things will be better.. :)

I seriously wanna cry.. I din noe tt i am so horrible... played so badly today.. I have no idea.. why yesterday when running feel like vomitting and dizzy.. nvm.. today went back to sch for trg at 9+.. but was seriously not feeling well.. haiz.. nvm.. but still completed today's trg..

Started off with jogging outside the sch.. this reminded me of the other time went jogging with the NPCC's ppl.. Though tiring but.............................. :)

Carry on with passes and drills.... I did the drill until almost vomit sia.. then is like we all so tiring that we cant catch the balls properly.. :(

Last of all.. down the court.. I AM SO HORRIBLE!! instead of improve.. i DEPROVE!!! *CRY OUT LOUD*..

Haiz.. nvm.. shall try harder this thurs..

Today quitesian but love yesterday!!

Yesterday went to Kallangto watch Netball matches.. Went with some PJCplayers.. cos i still dun really know the way.. Surprisingly, when reach there.. met their coach.. their coach was jurong coach as well.. to me..I HATE HIS SCREAMING!! When I was pri sch, BVPS played aginst jurong pri in a carnival.. the coach kept on screaming n screaming.. so irritating sia.. haha

But not in game.. can c tt he dun scream much.. At Kallang, met Kailing.. she was there to meet her friend.. Something interesting happened yesterday.. There was a match, RP vs VJC.. yesterday rained for awhile.. so the floor was very slippery.. the RP's GA split!!! GOSH!! again.. the other time while HGV was playing against.. Westwood's GK performed a split.. haha.. I thik these 2 players are qualified ballerina.. haha.. after performing the spilt, it seem nothing to thm..!! VJC has a very gd GA.. her shooting was fantastic!! her runs were good too..

Ok.. that's all for the time being.. now.. i go jogging liao.. ltr thn update my blog again.. :)

Finally got myself new clothing.. haha.. I abt 1 yr didn't get any new clothing for myself alr.. I bought a blue t-shirt from bossini.. love the shirt.. I love the design!!

At the same time, got myself a new shoe bag.. Been using the shoe bag that my sec sch gave me but everytime ned to squeeze real hard to get my shoes into the bag..haha.. I bought from Hang Ten.. Love the design but not the color(black and red)...haiz.. but nvm.. got a bigger shoe bag can liao.. :)

My pri sch tcher asked me smth when I was chatting wif her at msn today.. she asked would I recommend her students to go to Hillgrove(HGV).. I said yes for those students who scored between 240-200.. I don't really know what kind of school is HGV.. To me, it is a school that made me learn lots of thing.. I liked how to fight to succeed.. how to get up from falls.. n more experiences.. and get to meet lots of ppl.. every new person i met, they gave mi differnent experience.. HGV 1st cohort of o and n level had did extremely well.. so is this an evidence to prove that HGV is a good sch or what? I don't know.. my sch's cca still not bad.. but compared to some schs that are of the same age as us lik Fuhua.. we are not that great..

To the teacher: every kid have diff needs.. I can't garauntee that if any of ur students enter HGV will be how.. but if the kids have their determination.. no matter wat sch they enter.. they will succeed in life.. :)

I think today shall stop here.. just now do the maths assignment until very tiring.. the paper was kind of confusing cos.. the graphs on the paper were very blur.... Did the paper till hav "eyeache" ..haha.. ok bye..

I am back to write blog daily..=)

Gonna write a short one and go and rest.. cos morning went jogging.. very tiring.. I am very unhappy with the timing of my run!!.. :@ 6 rounds, 2.4km..17mins!! HORRIBLE TIMING!! worse still.. there was a break between this 6 rounds yet still 17mins!!

After jogging, while I was going home from the bus interchange, I got a big shock.. I thought I saw Li Ling.. Was like.. I went jogging with her just now.. And I remembered I saw her walking home.. To my relief, was just a "twin" of her.. hahaha...

Went to my grandma house at 10+... go there was very boring.. cos I have three cousins taking their PSLE result today.. so my grandma was very quiet today..

The moment I got home.. I can't stay awake for long.. went to slp at 2+.. What was irritating was.. AGAIN SOMEONE CALL!!! Why I don't sleep, no one call.. When I am in my dreamland, surely got someone call..?? Please don't call so accurately, can?? I thought my phone could be "peace and silent" when I am sleeping after someone no longer calling me.. Haiz...

Ok.. that's all for today.. gotta go rest liao.. PLEASE DO NOT CALL TILL TOMORROW MORNING 9AM!!! PLEASE!!!

I slept very early last night... and had a weird but nice dream... I dreamt of him in malay costume.. the shirt was blue.. and cant remember he wore a pair of trousers or a cloth that goes round the waist.. but anyway either the trousers or the cloth was pink color.. and he was wearing pink color shoes as well.. hahahaha... In the dream, I met him in a MRT Station but I can't remember what MRT Station it was..

At here, I was waken up to go and buy books.. Ya.. I bought my sec 3 books.. The lady who looked at my booklist was giving me that "you sure those crossed out are books I don't want to buy??"look.. cos i crossed out lots of books till the extend that I only need to buy 9 books.. haha..

At home, Sleep, Play comp, wrap the books.. That's all.. haha.. what a boring day..haiz..

I was too lazy to write an entry yesterday..

Yesterday, I was damn pissed off and sad.. All thanks to my mum.. She don't allow me to go to Sentosa cos it is dangerous (dangerous cos of the beach) and I been going out too much.. Grr.. I have only been to Sentosa once.. I wanna go once more.. And most of the time, I was going school.. thn she complain I go out too much.. That's very unfair!! I was so angry and sad.. But who cares.. I am going to go Sentosa.. since I asked my parents to bring me go Sentosa, they don't want then I shall go with my friends despite her naggings.. M!

I may seem to be a stuborn teenage.. but that's me.. I always fight with fate.. haha.. but ya..that's true..

Anyway, going to school in the morning cheered me up.. I told Shu Qin what I dreamt last night.. Here's the dream: A girl from Nan Hua Sec Sch transfer to HGSS.. Her PSLE score was 26+... This girl is as old as me..

When I reached school, I was thinking of transfering out.. BUt thinking through.. this is just a dream.. haha...

Today went to learn how the weather station that is moulded on one of HGSS's building rooftop, works.. The instrutor is a funny kido.. haha.. But seriously, the things he taught were very very CHIM(difficult)!!

Left sch at 1+.. went to makan.. eat roti prata AGAIN!! This whole holi.. go sch, if go out for lunch.. SURELY go and eat roti prata.., eat until very sian liao man!! Nvm, this week, I no longer need to go to sch.. so can aviod eating roti prata.. hahaha..

In the afternoon, when I on my comp...I pity Marianne.. she was my listener yesterday.. Thanks and sorry..

Yesterday, the weather was one of the best weather of the year... For a long time, didn't have such nice weather... Now the weather is still as nice as yesterday..

In the morning, cos of the weather, slept till very late.. as late as 10+... and read Marianne's latest entry.. She wrote a SUPER long entry.. If it was written on foolscape.. I think I wil ned 3 foolscape..

Me go and continue eating liao..haha..

Ok...Long time didn't have a long entry already.. today shall have a long entry.. haha

Ya.. went ECP today.. LOVE ECP!!.. It ROCKS! can't wait to go again..

Long time didn't bike alr.. But luckily still have the skill there..haha.. however the stamina drop.. grr... Anyway thanks Li Ling's parent for treating me to biking.. Thanks LOTS!!! I love biking so much yet my mum gave away my bike when I was in pri sch.. *sob*

LOVE THE SEA!! When we went there, the sea was at high tide.. But there's something irrtating.. I was WEARING SPORTS SHOES!! GRRR... If i take off, later my legs will be full of sands and my socks will be very dirty.. nvm.. if i ever have the chance to go again.. I WILL BRING MY SLIPPERS ALONG!!!!!!!! haha..

Back to yesterday... The open house was seriously pathetic! Less than 25 ppl.. Might as well don't have the open house.. I helped out in the Chinese Department till 12+ thn went to play netball alr.. We had Captain instead of Netball cos not enough ppl.. At the same time, THERE ARE GOING TO HAVE TRAININGS DURING HOLIDAY!!! WOOOOOOOOHOOO!!.. can't wait for it.. Hopefully, the trainings will not be cancelled at the last min...

After "Netball", went to makan.. when finish, MArianne, realised that her Jason Mraz's CD was in school, she was so worried that her CD will be lost..Rushed back to sch quickly..She didn't lost her CD, she was so happy!!

I somehow regretted going back to school yesterday.. GOT NAGGED!!! GGGGGRRRRRRR!!! Y do tchers like to nag at me so much??? Nvm.. haha..

This few days.. I am much more peace than ever.. Handphone rang lesser than before.. I was like since Sept, my HP very busy sia.. surely will ring whenever I am slping.. But I pity Marianne.. cos the person who always called me.. changed target.. called Marianne..
To Marianne: BEWARE!!!! Haha...

Shall write a short one.. cos now very tired liao..

This few days been busy with the geog tuffs and the chinese stuffs... When I came home from school after finishing what I need to do in school for the day, my bro is at home.. so I cant use.. haiz.. nvm..

Today is the HGSS open house... Horrible!! Very few people.. haiz.. And got nagged by Mrs Leong.. grr... nvm.. don't care... haha..

Ok, that's all for the time being... I am real tired now.. Byee..

If any of you wondered why now I am enterning a entry using my home comp.. here's the story(something horrible happened): someone's parent called to sch.. and dun noe tell RED DEVIL wat.. thn RED DEVIL called everyone hu is going for the chalet's parent thn warned thm not to let their child go for the chalet.. and even 1 2 called us ltr at night to make sure tt we r at home.. n if i m not wrg.. she is also going to called to the chalet management to cancelled the chalet.

At night, she indeed called... Luckily I was sleeping if not have to face her nagging.. haha.. Sorry to those who actually going for chalet tomorrow.. It was my mum who told her... haiz.. sorry...

Morning, went jogging with Hui Ting.. to help her to complete her rounds.. After which went to school.. I saw a Maths qn: There are 10 white socks, 8 blue socks, 6 red socks . How many socks must you take off so that absolutely you will have a pair of same color socks?

I have no idea what's the qn means.. for those who read this qn.. can tag the explanation on the board? The ans is 4...

We wanted to start doing the geog project at 9am but Mdm Chan was not free...she told us to go and look for her again at 11am.. Meanwhile, helped Mrs Leong.. She treated me and Li Ling lunch... thanks!.. After helping Mrs Leong, it was 1+ yet i can't find Mdm Chan... haiz.. nvm..

After eating lunch..went to library to find some books with Li Ling and did some research... and went home.. At 6pm I went to slp until just now 11.30pm thn wake up.. haha.. Actually planned to sleep till tmr morning but too hungry to continue slpin..haha..

I am more or less back to my peace mood..

I can't be bothered with what the bitch does... overall..she is just a bitch...

Today, most of the time spent on my reading report.. and finally finish it. Phew! Spent few weeks doing.. FINALLY!!..haha.. at the same time.. went out with Pang Ping(PP) as well... WE went to JP.. Actually wanted to discuss about the Geog project but end up chatting..haha

Went shopping at JP.. Long time didn't enter arcarde le... I want to play the shooting of basketball so much but no $$ :(.. nvm when got money must go play..Went home at 5pm... Took 157 with PP... She went to my house to take disks..

The rest of the day spent on reading report.. till just now when finished then came online..

Wanna go rest le.. tmr morning have to wake up early.. see you guys 3 days later.. cos going for chalet tmr... anyting please kindly call to my handphone.. thanks.. =)

These few days been very busy so didn't have the time to write entry...haha...

Although holiday is here, I still have project to complete...

Wed- Slacked actually...haha...Doing nothing much in the morning and afternoon. It was night where I started to be busy. At night, at around 8pm.. did the holiday homework (part of it only).. After which, did some planning for the blog of the project..as well as the planning for my group topics.. Did all this till night.. and someone called..haha..Chat with this person till midnight..haha..

Thurs-Early in the morning went to school hoping to see him.. but who knows.. today he has no paper.. *sob* For 6 days didn't see him already!!! Haiz.. Nevermind.. the main purpose of going to school is start doing the project...(to know more about what happen, click here).. Halfway through doing the project..Li Ling came.. she came cos she heard the wrong thing and blame me..haha...but whatever... By the way, the appealing result is out.. DAMN IT!! GARY YONG IS COMING TO 3E1!!! NNNNNNNOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!
In the afternoon, went to play netball with Valerie... I was very irritated by the poles.. They were tied together and we can't move it to the court... Anyway, we weren't playing in school.. we played at a netball court near HGSS... We played till 3.45pm.. and went to makan.. not directly.. got rest for awhile before going.. If not will get pump easily!!..haha.. We went to eat Ice Kajang... IT TASTED HORRIBLE!! wasted Val's $$... haiz.. haha.. At night, it was another busy night.. I did a skin for the project...(BUT A BITCH CHANGED IT!!! GO TO HELL MAN THIS BITCH!! WHAT SHE DID TO THE BLOG.. SUCKED!!).. Tell you guys what happen in the next paragraph.. While doing, got a person, keep on sms me.. I got very irritated by this person.. so all this person's message, I either reply "huh?" or "ok".. haha.. Sorry for doing so but I was very irritated... After which, the person called.. I was seriously too tired to chat with this person, I said something that made this person angry... Sorry...

Today(Fri)-a horrible day...
Went to school early.. FINALLY SAW HIM!!! :):):):) Start of the day was quite happy...
I met up with Pang Ping to continue the project... We went to the lab to use comps to find info..At 9, meet up with the rest... And here where, my mood change and feel like killing people!! The bitch told me she not happy with my skin, she wanna change it.. She change it without asking for opinions.. THE SKIN SHE DOES SUCK!! the bitch has no color sense at all.. I DARE TO SAY THAT THE COLOR COMBINATION SUCKS!!! You guys may think I very proud here.. I dare to say that that's a fact... Not only I said that.. others said that too..

BITCHES ARE FOREVER BITCHES!! I WONDER WHY THEY EXIST ON EARTH... THEY ARE ONLY WASTING THE RESOURCES... ALL BITCHES CAN YOU PLEASE GET LOSE AND STOP WASTING THE RESOURCES? ALL BITCHES SUCK!

*sorry for me using valgarities here*

After calling a day for the project..(wanna know what happen today, click here) I went to West Mall with Pang Ping... Before I leave school, Li Ling called... I got a "nightmare" here.. But I LOVE the Nightmare..I hope such nightmare will always happen..haha.. on the way to West Mall.. I chatted with Li Ling through phone.. I finally bought Energy Live Final Fantasy Concert VCD!! I watched the VCD.. LOVE IT!!

Now already midnight...gotta go..

Yesterday, after jogging, was too tired to write a entry... Yesterday 10 rounds record: 23min..with 2 breaks in between.. cos too long didn't run, can't take it la.. haiz.. and did log lifting too.. 20times.. haiz.. bad performance.. must practice more.!!!

A big thank you to Shawn, Marianne and Michelle...Thanks for teaching me how to swim.. Love you guys..haha

Ya..went swimming today with Shawn, Marianne and Michelle... weehee.. FINALLY KNOW HOW TO SWIM!! I know its abit pathetic learning how to swim at this age.. but ya.. They taught me breaststroke.. but I can only swim abit..haha.. I tried freestyle..and just tried and can liao.. haha.. but dun noe how to change breath...haiz.. before learning and trying all this.. must know floating la... and floating.. Shawn tried to help me lots of time.. but I just can't till I used my own method.. haha.. But my method, I don't know how to change breath..haiz.. Must learn more.. M!!

Once again.. Thanks lots to the three girls..

I got very tan now.. and feeling very painful..haha.. but worth it..

So long didn't so happy liao...got gain also got lose.. I hurt my waist and small toe.. My small toe bled.. :(.. waist very painful.. but not sure if got bled.. I know my small toe got bled is cos I saw blood stain at my toe.. but nevermind...

After swimming, went to McDonald near Shawn's and Michelle's house..

Today will be a perfect day if I could see him in school when I went back...haiz..but too bad.. I didn't...

Writing entry late in the night again..haha..cos tmr no need to go school ma.. so tonight can stay as late as I want..haha..

Whole day didn't do much other then watch TV.. In the afternoon watched the final episode of Mr Fighting... Duan Yu Jiao today act until very good!... FANTASTIC!! love the show... How I wish I can be like You Li.. haiz... but nvm...

Seriously.. today other then watching TV.. I did nothing else other then eating.. haha... My bro whole day at home... so I din get the chance to play comp.. till 9pm..

Watching the show.. made me feel so sad... thinking of won't get to see him studying in hillgrove again.. haiz... Wonder if he will come back next year... Even if he come back next year... Most probably, he no longer who I know what he is and who he is now.. haiz... All I can do now is miss him... =(=(=(=(=(=(=(.... Feel like crying out loud...but also no use.. crying will only swollen my eyes... haiz...

Just now after writing the entry... went to settle the trip to sentosa.. this trip is a gathering.. I almost cant go.. but luckily..something impt happen.. haha

Say till this. I am still missing my primary school life... :(
I miss alot of people.. Ms Kiew, Mrs James, 6A'03... They have left a great memories..

Ms Kiew.. she introduced me netball... she taught me the basic of netball... In pri school, my happiest time is playing netball... In pri sch, playing netball has no worries... haiz.. not like now.. :(.. not that it is bad.. but u can see that in pri sch, my team mates.. they loved netball more than anything.. now.. in sec sch.. my team mates.. they don noe how to treasure netball. haiz...

Mrs James... She thought me for 3 years.. p4-p6... Many people may dislike her.. When she taught me in the 1st year.. I use to dislike her.. but after a year.. no longer dislike her... She may be abit violent sometimes... and/or have boring lessons... but she taught well though.. She taught me lots of things.. Not just what I am suppose to learn in lesson, but also life values.. She made me realise alot of things.. My studies improve trendmenously under her teaching.. Many people were wonder.. How I improve my maths...All thanks to this great teacher...

6A'03... they are a bunch of great friends.. though I fought with some of them before...
There is a friend, Ainah, whom I have been same class as her since I was young... She is a very nice girl.. A very good friend at the same time.. Though we are different race, we get along very very well.. I like her spirite the most.. Her spirite is NEVER DIE.. through she is a small size girl.. but her spirite is stronger than anyone...
Another friend that left me a great memories is Gail, I only get to know her better at the end of P5 ... She is a very caring person.. at the same she is also very thoughtful... I use to be a very horrible person who almost everyone hated me... or rather I am stil one now... She still tried to make friend with me and never say no when I asked help from her...
Another great girl who I have no word to describe her.. cos she is too great to be describe.. she is Qing Yun... I know her better though Netball.. her spirite in netball is damn strong..
There are still people who left me great memories like Qiao ting, Regina, Zhen Gan, Audrey, Pei Chun and many more...

I really miss the time with them... Hope can see them soon... MISS YOU GUYS!!!

Yesterday was a great day for me.. got lots of stuffs done..

Went to school to see who is in my class next year.. and guess what? All the Sec 2(this year) express netball players are in my class(3E1) next year.. and in my class only 9 boys.. HAHAHA!! I pity them... At the same time there are about 5 newcomes whom I don't know.. There was a funny name.. Jian Yi.. I have no idea is a boy or a girl!! GOSH!! haiz... haha

After looking at the result... sms li ling the whole class list... We have 36 people in our class next year..

Here's the classlist(not all in order):
Amir, Alvin Darmawan, Andrew, Hui Mui, Charmaine, Qing Fa, Christine, Rochelle, Hui Min, Li Ling,Ong, Li Ling,Tan, Daniel Tan, Shi Yun, Hui Ting, Ling Yun, Zhang Fan, Atika, Syhirah, Tanty, William, Pei Yun, Zhi Ping, Valerie, Shu Qin, Penny, Ren Sen, Cadmon, Deborah, Sandra,
Jia Yin, Stella, Jian Yi, Hui Juan, Isabel, Xin Yi and Wei Rong

When everything is done.. I and Deborah did the windstock and wind vane... and played NETBALL... I shot 50 balls in... not bad.. got slight improvement... but still needs LOTS of improve...

Then went to look for slight bag... I finally got a new slight bag... I been wanting a new slight bag badly... I bought a skyblue and black slight bag... I loved it lots... :):)

I pity Sandra and Deborah... before went to buy bag.. they wanted to leave sch fast so helped me to pick ball. sorry and thanks... When went to buy bag, they followed me from sch went to bukit gombak, thn went to west mall.. they seemed so tired... sorry... At west mall we had our lunch.. I shared abalone ramen with deborah.. When they went home.. I went to Bukit Gombak to look at the bag again.. went to Jurong East to look at other bags.. and I bought my bag at Jurong East... If I have a chance, shall take a photo and scan to here... LOVE THE BAG... haha..

When got home, played comp and watched the new season of NBA.. yesterday was Miami Heat VS Indiana Pacers.. score: 102 VS 105.. Shaq sprained his ankle!!... haiz.. for another 2 to 4 weeks.. Shaq cant play for Heat.. so sad...

Just now I watched Spurs VS Cavaliers before start typing this entry.. score: 102 VS 74...

SPURS ROCKS!! haha..

Yesterday went to school to do the practical on how to be a umpire... I think I did quite badly...Nevermind.. anyway it is my first try.. My mind and soul is totally fill with netball now... I seriously can't be bother with any other things.. Yesterday after the umpire thingy, went to do shooting with Marianne... My ankle was better.. but my shooting was still only ok.. not back to my before standard.. GRRR... damn irritated by it... I seriously need to improve my shooting... I must fulfil my dream.. IT IS A MUST!! Is there anyone who is willing to train Netball with me..?? I wanna train Netball everyday... Yes everyday!!

I came out with my own slogan for netball.. SPRINT! JUMP! FLY!...

Haiz... but all I can do now is still rest at home.. *sob*...GRRR... irritating... This Sunday, maybe shall go for a jog to build stamina.. since my last jog before I went to heal my ankle, I din had a chance to build my stamina.. This Sunday onwards.. must train hard... M!

A new month started... All I wishing is...no more horrible stuffs are looking for me... For the past 3 months, things weren't going right for me...haiz..

Nevermind.. new month, shall have a new start.. :) :) :)

This holiday, still quite free.. not much activities.. Probably this shall be a good time for me to rest and refresh... Ready for the battle next year...

Let's see.. this holiday, other then busy for the open house and NPCC, nothing else liao.. haha...

Anyway, thanks zoey, for the schedule.. :)

I am in a crazy mood now... I drove crazy by lots of stuffs.. Firstly my ankle condition worsen... GRRR...Secondly, my photo editor can't be use... Thirdly, my comp has no Han vision.. Fourth, I can't open any website that has chinese character... Fifth, my comp has no Adobe Photoshop which I wanted so much... Lastly, my comp the area to insert disk is spoilt AGAIN!!

I am very irritated and agitated now.. Grrrrrr..

Once again, got woke up by my mum early in the morning.. However, the moment she left the room I went back to sleep... till 9am then wake up.. haha.. After eating breakfast, went back to sleep again.. (pig right? haha) But the weather was too hot for me to sleep till afternoon or eveing.. Woke up at 12.30pm..

At 1, watched Mr Fighting... Today's espisode... Quite nice.. Very exciting... At the same time, ate lunch.. I had the same food as breakfast.. Roti Prata.. haha..

Finish watching... read storybook.. Kindachi's Mystery... SUPER NICE!! Highly recommended... I am a super fan of Kindachi's Mystery... I watched the cartoon, movie, comic, drama and now STORYBOOKS!! The stories are very nice.. Through the stories for comic, drama and others are about the same..but I just can't help watching them again and again.. haha...Now I am still reading.. gotta try finishing the book tonight..bye...

I ate my breakfast for hours just now... Just simply don't feel like eating...

Went to check the books..see which are the books no need to buy... I found out that Hillgrove is changing the Maths books.. No longer using Explorer Maths... Instead using Shinglee Maths next year... I don't know whether still can use the Chem, Phy and Bio anot.. cause in the book, they said, " for use 2001-2005" I will have to spend lots of money if I were to buy those textbooks.. Grrr... irritating... I am sort of regretting taking Geog next year... I read the History textbook and found out that it is very easy to understand the Hist for Sec 3 & 4... haiz... But whatever is done can't be undone...(stolen this sentence from Marianne..haha)

After looking at the books... rest on the sofa and doze off... after sometime woke up and walk into my bedroom to sleep...haha.. Like sleepwalking.. Slept all the way till 5pm.. Slept until very drowsy... Now still in the drowsy mood...

Wake up and came online again... Play games and chat... Finding out who going 3E1 next year.. and mostly girls...haha.. 3E1 is going to be a les class... HAHAHA!! At the same time also eat my lunch cum dinner... Now after exam.. everyday.. either eat extra meal(s) or eat 2 meals only... haha...

Thinking of 2005 has come to an end.. feeling so sad... I really wish that 2005 can carry on FOREVER!! Haiz..but time has past and can never get it back.. *sob*

Me go do holi's homework liao..

Continue from yesterday post..

Yesterday, after playing basketball with Li Ling, Pei Yun, Fiona and Hui Zhen... I was too tired to write a long entry...

Yesterday... when playing basketball, I fell cos the floor was too slippery and hurt my hip... Grr.. Injured again...haiz.. But who cares... after I hurt my hips I still continue to play.. :P Yesterday basically was me and Fiona playing only... haha.. Fiona her basketball skill.. *Thumbs Up*...Play until 4+ need to go home liao..

When reach home.. something horrible happened...I realise that I lost my keys... AND I HAVE NO IDEA WHEN DID I LOsE THeM!! haizz... How careless can i be??

Yesterday, 10pm went to sleep... LUCKILY I DIDN'T TALK ON PHONE TILL VERY LATE YESTERDAY!! Today early in the morning my mum 7am WOKE ME UP!!!! HENG!!! haha..

Now eating breakfast..haha.. later got time come back and continue... :)

Got back report book le... Most of the things came in 2nd... include some subject , class position and level position... I scored... 7 A1s, 1 A2, 1 B4 and 1 C5... Grrr... By a mark I will get another A1... By another mark I will get another B4... Haiz...

But still quite happy with the result... :)

Today is the last day of school...it is kind of sad...haiz...

Now late in night already.. haha... Now is not cannot sleep then come and blog.. is I just finish doing a poster and in a angry mood...

Just not after finish painting everything, finding my black marker... Can't find it.. Grr..so irritating... Grr... I think just now in the afternoon after finishing up the Netball posters... someone took my marker..haiz..

Say till the Netball posters... The Sec 1 made me change my view of them... I was surprised that some of the sec 1 got the initiative to come and help... Thanks to them, we are able to finish 2 posters in 2hrs.. that's fast!! *Clap hands for the Sec 1*

I am finally able to go to the chalet le.. :)... I must really thanks my father... He went to talk to my mum about it and my mum FINALLY let me go... :) =) :> =>

That's all for today... Me go and sleep liao...

Today, I am seriously in a very pissed off mood.. I am like a Ah Lian today... I got so pissed off man!! By who? Sec 1 and the Chinese project... Ask one of the sec 1 girl come and see me, she disappear again...As for the Chinese project.. Although it is after exams already, we still have CCAs and expect us to finish a project within 2 days... WHAT ON EARTH IS THIS?? Grrr...

After school, got NPCC as usual... I pratically did nothing except do the NPCC noticeboard design cos Mon after play netball, ankle got abit swollen.. Sir Jeremy scolded the sec 1 & 2 upside down.. so sad... haiz... but seriously I watch them do drill, it was horrible...

After training... it was time to go crazy.. we celebrated Val's b-day... Shawn drove all of us crazy... We are suppose to have dinner at West Mall, but West Mall's swendens was too crowded so we have to find another swendens..so went to causeway point and the swendens was not crowded.. Shawn and Marianne ordered Fish & chips... Me and Val was Chicken Baked Rice with French Fries..and gave val a surprise by giving her a ice cream and the stuffs of swendens, together with us sang a Happy Birthday Song... and Marianne and I went to buy something as a present for her.. Last of all, we presented Frozen Mocha to her...

The moment I reach home...I got scream off... My mum scream me off cos I reached home at 10 and she said that she told me to reach home at 9.30 cos SHE WANTS TO GO OUT!!... That's very selfish of her...she even blame me for wasting money to treat others... WA PIANG!! Grr... Humans are so selfish...(you may get offended by this sentence but think back...trust me I can gurantee you have selfish at least once before..)

Super tired now..must rest liao..

Yesterday I was too tired to blog again...cos yesterday after school played Netball..and I hurted my ankle cos I ran too much... If you wonder howshooting also can injured my ankle...Was like on Fri I just went to see doctor and I am suppose to like rest for 1 week or more yet I mon went to Netball... Cos I was serious bored with school life.. I need Netball to make my life abit more interesting..so...ya..haha...This causing me not to have P.E and NPCC tmr..haiz..

Yesterday did SUPER little shooting... and my shooting was HORRIBLE!! I never had such horrible shooting before... OH NO!! I must buck up.. My studies dropped, my Netball can't drop!! Grr!! Tomorrow onwards must work hard!!

Today I was very pissed off..by who? THE SEC 1!! I feel like killing them.. ask them do 2 posters they can give lots of excuses like: I don't know when is my tuition, I don't know whether still have tuition, I am very busy... WA PIANG!! spend 1/2 hr do posters will die is it? Please la...Not like I am not busy..I have project to do as well... Today the Chinese tcher gave us a project to do... Topic for my group was: the history of the chinese characters... and we are suppose to have a draft on Thurs and present on Fri... so to all sec 1, you guys should be free now.. busy? at most busy with your PERSONNEL stuffs... and that can be done during holidays! So don't come and give me anymore LAME excuses!If you guys can't even do 2 posters, you guys can forget about surviving sec 2 life... There is no way you can survive your Sec 2 life...

I went for the interview today for the Weather Studies Project... I seriously have no idea how I can pass the interview cause it was like... I had a bad English.. I spoke.. "quite not bad"..haiz...

During school time, there was a dialodge session with Mdm Subian... I WANT BACK MY SATURDAY CCA DAY!!! I WANT IT BACK!! Having NPCC on weekday is seriously very tiring... I WANT BACK MY SATURDAY CCA DAY!!! PLEASE!!!

Now is already in the middle of the night yet I am not sleeping..haha..cos just now sleep too much le...haha...

I regretted doing something...I been thinking that I treasure everthing around me...but now I realise I am not... I just realise that I have lose "something"... Don't wanna talk much about it before I cried..haiz..

Me go sleep liao...

I chatted on phone till 2.30am this morning..but early in the morning, my mum at 8am woke me up.. After eating my breakfast, I seriously can't keep myself awake so at 9am went back to sleep and slept all the way to till 3pm.. =P...

Thanks to the person who chatted with me "last night"... I thought what this person told me and ya... I really should do what this person told me... As for what this person told me, this person told me LOTS of things...I lazy to type out la.. hehez... Whoever want to know what is it...I think you guys can see my change in a short time and i think you can guess what this person told me already.. :) Hopefully this is a good change...

Just now after woke up...went to eat lunch... emm... I should call it dinner ba... haha.. nvm..and watched Mr Fighting... Today's story average only.. Last week I watched until I cried.. This is the very first drama I watched until I cried.. The story was very touching...

Before I end this entry..
To 6A'03: Regina and Qiao Ting are organizing some gatherings in the coming holidays.. Please tell either of them when you are not free during the holidays and where you guys wanna go... You can guys can e-mail them, go to them blog and tag or tag at my blog... Thanks...

Feeling very bored so came to write another entry..
Whole day either watch tv or play comp...and thinking through some stuffs..

Thinking what is the definition of life...is it a process of suffering? or what is it? Sometimes I seem to be happy with the life I had but sometimes I thinks that I has a horrible life...especially in recent months... ever since August... nothing went right... problems are coming and leaving them unsolve... Is I don't want to face them and solve or are they can't be solve? I heard this sentence before... "since I am the one who created the problem i will have to be the one solving the problem".. but why are all the problems seem to be so hard to solve... One failure after another...How many failures do I need to face before I can succeed? or I am never going to succeed? Si pai shi cheng gong chi mu...it this sentence true??

Looking back.. since August.. life for me has always been hard... After common test, someone throw a spear into my heart and my heart has been bleeding till now..it is still bleeding...Follow by some unhappiness between me and someone... Holiday came, I thought I could have some peace...However, I was unable... Someone gave me a "shock", i really wish that this person has not told me anything and remain as what we were like before... What this person told made me feel......not myself......Coming up, a RED DEVIL tried to control my life... When all of these coming to an end, exams started....Doing horribly and receiving horrible results... Now having new problems again... WHAT ON EARTH IS THIS??? WHEN IS MY PEACE COMING??

I really wish that time can go back to the past... Current life, there are too many people "interrupting" my life... In the past, although there are still problems... I can have a carefree life.. but why now I can't?? WHY?? I wonder why did I choose such a complicated life... Can't I just have a simple and plain life? I know I am complaining this again and again in my blog.. sorry for that.. but I really wish to have a simple and plain life so that I can have carefree life...

Having this complicated life, is i choose de? or is I am fated to such life? or this is already consider simple?? Haiz..

Another thing that was in my mind for the whole day... is what happened on Thur... It made me realise alot of things... I am not sure if I get the right message...but my sixth sense told me that I get the right message... I should forget him and focus on other things... But how can I do so?? HOW?? I have tried all sort of matters that I can think of.. but none works... can anyone suggest some ways to do so..?? I wonder why I am being affected so much by just this 1 person... Why?? He is the first person that affected my life so much... why is he doing so...?? I just don't understand why...( to find out more about who I am talking about...click here)

Haiz..I have no idea what I should do now... Solving the problems? But what is/are the method(s) to solve them? Escape and leave the problems unsolve? but where can I escape to? Forget him? what must I do to forget him? Continue what I am doing now? but it seem so painful and hurtful by doing so..and is it worth it? What should I do?? I really don't know... I am looking for help...but it seem that no one can help me other than myself..haiz... I am so lost now.. I really can't differentiate what is the right and the wrong path now... HOW?????????????

Yesterday after writing the entry..went to heal my ankle... I don't wanna drag anymore...

My ankle got bandage..haha...so today gotta rest at home...

In the morning for don't know what reason, all of a sudden got a urge to play neopets again.. haha... For 1 year din play neopets already.. and the neopets changed alot.. got quite a no. of new stuffs.. at the same time, there are quite a number of games and stuffs "disappaear" from neopets.. sad man...hahaha...

Actually wanted to learn how to play maple...but lazy to go sign up and download the stuffs there so went to play neopets.. through quite childish... but at least I don't feel so stress when playing can liao.. hahaha...

I go back and play liao...

Last night SUPER early went to sleep liao... I slept at 8.30pm yesterday... Early right? that's not the usual me... I slept early is got reason de..

Firstly, my back is very painful..gotta lay down to make it not that painful... Secondly, yesterday don't why play for awhile of netball also get so tired.. haiz... Lastly, by sleeping I won't have to think so much with what happen... I know I am just running away and not facing it but this time I have no idea on Earth how to face.. so just went to sleep lo.. at least it make me feel better.. and I slept all the way 9am then wake up... :P..

Can someone teach me how to live a simple life? I really wish to have a life with just happiness and saddness and painfulness-free...haizz..but it seem so impossible..Did I choose my life to be like this or I am fated to have this kind of life?? ????????

Again another "Sleeping school day"...Basically is I am sleeping throughout the whole day in school.. The first period spent on doing Xi Zi...and slept for 3 periods!! Serious... I really slept for 3 periods.. slept until my nick pain.. haha..

After school, played Netball with Shi Yun, Triya and Michelle... Today's training doing nothing much... did some shooting and played "monkey" for awhile then rest liao... cos my ankle can't take it le...haiz...and also due to another reason: I do not really have the mood to play also... I serious can't be bother with what happen... It is not for me to decide what is going to happen in the future... all I can say is I am just pretending to be laughing away and pretending not to feel anything...Deep in my heart it is actually bleeding...

I don't know whether you are reading my blog anot...but here is what I want to say to you...

I am only pretending, can't you see it? Although I am laughing away and pretending nothing happens...deep in my heart it is bleeding... I have never been so sad before... I am really very sad today...Can't you see what "exactly" I am doing?? Do you know how hurt I was when you did what you do today? I keep on telling myself you are doing that cos you were force to do so or for whatever reason...yet you are treating me like this... If you know anything and you want to say anything... can you say it out? Chang Tong Bu Ru Duan Tong... Please... please don't act blur or pretend you don't know when you know...

Do you know that I took a long time to accept the fact that you are leaving...why did you come back?? Why? I hate the feeling... I HATE IT!!! you are just making me going crazy...Must you make me go through the hard way to forget you?? PLEASE TELL ME!!

Today is simply another sian day.. haiz..

Go to school is either sleeping or stare into blank space...haha :P Although today the school had a show of star wars but my class was being block by some stuffs... the show seem so boring to me...

After school, once again got NPCC...(I noe my blog most of the time is NPCC, no choice la... haha).. Today the training started off with PT... Nice PT... Good thing I got go do some training if not just now surely cant survive... haha.. and got one future CI came and sort of created chaos... HAHAHAHAHAHA...kidding only...haha...this future CI actually came here and so called learn ba I think but end up got chase away...haha...

I rushed the design for the NPCC shirt until this morning 1.30am then sleep...then life in school was so boring...I was feeling so damn sleepy...I totally can't concentrate on the training... end up got said by the IC that me very slack... haiz...

Wanna go and rest liao...byee...

Today basically slacking in school... Either sleep or do some papers corrections...haha... But like this I prefer sleeping at home..haha..

I am getting very irritated by my internet... I can't open any blog.. Not even mine own's... Grr.. I also can't open the navigation for MSN games, not just these...My internet is super slow and sometimes some websites also can't open... haiz...

Today gotta be a short entry...cos need to go and do NPCC's stuffs...

Just came back from jogging... Today had a nice jog... my timing improved :)... From completing 10 took 35 min till just now 10 rounds took 21min.. :) Just now also went to do weight-lifting.. Must improve on my hand strong!! Just now had very poor performance!! Carry the log twenty times canot liao...aiz...hahaha

Today got back home econ result... I am SUPER PLEASE with the result.. I scored 90/100 :):):)..WeeeEEee... Overall- 84/100! I am really very happy with the result.. I thought I would score badly cos that day before having the paper..I totally could not study.. For some reasons I was very stress(can't rmb wat le..hahaha)... After school Ms David reward those people who scored A for home econ with pizza!!...Ms David, Thanks...

Someone gave me a big shock today..haha..

Now got to go and makan liao... continue later...haha :)

Friday was a bad day for me... Nothing went right...

Early in the morning got the first paper, failed by 1 mark which was English... After which was Geog result.. still ok..80/100.. Next paper was where my nightmare comes...Maths Paper... Guess what's the result... 79/100!! MY GOD!! NOT EVEN A 80 MARK!! WHAT ON EARTH AM I DOING?? I scored 5th in class... MY GOD!! MATHS IS MY BEST SUBJECT!! I STILL CAN SCORE UNTIL LIKE THIS!!! My first reaction when I get the result was ..."WOA!!" and followed by crying... cos if my maths score this I can forget able others subjects le..haiz...after the maths paper went for a break..

During recess, I seriously have no mood to do anything at all.. I was real upset with my result..

After recess, got back Science result... surprisingly I score 79/100!! What surprise me was I score as good as Maths.. I thought I would score a 60 or below since my Maths was so horibly done.. Next coming up was Literature paper... I was not looking forward for the result since Ms Chew told me on Tue that she was very disappointed with my paper... Li Ling even come and curse me... I need to get a 46/100 and my overall result will have a pass... Li Ling cursed me to get a 45 which I will get a 49/100 for overall result.. Li Ling horrible right?? haha...

Guess what is the result? I was SUPER HAPPY with the result... :) 67/100... Although it is just a B3, but I am very satisfied with the result already.. :>

Last paper of the day is Chinese..Same mood in getting the paper..not expecting how gd the result will be... and I scored 69/100...irritating man!! 1 mark to an A.. haiz...and these are the papers that I got... I am left with Art and Home Econ still have not get the result yet...

After school there was NPCC training...Before NPCC training, I played Netball with Val, Michelle, Sandra, Marianne and Shawn... None of us was in mood to play...We only played for awhile and sit down and chat... haha.. but the chat was interesting anyway... haha...

As for the NPCC training, it was a super boring training... none of us was in mood to train especially me.. Sorry...and it was raining.. end up all the sec 2 were having recreation training(RT) with the sec 1 till 5pm... RT was so boring that I wish I went bowling with Marianne and the rest... Worse still I even hurt my left ankle when having RT... good thing it was not serious... if not I think I have to rest for another month..haiz..

As for today, I slept till 12+ then wake up.. cos I am seriously not in mood to do anything... I am still in the sad mood.. How I wish "someone" can come and brighten up my day...

Yesterday quite a number of my friends saw my new skin and rating 10, average 7.5... I was so happy.. First time do the skin got such good result... weehee.. :):)

Last night, made all the necessary adjustment to my blog to make it better...I do all the way till about 1.30am... At the same also doing the IPW report... Got so sian with the report... I was so irritated cos serious I have no idea what on earth how to come out with the report...Grrr...but anyway come out with the report liao..=)

I planned to sleep at 1.30am but someone called... since not tired so chat with the person lo... haha... chat all the way till around 4.30am like that...(haven break record yet...haha..my record was chat till 5am..haha).. At 4.30am, if I still dun sleep I shall can't go out with Li LIng de so went to sleep and woke up at 10am... I was damn sleepy man... and to my surprise the person who chat with mi woke up at 8am!! MY GOD!!! This person is so damn pro man!!

Just now in ther afternoon, went shopping with Li Ling... We went to Bugis... I went there to look for clothes but they are seriously to expensive... There is a long pants that I liked alot but the price gave mi a shock!! $50!!!! MY GOD!! 1 pants $50!! Out of all the places I walked I liked none of the clothes so end up bought nothing... haha and went home...

Now need to go and rest liao...tmr got NPCC training..(haiz..haha) all the best to everyone how is taking their results tmr... :)

Today is kind of like the start of the holiday...

Early morning, wake up at 7am and went jogging at 8.15am... I jogged for abt 40 min and walk for about 20 min... I seriously need to exercise alot more... haiz...

When came back from jogging, actually wanted to do the IPW report...but very tireed so do a blog skin...this new skin...is what I have done... I spent hours doing!! I started around 10am today.. until just now about 3.50pm then finish... This is my very own skin... =)..i know it is not up to perfect yet..but I am trying my best...Hope you guys like it...

Exams have come to an end...=) Now waiting for the result...but I am kind of like don't feel like taking the result..cos I know that I did badly for all papers..haiz..

I was like after the chinese paper...I don't feel like continuing the exam...The Maths papers was so horrible done...haiz.. Today, I seriously in the mood of anyhow do can liao...So Science paper was horribly done too... As for the Art...still ok..mange to paint finish wat I 1 2 paint in time.. :)

Just now, after exam, went to play badminton for half hour...But this half hour was very tiring...after about 1 month din exercise... I have some movement restriction...haiz... Must go exercise more liao...haha

The Feeling Is So Good

Within 2 days, half the exams is done.. =) Finished 4 papers already, left with another 4 to go...

Today, there is the Lit and H.Econ paper... In the morning before I taking the Lit paper I was so nervous that I can hardly concentrate on the flag rising...haha.. After the paper, the feeling is so great.. It is as great as getting all the subjects A in O'level... cos I don't need to take Lit again liao.. wooohooo....

I know it is abit exaggerating..but that's how I feel... I really hated to study Lit... Cos passing Lit to me is practically asking me to go crazy..haha..that's y i hate to study things that will make me go crazy when want to pass them...

Shall stop here...I gotta go and rest liao...Yesterday study the Lit until very tire liao...Everyone continue to work hard...Jia You...

EOY

Today is the first day of EOY...

Starting off the exam, today papers were Eng and Geog...all I can say is DIE... :<...haiz...

All the best to everyone who are having exams...Jia You...

I know I should not be blogging now... I should be either be sleeping or studying but there are too many things that made me can't sleep or concentrate on studying...

There are too many things that are happen that made me can't concentrate... I seriously don't feel like studying for exams... but yet I NEED to...haiz... what on earth am I doing?? Am I going to fail my EOY and go to NA stream? If I don't want then I got to concentrate on my studies, yet I am not doing so... Can someone please wake me up?

I seriously don't know what to do now to make myself focus on the revision...haiz...

First Time

This is the first time I 1 day wrote the second entry... Just now after I wrote my entry...I went to my friendster and received a message that asked me to visit this website www.i-believe-you.com

I spent about 3 hours reading almost the whole story...It ended at chapter 17 and if want to read the whole story gotta buy the book.. It is a very nice story..

After reading, it give me a urge to say out what I wanted to say but I still do not have the courage to do so..haiz..

*Shall I said it out or shall I just let go? I really don't know*

Many people asked...

Many people asked why am I so happy this week... I told them I have learn to let go... but I really don't know whether I really learned to let go already... I keep telling myself that I must let go... I MUST...but when I let go I will take back automatically... Why is it so hard to let go?? How long can I let go? I really don't know... who can help me? Why am I so confuse?? If I can't let go, I really can't concentrate well on my studies.. HOW?? can someone tell me the solution??

Worse still, on the first day of the exam...Eng Paper 1...I tried very hard to concentrate but the topic that they gave made me can't concentrate.. : What are the qualities that you would look for in your future life partner?...

Sometimes I just wonder...I should have listen to Li Ling and Christine, right...? Lead a simple life in HGSS and just concentrate on studies... This seemed so easy to them but yet so hard to me... Ever since school reopen in Sept...my mind seriously can't concentrate well... I practically can't concentrate in everything I do... I am going to go crazy sooner or later...All "thanks" (a 2 meanings word) to someone... Am I being selfish that's why I can't let go and concentrate on the things I want?? Or is it that I think too much?? or what? can anyone tell me?

I know that I can't carry on like this... I will fail my EOY if I continue to be like this.. but I really don't know how to concentrate... Someone please help me!!!